Thursday, June 19, 2008

Have you forgotten the touch between us?



[Vittorio]
Tutte le cose che non sai io te le insegnerò
Le stelle che tu conterai te le regalerò
Saprò inventare favole che ti racconterò
Così che I sogni volino più a nord

[Nicole]
So many things I've never known I will learn from you
I'll find reason in your words that are tried and true

[Vittorio]
E proverò a sorprenderti con un sorriso in più
Così che possa perderti anche tu

[Vittorio & Nicole]
You are my miracle
You are pure and soft just like the air I breathe
You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart
There's a secret that you hold, that you hold
Deep within that so discretely hides your soul

[Nicole]
The strength I simply never found, I will find with you
What I believe our future holds, I will see it through

[Vittorio]
Con te vivrò ogni attimo che mi regalerai
Come se fosse l'ultimo per noi

[Vittorio & Nicole]
You are my miracle
Acqua chiara e fresca che fa vivere
You, heart of my heart
There's a secret that you hold, that you hold
And it's hidden so discretely

[Vittorio]
Vertigy my guide
To love that lasts forever

[Vittorio & Nicole]
You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart
There's a secret that you hold, that you hold
Deep within that so discretely

Will you share with me your secret?
Ever More
____________________________________________________________________________________________________

Finally, after such long time, i gotta get closest to u. No one wouldn't know how i feel, i miss u so much, so darn much! Its been such a long time since few months back and i finally gotta get closest to u for once. My heartaches really much, very very much when i saw u lying on the bed like that. Tears tearsing non-stop watching u in suffocation. Hold ur hand tightly, hugging u with tears while pampering u on ur face, it was my greatest time of all this few months time! *tears* nevertheless, i helped to clean ur body and limbs, watching u tearsing without a word, it really hurts myself too. All i did was holding ur hand tightly, sitting by ur side, keeping u company through the night till morning. All i knew was that i misses u so much till i could tears non-stop while hugging u through the night before the sunrises. It still proves that i still love u very much....but, have u really forgotten the touch between us? I'm only having worries and stress over so much....and it seems nothing that i can do. I'm so lost! Is it really that u've forgotten of the touch between the both of us, including the night i was there for u??? :'(

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -118-

Friday, June 13, 2008

What am I? Who am I? Where am I?



Who am i? Where am i standing? What am i? I'm so lost, it's so hurting in my heart as if being stabbed into the heart! Its been for weeks, i've not been sleeping well, not having sufficient rest, and been tearsing missing someone badly...can't do anything at all, it's so suffocating. I've been waiting, waiting for "someone" to accept me back as who i am used to, but things got worsten for no reason. I dont know what can i do. Its so pain in the heart, i love "someone" so much but "someone" is scare to get back coz afraid to be hurt again. I never mean it, u knew me best, u knew i'd always never meant to do this, why arent u forgiven to me as i've been doing so much to get us back? :'( i felt so suffocated without u! I miss u everyday and night, where ever i am, u're still in my mind! I'm only getting weaker day by day due to the insufficient rest, sick for many times and recovered then sick back. I didnt care too, but still waiting, while writing my feelings on the blog. Somehow, i can only tell, no matter how did u responded to me towards whatever i've been doing, i'm still so much in love with u. Maybe EVERYONE can call me a stupid freak, MAYBE u'll also think that i'm another stupid freak, or whomever it is said that to me, i reckon, in the end, only myself who will know whether isit worth or stupid or not. Afterall, so much of things happened, or whatever which we'd been thru (though not much, but its sufficient for me to love so much), and whatever commitment we made together, thats why i'm truely loving u with my heart till the vain.

Love you and love me - Love you and love me

Sick...sick....sick....prolly not only others would said that, but u may thought so too, but if i dont love u truely, i wont be doing this right up till today, being called a stupidity waiting for someone for nothing. Everyone said so, but i'd never gave up before, but as much as know how u feel right up till today even we'd never meet or contacted for sometime, i know u still love me. Maybe i'm wrong, tell me if i am....but whatever we did and been thru together, no matter how much time we'd been separated, i'll still love u very very very much...and i'll prove u, that i truely love u very much too...only u will know coz u know me best, if only u'd forgotten about me..

Always bear in mind, no matter what happened to u in the end, u're still who u're to me and the one i love is u and the inner u, not what u looked like or what others said...bEE always loves u!~

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -112-

I'll never break your heart . . .



Ill Never Break Your Heart - Backstreet Boys



[Spoken:]
Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me

[Chorus:]
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
[2x]

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid)
To let your feelings show (feelings show)
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because)
I deserve a try (try) honey
Just once (once)
Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked)
You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge)
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

[Chorus (2x)]

[Bridge:]
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)

[Chorus (3x)]


p/s: I'm sorry baby, i'm really sorry....I love u and I really love u honestly...I promise, I'll never break your heart anymore...

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -112-

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

存爱



p/s: "How much i love u, cant be measured, but how much i really love u, is how much i've tried to get us back my love.."

Cun Ai (Love Exist) - Aska Yang



爱情是一本存摺 零存快乐
每天查询有多少的余额
你设下难猜密码 把自己所锁着
既然给你的 我就不会舍不得

我没有藉口 去预知你的自由
你没有理由 为了偿还爱的承诺 放弃你的天空

爱你 很多很多
只想存给你快乐 却提领更多寂寞
存爱 存在记忆中
回忆它让我富有 思念确让我贫穷

还有多少青春 可以挥霍 对爱的执着
就让泪水静静慢慢流 在 蓦然回首



I remember this is another version of "Chu Shou Tai Zhong", the meaning is direct saying that "Love Exist" which means "Cun Ai". The inner depth of this song means alot to me, and also the one i loved most too! U were the one who introduced me to this song! It means really much to not only myself but the both of us. I love u, and i miss u so much too! I do not know what can i do to get us back together, but i can only be continuously being in my own world, in my blog, writing and dedicating my feelings by words.... "Our love" really existed as it isn't as what u've always never been believing in! I love u truely with all my open heart and never had let u go before, as thou u requested before.....afterall, i'm sorry, but i love u too much deeply baby... i know i may be no one to anyone and everyone could feel "disgusted" with my words here, but afterall, this is how much i love u and no one will ever understand why isit so too except urself...



There was a day, i went to the cuppacakes, and ordered some cuppacakes, saw this box of cuppacakes, i remembered i've bought this for u when i found out about cuppacakes during one of our monthly celebration. Anyhow, i didnt get to buy this that time, but i'm dedicating this for u! There's a card on this box of cuppacakes theme is "I love you" by me, showing that i bought the cuppacakes that time is what i really wanna cheer u up and also meant that i love u as in this box of cuppacakes!

Chu shou tai zhong - Christopher Lay



p/s: "I jz somehow needed ur T.L.C back baby..."








With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -109-

Sunday, June 08, 2008

洋葱

洋葱yang cong - yang chong wei

Sober...sober...depress...depress....super depress! Eyes swollen, pretended as if i was drunk thats why my eyes are red and swollen in front of my parents, in fact it was tears that makes my eyes swollen! I'm missing something, really something that is very precious to me but....its really missing! I'm really lost! I really do love u lots! I'm sorry...really! I've a dedication for u, hoped u listen to the song...that's what i wanna tell u! :'(

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -107-

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

the "TUESDAY".



º° - Various Artists

I remember we'd a very beautiful and enjoying tuesday before. Full with love and tender on that day, we planned to have dinner together then go for ice-cream at Swensen, EARTHQUAKE! Yeah its 50% every tuesday!~ so we decided to go for a sweet-tuesday ice-cream. Having the favourite together on such a meaningful day with your love ones, thats whats most beautiful and delicious. It's another tuesday today, i dont know what u've been doing, what had happened on u too lately, but all i know, tuesday is the EARTHQUAKE day. I didnt make it to any of the Swensen outlet for ice-cream, but i'm happy to watch Baskin Robin & Haagen Daaz. I just want to have my tuesday Earthquake with the one i only love back.... It was raining terribly since evening, i was stucked in Midvalley, cant go out for Swensen, i thought having it myself....alone thou, but didnt make it too in the end. Passing another lonely tuesday night, it's really driving me crazy missing "u". I do not know what to do, but only knowing that i'm stressed with many things lately. Insomnia....insomnia....insomnia....is back haunting me over and over again!~

"星", this song, it reminds me so much of u, nevertheless, i dont know what went wrong out of a sudden. But u should know the truth beneath that i'm still right here waiting for u, we may be friends right now, but u know i'm still so much in love with u and wants to love u back only. If only this blog is still in existing and it happen that u read this one day, this is what 'http://alby27.blogspot.com @ All About Me, Myself & I....' is all about u... It doesnt matter for me to wait, as long as when the day comes, and u've understand my sincerity and fidelity towards u, i promised, 'the past' will never gonna happen again anymore...

If my love for u is fake, if my sincerity is fake, if my fidelity is ever fake to u and what if only whatever is written in this blog are fake also, u can let everything go with peace and forget about the bastard, named Alby who owns the blog and hate him forever...but when the day comes that u ever trust what i've expressed and waited for, once for all for the last time, let me love u till the world ends...i will not hurt or disappoint u anymore, i'll never hurt u anymore and i'll never let others harm u too...this is my love for u!!

p/s: 'Always been missing, and loving u...'

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -102-

Monday, June 02, 2008

100th Day @ Nostalgic



When u say u dont love me, i'd always believe that it's not true coz i know u love me more than anything else. Its the 100th day, everyone may have thought i've gone to somewhere, missing or perhaps extinct. I really wanted to, but i couldn't, coz i know u're still the one and only that i love most, the one and only that i want to be with and the one and only that i need baby. No matter what it's i'll still love u as much as it is. I admitted it's all my fault to have disappointed u and break ur heart, i dont mean it, and never mean to by purpose before. Afterall i'm not only seeking for forgiveness but also allowing me to love u back as before. I'm also an ordinary person, as ordinary as u use to think still! What i want is u, but nothing. U may be fear of getting hurt again, but what i've been expressing and waited for u all this while, i promised that i'll never gonna repeat the same old mistakes anymore. As time passes by, hour by hour, day by day, weeks by weeks, it has now reached to the 100th day and i'm still the Alby who loves u as much as how i used to, maybe u dont but...ya, i cant really tell anymore but only misses u very very much!!~



p/s: "I do not wanna lose someone who means everything to me, and if u were doubting who i meant, yes, that person is definitely going to be u, it isn't a lie but a promise. It's all true..."

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -100-