Monday, February 28, 2011

Loneliness.



Afterall all these years, I thought I could actually live happily alone without thinking so much but...the fact, although it wasn't all about the past, heading towards my future, there're loads of other things which I need to think of such as my career, my life...and no matter what it is, relationship still came back to haunt me. I'm living all by myself in the overseas now, all I could do is to express it all by words here. I'm lonely, I'm unhappy, I'm stressed up, I'm pressured. I hope I could share this with someone but...I guess in the end, I still need to go through this all by myself again. I don't know what can I do to make myself happier then....I really have no idea. I'm lost! I'm confuse yet there's nobody could help me in this case. I hoped "someone" could be there for me, or neither be there for me, but at least to listen to me. What I could so, I've done. And there's no respond at all as well, not even a single message at all.. :'( there's something for you here...I wanted to dedicate this to you, and I hoped someday, somehow, you could realized the existing of this post in this blog is dedicated for someone who's special to me.....

Goodnight..

-aLbY-

p/s: "I really do miss you loads.."




Wednesday, February 23, 2011

This is ART . . .

Guessed some of you have heard of this and this is really a funny one. You'll eventually laugh throughout the whole song as you won't be able to understand a word... Here you go!



-aLbY-




Endless Song . . .

It's been awhile since I last watched the movie called "The Myth" with a very loving song called "Endless Song". I found an edition with the Korean guy and the China artist, Han Hong. Hoped this help in updating my blog as well as to express some of my emotions for now...



-aLbY-




Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Insomnia again..

It's been awhile since i really last blog about myself. Just got back to Shanghai after staying in my homr country, Malaysia over 3weeks! I really miss Malaysia a lot! My family, friends, life there as well as the places I often hangout. Had an enjoying CNY back in my home country and glad I've met many of my friends and buddies. Also talked about many stuffs especially their current life and affairs. I'm really impresse and jealous. It's been awhile since I talked about all these. Lately I'm getting back to an insomnia life. I couldn't really sleep well and early. Been thinking of a lot of things! Sigh..I'm growing older as they passes. I don't wanna passed out due to these but i couldn't resist myself from thinking, thinking and thinking! Work in Shanghai is fine butni don't think this is what I want and where I really want to head to. I felt like going back to Malaysia to do what I'm interested and what I need to do. Sigh...who can i share this with? From now I've approximately 6months more down the road to perform in this company and industry. I don't wanna waste anymore time and money as I guess I've given my family a lot of trouble and waste of money travelling on and forth for me. I wanna be a useful person instead someone who's still spending my parent's money! And yea...I don't wanna think of a lot of things but I couldn't resist not to...Sigh! What shall I do? What can I do? :(

-aLbY-




Friday, February 18, 2011

Slip Away . . . .





Everytime I look into the mirror of my mind
I barely recognise the man I see
I feel the tide is turning and I’m stranded out at sea
I thought I could survive but reality has got a better part of me
If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I’d see what true love could be
And I won’t let tomorrow
I won’t let tomorrow slip away

If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I’d see what true love could be
And I won’t let tomorrow
I won’t let tomorrow slip away

-[aLbY]-