All About Me, Myself & I . . . .

Rollin' In The Deep FEVER . . . .

2011-07-30T19:11:00.001+08:00

Loving this song so much! Been listening to it every moment!

-[aLbY]-

只是太愛你 / Love You Too Much

2011-07-01T05:08:00.001+08:00

This is a very nice song yet meaningful. Nothing much but browsed through this through my Facebook and happened to heard this song. Therefore, I shared it along on my Facebook as well as here in my blog. Enjoy!

-[aLbY]-

Tired and sick of . . .

2011-06-29T04:41:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile and the feeling comes back but things don't seems to be the way it is and as smooth as it is. I'm tired of it, and I guessed I did confessed enough but there's no feedbacks than listening to "enjoy" myself with others. I'm getting sick of it as this isn't what I'm looking for though. I shall keep myself away from people who would harm or hurt me and my feelings...physically and also mentally! GROW UP ALBY!

I've to be determine while the "grow up" process goes on! YOU CAN DO IT!

-[aLbY]-

E x p r e s s i o n . . .

2011-06-25T03:55:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I "missed" someone in a way. I don't know if this works, if this will goes on smoothly, if this "will happen" or not,...but yea, I'm missing you. Love the song lyrics and the song so much!

-[aLbY]-

Starting Over Again . . .

2011-06-20T04:32:00.002+08:00

It's really been awhile since I blog things seriously than writing all about what's happening in my surroundings. I guess today, I'm a grown up kid, things changed rapidly anywhere, any time. I shall be coping up with the changes everyday, every second. I'm turning 24 in a month or more time, I'm graduated for a year and more, I've started working, locally as well as in the overseas. Right now, I'm back home again, and got a new job. I've gotta start getting things very seriously, in every aspects. Myself, career, family, friends, relationships and everything. Thanks for the concern to those who are concern about me in every aspects. I appreciated every single moments with everyone of you. I will be a better person, better than yesterday, for tomorrow. I will work hard for a better living, without depending on my parents at all. I will definitely do well for the job I'm going to do and be a better person in the near future too. I'm finally understanding, "work hard for a better tomorrow" means. In everything I do, I'll do my best out of it for the success and results later. I hoped everything will goes fine and smooth. I need supports from my family, friends and a loved ones to achieve my goals..

Next, one of the reason I started writing/updating the blog is that lately, I met an old friend of mine. We talked and talked and talked, and I didn't realized there were actually so many people who had read my blog before. I'm amazed and impressed. Most importantly, even the content of the blog is known as memories too. By then, I started updating my blog again and making it becoming alive again. Thank you so much, you motivated me back in writing in my blog again. Seriously, I thought I'd lost this "besties" (the blog) for sometime, but after the chat with the old friend, he reminded me that no matter what happens, this blog is always my best friend to express my feelings for a better tomorrow. I remembered I started writing blog 8years ago, and I'm still updating it over the years although there were less updates in the previous years but I'll try to keep the blog alive back again. I don't mind if there're no frequent visitors, or any visitors as long as I'm "back-to-you" will do. Thank you so much..

Guess that's all for the meantime, I shall hit the sack now. Goodnight all..

-[aLbY]-

14th June, 2011.

2011-06-17T02:34:00.005+08:00

I'm back all. I guess I've really left out a lot in blogging lately but everything is almost posted on Facebook these days. Anyway, coming back to it, 14th June, 2011 is the day where my sister had finally given birth to baby Ashlyn! I'm an official uncle today onwards. I'm glad and I'm so happy looking at the new born baby! Welcome to Earth baby Ashlyn!

Well, apart from that yea, something extra-ordinary finally being done. My mom asked me out for lunch on the same day Ashlyn was delivered. After that, she brought me to the tattoo shop and said she wanted to make a tattoo, but I gotta go for it first! Haha, that's really cool! She was shaking her body saying that "My grand daughter has a hot granny!" LoL...that was funny! I actually wanted to have tattoo years ago but never dare to do it as I wasn't sure enough if I wanted it or not and what design to tattoo as well. Finally, I make up my mind and did it on my arm! It's an arm band tattoo! Check this out!

Before:-

After:-

And yea, I was glad I made it and no regrets at all! Anyway, I'll always remember this tattoo when I made it cause it's on the actual day, Ashlyn was given birth!

Some other updates, I'm finally back to Malaysia from Shanghai, for 6months, and for 7weeks I was back here. Many things have changed, even myself I guess. But anyhow, there're good and bad of course. :) Next, I've been searching for jobs all this while, attended more than 10interviews? OMG, that's crazy isn't it? Ended up, NONE came back to me AT ALL BUT finally, the last company came back to me and said "I AM HIRED!" Hoho...I'm so happy! I was worrying all this while although the interview was taken place in less than a week but yea, July is coming soon, so I can't hesitate to get a job ASAP as I'm officially bankrupt already. I'm hired right now, hopefully things will be better from now onwards...

There's more to share, but...I guess it isn't the right time to update any one of you all at the moment.. :) thanks to those whose still keeping track of my blog, if you happened to came across and read the blog, do drop me a message at the Chatterbox or probably the Commentbox will do.. ;)

Cheers!

-[aLbY]-

I really can't take this . . . .

2011-03-28T15:59:00.002+08:00

All I can do is to laugh NON-STOP...... HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

-aLbY-

Captain America - First Avenger; COMING SOON!

2011-03-28T13:51:00.002+08:00

I wanna watch this, it's coming out on the July 22, 2011!!!

-aLbY-

.疑心病.

2011-03-17T17:07:00.002+08:00

Found out this song is pretty good! Enjoy the song! He's real good...

-aLbY-

.有人陪.

2011-03-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

It reminds me a lot of things when I heard this song. The flashback or the past kept running in my vision but that didn't affect anything in fact I've been telling myself not to repeat what happened in the past to be brought forward to a better future. Indeed this song has a great meaningful lyrics which sung all I wanted to express...to someone special to me, although we never kept talking/contacting anymore, but I hoped...you'll be happy and I wanna say I miss you..

-aLbY-

On the Floor...

2011-03-10T13:50:00.004+08:00

Also don't forget the latest POP song by J-Lo featuring my favorite, Pitbull, On the Floor! I've listened to this song playing in Shanghai clubs, SUPER COOL!!!~ Enjoy!

-aLbY-

MASERATI by The Sea Charity Party

2011-03-10T12:37:00.004+08:00

Yo party people! Check this out! Malaysia's Coolest Party in 2011, MASERATI by The Sea Charity Party! Organized by MASERATI, sponsored DJ by Zouk Club Malaysia. Details as below:-

Theme: MASERATI by The Sea Charity Party
Venue: The Swimming Club, Penang
Date : 19th March 2011, Saturday
Time: 6pm onwards, show starts at 7.30pm till LATE

Check this out at Facebook and search for Full Moon Malaysia Page for more details.

Enjoy your coolest party in 2011 party people!

-aLbY-

重來

2011-03-04T12:45:00.002+08:00

My all time favorite artist, Huang Xiao Hu, has just launched another new masterpiece, Chong Lai. Beautiful song... Enjoy the song my readers

你是否爱过　
ni shi fou ai guo
你爱他多过他爱你的人　
ni ai ta duo guo ta ai ni de ren
你还记得吗
ni hai ji de ma
你是否爱过　
ni shi fou ai guo
他有种真命天子般的人　
ta you zhong zhen ming tian zi ban de ren
你还记得吗
ni hai ji de ma

相爱以后终于分手　
xiang ai yi hou zhong yu fen shou
分手以后又想重来
fen shou yi hou you xiang chong lai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
诚实的去对待
cheng shi de qu dui dai
彼此都没疑猜　
bi ci dou mei yi cai
就没有理由分开
jiu mei you li you fen kai
如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
回忆当作尘埃
hui yi dang zuo chen ai
心不曾被伤害　
xin bu ceng bei shang hai
就能无瑕疵地爱
jiu neng wu xia ci di ai
但是重来　
dan shi chong lai
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
que bu neng bao zheng ai de cheng gong huo shi bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai

你是否爱过　
ni shi fou ai guo
让你日夜忘不了的人　
rang ni ri ye wang bu le de ren
你还记得吗
ni hai ji de ma
我们曾爱过　
wo men ceng ai guo
不同种类不同面孔的人　
bu tong zhong lei bu tong mian kong de ren
你记得哪个他
ni ji de na ge ta

相爱以后终于分手　
xiang ai yi hou zhong yu fen shou
分手以后又想重来
fen shou yi hou you xiang chong lai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
诚实的去对待
cheng shi de qu dui dai
彼此都没疑猜　
bi ci dou mei yi cai
就没有理由分开
jiu mei you li you fen kai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
回忆当作尘埃
hui yi dang zuo chen ai
心不曾被伤害　
xin bu ceng bei shang hai
就能无瑕疵地爱
jiu neng wu xia ci di ai
但是重来　
dan shi chong lai
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
que bu neng bao zheng ai de cheng gong huo shi bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
诚实的去对待
cheng shi de qu dui dai
彼此都没疑猜　
bi ci dou mei yi cai
就没有理由分开
jiu mei you li you fen kai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
回忆当作尘埃
hui yi dang zuo chen ai
心不曾被伤害　
xin bu ceng bei shang hai
就能无瑕疵地爱
jiu neng wu xia ci de ai

但是重来　
dan shi chong lai
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
que bu neng bao zheng ai de cheng gong huo shi bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai

-aLbY-

Loneliness.

2011-02-28T05:01:00.002+08:00

Afterall all these years, I thought I could actually live happily alone without thinking so much but...the fact, although it wasn't all about the past, heading towards my future, there're loads of other things which I need to think of such as my career, my life...and no matter what it is, relationship still came back to haunt me. I'm living all by myself in the overseas now, all I could do is to express it all by words here. I'm lonely, I'm unhappy, I'm stressed up, I'm pressured. I hope I could share this with someone but...I guess in the end, I still need to go through this all by myself again. I don't know what can I do to make myself happier then....I really have no idea. I'm lost! I'm confuse yet there's nobody could help me in this case. I hoped "someone" could be there for me, or neither be there for me, but at least to listen to me. What I could so, I've done. And there's no respond at all as well, not even a single message at all.. :'( there's something for you here...I wanted to dedicate this to you, and I hoped someday, somehow, you could realized the existing of this post in this blog is dedicated for someone who's special to me.....

Goodnight..

-aLbY-

p/s: "I really do miss you loads.."

This is ART . . .

2011-02-23T16:12:00.001+08:00

Guessed some of you have heard of this and this is really a funny one. You'll eventually laugh throughout the whole song as you won't be able to understand a word... Here you go!

－aLbY-

Endless Song . . .

2011-02-23T16:03:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since I last watched the movie called "The Myth" with a very loving song called "Endless Song". I found an edition with the Korean guy and the China artist, Han Hong. Hoped this help in updating my blog as well as to express some of my emotions for now...

-aLbY-

Insomnia again..

2011-02-22T03:39:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile since i really last blog about myself. Just got back to Shanghai after staying in my homr country, Malaysia over 3weeks! I really miss Malaysia a lot! My family, friends, life there as well as the places I often hangout. Had an enjoying CNY back in my home country and glad I've met many of my friends and buddies. Also talked about many stuffs especially their current life and affairs. I'm really impresse and jealous. It's been awhile since I talked about all these. Lately I'm getting back to an insomnia life. I couldn't really sleep well and early. Been thinking of a lot of things! Sigh..I'm growing older as they passes. I don't wanna passed out due to these but i couldn't resist myself from thinking, thinking and thinking! Work in Shanghai is fine butni don't think this is what I want and where I really want to head to. I felt like going back to Malaysia to do what I'm interested and what I need to do. Sigh...who can i share this with? From now I've approximately 6months more down the road to perform in this company and industry. I don't wanna waste anymore time and money as I guess I've given my family a lot of trouble and waste of money travelling on and forth for me. I wanna be a useful person instead someone who's still spending my parent's money! And yea...I don't wanna think of a lot of things but I couldn't resist not to...Sigh! What shall I do? What can I do? :(

-aLbY-

Slip Away . . . .

2011-02-18T06:01:00.004+08:00

Everytime I look into the mirror of my mind
I barely recognise the man I see
I feel the tide is turning and I’m stranded out at sea
I thought I could survive but reality has got a better part of me
If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I’d see what true love could be
And I won’t let tomorrow
I won’t let tomorrow slip away

If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I’d see what true love could be
And I won’t let tomorrow
I won’t let tomorrow slip away

-[aLbY]-

Welcome 2011 . . .

2011-01-10T10:42:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile since I last updated my blog, I know it's a little too long but yea, I don't have the effort to do so. Anyway let's just summarize what happened in the last few months for 2010 then to 2011! I was in Taipei, Taiwan in Dec2010 for my aunt's wedding dinner. It's a fun trip and wow....I LOVE TAIPEI/TAIWAN! My shopping world there! Was there for about 9+1days! Throughout the 9days, I've been shopping non-stop, spend spend spend....the money happily! Hahaha...never had that FUN feeling for long thou but sadly I didn't get my shirts as it's winter now, so I didnt get any of the shirts than winter wears, jackets, shoes....hmmm...I'm gonna go back there for shopping for sure! Anyway, was there and after a month and a half, I finally get to meet my family! I miss them so much! Even before leaving Taiwan, the feeling was alike before I left home to the airport in KL. Anyhow, I've grown up, I could take that already! Hahaha...what's the best part? I bumped onto Karen & Steph!!! I was so happy that there was one night while I was bringing my mom for a walk, and while we were walking back home from the back street, someone YELD ALBY THUM! OMG...I was shocked why there's human being calling my name by "ALBY THUM!" cause only people I'm close with would call me that and HEY IT'S KAREN!!! Then we hangout from that day till the day I left! So happy... :D

Alright, here's the climax, left Taipei back to Shanghai, the moment we arrived to Shanghai airport, KK, Marcus and Sharon passed the immigression, then my turn, GOD DAMN IT! I was blocked and they don't allow me to enter Shanghai due to my visa entry is only for ONE ENTRY! OMG, immediately they brought me to the quarantine room. Thank God nothing happened, I wasn't panic, anyway, so many people came into the quarantine room while I'm only sitting down waiting for the next step. KK then helped me to settle the airfare back to Taipei due to the last flight of the day is 20minutes away from the time I arrived! Quickly I was escort by a group of people leading me to the plane! At that point of time, I did felt a little like celebrity, securities escort me all the way from the check-in counter to the plane and I was using the EXPRESS LANE to enter the plane first than queing up! Then I stayed another night in Taipei with my sister and bro-in-law, then went back to Malaysia to apply for a multiple visa. Fine I went back to Malaysia for a couple of days to settle the visa stuff. Meanwhile on the day I arrived to KL, I quickly contacted my brother, he and the group were planning to go Genting, yeah, I rushed all my way for dinner and after sending my sister and bro-in-law back home, I rush all my way to surprise them! Hahaha..indeed ALL OF THEM WERE SURPRISED of my presence back to KL! Lolz...pretty fun though cause my brother was with them, and WHY THE HELL IS ALBY'S CAR HERE?! LoLz...they were mostly shocked and stoned! Hahahaha that's fun...been hanging out with the group throughout the whole trip back to KL till the day I leave. Thanks to Yaw who's willing to send me off to KLIA as the flight delayed till 4am from 1.40am!

Christmas in Shanghai, BORED! Not much celebration even the clubs are not happening! In fact, NYE here is MARVELLOUS!!! Super love the ambient and the countdown! Damn happening!!! My best NYE celebration ever.. LoLz...

-[aLbY]-

I support Wei Wei!

2010-11-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

I support Wei Wei!

www.smashpop.net

Goodbye Malaysia and everyone . . .

2010-11-14T00:41:00.003+08:00

Goodbye Malaysia! I've finally left Malaysia! It was a pretty hard decision to make to leave this meaningful land to somewhere I don't know and know nobody at all. Anyway, it was really hard for me to leave my family and come over to Shanghai, China to work. Mom has been sobbing since weeks back ever since she knew I was leaving the country, everyday I tried not to stay at home or confront her too much as her eyes are always watery, making me feeling the same too. Thanks mom and dad! Bid my farewell to my fellow good friends@buddies! Thanks for sending me off at the airport, it was really touching especially when I was checking in, I started seeing you guys 1-byb-1 coming to send me off! Also thanks for giving me a "new friend"! I was hugging it to sleep while in the plane! Hahahaha...

Anyway, there's some update here! I arrived to Pudong International Airport, Shanghai, China, at 6.50am! The airport is freaking big! And that isn't as big as the main one at the other side in Shanghai! WTH!~ Anyway, it's really a good experience though! I've gotta speak Mandarin and yea, I know it sucks, but I'm learning and I guess I'll be adapting their accent here too? LoLz....hopefully I won't become ORIGINAL TYPICAL CHINA MAN! :P the weather here is cooling, like Genting Highland! But it's cooler every hour! The sun here rise at 5++am, and the sunset is at about 5++pm! You'll start seeing moon appearing at 6pm, clearly with the sky dark! The street is full with cars, human, SHOPPING CENTRES!!! Wooohooo...

Luxury cars, luxury brands, trendy and fancy fashion, loads of shops, WOW....this is really interesting! Amazingly Volkswagen is their official sponsored car brand, all cabs here are by Volkswagen! Audi is pretty common here like Vios/City in Malaysia! Chayanne, Bentley, Porsche, Cheverolet, Lamboghini, Ferrari, is all their secondary car brands here! COOL isn't it? Alright, I guess I'll pen off here first! Will continue updating when I've the time to, between, 1st day arrived, I've already shop shop shop for the coming winter!!! :D yahooo.... *between, don't know why pics can't be uploaded! Will try it another way soon!*

Stay tuned and take care everybody..

-[aLbY]-

Few weeks more to go . . .

2010-10-25T01:08:00.003+08:00

Ah, well, it's been awhile since I last updated the blog. I guess it's dead by now! Just to keep alil updates here. Many things happened within this few months time, seeing things I didn't want to, knowing things I didn't want to etc. Finally it has to come to an end I guess, I've resigned from the current company. I love my job, I love working with the people, I love my colleagues, but too bad with a sucky manager whom always like putting me in dilemma and forcing me to quit the job, you finally did! Nevertheless, it doesn't mean that I've lost! I'm only giving up while leaving shits to you! After all, I've got a better offer!

I'm going to Shanghai, China to work mid of next month onwards.

I know this is happening, this is sudden, but...the offer I've got is within the next few months it's going to be my toughest period in life, my 3months of probation before I get back to celebrate CNY 2011! I'm unprepared, I'm not ready for anything like this yet, I've not even fulfilled my plans before I leave my country... I've been thinking of a lot of things, but what worry me most is my mom as well as my brother. Mom has been depending on me most the time and now I'm leaving to somewhere far, who will be able to keep her company most the time like how I always do? Bro has been very blur and I'm worried of him being bullied as well as cheated. He needs a lot more guidance and help to grow up! Both mom and dad have given me the green light to go ahead, and I've made up my mind to go there.

I miss my family, I miss my friends, I miss Malaysia, I miss the places I always travel, I miss my buddies, I miss my team... I miss everything here in Malaysia.. I've less than 3weeks before I really leave Malaysia. I wished I could have more time before I go.. to settle most things down! Back to those days, I could have more than enough worries of "someone" else, but today, I guess I can really let it go as you're living well with your new other half!

Anyway, I wished I could start all over again there when I reached to Shanghai! No friends, unfamiliar with places, know nothing about it, can't speak fluent Mandarin, new to everything except for my aunt and uncle there who is going to look after me. Don't worry to all my family members, relatives and friends, I'll take good care of myself, I'll not let you all down and come back as a wiser grown up person. I'll be a successful person someday soon since I've got this opportunity to work in the overseas. I'll appreciate all this chances and become a real successful person! But not to forget, take good care of all yourselves well, and I wanna come back seeing everyone in one piece but not pieces everywhere aight!

Though I'm unhappy of something, something which has been bothering me, but unsure what is it, but I know I could learn to overcome this, over and over and over again! Stay strong Alby, there're many people outside there are looking forward for your success and back as a cheerful person, as who I am initially!

Last but not least, I've a good news to announce, I'm becoming uncle real soon! Congrats to my beloved sister and bro-in-law! I wished I could be there when the baby is delivering...but sorry that I might not be around! Take very good care of yourselves and the baby, I'll come back to see my niece/nephew as soon as I'm done with my work! Also do take care of mom and dad as well as bro while I'm not around. Sorry for not taking the charge of the eldest son's job well. But I'll come back to do what I should when I've achieved my success in my career! Love all of you very much...

Till then...I'll update again when I've the time!

Take care..

-[aLbY]-

u.n.h.a.p.p.y

2010-09-27T01:34:00.003+08:00

I'm just unhappy. I can't share the thought to anyone, no one could help me on this but only myself. I knew this is my weakness, being emotional, as a man, being undecided on most the things, especially when I'm facing such a big issue, on deciding something for myself, for my future. There are many things which I couldn't let go in life! I've gotta make this change, in order for me to live better and more successful.. :'( can someone enlighten me, to help me what can I do? The feeling is back to haunt me again..

-[aLbY]-

Tedd 曾國琿 - 愛情荒 (官方)

2010-08-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

My favourite song for this moment...

Updates...Updates...Updates...

2010-08-19T00:52:00.006+08:00

Hey people, it's been awhile since I last updated my blog, sorry as I've been very busy with my work and I barely have the time and effort to blog and keep you guys updated! Anyway, here's some update of what happened since my birthday!

I've had a great mini birthday celebration with some friends at Zouk Cafe together with my bro's birthday!

Then some buds actually organized another belated birthday party at Mist Club! It was a blast as well although I didn't wanna do anything this year, but at least I do have friends who's willing to do something for me, unlike those days.

Attended ASQ 2010 Final (Astro Star Quest 2010) at Putra Stadium, Bukit Jalil with bro, David and Zoe! Got the tickets from colleagues! Thanks to Torrey and Christina (although you guys didn't know I'm thanking you gals here! HAHA)..

Also attended MyFM's 12th Birthday Bash held at Genting! It's been awhile since I last been to Genting that early, seeing so many people walking here and there! Hahaha..anyway tickets are limited, only 2 that I got, so I randomly picked a friend from my list, Wen Siang! :) it was a great and fun show!!! They actually invited artist from Hong Kong, Taiwan and the local artist to perform! Niceee...anyway, I did invited "somebody", although I expected what the reply was, indeed the "somebody" was there too!

Next...a long lost friend of mine, Caryn, sudden mail me on facebook, asked me to join a contest, Metro Man Search 2010! I blindly join the contest and yea...the preliminary was quite challenging and interesting! They skewed down to 15 finalist out of 69 contestants and....I've got into the Top 15!!~ Hooraayy....but in the end, they last minute added 3 more contestants, so it became Top 18! Competitive now...hmm...though the final is going to be even more challenging, but I'm still holding the grudge and confident to do my best for the contest! We'll see after all these years, am I entitled for "the Winner" with the prizes or not this time! :) *fingers-cross* Here's the poster of the event! You may vote for me through facebook! It contributes 20% out of the total! Finals to be held at The Mines on the coming Sunday, 22nd August 2010 from 3pm - 6pm at Level 3 Main Concourse. Come and support me if you're available! Your support is appreciated!!! :)

Happy 23rd Birthday . . . .

2010-07-27T00:45:00.001+08:00

Happy 23rd Birthday Alby...

十分爱 (Remake MV)

2010-07-20T02:51:00.005+08:00

Guys, the remake MV I did for my friend is out! Check it out but first look at the preview of the MV first aight! Here you go...

And this is the FULL REMAKE MV of "十分爱"

Thanks Alston, Ally, Lemon@Linda, Ah Hu and my MV partner, Eve for making this remake MV a success! Thanks for giving me this opportunity to be the main actor in this MV. I love it and I enjoyed a lot doing this for your graduation! :) keep it up and all the best of luck for the future undertaking!

-[aLbY]-

Update . . .

2010-06-30T03:03:00.006+08:00

Some update of the recent me. 14th of June 2010, is the first time ever I worked permanently for a company. It was fun thou, everybody is nice especially my sales manager, not to left out that he's an Indian! :) coincidently I met a new colleague as well, a girl whose quite not bad looking (to me). She's like the youngest (same age as me) and hottest girl in the company that I know! Hahaha, between we managed to get along quite well. Oh yeah, she's a Chindian (mixed of Chinese + Indian = Chindian)! We'd smoking time together, chilling together, break together, sits together, gossip together, breakfast & lunch together, pee & shit together (HAHAHAHAHA) and many more!

On the third day of working, I finally signed the offer letter with all the details stated. Finally I'm working permanently! Few hours after I signed the offer letter, I've received a call from the company I've been applying and waiting for response. They're HIRING me! Offering me my expected pay salary as well as superb benefits. Hmmm...now my wish list is growing (just kidding but who knows as time pass HAHAHA). Well yea, I accepted their offer, and resigned the following day. I was really overly excited over the offer! :) I'm so happy that I finally got what I wanna do! So, I've prepared the resignation letter. The next day, I told my sales manager that I'm leaving, he was fine at the beginning, still trying to convince, but it didn't work as I insisted to leave. In the offer letter stated that during the probation period I would have to have 2weeks notice upon the resignation letter is given. So I took the 2weeks notice, and work for another 2weeks more. Man, I've nothing to do within the period and my sales manager seriously changes the way he used to treat me like before. He became an EVIL!

Wow...guess what? This is the funny part, we haven't really been talking like how we used to, so there was one day I was out for lunch with my colleague, back to office about 1.30pm, she went back to the office first and I went to the toilet for some toilet pleasure before entering the office. GOSH, never expected I took 15mins! Hahahaha...alright here's the joke, as I entered the office, everyone was doing their own work as usual and I walked to my sit, then turned my desktop on. All a sudden, my colleague told me that my sales manager told her something. So I asked her what was it. She said:-

Sales Manager: Where's Alby?
Colleague: Oh, he is in the toilet.
Sales Manager: Oh, ok! You can bring all his stuffs to toilet and asked him to work in the toilet ok.
Colleague: *sweat & stone*

Hahahahha seriously I was laughing out loud when I heard that from my colleague! He really don't seems liking me in the office already huh? Well it's alright, so I entered the office and saw him from far, but I went to my place and sat to continue some work. And yea I've been multi-tasking but not just plain doing one thing at a time. Nah, c'mon, everyone does the same in the office especially SALES person! Oh between my position sounds great, it's called "Account Manager Corporate Sales". WOW....right? :P let's continue the second part of the story. My sales manager left around 3pm for some appointment I guess. So I've been facebook'ing, checking my mails, googl'ing for data to be insert in to the database to make cold calls for appointment the next day. All a sudden my sales manager walked in to the office around 5pm and back to his sit. He called my colleague and asked her to go over. So she was giving me a "he asked me over?" expression. It was funny, I told her to go quickly as I'm interested to know what's with it this time.

After awhile, they're done with the talking and I was pretending as though I was busy doing the office work while peeping on them. As soon as my colleague is done, as she walks over she was smiling at me as though she's laughing out loud soon. I was curious what he asked again, then I asked her what did he said. She told me this:-

Sales Manager: What is Alby doing? He seems busy..
Colleague: Oh he's piling up the data to make cold calls tomorrow for appointment..(act blur)
Sales Manager: Serious? Why is he so hardworking for? Even the CEO left earlier than he does...
Colleague: *stone....and laugh*

HAAHAHAHA...OMG, seriously my sales manager doesn't like me anymore because I've just resigned! LMAO...a little bit more, I went into the office together with my colleague as I picked her up from her place, we were at the office about 9.45am I guess (WOW, we were late for 45mins as we're suppose to enter at 8.30am, also allowed to be at the office latest by 9am), as we walked in, my sales manager is already at the office sitting down doing his work. Until one time approximately 11.40am, I've got a message from one of the director's P.A saying that the HR wants to see me immediately. So I went to HR, as I pushed in the glass door, the HR said:-

HR: Hie Alby!
Me: Hie...
HR: You may leave now..
Me: *stunned and shock* Huh?
HR: Oh I mean that you may leave already as the company is releasing you earlier.
Me: *super happy in the heart* Oh, serious? So, I can leave after work today?
HR: No, you may leave now if you want to or after lunch you needn't come back to the office anymore..
Me: *feeling that the sales manager don't wanna see me anymore that's why he told the HR to inform me that the company release me earlier* Oh ok...
HR: The company will also pay you for tomorrow although you're not coming in ok, no worries ya!
Me: *seriously I was so happy to know that I'm paid even I needn't enter the office anymore for the last day* Oh okok thanks a lot ya!
HR: Bye...and all the best of luck in your future ya!
Me: *feeling proud and even happier* Yea thanks and you too...

LoLz, seriously I was so happy! Finally could leave the company officially! Now I've a day rest, gotta get ready for the next day as I'm starting my work on the 1st of July! :D Hooorayyy.......wish me best of luck aight! I'm gonna perform well in the new company and earn big fat cheque to spend and invest!!! :)

Aight, I guess that's it so far....but oh yea, one more! I've got myself a wishlist GRANTED! Hahahaha I finally bought myself the N900! :) I'm using it right now! So happy that I got one of my wishlist fulfilled! It's all by my own money! Yay...I'm a big boy now!~ Here's some picture of my "dear"..

Between, it doesn't mean that all my wishlist is fulfilled ok, there's still one more! I need a wallet and Gucci is what I want. This is what I want and here's the code as well! Waiting ya....birthday COMING SOON!!!

Gucci Wallet Code: 224123 FU4HR

I NEED A WALLET SO BADLY!!!!!!!!! I WANT THIS!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, that's all for now! Will update you guys soon...

-[aLbY]-

Old & New . . . .

2010-06-30T02:59:00.002+08:00

Many years back I heard this song by a local group, Baby, this song really touches me a lot and has such meaningful content in it. The song name means "love can't be compared"..

And today (few years back I guess), the song has got a new version, which is the opposite meaning of the original version, "love can be compared". It's nice too, with better music video sequence and storyline.

Get real!

2010-06-24T02:32:00.001+08:00

Maybe I shall just get real, and do what I always wants to do! Grow up Alby Thum!

-[aLbY]-

What shall I do?

2010-06-18T03:06:00.002+08:00

Everyone often says "live life to the fullest and be happy". I totally understand what this statement means, but when problem occur in life and it's unsolved, we would never fulfill the above statement. Most of my friends knows that I'm always either unhappy or emotional, I would just have to say, I preferred to keep things back to myself today. I've grown up more than who I am in the previous time, trying to reduce as little problem as possible to others as I know most my friends are concern about me or curious why am I always being like this. I would just have to say, I'd rather keep things to myself, and settle it all by myself only.

Over the years, I was living quite well and healthy. Never knew as I grow up, there'll be more problems appearing and need to be solved in many different ways. Ups and downs are the most fundamental issue in life. Within these few years, I've always been thanking You for giving me things I wanted, but at the same time, why do You always take things You gave from me back? When I don't want it, You gave it to me, when I wanted it so badly, You didn't want to give it to me at all. Recently many things happened, they're also visible for sure, because I know I could handle things all by myself without troubling anybody or need to borrow others' ear or wasting others' time.

Indeed, I'm not really happy with what I am now, some thing has been bothering me, over the months, but nothing that I could do as things don't seems worked smoothly or well. As I said, He always give us things we don't want/don't really want, or not giving things we want. Life is never unfair! Let me clarify the statement, mostly who defended the statement is due to the experience they're encountering whereas those who counter the statement, they'll claim that either "time is the matter", "it isn't the right time", "you've not met the right one" or any other reasonable reason. Well, put Yourselves in the victim's shoe, will You feel the same as I do or as what mostly says? Sometime, some things are beyond our control and some are under controlled. Why can't You just be fair to me? Sigh...

It's really getting my nerves on all the time, I'm really tired physically and mentally already. Why can't You just be fair to me for once and for all? Sigh...

-[aLbY]-

Dilemma...but happy too!

2010-06-17T16:24:00.001+08:00

I've started working for 4days, surprisingly what I've got a call of offer from another company yesterday night. I was hired and offer letter will be done a week after I confirmed. Sadly to say, I've given up the current job, going for a better offer! Sigh...but I'm also glad that the company is going to be a stepping stone for me, and pays me well! Hopefully I'll do well for this and grow from there and then. Wish me luck!

-[aLbY]-

Terlalu Istimewa . . .

2010-06-15T02:28:00.002+08:00

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Vidi Aldiaono sang Cinta Jangan Kau Pergi by Sheila Majid, this is so nice!

Even though actions or words weren't showed or told, it doesn't mean that they don't support, but in the end, they supported indirectly by not saying a word or taking any actions. What a sad music video, Awan Terpilu by Ning Baizura...

-[aLbY]-

Finally!!!!!!

2010-06-14T02:22:00.002+08:00

Ahakz! FYI to friends or family or readers or fans (if there's any), I finally found a job and I'm starting to work in 6hrs 30mins time! Hahahah...I'm so excited and can't wait for it! Finally could start working after searching for jobs for 6-7months since I last graduated from my college university! Wish me luck people! Have a nice day...

-[aLbY]-

My only wish . . .

2010-06-07T06:29:00.002+08:00

I wanted Nokia N900 so badly for my birthday! My one and only birthday wish for now... :(

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Nokia N8...but, this is not even launched, and I bet this would reached RM3k when it's launched!!!~

-[aLbY]-

La Base New Face Model Search - Matériel

2010-06-07T01:20:00.004+08:00

Here we go, was recommended by friends to join the La Base New Face Model Search for the brand, 'Matériel' at Pavilion few weeks back. There goes the process, we went to Pavilion and attended the photoshoot and casting for the contest. So yea, took 10shots, with their attire provided, own jeans and accessories. I brought nothing but just jeans and a my trademark cap! Hmm..yea, the shoot was fine, everything went well! I liked a few of the pictures, but too bad I only had one! So end result they'll select 42 new faces out of an amount of contestants! After a week, I was notified to have chosen in the top 42! Hahaha...yea, here it is! The news is up on MSN Malaysia's Fashion news! Check it out! Click Here
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Here's the picture they choose to be placed on the top 42 photo board! You guys can see this everywhere in Isetan Matériel or Parkson in Pavilion! Check this out..

Also the top 42 photo board!

I'm one of them in the board too! Thanks Justin Tang!

Alright that's all about it for now, will keep the update soon as there's something new coming up too! Stay tuned..

-[aLbY]-

请原谅我

2010-06-01T03:27:00.000+08:00

-[aLbY]-

Cries in a distance . . .

2010-05-31T01:32:00.000+08:00

-[aLbY]-

你為什麼說謊

2010-05-21T04:48:00.000+08:00

-[aLbY]-

Nocturnal Resonance . . .

2010-05-21T04:47:00.000+08:00

I've been bothered for sometime, but there's no one or nothing I could express than writing in the blog, it bothers me a lot, what's "love". I believe the "me" today isn't as before anymore, thou "love" is a need, but there's also many other things to do, or to priority. I used to prioritized "loveship"! But...I can't tell what I wanted anymore, I've been lost, loitering along the journey of life without having an aim in life. Recently, it reminds me a lot of things...incidents...memories...whether it's good or bad, and it hurts me a lot too. No one would I understand how I feel although I was claimed I don't think of how other feels but if I couldn't understand my needs, how am I suppose to care for others as I always do (which maybe they don't know or don't realized). I'm confuse and I don't know where am I really heading to today thou... Anyway, there's nothing much to say, I was grieving only of my sickening life/lifestyle...

The original by Christopher Lay (黎升铭), Chu Shou Tai Zhong (出手太重), one of my favorite track...

Another version of 出手太重, Cun Ai (存爱) by Aska Yang (楊宗緯)..

Enjoy the song especially the meaning of the song, it means a lot...to me!

-[aLbY]-

He is 'effin good!

2010-05-14T01:57:00.000+08:00

Seriously, he's so damn talented! Please watch and like it!!!!~ Thanks...

-[aLbY]-

Always online . . . .

2010-05-12T03:18:00.001+08:00

A very sad commercial, enjoy watching it!

Here's the original song of the advertisement:-

-[aLbY]-

Once upon a time..

2010-05-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

I totally understand the feeling where it couldn't be expressed but there's nothing can be done! Sigh! Its confusing at times but what can we do as a human? There're things we can and there're things we cant, even no matter how hard we tried to obtain or in general the more we wanted the more difficult we'll achieve or to obtain! Life is always complicated and never easy! I've experienced before the feeling, I didnt want it to repeat again! Though i know what's 50/50 going on but in conclusion or as the matter of fact, i wished i could understand or to know the entire story but not assuming the truth beneath. I can just tell, hoped that God could find the right path!

-[aLbY]-

我没有错

2010-05-07T03:04:00.002+08:00

These days I've been playing this song and 沒那麼簡單, non-stop, been thinking a lot, I don't know what to do, I felt like going for a bag pack alone, and to be alone, not to worry of anything or thinking of anything at all. I'm feeling restless, and all I want to do is just being alone for a moment... I don't know what is running in my mind, but this is all I want for now! :'(

-[aLbY]-

Love Song (English version)

2010-05-03T04:00:00.000+08:00

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OMG - Usher ft. Will.i.am

2010-04-29T02:32:00.000+08:00

Nice one! Good lyrics, good rhythm, good music, good song!

-[aLbY]-

Back to myself . . .

2010-04-26T02:09:00.002+08:00

Many things happened these days, haven't really been sleeping well at all! Everyday almost between 5am - 7am! What the hell is wrong? Why am I being so "olden" me? Few years back I was a very stingy person, and after some incident, I've changed my perception and isn't like that anymore, and after something happened, I'm becoming "myself" back, as in being stingy! Sigh, I hated this feeling, I hated this so much! It's been haunting me all day and night long! I wanted to be alone, I wanted to be out of this place and let myself to do something which is not a waste of time! Unlike now, I haven't got a permanent full-time job for the past 5months! It's coming to the month of May, soon to be the 6th month soon, being JOBLESS after graduated! I'm so sick of my life, I knew I've not been doing anything much than loitering, wasting time, travelling here there, spending money and whatever crap I've done! But I seriously hope to get a proper job even though I does some part-time SOMETIMES, but that isn't gonna help me for my living for the future! I need a stable full-time job, I've diverted my field from IT majors in Web Media to Advertising, doing Accounts Servicing! I wanted to do something which has to deal with living objects/human being than dead objects! Sigh...it's so sickening and I'm feeling so dead these days! Didn't get a satisfactory result for my degree, jobless, family issue, everything! Argh...I wants to get out of this place for a moment ALONE seriously! I need to make a trip for myself to keep my mind away from everything and everybody! :(

-[aLbY]-

Suicide . . .

2010-04-24T02:38:00.002+08:00

One of my ex-classmate sent me an article, Click Here. Seriously never expected that the young girl, who's only 21y/o committed suicide because she didn't get a job over the years! 200jobs that she'd been to and failed to get not-even-one! Sigh, pity her! May you rest in peace! Hopefully I don't fall into the FAILURE category like her, ended up committing suicide! Hopefully I could get a job within this 2weeks before May approach! Wish me luck people!

-[aLbY]-

Moody...

2010-04-24T02:35:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I've no idea why am I feeling such moody these days! Seriously, it's like the momentum is missing elsewhere, wanna find somewhere else to keep me breathing properly!~ :( hopefully a better day tomorrow! It's just a short random post, nothing much but at least it relates to my headline, "All about Me, Myself & I...."...

-[aLbY]-

The Next Generation!

2010-04-23T03:13:00.002+08:00

LMAO, seriously take a look at this! The next generation of PITBULL! He's really coming up to be like the next PITBULL! Wow...

Lagy Gaga 2010! HAHAHAHAHAH....c'mon man, seriously, I was told by Sean that this is Wen Siang style! Hahahahha....cool isn't it? :X **sorry for posting this up Siang, I didn't mean to but indeed it's really funny! Hahahaha

LoLz, 2010 new pro cheerleaders! Hahahahah...

Sean said that the Tiger refers to Wen Siang while the Duck refers to me! I was alil "terasa" when I was told that, then not till I watched the whole video.....HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAH I know why! :P

There's nothing much, I only wanted to entertain my visitor/reader since I've been posting unhappy stuff! Enjoy...

-[aLbY]-

FML!

2010-04-16T01:15:00.002+08:00

OMG, though it's been a long time since I last blog but I'm freaking FML now! Just checked my FYP result, seriously there're 3 modules/subject in my FYP, Investigation Intelligence System (1 module/subject), Project (1 module/subject) & Investigation (1 module/subject). I've got 2 results out of 3, 1st one a 'B' and 2nd one an 'F' (FUCK) Seriously I've no idea how did I got an 'F'! There's no possibility at all when my supervisor and advisor are satisfy with my work! Arghhhhhhhh.........immediately I called my supervisor and amazingly he was SHOCKED too! DAMN APIIT seriously! What's wrong with my work now? It's ALL complete! Thank God that the result today is back to N/A due to final moderation! *relief* currently waiting for the result either tomorrow or next Monday! And also currently I'm not working yet (still)! Been doing part-time ONLY! Damn, it isn't that I select jobs I wanted but the jobs these days are choosy! =( Hopefully the career fair tomorrow held in MidValley Exhibition Hall till Sunday! Hopefully I could get a job from there, PERMANENTLY! I'd enough of having such nothing-to-do-but-restless-or-hopeless-life!

-[aLbY]-

Thumbs-Up!

2010-03-01T05:34:00.003+08:00

I'm catching up with the insomnia again lately, simplicity nice song to introduce to those who happened to visit my blog! Have been listening to these songs for sometime! Here are a few songs I recommended...enjoy!~

Goodnight people..

-[aLbY]-

Coming soon . . .

2010-02-28T05:35:00.000+08:00

Alright, everything has ended, updates are coming real soon aight!

Goodnight people....

** Hoped i don't have insomnia again tonight... **

-[aLbY]-

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day!

2010-02-14T01:03:00.003+08:00

Sorry for being too busy to update the blog! Anyway, I here stand my chance to wish everybody Happy Chinese New Year (Gong Hei Fatt Choi) and Valentine's Day to everyone outside there! May everyone stay healthier and wealthier in 2010...

Will keep the blog updated SOON! :) stay tuned...

-[aLbY]-

AVATAR (Sex scene CUT)

2010-01-29T02:13:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey, I've something to share here! Everybody's favourite scene! :D enjoy ya!

-[aLbY]-

The DAY . . .

2010-01-21T03:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so nervous! Today is the day and yea, I'll be attending the first most grand event of my life for my family! My sister is getting married! HOORAY........CONGRATS to Pauline Thum & Cason Yong! Well, I'm really excited and had been waiting for the day to come, I've got almost everything ready especially my dress code for it! Hahaha...really can't wait for it now! :) everything will work well, and fine! :D

Love,
-[aLbY]-

Take the advise!

2010-01-19T03:18:00.003+08:00

Hey readers, sorry for the mass-post/post in cantonese (for those doesn't understand), but I've found something hilarious and something that works to those who has disease like this and still not recovering, nor recovered or not consulting the specialist/doctor yet. I hope to those who reads this, take the advise, and consult the doctor/specialist by following what Kay says in the video. Goodluck and best of health everybody...

-[aLbY]-

Something to share with all of you . . . .

2010-01-19T03:02:00.002+08:00

It was a random post, it just so happened that I went through the youtube and found this meaningful video. I would say I'm still not over my past at all, but I do understand that time will tell what's gonna happen in the next 3yrs, 5years or perhaps 10years from now. I hoped people who thought of this now, could understand and set this into their mindset, the same time, I'll try to think over things for myself as well! Let's all of us learn to be a better human-being... I hoped I could as it's been almost a year soon, I'm still not over someone yet! Enjoy...

-[aLbY]-

Bai-chi-li-za-tion / De-bai-chi-li-za-tion...

2010-01-19T02:55:00.003+08:00

I've something to share here with you all! This is really funny! Check this out! :) LMAO............................................................

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Coming soon . . . .

2010-01-18T17:42:00.005+08:00

The "Thum" Family...

The "Thum" Bros & Sis...

The Bride...

The Bride & Groom...

Afterall this time, finally the time is coming! I'm sorry that I haven't been updating my blog, I wasn't really in a mood to blog, that's why I left it like this. After seeing so many blogs around, SIGH, no comment and therefore, it affected my mood of blogging too! Anyway, lets not talk about that, so what's "Coming Soon"? Haha...it's my sister's wedding! Well, 21/1 and 30/1 will be the dinner night. Been so busy preparing so many stuff with family for the wedding day, can't wait for it! I'm done with my shopping, OMFG, coz it cost too much for me, as if I'm the one whose getting married! But I'm satisfied with it afterall, not gonna regret..anyway, will keep the update soon with pics, this is just a random post! Cheers... Congrats to my sis and my bro-in-law! Best wishes to the both of y'll!~

-[aLbY]-

1st post of 2010 . . . .

2010-01-04T06:28:00.003+08:00

well first and foremost, Happy New Year to everyone! I thought that the last post of 2009 was going to be the last emo post in my life, spilling all out, in fact, I'm feeling terribly depress again while watching some series, with the soundtracks, as well as some SMS left previously! It can really make me to tears reading the messages left while I still miss and also loving you so much! ='(

Whereas you seems to really have been extinct in my life, MSN, Facebook, SMS, email etc. I can barely catch any recent update of you anymore. How can I stop thinking about you? How can I stop loving someone whom only know how to suspect but not believe me which is also no longer mine today rather then belonging to someone else today?! How will I really stop myself from loving someone who don't love me anymore althnough it's going to be 1year in the next 2months14days?

Time flies, I really had never thought that you're still playing a part in my life, my vision.. It's really suffocating! How can I really cheer up becoming a real happy person? God, please save me from this heartache and heartbreak world... Sigh...

There goes my 1st post of year 2010... I'll come out with something soon... Goodnight world!~

-[aLbY]-

Flashback of 2009 . . .

2009-12-31T06:14:00.003+08:00

It's left only less than 20hrs before 2010! I've read post of friends on facebook, tweeters, their mood, emotion, responds as well as their eyes, mostly mentioning of their past (bad/unhappy moment) which making them unhappy and tearsing. It touches my heart, myself who had also been to the stage they experienced! I'm depress too seeing my 2009 a bad year, an unhappy and spoilt year for myself! Although I'm moving on these days (as I don't have any choice) but I still misses something which don't belong to me anymore! Often I reminded myself that I don't deserve you in my life that makes you such heartache and in suffocation but it never stopped me from loving you cause no matter in what situation, you're the one I loved most yet had decided to be with together and not having my heart changed! I couldn't lied to myself that you're not belonging to me anymore because you still often happen to appear in my vision everyday! I know its stupid, its also dumb cause you've found a better companion today, but I'm still so much in love with you right up till I'm still writing this up for you at this hour on the last day of the year of pain, of 2009! I couldn't do anything as you seems to be extinct in my life, my vision and also my update or source! ='( I here wishing you a very Happy Belated Birthday & the greatest year ahead in your upcomings and life, health, studies and career as well as your family! Seriously it really make me to tears seeing the past pictures from 2006 right up till today, time flies, time pass so soon and I've already graduated from the study life! I'm feeling old now! I didn't wish to wash off the past no matter it's happy or unhappy because you've never known up till today, you were the greatest gift I ever had in my life! Torn between us will always stay in our heart as no one would understand neither to do anything because you've moved on with another important person in your life today.. Best wishes to everyone in this world and lots of happiness and success in life in 2010! Goodnight or good morning, I'll head off to bed now..

I really miss 2009 so much though I've been living alone in pain throughout the entire year myself, without you... ='(

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 EVERYBODY....
(Update through mobile phone)

Love,
-aLBY-

Before 2010 . . . .

2009-12-30T20:02:00.003+08:00

Its going to be year 2010 in less than 2days more. Many things had happened in the past, learned a lot, been through a lot too! Hoping that in the year of 2010 will be a better year for me and my career as well as for everybody else! I'll achieve what I need to achieve for a better future for myself...

Happy New Year everybody...

-[aLbY]-

Merry Xmas & a Happy New Year Everyone!

2009-12-24T14:53:00.002+08:00

Merry Xmas and a great Happy New Year to everyone! Wishing everyone, best of luck and success in everything the next year ahead! Love everyone...

Love,
-[aLbY]-

FUIYOH......

2009-12-18T04:47:00.000+08:00

FUIYOH..............1st of all, don't be surprise of what so ever alright, DIGI is not doing another promo on FUIYOH! :) Anyway, what makes me FUIYOH is about what you're going to see below! I was surprised when I reached to the mamak, Biru@Outlet Manager came to me with this 3pieces of "fuiyoh"! I was really surprised looking at the size of it which doesn't matches the worth of the "fuiyoh" as well as the price! Take a look!

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Dang....dang....dang....dang....alright, you'll for sure surprised with the price of EACH SOAP right? Yea, me too when I turned back and looked at the price! I was told it was given for FREE by a friend, who is a doctor! THANK GOD!!! I mean WTH on Earth this kinda medication soap cost this expensive?! Would you actually buy it? For me, I'll never cause it cost me RM800 ONLY for 3piecess of soap! *WTF* Anyway, only IF it helps to recover my hair-growth (with guarantee), why not? :)
Alright, I know it's random but I just didn't want to abandon my blog only, so I posted something for readers who actually reads my blog (if there is)!

-[aLbY]-

2009-12-17T18:36:00.001+08:00

I blamed you for everything that was going on
I was angry and didn't know right from wrong
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
I wish I wasn't so damn blind

All the pain and the suffering, I wish I could take it back
All the swearing and fights, I wish I could take it back
All the blaming and swearing, I wish I could take it back
I wish I could take it all back

Sorry, can we work things out again
Can we go back to the time you were my man
I will love you like I should
Love you like any person would
Oh please, accept my apology

Sorry, can we work things out again
Can we go back to the time you were my man
I will love you like I should
Love you like any person would
Oh please, accept my apology

I pushed you away, cause I was angry at you
Now I know that I was wrong, and it was my fault too
Now I am alone and wishing you were here
I will change, no more anger and tears
My Apology lyrics on
http://music.yeucahat.com/song/English/57501-My-Apology~Ho-Ngoc-Ha.html

All the pain and the suffering, I wish I could take it back
All the swearing and fights, I wish I could take it back
All the blaming and swearing, I wish I could take it back
I wish I could take it all back

Sorry, can we work things out again
Can we go back to the time you were my man
I will love you like I should
Love you like any person would
Oh please, accept my apology

Sorry, can we work things out again
Can we go back to the time you were my man
I will love you like I should
Love you like any person would
Oh please, accept my apology

I understand if you are going away, but still I beg you to stay
The lonely nights are killing me, please accept my apology

Sorry , can we work things out again
Can we go back to the time you were my man
I will love you like I should
Love you like any person would
Oh please , accept my apology

A song that means a million of words, was suppose to be dedicated to someone very special to me in my life...but I guess, today, it don't mean anything to you anymore as you've claimed "your heart is dead for me"...Sigh! Miserable life really, whatever I do, you'll never like it, even if I love you really for real for years, you'll still consider that I'm a big loser, big player, big liar...I always think that our love is as clear as crystal, but the people in your surrounding as well as my surrounding don't seems to please us being together over the years and still spreading such rumour about me especially something very untrue about me, friends who knows me well or knows me as what and who I am, I guess y'll knew me clearer than some people do. The important dates are coming, but I guess this year I would have to celebrate it all by myself with some closer friends than with you. Though I'm unhappy, but I guess I've gotta accept my life, has to be without your presence anymore since you've left me for sometime and became someone else whom I couldn't recognize anymore. Goodnight my love...It's still a nice song afterall, hope you people love it too! Adios...

-[aLbY]-

WTF?!

2009-12-16T05:38:00.001+08:00

Yeah the title WTF referred to something really WTF! Hahaha you are only able to see this in this century! Guess what is it? Nah, don't think you could figure it out! I saw this SOMEWHERE previously, has no time to update so check this out! Something cool, something you would like to know and see...

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Hahahahaha WTF321, Nissan Fair Lady 350Z!

Another surprise! Really check this out! I was not just WTF, even OMFG!

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WTF? Can you imagine that the car plate worth RM86680.00? Crazy man! But nice car plate thou! LMAO...

-[aLbY]-

Current update!

2009-12-15T06:38:00.001+08:00

I've finally relief from everything! It's EVERYTHING! Just did my FYP presentation lsat Friday (11/12/09) and THANK GOD I did WELL! :) hooray....both supervisor and adviser seems quite happy with my work though there were some negative comment about it! Anyhow, I'm officially done with my studies, looking forward for my exam result which will be expected to be released on the 18/12/09! So wish me best of luck for it! Other than that, I'm also looking forward for my FYP's result! That is the most important result to determine my bachelor of degree class! I hope that the worst would be 2nd lower, IF possible, 1st class would be the best! :) so wish me best of luck to those who read this post!

So some update of the current activities I've done lately although I didn't really keep my blog up-to-date daily! So here it goes..

ABC Big Town Cafe @ Mamak, my 2nd home has a new recipe! HAHA....light food, I mean apart from mee goreng, maggie soup, maggie goreng, indon mee, nasi lemak, roti canai etc, the outlet manager has come out with a new recipe, new food! It's so cheap! Hahahaha...yummy....during the midnight when I've nothing to bite there! :) guess how much? Heheheh....wanna know, go there and try then you'll know! What is it called? What you see in the picture, describe it that's all!

Anyway, NEXT is the PLAYBOY NEW FRAGRANCE Roadshow @ Mid Valley, Center Court! The launch of their 4 new fragrance, Malibu, Miami, Vegas and Hollywood! My bro and I got 1 Miami and 1 Malibu! Man, when I was about to get the fragrance guess what? Second day of the roadshow, more than 10,000 unit SOLD! Miami is the best selling! Can you imagine it's only RM59.90; fragrance + body spray? OMG! Such reasonable price and nice too! Try it for those who didn't know about it and wanna try something new! Here's the PLAYBOY roadshow and what I got! Ops, one more which I left out, they were also sponsored by Naza World with the latest Lamborghini! WOW.....super COOL!!!

The PLAYBOY NEW FRAGRANCE LAUNCHING 2009.

My PLAYBOY MALIBU & PLAYBOY MIAMI....

Alright, that's it for tonight first! Will continue tomorrow...

-[aLbY]-

Ford Models Supermodel of the World 2009 (Malaysia)

2009-12-08T03:52:00.004+08:00

Here it goes, since it's been quite sometime I haven't been updating my blog here is the update! Last month I joined this Ford Model Search, as those who reads my blog knew about it, the result is finally out (5th Dec 2009)! Congrats to those who won!

Female Winners:-
Winner: Kelly Jagan
1st Runner-up: Eleen Yong
2nd Runner-up: Syakella Jazmyn

Male Winners:-
Winner: Danny Lim
1st Runner-up: Ahya Ulumuddin
2nd Runner-up: Ian Ong

Congrats to those who won! Kinda expected that Danny will actually win for the male category, and the female's category I thought it would be Casandra Patrick but anyway, Kelly is good too! Amazingly her photographs taken and the finale outlook and outfit is tremendous! CONGRATS again! Female winner will win RM250,000 worth of prizes and will be sent for the International Ford Model Search in 2010 January next year! Where as the Male winner will win RM50,000 worth of prizes and will also be sent to the United States for training! How lucky they are...too bad, I can't even get into the Top 10 instead of Top 20! *frown* Kind of disappointed when I knew some who could get into Top 10, but I didn't! Sigh...anyhow, some are bias thou cause they've good relation with some of the judges! So....BOYCOTT!!!

My photoshoot during the elimination of the Top 10 Male model!

Wei........isn't that bad right? Why am I eliminated in the Top 10 elimination! :( sigh, was putting so much hope into the Top 10 since during the photoshoot, Benjamin and Azrul (both are also judges) said my first photograph taken is perfect enough and that was what Azrul (the photographer) wants! Sigh...and then I took a few more shots and those aren't as good as the first! I was so confident to get into the Top 10 but it turned out to be a disappointment! Anyway, it's reality show and everything is bias in the entertainment industry! Nothing is fair in this industry unless you're really capable enough to be a Mr/Mrs. Perfect! Argh...during the elimination, the only comment I got from the judge (Azrul) was my eye isn't sharp and strong enough to portrait the photograph! Damn it! WTH! *so disappointing*

Anyway, what's done is done, I couldn't change anything as since it was recorded and moreover announced! Would just have to prove them I'm good in the future!

Here is the link where you can watch the entire REALITY show! Anyway, the show was a bad one! Super low quality cause the judges couldn't even speak well except for Azrul and Gillian Hung@Mama G! I adore Mama G as she's elegant and pretty yet well spoken, Azrul....I've got not much of comment cause he said a different thing during my photoshoot and during the elimination! Sigh again....

Here's the link, click on to watch it: Ford Models Supermodel of the World 2009

Oh between, the worst thing, they actually skipped my part and a few contestant's comment during the elimination because prolly they realized their comment towards a few of us are just to eliminate to replace those who are close to the judges who got it! WATCH IT and you people will realize it!

Another update, FEMALE's 50 Most Gorgeous online voting has ended last week (30th Nov 2009), still waiting for the result, would hope something mischievous happen! Something for me at least, I'm confident enough though I've competitive competitors among the rest of the 24 male contestants!

Another contest, I've joined for sometime, still waiting for the update is still in progress! Will keep the update soon! Don't misunderstand that I'm trying to SEEK FOR ATTENTION or being D.O.A (Desperate of Attention). I'm just doing what I inspire to do which is to become a real model instead as such everyone has been claiming themselves a model. I didn't want those unreal fame but fame which I achieve all by myself since I've quit modeling for the past few years, it's time for me to come back out for some new exposure and competitions to get myself back into the industry and achieve my inspiration one day (hopefully soon) in order to make myself a happier person than a saddist I've been for the past 10months...

Wish me luck and keep supporting me people, my beloved family and friends or fan (*if i have HAHA)! *CHEERS*

-[aLbY]-

Endless Love / Afraid (Hai Pa) @ 23/11/09

2009-11-26T05:19:00.003+08:00

This is a post as of 23/11/09!

That day I went out with my friends, and heard this song! The moment I heard the song, my heart was touched, again I thought of someone, something which I can never let go, never forget. To the person I'm referring, you'll never know the truth or understand the truth cause you will always think that I'm the worst and bad person ever, or you even name me a "jerk", but I'm sorry I couldn't be the man you want to be, I admitted I hated some thing of you, it's because of "someone's" existing, but I've never forgotten any single moment we had together before, you will always remain to be in my heart, I can never forget you, but I can only make this to force you to make the move to hate me most, delete me on facebook or even to blocked me on MSN! :'( I'm sorry, I couldn't have let you go at all right up till today, even each time I saw you with someone else, knowing you were with someone else, happily or not, I can never still forget you although if I've the hatred cause the one I love most and the one I can never forget or to let go is to you! You may not get to read this or will never read this, but this is the post I'm writing it to you!

You would have me in your mind that I'm a jerk, I'm an asshole, I'm a player, a liar, the one that took you for granted, the one that have wasted your time, the one who has hurt you most, BUT, you will never know how much you meant in my life! :'( I'm writing this with my tears on while my brother is sleeping in the midnight. I swore, I've never forgotten you nor never never loved you truthfully before! Believe it or not, I know it's up to you although you don't. I know I've been doing a lot of things you dislike me doing, but they are my interest, moreover you've left me without a single word since 18th February 2009...I can never forget this date, and nevertheless, I can never forget what date is 23rd of July of every year! It's been 9months, yes, without you knowing how much pain I've been experiencing, how much have I been missing you, but I can't be doing anything because you've got such a beautiful life with another half today, I can't be a bastard to destroy your happiness but only being quiet to myself, or not even sms'ing you, because to you, I'm the worst person in your life, which you've never met or experienced, no matter what I said to you, you'll never want to get back with me... :'( because of the past, because of my friends, because of me, because of my background, because of my family....I'm sorry dear, I can't tell or to proof how much I loved you until today, but to express how much I love you here....where I can never let you go at all!

I know there were loads of dramas within us and our friends, but you'll never forgive me for what had happened in January 2009, as I always hoped you'll never bring it up right up till February 2009, I've celebrated a calm V-day with you, got you the Rihanna Concert ticket, with the best sits we could have,...you still insisted to have me to be apart from your life on the 18th of February, where all the rumours started spreading everywhere about us, of anything until our relationship and perception became worst than ever! :'( I'm really upset, of every single argument we had in the previous time! I've got the histories in my MSN, and also on my mobile inbox right up till today! You've seen my inbox before all these years, I only kept all your sms(s) but not anyone's unless they're notices or event invitations/notifications. I know I'm stupid to say this, but if I didn't want to say all those I kept in my heart for months of what's been happening, you'll never know the truth about me (all these years as well), whoever who'd appeared in your life while we were together, on the sms I sent the last time when we argued, to test whether you will still want me back, or to.....let me off TOTALLY today! :'( it hurts, the worst thing I've done in my life, it hurts most when I found out the next day all those I mentioned earlier happened, it was as though either one of us had left Earth, because we will never know what happened to anyone of us everyday anymore!

I love you from day 1 on the 23rd of July 2006, when I 18+ close to 19 birthday soon that time, I've intended to have you ONLY in my life, which I didn't want to have anybody else anymore because I know from that day onwards, from whatever had happened no matter it is ups or downs, I've never forgotten a single moment even if we'd argued terribly while we broke up before, it's all kept in my heart and memories, which makes me love you so much deeply! This is what happened when one love another too much deeply, they can never live in a happier life when they have lose their other half in moments! I remembered most the lunch we had on the 18th February 2009 @ Noodle House that time, with the parking ticket still in my car today, the environment was cool, quiet, while we ordered our food, you were looking at the newspaper, while i was waiting for lunch, at the same time I tried talking to you, until we finished, then "it" happened after that...I can never forget the moment you told me while we were on the way back on the road! How bad can I be since you've known me for over years, how terrible could I be since I'm the most you've seen everyday and night? :'( I ain't complaining nor stabbing you, but eventually I've been questioning myself everyday and night staring at the sky, "How bad could I be to you when we are so much in love with each other all these years? only?" It's really heartbreaking everyday and night, I've been thinking of you, missing you, or even been praying hard, that you would have a greater health, a greater life, a happier life, and also a more peaceful life than being with me....but eventually I couldn't console myself to forget you at all! Every moment, even when I was sleeping, I thought of you on the phone with me when I need you most, I received your sms, mms, your call and your presence when I needed you most! ;'( I don't know what can I do to let this off from my heart today! You could think that I'm a bastard, a jerk, or a human who has no humanity or lack of attention, but no matter what it is, the one I love most is still you right up till today! You're never been forgotten, I can never let you go...I can never erased off all the memories we've had together everywhere, every time, and everything together!

Thou I've been graduated from the university, wherever, whenever, whatever happened, you are still the one I thought of, the one I related to, the one I missed most, and the one I love most to be with....

I've got my life screwed up till my sleeping hours can only be in the morning rather than a normal time unless if I'm really sick till I need to rest early only I could sleep! It's all because I've been waiting....waiting for you to forgive all the shits happened in the past, and to allow me back by your side! I couldn't lie to myself, I couldn't continue this anymore as the more I'm doing it, the more it's hurting myself where I've been listening to some of my friends who has problem with all their ex(s), which I didn't want to be a victim like them suffocating all their life everyday and night, like myself today... :'( it's really suffocating and heartaching! I've not seen you for sometime other than bumping onto each other, I misses you, your face, the moment you call my name, the moment you call me, the moment you touched me, the moment you touched my face, the moment you hugged or even hold my hands... :'( it made me to tears each second I thought of it, as I couldn't be a man as everyone thought to let go off the past, or to turn to a brand new leaf, as if I'm either allowing my heart beats (with you), or heart beat stopped (without you)...no one as ever could replace you in my life, or to take place of you in my life ever even if one day you saw me on the road or mall with another, it isn't as you thought because the one whose still left in my heart is still You...my love! I love you till the end of my life dear... :'(

Love,
-aLbY-

OMFG!

2009-11-21T02:17:00.002+08:00

CHECK THIS OUT!

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WTF isn't it?! I parked inside Lot10 for approximately 13hrs, there's no MAXIMUM RATE! My entire life had never paid this f*cking expensive for parking before especially shopping mall! RM35 can do so much! Moreover, the day before that, I parked my car at Pavilion, and that already cost me RM15 (maximum)! Then now another RM35, my weekend parking cost me RM50/week! KNNCCB!!!!!! EVERYONE, NEVER PARK YOUR CAR IN LOT10 or the surrounding if you're planning to stay for long or on the specific time they have a flat rate!!!! What a GOOD experience!

-[aLbY]-

FEMALE Magazine's 50s Most Gorgeous 2009

2009-11-20T16:47:00.001+08:00

Woohoo....I've got into the FEMALE Magazine's 50s Most Gorgeous! Kindly vote for me, I'll appreciate all of the voting that counts for the winning! :D Click on the link to vote for me! VOTING period is only up till 30th Nov 2009!

VOTE ME!!!

-[aLbY]-

MIFW-09 @ Pavilion, K.L - 7th Nov 09

2009-11-18T03:00:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the late update of the MIFW-09 post! Anyway, I was invited for the MIFW-09 on the 7th Nov 09 by one of the participant designer, William Liew. It was due to a competition I joined and Will said to sponsor the contestants for the show with guestlist. So we attended the FantastiqueMen show in collaboration with Larrie, MadMub, Daniel Cho, William Liew, Key Ng, STUD as well as Lustro. Thank you William for the invitation and the sponsor of the shirt to attend the event. I've attended last 2yrs MensFolio@MIFW-07 before, so this year I'm glad that I'm invited directly from the designer! :)

Here's the schedule of MIFW-09 and pictures I took during the event as well as for the Gala Night@Closing Ceremony too.. BUT before that, have a look at my invitation and the schedule then the pictures of the show! :) Enjoy...

The MIFW-09 Master Schedule..

The invitation for MIFW-09, FantastiqueMen@7th Nov 09...

And here's the compilation of the pictures I took during the runway starts! The models are super cool! Wow...no matter they are guys or gals! Between I've a few friends who walked the runway too! Hahaha...well done Ian@Yen, Jojo and Lawrence..

Best Female Model of the year goes to Tinie, and Best Male Model of the year goes to Ikhwan! Congrats!

It's a great show and I appreciate the invites for the show this year! Thanks!

-[aLbY]-

Ford Model Search Audition

2009-11-13T02:06:00.006+08:00

There are so much for me to post up, but I've got no time this few days!!! MIFW 2009 post! Gosh...right now gonna post a very quick one of the Ford Model Search Audition I went last Sunday! It was random, I met a friend on the Saturday while attending MIFA, so he asked me to try it out for the Ford Model Search Audition. I was aware of the competition but never thought of trying it! He asked me to try it out, so I decided to go for it on Sunday after some meeting. I went for the audition with a few friends about 3++pm, there wasn't many contestants, we went for a short photoshoot to allow the judges recognize us. So yea, luckily I got a not-bad-one! Hahaha...well, during the first audition, they asked me questions, common random questions! So I answered, hopefully I did impressed them! There goes I got into the 2nd audition which is scheduled at 5pm on the same day. Ford Model Search Audition is only open for 2days, last Saturday and Sunday. Then, I went for the 2nd audition, WOW, they asked bunch by bunch guys to stand in front of them, then they'll pick those the judges wants to. They'll select top 30 for the first round. And the news is....I GOT INTO TOP 30! HAHA...here are some of the pictures during the auditions! Enjoy...

Here I come...my contestant number! 124!

The process...

Here's the picture they took for me for the judges!

This is anther same picture only, nothing much!

This is where the contestants were waiting for the result to get into Top 30!

This is a picture of the judges making their decision!

That's all for now, I'll try to update the MIFA post soon people. I gotta head to bed now as I'm having my first shooting later from 7am onwards till 10pm (scheduled)! Wish me luck...I'll do my best later!

-[aLbY]-

到了明天

2009-11-11T03:27:00.002+08:00

Thanks to my very good friend, the song means so much which I couldn't express my feelings by words, but through this song....to....

Goodnight readers...

-[aLbY]-

Some update!

2009-11-03T01:16:00.005+08:00

Here are some update of what I've been doing recently, that's why I haven't been blogging for 2weeks! Anyway, HOORAY for the first things first, all my assignments are done hand submitted! Secondly, my FYP is finally submitted with 2days of deferment too! YES! My stress totally FREE-ed! What I've been busy of to have no time for update is the rush of my assignments as well as the FYP! Sigh, been thru alot these few weeks, it's really a hectic time to go through but I'm finally free today! Now, what I'm confronting is the final exam! WTF? 2days after my submission of FYP, it's my exam? WTH? 2nd, 4th, 6th and 9th of November! DAMN!! I've so little time to prepare, and I've screwed the first one! SIGH...anyhow, it's the war for the next 3 papers! I gotta make it to free myself, then my final presentation for my FYP, that's it! I'm officially GRADUATED after studying for 4yrs in the uni! Damn....time flies!

Anyway, here are some pics of my FYP. Check it out!

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WOOHoo.....150+ pages of documentation for my FYP! COOL........... :D

Aight, that's it for the meantime, will update more the previous events after my exam or ASAP when I got my internet back as it's been down for a couple of days! FUCK STREAMYX!!!!

Wish me luck for the rest of the papers...

-[aLbY]-

Missing holiday . . . .

2009-10-20T20:52:00.001+08:00

Sigh, I know that this is random but I'm missing holidays! Only a few more weeks (less than 4weeks), then my 4yrs course will be officially completed! And I'm graduating by then,...I miss holiday but the same time missing college life! It just so happened that I was checking my mail, I found this! I'm missing a place similar to this..

This isn't Penang, FYI! It's just a random picture I saw in one of the forwarded mail by my friend. I miss Penang! Sigh, everything of Penang I'm missing now! I wished I could make my trip to Penang again after the "WAR"! Anyway, for those who haven't seen the actual Penang bridge, here you are, our Malaysia's Penang Bridge is also very beautiful as to compare to those in the overseas..

Here's our beautiful sunset view of the very popular Penang Bridge! I wish to go there the soonest for some FRESHER air than here in KL! Sigh...anyway, I'm still considering the trip as I'm with debt! :( shall pen-off...

-[aLbY]-

Sad and sick of myself . . .

2009-10-15T05:54:00.004+08:00

I really wanted to post up more things, but time don't allow, I've been wasted a lot of time NOT doing anything this year, I'm totally screwed up! Guess what's worst? My FYP due has been extended to 2weeks later, which is on the 28th Oct 09, and what's worst? I don't seem to have touched anything much of it! I'm so fucking worried of it, it suck up all my credits to pass the entire course I've been acquiring all these 4years, I'm DOOMED and FUCKED! Apart from that, I've another 4assignments to be handed in as well, before and after the FYP due, then to my final exam which is like the latest due of my assignment is 30th Oct 09 if not mistaken? My exam falls on the 2nd Nov 09? WTF? I've only a few days to study everything I learned throughout the semester! Fucking screwed up my life! I'm a total saddist yet a fucked up kid today! I'm so spoilt, I started....argh, fuck it seriously! Everyone, stay away from me as some have already done so, please go away everyone! I don't want to spoilt myself and then you all as well! :( I'm so sick of myself....when I'm suppose to be FULLY STRESSED UP before graduating and then to be a happy graduate BUT it turned out to be a disaster today! I'm so fucked in my life today! God, please help me, please save me out from this saddist sickening of my own world, PLEASE! I don't want to spoilt my life anymore, I don't want it anymore, it's tiring, it's very very tiring! :'( Although everyone has been seeing me partying around, slacking and doing a lot of wasting-time-matter, no one will ever understand the inner of myself because physically I'm portrait as a spoilt and fucking don't bother of anything at all! I can't help myself anymore to go on my life if this really reached till the next 2weeks, I'm really worry....I hope that my 'hair problem' wouldn't get worst than current as I'm really hoping it could recover the final 20% of possibility of my current situation! :'( please God, I need you....

Saddist blogger,
-[aLbY]-

Long term . . . . and T.L.C!

2009-10-02T05:55:00.004+08:00

From today onwards I'll be on a long term medication condition for my hair loss control and re-growth. Many people has been wondering why am I always with my cap or something to cover on my head or probably having my head shaved bald this recent years. Yea, let's open up to admit that I've been having hair loss since the age of 19, when I just got into the tertiary life. Life never been such miserable as today due to the condition of my hair, is making me depress everyday and night. Now below here is the medication I'm going through for the next 2-3years given by a specialist. Believe it or not, I've a friend who has been taking this medicine for the past 2years since the last time we met not till we bumped back onto each other, he was having hair loss, till last year, I saw him again, everything went back to normal, I was really amazed with the result of the medicine or the medication he was taking. Amazingly, I've been blinded over the years, never knew there was such specialist in SS15 Subang!

Finally I've listened to his advise and consulted the specialist, I was told that I'm confronting hormonal imbalance. Well, I remembered my hairline started thinning when I had my hair dyed for the 3rd or 4th time when I was 19. Anyhow, the medical fee isn't cheap at all, 1month of supply of day and night tablet as well as a hair tonic before bed, cost me RM240! I hoped this isn't gonna be the same for the rest of the days I'm going through! Approximately, RM2.8k - RM2.9k/year! Gosh...moreover, the specialist told me that overall, it'll recover by an additional of 20% of the current condition! Sigh...I'm really upset of this statement, I really hoped I could have what most the adult/youngster/youth has but isn't a bald headed guy where...I'm always being insulted, teased, or laugh, or even disappoint many of my head! :'( I hope this medicine could really help me to have my hair recovered by the end of the days! Please keep my confidence boost up! I really need my confidence back, I'm lack of confidence and everything! I need it back so badly...like a normal human being! Sigh...I really need T(Tender).L(Love).C(Care) so badly! :'(

-[aLbY]-

失落沙洲

2009-10-01T03:25:00.002+08:00

I love this song very very much, it means a lot! Because I've no more idea how am I suppose to express my feelings anymore. I'm feeling dull and lonely, I'm so lost yet been lost for sometime! I'm trying to get things back at right track but it don't seems worked out. All I can say is what is sang in the song. I've been through a lot, really a lot of things, but in the end, I'm still thought as a naive, childish, annoying or not-bother-type of person. As I said, I've been through many things this 7months time, the worst had bypass, and amazingly I'm still alive today. Really collapsed and met in terrible car accident without injuries before! Really close to death, but I'm still here today, alive. It all seems to happened yesterday, but the fact, I've been living in the past for too long, thinking of the reminiscence of the past and the ups and downs I've been through...without moving on. Today, I seems to be fine, but it is just my physical afterall, I'm lonely, I'm depress, I'm spoil, I'm disappointed, I'm really demotivated and losing all my confidence of myself! Been trying to do a lot of things to boost up my confidence and forcing myself to forget everything, but it failed too. Till the end, I was still told to be the heartless person on Earth. Without you, without who I am today, because of what you've said to me, I know I'm no longer in your heart, but just memories...which means I've to move on with an open heart no matter what it is. Pictures, memories, places we've been to, moments we've been through, the good and the bad times,...kept me thinking non-stop!

The truth today, no matter what I do from yesterday, today or till tomorrow, you'll never want me back. Afterall these years, although the reminiscence of past kept passing through my mind or my heart, you'll never wanted me to go back by your side, because I've already became your footstep, the footstep left behind the sand, which are meant to remember, but not to enjoy together in reality anymore. The me today in your mind and heart, is only known as a word to describe, "nobody". I know no matter what, I still have to move on as you always hope I could like some other people, or what you've expected me to be, "a-mature-person" or some of your friends. I know I don't have anymore choice, but listen to this song, at least you'll know some of what I want to express to you...

-[aLbY]-

阿桑 - 叶子

2009-09-27T05:05:00.002+08:00

A very random song introduced by a very good friend of mine last 6months back I guess. The artist have actually passed away. This is a very meaningful song, it recalls me off so much, as though....I'm the ONE like that, but...anyhow, enjoy the song...between, there're 2version here, pick any you readers like!

The revise version..

p/s: "The footstep is very deeply left, I don't know why aren't myself like you that can let go and took as though nothing had happen, as time passes by, the pain of abandoned and loneliness is still.....there! Happiness never last, by the end of everyday, sorrow the one been accompanying/haunting me only..."

-[aLbY]-

Sad and very sad!

2009-09-26T06:51:00.002+08:00

It's a very unhappy night for me! Nobody would ever understand! *sorry if i repeated the past posts again although i've been saying i won't post such emotional post, but nobody could shared this feeling with me except for BLOG* Sigh...not much time left for my FYP submission, heard that there's extension, hopefully i'll utilise this time to finish it REALLY SOON PLEASE then i'll be graduating by then! Till then...

-[aLbY]-

Round 1 & Round 2!

2009-09-25T04:22:00.002+08:00

Something I wanted to share tonight, I rarely share this kinda news but, yea, I don't want to post something that.....people don't care! So here it is, surely you guys like it! WATCH IT! You'll be AMAZED with the HOTTEST NEWS! Hoho.............. :P

Round 1....

Continue in Round 2....

That's all, awesome isn't it? ENJOY? I'll try to post more of something not so about myself as...I know the bloggers or readers or stalker dislike, but WHAT TO DO? My only paradise to voice out that stick to me for years! Really years I've been blogging...sigh! Anyway, that's all for now... ENJOY your night!~

-[aLbY]-

LOST.....NEW!

2009-09-22T03:55:00.001+08:00

I knew it's been awhile, and I'm reporting myself back here to my own world@besties. So here is the story, I lost my Nokia 5800 XpressMusic, last week while I went outing with my mom after class. So we were determined to go Robinson, The Gardens to get a hat for my dad for their coming Shanghai trip (tomorrow night). Then we went over to Midvalley to check out the hats, nothing really suit the price, but it's too expensive. It's just a normal STALL, RM139.90 for a hat? WTH? It looks more alike those in Sg. Wang but the price is as high as sky! Sigh, so we walked to another shop, Tropicana Life, got one for my dad, RM59.90. Mom was happy, then we walked around, we arrived around 1pm, after that we walked back to The Gardens to look around, then we walked into Robinson, we saw a lot of things, did some shopping there thou, I saw a shirt and jeans which is displayed at the men section. NICE! So I decided to try it out as my mom was shopping for my dad and bro. Mom said it was nice, then everything is discounted by 10% only, by 6.30pm that day was Robinson's 2nd Anniversary. There's gonna be an additional of 10-15% off for every item. So, i tried it out again and again as usual for my shopping. I realized my phone was disturbing, so I took it out and placed it on the bench in the fitting room. After that, I decided to grab the stuffs and reserved them first as when the event started we'll have an additional 10-15% for Robinson members. After that, we went out without the phone (without realizing) and wanted to go for lunch, was walking to CK, I realized my phone isn't in the pocket anymore, then I ran all the way to the fitting room to check, it WASN'T THERE ANYMORE! :( sigh...I'm so FUCKED that time! It's the 3rd phone I lost since Sept08 till Sept09! Hate the luck I've since then till today! :(

First was my N73 (first Nseries), then my lovely N82 (best camera) and broke it because of....argh, then got a Nokia 5800 XpressMusic till...THAT DAY, sigh! Really not in a luck at all! "It" was right! My life...really.... :( been using my mom's phone for temporary, by the way, thanks for the concern for those who was concerning about me of the phone. I've been surveying which to get, I'm so used to touchscreen phone, was thinking of the same phone, then iPhone 3Gs (yea I didn't really like it but the new version seems way much better than the old one but....), too bad the phone is TOO COSTLY, I've checked Australia, UK, US, S'pore price, it's closely the same! I could get a BETTER deal if I bought it from Maxis under the contract, BUT too bad the phone I lost was contract to 2yrs and it's only 5months old! :( I really hate my life...such unlucky for the entire year, not JUST the phone. Then I did thought of N97, but I'm lack of cash, nothing in my account, such a sad case isn't it? I've became a spoil brat since 6-7months back, today I'm BROKE yet I lost ANOTHER phone! ARgh....finally after a week of surveying it over the town, I've decided to get the Nokia 5730 XpressMusic, for RM13XX! Sigh...wasted money, and time! It's really a bad year for me, I'm seriously depress of my life, tired of my life, tired of so much till...I'm collapsing today..

Only a few more weeks for my FYP submission and...I've started NOTHING! Basically nothing although I've updated some information onto my documentation. I'm really such a sad freak today...nothing much of this post, only an update that I've lost my OLD phone :( and got a NEW one few days back. To those who has my number (+ read this/happened to pass by my blog), don't hesitate to text/send me your number with your name. I'm saddist freak....sorry guys/gals!

Goodnight..

Saddist writer,
-[aLbY]-

Listen . . .

2009-09-15T04:07:00.004+08:00

True Heart[www.laxing.net] - Ö£ÐÀÒË[www.laxing.net]
** If you still remember this song, you could sing the lyrics yourself, and tell me that you still love me up till today! :'( **

No matter how much I love you right till today, you'll only walk further away from me.... :'( it's so suffocating, the night I tears because of some messages I read which hurts me so badly, tearsing painfully in my heart all alone! Afterall, I'm a useless and hopeless human being living on Earth! Goodnight!

-[aLbY]-

FINAL LAST DAY & RELIEF . . . .

2009-09-11T02:08:00.000+08:00

WEeeeeeeeeeeeee..........finally I've finished my final paper, and I'm officially done with my uni life! All 4papers done, all 4assignment & presentation done, FYP submitted, only waiting for FYP presentation! Wohoo...I'm graduating!!!! Officially a graduate!!! Yeah....no more worries of my studies, assignments and exams anymore! :D after the final presentation I'm officially OUT TO THE REAL WORLD! Many things had happened in 2009, really too much, which I never have the time and also the feeling of posting them! Sigh...anyway, I won't write much for the temporary moment as it's late at this time, I only feel like posting a post after I finished everything of my studies! I'll post more soon aight! Here's my hard bound@2nd set of FYP!!!

This piece of hard bound cost me RM30 ok!!!! Haven't added with the printing!!! GOODNESS.....................alright that's all for tonight!~

-[aLbY]-

Stay with me . . .

2009-09-10T04:58:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I realized I couldn't really hide things anymore. People in the surrounding, family, friends...they are all mostly could see that I'm unhappy and stressed up! Sigh! I really can't make it! These days everyone is busy rushing for their exams and finals before the year end comes and my year end only will start after Nov09! By then, my studies and college life will be ended! :( anyway, I must keep it up to put up a smile to everyone always even if I'm not! That's all I can do to make people in my surrouding happier than worrying or maybe annoyed! This is a song that I've been listening, but, why didn't it become true staying with me still? Sigh....sigh....sigh....I'm so depress and really depress over a lot of things these days. There're so many that I wanted to share it out but no one that I could, there're so much of things which I'm worried about but no one is there to keep me supported! I hate my life...I seriously hate my life... :'( goodluck Alby!

-[aLbY]-

方大同 - 夠不夠

2009-09-09T03:25:00.000+08:00

你的爸爸妈妈不会随便让你嫁
Your parents will not let you marry as you please

有财能够(才能)讲话
If you have money then you can talk

你君降临天下
You rule the land

单位价格太浮夸
A unit is too extravagant

除非可以刷卡
Unless I can swipe my card

你的要求让我发抖
Your demands make me tremble

已经拥有
Already possess it

还没有拥有的够不够
If I didn’t have any possessions, would it be enough?

够不够做你的宝贝
Would it be enough to be your baby?

Do you know how it feels
Every time that you say goodbye (goodbye)
(Please don't say goodbye)
Do you know how it feels
Every time that you make me cry
Don't break my heart

Oh 我对你的爱在世上难买
Oh, the love that I give you is hard to buy in this world

要是错过我也无能为力
If I missed it, then I am powerless

你想开宝马
You want to drive a BMW

我和我的Toyota是否让你尴尬
Me and my Toyota, does it embarrass you?

你最爱卡拉我对戴蒙有看法
You love carats the most, I have an unfavorable view towards diamonds

你说我是傻瓜
You say that I’m a fool

你的朋友说我太瘦
Your friend says that I’m too skinny

怎么不在意我对你的爱够不够
How come they don’t pay any attention to if I love you enough?

够不够是否能体会
Is it enough? If you can understand

Do you know how it feels
Every time that you say goodbye (goodbye)
(Please don't say goodbye)
Do you know how it feels
Every time that you make me cry
Don't break my heart

Oh 我对你的爱在世上难买
Oh, the love that I give you is hard to buy in this world

要是错过我也无能为力
If I missed it, then I am powerless

Baby tell me 如果我离开
Baby tell me, if I leave

Oh 要是我不再与你合拍
Oh, if I am no longer in harmony with you

再不会有我在这里等着你
I won’t be here waiting for you again

再没有我的安慰
Won’t have my comfort again

我会心碎
I will be heartbroken

只剩下我每一天每一天在回味
It’ll only be me left pondering over it everyday

失去你失去爱世界不再美
Losing you, losing love, the world is no longer beautiful

Do u know how it feels
Every time that u say goodbye (goodbye)
(Please don't say goodbye)
Do u know how it feels
Every time that u make me cry
Don't break my heart

Oh 我对你的爱在世上难买
Oh, the love that I give you is hard to buy in this world

要是错过我也无能为力
If I missed it, then I am powerless

Stressed & Suffocation.

2009-09-09T03:07:00.003+08:00

I dislike the feeling seriously, it's almost killing me to death and I really hoped I could just collapsed and forget everything happened in my life, but that would never happen unless I've my head knocked onto the wall! These days, I'm so much of stress of so many things around, studies, assignments, FYP (due 14/10), personal life, feelings, emotions, health, hair.....sigh, its a fuck up life! It's so stressful and suffocating! I just need someone to understand and concern about me, why is that so hard? Haven't people know what am I? Am I really a bad person to be with? I knew that I'm imperfect in many sense, what can I do when I was born to be imperfect? Sigh...I'm still not touching any assignments including my FYP!

I've been sleeping very late recently, 5am? 6am? 7am? 8am? or even 9am! Sigh...seriously the insomnia is killing me! Its so suffocating, I'm feeling so tired everyday and night, often doze off in the class while the lecture going on, or even just slept on the desk or rather skipping classes by giving MCs! Sigh, parents and sis have been complaining over my outing, and sleeping hours, I couldn't make myself to stay at home THINKING! What am I thinking? I don't need I need to spill this out as it's obvious to those who knows me well or are close to me, but....why is it so? :'( so many things happened and parents are screwing me up, car got bang at the back WITHOUT noticed in the college last few weeks, scratches, dented and ARGH my bumper became loose, then now my air cond stinks, smells so badly whenever I started my engine, then what else? MONEY! I'm broke, so broke that I.....argh, fine I don't want to talk about that, but I'm alike a beggar now, doesn't have anything at all! Sigh...mom spoken to me this afternoon, threw all the things that dad said to her about me, we were arguing, and also have been arguing with my parents these days, for some issue, I'm so stressed up! Sigh...eventually I really can't take it, nobody understands my feelings, understands me at all why am I out so often and didn't want to get back home! :'( home definitely won't know cause I didn't want any of my family to be worried of me as I'm an adult today, I didn't want to trouble them so much of my stuffs/problems! Mom eventually tears talking to me, I was freaked out! I really don't know what should I do, but I got even more stressed up, I can't take it, I really feel like moving out for a couple of days or weeks. Yet I was so tired, my mood wasn't stable, yet was like "yelling" over my mom whenever I spoke to her, SORRY MOM! I DIDN'T MEAN IT but I really want to have my own time for myself to be emotional or whatever thing...does anybody knows about what's happening in my life? No, because I learned to keep things to myself and I don't see anymore reason that I shall share it out to anybody as nobody actually cares for me...

I'm really feeling restless and hopeless in my life...what shall I do? I've 2mths more to graduate! I'm feeling so restless and demotivated now...I really can't take it anymore, I'm getting weaker, my will is becoming weaker....the entire me is getting weaker and.....I really hoped I could collapse one day then have a few days of "comma" life...get extinct for a short period of time...sigh! What a life, nobody understands me, nobody rather wanna understand me, nobody ever understand the real me...which I'm always being thought as a fake person and being ignored... :'( why can't "we" make our dream come true after all...

-[aLbY]-

God Bless . . .

2009-09-08T05:27:00.002+08:00

I really dont know where shall I start, where shall I continue from, for my assignments and FYP! My mind is just not working, and I really don't feel like continuing this anymore... I felt like stopping my studies! I'm so moodless and feeling restless over my days of life.. Sigh.. can someone tell me or lead me till the end of the semester? I'm really lost, lost in life, lost of aim and everything! I'm feeling really really restless over the days.. Becoming a spoilt brat, spending my money non-stop and spoiling my health, as well as myself! I'm really fucked-up! Having a fuck up life that nobody would understand. Wanting a life I wish to, is just so hard and suffocating to achieve to make it return! What a night...doing NOTHING! Goodnight and God bless me...

-[aLbY]-

Nothing's gonna change my love for you.

2009-09-07T05:12:00.002+08:00

For the one I love, but not with me..

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

(Repeat Chorus 1)

(Repeat Chorus 2)

(Repeat Chorus 3)

(Repeat Chorus 2) (2X)

(Repeat Chorus 3)

(Repeat Chorus 2)

-[aLbY]-

Ni na me ai ta . . .

2009-09-07T05:03:00.000+08:00

I dreamt of something, I recall this clearly though it was a hard day I been thru, it was about me having a happier life with you. Nevertheless, I knew that to you, miracle isn't a thing to happen on me, but I just couldn't do it at all. I don't want to live for the rest of my life like now. Sam Li has always been my favorite artist, I remembered the first time I heard of his song was with you, and you were the one that I knew who Sam Li is and fell for his songs although you've told me you don't really favor his songs. If you eventually remember what I mean, which moment was it when the album was launched at that time...what were we, what do we do, and how are we, but unlike today, like now...so lonesome and unhappy. This is how much I love you till...

Anyhow, coming back to reality, I've only a month more to hand in my FYP. Guessed what? I hoped I won't screw it up as it contributes the most to my certificate class! Sigh, 4assgmt + 1FYP which I've not started anything, I just have no more motivation to continue the finals to complete my studies. My motivation to study is fading off day by day, week by week, and I'm getting spoilt week by week, especially to my health and....anyway, wish me best of luck readers! I hope I could graduate gracefully by end year with what I want to get for my cert next year..

-[aLbY]-

Another day...

2009-09-05T09:11:00.002+08:00

Another day, or weekend..watching the sunrise from dark to morning! My eyes and body are terribly tired. What can i do besides "getting wasted"? ='( goodnight & good morning to those whose already awake! I miss....something in life!

Sorrow life..

2009-09-03T03:43:00.003+08:00

I really thought I'm the heartless ghost, don't know how to understand others, or even remembering things (important event)... I really can't take it anymore, there's no wrong missing one who don't miss you, but missing one so badly till it kept me awake and didn't want to get home every night yet stayed up till sunrise, I'm collapsing! I can't afford to play the "game" anymore, I admitted to be a loser, I'm unable to play such "heavy heart" game anymore! I always thought there's a point of why I'm still so much in love with one person, one that changes my life, that beautify my love, one whom I always think of, missing, and love so much although there's no respond and even watching them with their other half (new)! I've been feeling such restless, helpless, HOPELESS and USELESS all this 7months (coming soon)! I really thought that "true love" does exist and everything is true...I really still pursuing myself that it's true that you DO MISS ME, DO THINK OF ME, DO LOVE ME, but tonight, I realized its all pointless (maybe I'm deserved to be treated this way). My heart is broken, my heart aches so terribly, I've thought of many events inviting "someone" to join/go together, but I have to deserve to be like this, I know I'm often 'nobody' or 'no one' to anybody! :'( I've said to post up something really soon before, but I don't think it mean anything anymore now...

I wanted to leave this place very soon, the soonest I could... because I've been fooling myself all this while, and also realized there's no point of living with all my sorrowful alone that I've always been true to everyone! I know I don't deserve anything, everybody gets bored with me, gets suckup/fuckup with/while being with me, and no life being in my surrounding. No one ever feels me! No one ever understands me! No one ever loves me! No one ever care or know-the-real-me! :'(

FYP due coming soon, 4 more assignments to go, 4 more exams to go, I've a bad feeling something bad is gonna happen to me, I couldn't share it because I'm not suppose to although I used to share everything to someone, but now, no one at all! I'm seriously very weak, very very weak! I've never fallen down till like this before like last thursday! I wasn't drunk at all, but I just collapse like that! :'( I never expected anything much from anybody before, but just something long lasting! Some concern, some love only...why is it has to make "suffocation" exist and "breakdown" happened! :'( I'm in severe suffocation from living everyday like this, and sleepless night!~ Do you know that I really love you????

-[aLbY]-

I miss you!

2009-09-01T06:25:00.001+08:00

I am MISSING YOU so much!!! ='(

-[aLbY]-

Feeling emotional...

2009-08-27T06:22:00.004+08:00

I'm emotional tonight, it's so hard to put myself to bed! I really couldn't do it at all. The reminiscence of the past kept crossing by my mind and I couldn't forget or let it go at all! I can't put myself to bed at all, its 6++am right now, I've class at 9am till 6pm! :'( what can I do when my "other half" have moved on? What can I do to make myself like someone? How am I able to let go and forget the past when I've been thinking of you all the time? I really can't do it at all, although I'm being forced to let it go...why am I such a loser? Such a loser to everything...

Another scariest moment, my FYP is about to due during the mid of Oct09, and it's already towards the end of Aug09. I couldn't put my mind onto the FYP at all! I've been trying all these while, though I've been walking the journey of life all by myself, but you kept playing apart as the shadow which follows me like how we used to be together.. :'( It's very suffocating, I don't know how much longer I could bear this feeling and continue my daily life with all my tired and strenghtless attitude! Come to this, I almost met in an accident last evening while I was fetching my mom back home after visiting granny from the hospital in KL. While passing by the Old Klang Road outside Taman Desa, I actually doze off a few times, but I kept myself awake, before the traffic light, eventually I doze off and my front tyre ramp up the divider. Mom yelled and woke me up and said, "you actually slept while you drove just now? Haven't you been sleeping?..." I only nod my head and kept myself awake after that till I got back, and took 2+hours nap before I was out for dinner...I knew it's stupid, I knew everybody think that I'm stupid,...I just can't close my eyes while my mind has been thinking of "someone" all the time...maybe I'm still immature, "could take things, but not letting it go...". Everything we went thru together, has made my life today such a spoilt brat today... :'( I don't want it to be like this, but how? What can I do other than repeating my routine everyday and every week?!

Goodnight people, goodnight...I shall pen-off now, and will fulfill my words to do my write out as it's told in the previous post!

Lonesome,
-[aLbY]-

Soon...

2009-08-25T06:38:00.003+08:00

I've something to confessed, thou there're many readers who reads my blog. Thanks for visiting and the concern, but I've something to confessed really soon, as soon as when I've the right time to do the write up. I really need to do so, though I know many have been concerning and wondering who am I writing for, don't ask, I appreciated that, because I didn't want it to be known, not even personally, cause I guess I just wanted to confessed it all out with some rights for myself...as I'm feeling very uncomfy, in the heart, which many been wondering, but I just wanted some privacy for myself because I know somethings, aren't going on smoothly...and not coming back to me too! :'( nobody will understand how I'd feel...including the one who loves me most as well as my family! Thanks for reading this nonsense post but it'll be up really soon...

Goodnight!

-[aLbY]-

Insomnia...again!

2009-08-24T02:15:00.001+08:00

I don't like the feeling, I don't like the imagination I'd in my mind that keeps running here and there, FOOLING me! I can't take it, it's so tiring, my brain is feeling of to blast! "Human being never get what they wanted." Even no matter how committed I am, how much I've been thinking and missing one, others just never feels it! :'( especially when I'm alone at all time, when I have my eyes shut, I could see them in my dreams that they're always together.......everywhere! I really can't take it anymore....insomnia, reminiscence of the past, everything..............I hate myself for real! Why am I so determine, why am I not turning bad even if I'm trying hard to do it and to prove it? I wants to be a bad guy! I wants to be an asshole and just get spoilt! Though I've been spending overly within this 6months, but it isn't the worst yet! WHY I CAN NEVER LET IT GO AND FORGET IT WHEN OTHERS CAN!! Such a loser....such a lamer! Where's my beautiful 23rd?! Why am I still desolated and isolated till today?! I hate the feeling.......

Apart from that, my hair...SIGH...I'm really a saddist! Though many said that I looked good with my head bald like this or SHORT as this, but....seriously, I'm only a 22y/o adult! I need my youth life like any others where they can have their hair style and dyed! It's really heartbreaking each time i see myself comparing with the others especially those in my surrounding, at times many been teasing me a bald headed or NO HAIR, it really irritates me so much where i can barely say a word for myself! SADDIST! People just disliking me for being who i am, and what i am in the physical! There's a cure for it or maybe there is, but.....its too expensive for it! Parents aren't really liking me to take all this! People in my surrounding DONT CARE either,.... :'( what a sad night, what a sad youth, what a sad of myself. All i have is my blog, all i have is my blog that often kept me company and expressed all my feelings out! Nobody will understand, NO BODY WILL cause NO BODY cares! I'm tired of pretending nothing in front of everybody....I'm tired, and very very tired! It's so exhausting of wanting to make one to forgive you for your stupid mistake, for one to accept you for who you are, for others to be please to you, for others to be able to accept you and for others to understand ME! Why can't SOMEONE just understand me at all!! :'( life is just so.....difficult to move on! No matter how much one have experienced or been thru...

-[aLbY]-

Why?

2009-08-20T06:11:00.002+08:00

Why is that so hard to be loved by you, and for you to understand that i truely love you and had never been faked to you before? Why can't we get back although we've been missing each other and still loving each other? Why you can never open your heart back for me to love you at all? Did you know that it's so hard to live with a life you forcing me to let it go and acted nothing happened when i really love you so much?! :'( SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME!!! I'd enough of the tiring and loitering life from night till day! I'm weaker! God, stop fooling me anymore...please!!! It's very suffocating living like this everyday including normal days with no classes the next day or no activities even if i could rest longer, i'm still sleeping at 6+am!

-[aLbY]-

18-08-09: 6months . . .

2009-08-18T06:59:00.003+08:00

It's been 6months, time flies, everything in the surrouding kept changing, but there is something which is still the same which i would want to share with. I know it's been sometime, though the duration can be considered long or maybe short, it depends how the individual would take it, but something never changed. I know that you were living alone waiting, and waiting, same goes to me, but there's something i would want to say here, "I love you, I love you till no matter how I couldn't stop loving you! I couldn't force myself to stop loving you too although at times I told myself for being stupid for loving you so much, till the end, I'm still loving you.." It isn't easy at all to really love one, and I've never said a single gossip about you neither been spreading any rumour unlike the hypocrites which has nothing better to do. Nevertheless, I've been asking yet still been seeking for your forgiveness cause I need you,...and I wanted you back! I know there were many stupid stories spreading around, but never left out my principal towards the relationship that I've never betrayed you before! Though I've made mistakes before in the past, but I've always bear that in mind that it'll never gonna be repeated again. 6months, 6months before the date today is the day we were separated, yet today, you're still playing a role in my heart, not just that, but part of myself. I've never give up on you before...we've been thru alot, really many things together, if love is so easily to fade off after so many years of being together, that wouldn't be love, but fake love, but I knew the "love" between us, are true, that we were suffering alot without each other within this 6months time. I know it's stupid to do this, it's stupid to wait, to depress, or to be anti-social or what so ever, but you're always the one that comes into my mind! The phrase written above in color font are words truely from my heart, I never fooled you, neither lied or being fake, but all I want is getting back by your side to be together happily...I love you baby, I couldn't deny I never think of you everyday and night, all I need is just another hope from you to me for us...that's all I've hoped for, our relationship...I hoped you could read this, and don't ignore me anymore...My love for you have never been faked before, it's all true and it's the true love that I've always been proving to you...and for that, and those we've been through are the memories that you'll never forget which I've never let you go before...I'm missing you so badly!~ :'( I love you..

Love,
-aLbY-