I'm a liar . . . but . . .

My love, I love you...

Although it's been for sometime, yea, i admitted i did pretended as if nothing anymore but the limit had reached, i can't pretend anymore, it's hurting very much! I admitted i'm a liar, i'm a great liar, i stopped talking to u, stopped talking to u, stopped pestering u, it doesnt mean i'm giving up onto u although u insisted, but the truth is that i still love u so much. Yes, i'm stupid, i'm dumb, but there's nothing i can do with it as it's where we develop all by ourselves. If u really mean nothing to me, i would have live happily as if nothing had happened before jz like how a car passes by u by the roadside. I rather drive on and off passing by u, each and everytime, everyday and night, cause i want to see u, i love to see u and whats most importantly, i love u deeply with all my heart. "Alby, try to let it go..", i did, but it failed coz i know no matter what, only u will come back to me in the picture in my mind, no one else even if there're many better ones outside. What's this all about? Stupidity? Sticky? Useless? Restless? Dumb? Or isit really what everyone has been saying, 'true love', which everyone claims it NEVER EXIST. Its true that after so long, i may be the only one who's still waiting for nothing, doing things whereby everyone consider its useless, but to me, whatever it takes for me to get u back, is a bit to bit effort to get closer to u back, as before...or maybe not, i'm never a decision maker in this case.

I miss u, i misses u so much, but everyone ask me over and over again, "Alby, is that worth?", without thinking twice i answered, "YES!" i said it as if it's really true which i'm still believing in "love" existing. Although it has been for sometime we're apart, but, i've never thought of leaving u before...it hurts the most, when u knew i lied, that i was fine, in fact, i wasn't....your concern is always what i prioritized! Does it sounded more likely i'm bullshitting? Ok, i never had the intention to, afterall, u know me best, if i really did it intentionally, u would've being cheated for long...and hurt deeply more than this, but the truth i didnt. Knowing it is useless to explain over and over again, this is what i'm writing to express my feelings, not to u, coz u felt i'm annoying, u felt i'm fooling u, but eventually, no one could help me to make u understand my intention loving u so much, waiting for u to love me back where u'd been afraid of me now...

David, my besties, he'd departed last 2days to overseas for his further studies for 2yrs from now onwards, indeed, i misses him very much, he is my besties which i'll never forget! Knowing him for more than 10yrs since primary, seeing the both of us changes from a huge size body to what we are today, seeing us growing with partners...seeing the changes in us each and every year, yet what is not changed is our besties friendship which never ends. I'm grateful and thankful to have a friend like him as he accompany me most the time when i really needed a shoulder, not fussy of any decision amde (although there are but we could still accomodate at times), not calculative nor revengeful, but simplicity the bestest buddy i ever had in my life. A day before he left, we went out for a drink, we talked alot, then he said to buy me a birthday present, i've got a shoe i wanted the next day which is the same day he's leaving, i wore that to the airport to show him. He said that it suits me and it looks good on me! He's often being straight forward to me, i nevermind any comment he made to me before. His friends, gf, family and relatives were there along at the airport, i was helping to take photographs with his and his bro's DSLR camera. That's all i can do for him. Before he left, Zoe, the gf, actually cried out loud for his departing, i was feeling touched, eyes turned red, but i was standing a side from them. I feel for her, but i told myself not to tears coz i do not want him to know that i'll miss his absence in my future days for 2yrs.

As time goes by, i started realizing people in my surrouding are leaving me one bye one, as if my skin was pilling off, bit by bit. My friends, my relatives and the "special someone i live the happiest and i love most"...i'm feeling restless, i needed the "someone" by my side now, i'm very depress and stress. I need "u" by my side, i need "ur" concern, i need "ur" presence in my life, i need "ur" love...there's no one i wanted anymore. I started realizing, i'm spoiling myself, my health, my studies as well as my everything! I dont know why, my account is almost depleted, the resources i have is limited, myself is somewhere i dont know where it'd been to...i'm losing something very precious, Alby! He's lost, so lost till things started changing!~ Love isn't everything, but the love i got, gives me everything i want...only u know what i mean if u remember i'd asked, "please don't leave me...baby!"

Yesterday i went pass somewhere kL, i remembered there was once i was working at a restaurant for L'Occitane annual dinner, u dropped me there and pick me back after work...many minor things i remembered, maybe u dont, or forgotten, or maybe u did remember every single thing which u're trying hard to forget, forget and let go me as hard as u're trying to achieve what u want! *heartbreaks* Whatever, where ever, whenever, however and whichever, u've been recalled without forgotten every single moment we were together before...from "naive" us, to another level of growing up till today...physically, the biggest changes is u, i'm always the same, never changed, still as bored and useless as before. Everyone today calling me uncle, bald head, old man etc...who would want to be with someone who'd became worst than before, than ever!~ I only see blurred visions, with only black and white color in the picture. I'm seeing things with no more colors without u anymore...i've no strenghts but only full with weaknesses! I cant bear this, i cant bear the loneliness i'm having which is killing me soon...

ME: "Don't abandon me, please...." *tears* (Q: Do u actually know how much i misses u, right up till today after so long?)

I dont know how to confront anyone about this. Pretended nothing, till the night comes, tears the one which accompany me till i'm tired then fell asleep holding my mobile phone! I'm such a pathetic old looking bastard! I disappoint the one i love most, i starting disappointing my family as well as my friends as i'm losing myself..day by day...empty soul walking somewhere in the street!

Assignments, presentations, examination, work, money, personal, family, friends....i'm too much stress and pressured really! I need "u"... :(

p/s: "To whomever who're encountering problem with your partner, think twice before making a decision to end the relationship, it isn't what u all thought to "begin" and "end" simplicity, but there's always a reason why u both got together and be together this long...appreciate them before u lose them.."

"I miss you, you and you so much..."

Lewis Donna Lyrics

Q: Can I just have one last chance from you...please?

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -133-

Have you forgotten the touch between us?

[Vittorio]
Tutte le cose che non sai io te le insegnerò
Le stelle che tu conterai te le regalerò
Saprò inventare favole che ti racconterò
Così che I sogni volino più a nord

[Nicole]
So many things I've never known I will learn from you
I'll find reason in your words that are tried and true

[Vittorio]
E proverò a sorprenderti con un sorriso in più
Così che possa perderti anche tu

[Vittorio & Nicole]
You are my miracle
You are pure and soft just like the air I breathe
You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart
There's a secret that you hold, that you hold
Deep within that so discretely hides your soul

[Nicole]
The strength I simply never found, I will find with you
What I believe our future holds, I will see it through

[Vittorio]
Con te vivrò ogni attimo che mi regalerai
Come se fosse l'ultimo per noi

[Vittorio & Nicole]
You are my miracle
Acqua chiara e fresca che fa vivere
You, heart of my heart
There's a secret that you hold, that you hold
And it's hidden so discretely

[Vittorio]
Vertigy my guide
To love that lasts forever

[Vittorio & Nicole]
You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart
There's a secret that you hold, that you hold
Deep within that so discretely

Will you share with me your secret?
Ever More

____________________________________________________________________________________________________

Finally, after such long time, i gotta get closest to u. No one wouldn't know how i feel, i miss u so much, so darn much! Its been such a long time since few months back and i finally gotta get closest to u for once. My heartaches really much, very very much when i saw u lying on the bed like that. Tears tearsing non-stop watching u in suffocation. Hold ur hand tightly, hugging u with tears while pampering u on ur face, it was my greatest time of all this few months time! *tears* nevertheless, i helped to clean ur body and limbs, watching u tearsing without a word, it really hurts myself too. All i did was holding ur hand tightly, sitting by ur side, keeping u company through the night till morning. All i knew was that i misses u so much till i could tears non-stop while hugging u through the night before the sunrises. It still proves that i still love u very much....but, have u really forgotten the touch between us? I'm only having worries and stress over so much....and it seems nothing that i can do. I'm so lost! Is it really that u've forgotten of the touch between the both of us, including the night i was there for u??? :'(

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -118-

What am I? Who am I? Where am I?

Who am i? Where am i standing? What am i? I'm so lost, it's so hurting in my heart as if being stabbed into the heart! Its been for weeks, i've not been sleeping well, not having sufficient rest, and been tearsing missing someone badly...can't do anything at all, it's so suffocating. I've been waiting, waiting for "someone" to accept me back as who i am used to, but things got worsten for no reason. I dont know what can i do. Its so pain in the heart, i love "someone" so much but "someone" is scare to get back coz afraid to be hurt again. I never mean it, u knew me best, u knew i'd always never meant to do this, why arent u forgiven to me as i've been doing so much to get us back? :'( i felt so suffocated without u! I miss u everyday and night, where ever i am, u're still in my mind! I'm only getting weaker day by day due to the insufficient rest, sick for many times and recovered then sick back. I didnt care too, but still waiting, while writing my feelings on the blog. Somehow, i can only tell, no matter how did u responded to me towards whatever i've been doing, i'm still so much in love with u. Maybe EVERYONE can call me a stupid freak, MAYBE u'll also think that i'm another stupid freak, or whomever it is said that to me, i reckon, in the end, only myself who will know whether isit worth or stupid or not. Afterall, so much of things happened, or whatever which we'd been thru (though not much, but its sufficient for me to love so much), and whatever commitment we made together, thats why i'm truely loving u with my heart till the vain.



Sick...sick....sick....prolly not only others would said that, but u may thought so too, but if i dont love u truely, i wont be doing this right up till today, being called a stupidity waiting for someone for nothing. Everyone said so, but i'd never gave up before, but as much as know how u feel right up till today even we'd never meet or contacted for sometime, i know u still love me. Maybe i'm wrong, tell me if i am....but whatever we did and been thru together, no matter how much time we'd been separated, i'll still love u very very very much...and i'll prove u, that i truely love u very much too...only u will know coz u know me best, if only u'd forgotten about me..

Always bear in mind, no matter what happened to u in the end, u're still who u're to me and the one i love is u and the inner u, not what u looked like or what others said...bEE always loves u!~

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -112-

I'll never break your heart . . .

[Spoken:]
Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me

[Chorus:]
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
[2x]

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid)
To let your feelings show (feelings show)
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because)
I deserve a try (try) honey
Just once (once)
Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked)
You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge)
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

[Chorus (2x)]

[Bridge:]
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)

[Chorus (3x)]

p/s: I'm sorry baby, i'm really sorry....I love u and I really love u honestly...I promise, I'll never break your heart anymore...

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -112-

存爱

p/s: "How much i love u, cant be measured, but how much i really love u, is how much i've tried to get us back my love.."

爱情是一本存摺 零存快乐
每天查询有多少的余额
你设下难猜密码 把自己所锁着
既然给你的 我就不会舍不得

我没有藉口 去预知你的自由
你没有理由 为了偿还爱的承诺 放弃你的天空

爱你 很多很多
只想存给你快乐 却提领更多寂寞
存爱 存在记忆中
回忆它让我富有 思念确让我贫穷

还有多少青春 可以挥霍 对爱的执着
就让泪水静静慢慢流 在 蓦然回首



I remember this is another version of "Chu Shou Tai Zhong", the meaning is direct saying that "Love Exist" which means "Cun Ai". The inner depth of this song means alot to me, and also the one i loved most too! U were the one who introduced me to this song! It means really much to not only myself but the both of us. I love u, and i miss u so much too! I do not know what can i do to get us back together, but i can only be continuously being in my own world, in my blog, writing and dedicating my feelings by words.... "Our love" really existed as it isn't as what u've always never been believing in! I love u truely with all my open heart and never had let u go before, as thou u requested before.....afterall, i'm sorry, but i love u too much deeply baby... i know i may be no one to anyone and everyone could feel "disgusted" with my words here, but afterall, this is how much i love u and no one will ever understand why isit so too except urself...

There was a day, i went to the cuppacakes, and ordered some cuppacakes, saw this box of cuppacakes, i remembered i've bought this for u when i found out about cuppacakes during one of our monthly celebration. Anyhow, i didnt get to buy this that time, but i'm dedicating this for u! There's a card on this box of cuppacakes theme is "I love you" by me, showing that i bought the cuppacakes that time is what i really wanna cheer u up and also meant that i love u as in this box of cuppacakes!

p/s: "I jz somehow needed ur T.L.C back baby..."

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -109-

洋葱

Sober...sober...depress...depress....super depress! Eyes swollen, pretended as if i was drunk thats why my eyes are red and swollen in front of my parents, in fact it was tears that makes my eyes swollen! I'm missing something, really something that is very precious to me but....its really missing! I'm really lost! I really do love u lots! I'm sorry...really! I've a dedication for u, hoped u listen to the song...that's what i wanna tell u! :'(

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -107-

the "TUESDAY".

I remember we'd a very beautiful and enjoying tuesday before. Full with love and tender on that day, we planned to have dinner together then go for ice-cream at Swensen, EARTHQUAKE! Yeah its 50% every tuesday!~ so we decided to go for a sweet-tuesday ice-cream. Having the favourite together on such a meaningful day with your love ones, thats whats most beautiful and delicious. It's another tuesday today, i dont know what u've been doing, what had happened on u too lately, but all i know, tuesday is the EARTHQUAKE day. I didnt make it to any of the Swensen outlet for ice-cream, but i'm happy to watch Baskin Robin & Haagen Daaz. I just want to have my tuesday Earthquake with the one i only love back.... It was raining terribly since evening, i was stucked in Midvalley, cant go out for Swensen, i thought having it myself....alone thou, but didnt make it too in the end. Passing another lonely tuesday night, it's really driving me crazy missing "u". I do not know what to do, but only knowing that i'm stressed with many things lately. Insomnia....insomnia....insomnia....is back haunting me over and over again!~

"星", this song, it reminds me so much of u, nevertheless, i dont know what went wrong out of a sudden. But u should know the truth beneath that i'm still right here waiting for u, we may be friends right now, but u know i'm still so much in love with u and wants to love u back only. If only this blog is still in existing and it happen that u read this one day, this is what 'http://alby27.blogspot.com @ All About Me, Myself & I....' is all about u... It doesnt matter for me to wait, as long as when the day comes, and u've understand my sincerity and fidelity towards u, i promised, 'the past' will never gonna happen again anymore...

If my love for u is fake, if my sincerity is fake, if my fidelity is ever fake to u and what if only whatever is written in this blog are fake also, u can let everything go with peace and forget about the bastard, named Alby who owns the blog and hate him forever...but when the day comes that u ever trust what i've expressed and waited for, once for all for the last time, let me love u till the world ends...i will not hurt or disappoint u anymore, i'll never hurt u anymore and i'll never let others harm u too...this is my love for u!!

p/s: 'Always been missing, and loving u...'

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -102-

100th Day @ Nostalgic

When u say u dont love me, i'd always believe that it's not true coz i know u love me more than anything else. Its the 100th day, everyone may have thought i've gone to somewhere, missing or perhaps extinct. I really wanted to, but i couldn't, coz i know u're still the one and only that i love most, the one and only that i want to be with and the one and only that i need baby. No matter what it's i'll still love u as much as it is. I admitted it's all my fault to have disappointed u and break ur heart, i dont mean it, and never mean to by purpose before. Afterall i'm not only seeking for forgiveness but also allowing me to love u back as before. I'm also an ordinary person, as ordinary as u use to think still! What i want is u, but nothing. U may be fear of getting hurt again, but what i've been expressing and waited for u all this while, i promised that i'll never gonna repeat the same old mistakes anymore. As time passes by, hour by hour, day by day, weeks by weeks, it has now reached to the 100th day and i'm still the Alby who loves u as much as how i used to, maybe u dont but...ya, i cant really tell anymore but only misses u very very much!!~



p/s: "I do not wanna lose someone who means everything to me, and if u were doubting who i meant, yes, that person is definitely going to be u, it isn't a lie but a promise. It's all true..."

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -100-

PARANOID

I'm feeling very paranoid lately, very paranoid. I do not know what is myself and where am i standing on Earth. I felt i'm left out at a corner yet everyone, i mean EVERYONE is having their "life" now. Maybe we should call it simple life instead. I'm a complicated person, a very very very complicated person, thats what people saying this days. I do not even know that myself is as complicated as it was thought. No wonder i've been lonely all this while, paranoid in the night, tearsing asking "why, why and why...?" I really dont know why am i feeling so paranoid lately. Tears when i'm alone, tears during the midnight and before sleep. EAch day i'm feeling even tired and exhausted. Beginning to feel i'm in an empty space alone. I tried, and tried and have been trying to get something back but.....i dont know but, i'm lost, i'm confuse, i'm somewhere hanging in the middle in the air, couldn't find my "simple life". Simple life is what everyone wanted, i'm still seeking for it but what's most important, I am not complicated! Its been sometime including my friends and family including someone which i still love and cared, should have known me well, should've known what and who i am, am i really such a complicated or who gives trouble to others kind of people? :'( i need someone, i need "someone" to be by my side to keep me courage and energy. Afterall, u know me best, u know me well, i'm sorry for what happened, i'm awake from the fairytale, i'll not repeat the old silly mistakes anymore, if only i could have u back in my arms...

Goodnight everyone...

p/s: "I'm missing something, something very valuable to me, but eventually "it" thought "it" isn't valuable to me anymore...i miss u, for real, if u dont believe me"

If you don't know me by now"

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -96-

Without you

-[aLbY]- @ -94-

Saturday Mr.Lonely..

I'm feeling terribly lonely, sad, exhausted and lost now...
My bro is not around, sister is not around too, only my parents...
I'm all alone... :(
I need "someone's" help...



I dont know what can I do when I miss you so much.. :'(
Goodnight everyone...

-[aLbY]- @ -92-

Just for you . . .

-90-

I see you beside me
It's only a dream,
A vision of what used to be
The laughter, the sorrow
Pictures in time
Fading to memories.

How could I ever let you go
Is it too late to let you know

I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out all the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you... you...

I needed my freedom
That's what I thought
But I was a fool to believe
My heart cried while you cried
Rivers of tears but I was too blind to see

Everything we've been though before
Now it means so much more

I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When it turn out all the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you...

Only you...
So come back to me
I'm down on my knees
Can't you see...

How could I ever let you go
Is it too late to let you know

I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When it turn out all the light
Even the night it only reminds me of you... you

Only reminds me of you

_______________________________________________________________________________________________

Its been 3months, there's nothing much to reveal or whatsoever, some people used this term as "watever" heheh where ever i go, it'll only reminds me of you. I wondered, i really have been wondering, would you think of me where ever we'd been together before, or whenever it is. Honestly, i really do, but the worst thing is that i couldn't do anything about it! :( laying on the bed everyday and night, thinking whether will i have anymore chance to do what i used to hug u to sleep, or had pillow talked with u before sleep. Hugging seems to be a very normal act to anyone, but hugging someone u love so much, is something special, something very special which no one could describe but u'll eventually get 'addict' to it. Some may think its nonsense that i'm writing now, probably its useless, or maybe stupid, but i've got to admit that, this is what 'you' mean to me. I may mean nothing to anyone, but i couldn't deny to say out the truth that indeed, u've always been in my heart. No doubt although i've hurt u before, but all this time, including this 3months post, its' all truely from my heart. Although i couldn't wish you face-by-face nor sms, its the 1yrs10mths anniversary, but i'll only wish you here, happy 20th month anniversary my love...i've been missing you so much, and will always love you...

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -90-

The closer I get to you

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I tried to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

Lying here next to you
Time just seems to fly
Needing you more and more
Let's give love a try

Oh
Sweeter and sweeter love grows
And Heaven's there for those
Who fool the tricks of time
With the hearts of love, they find true love
In a special way

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I tried to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

The closer I get to you
The feeling comes over me
Me too
Pulling closer, sweet as the gravity

The closer I get to you

"For you, my love.."

-[aLbY]- @ -89-

bUTTEr cAKe!!~

I want you to need me LYRICS

It has been quite sometime since i last ate butter cake, i miss butter cake so much! I miss the chocolate butter cake u used to baked for me to eat!!~ I miss u lots...

-[aLbY]- @ -86-

**random post**

Knowing that myself cant do anything, i really felt restless and useless of myself... :'(

-[aLbY]- @ -85-

What can i do?

I jz need u to be with me, i'm feeling things are getting worst in the surrounding this days. I realized "shadow" is whats left, somehow some thing is moving further away from me. There's nothing that i can do to hold someone's heart, i felt useless of myself. Is there a point missing and wondering what the person i love doing everyday and night? Can someone assist me, what to do? What can i do to get things back? :'(

-[aLbY]- @ -85-

ENOYLNO

-Day 83-

I realise i'm not good enough, in terms of everything especially in talent as well as the whole of myself. I'm really not as good as so many in the surrounding. I seems to be a total failure. Lately i found out something mysterious, the mysterious is so much of talent! I'm really a failure! Thats why i'm here alone, tonight, updating the blog while i'm falling sick soon with my thick eye bags, i'm never good enough for anyone...

Goodnight Alby!

-[aLbY]- @ -83-

Untitled

-Day 79-

I realise i've lost in this "game" where everyone take this as a game, but to me it's never a game! I dont know how should i express my feelings, but it's jz as if i lost myself...again even if i love one so much. I remember a phrase, 'once a loser, forever a loser." I've lost in this game, lost everything now, i'm a loser, and everyone see how i lose it! Even no matter how strong i am towards anything, especially in my relationship, i'll still lose it! I'm lost and alone...i'm lonely, and i'm distraught walking alone too. I dont know what's loving and missing someone so badly, i dont understand what's me, myself and i, i definitely won't know who i am anymore too. Perhaps, i should be MIA to the third world alone although i'd never give up on u before. But i know i deserve to be all alone since u've ignored me, even when u've always been in my heart... *tears..*

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -79-

L o s t

Lost, i'm lost tonight! Lost of love, lost of care, lost of hugs, lost of touch, lost of someone i always love! *S.O.S* I just want to say how much i really love you in my heart...whatever you've lost, i lost too, whatever i wanna gain is the trust towards my love and sincerity for u coz i wanna proof whats the three words mean and how much u mean to me too!

-[aLbY]- @ -76-

I miss you . . .

I chose to walk with you from the beginning, i'd never regretted to be with you before. Right up till today, i'm still holding on for you cause there's nothing more i could express besides saying "i love you"..., it may not mean anything to you anymore, but there's nothing mean more than you compared to anything. Would you let me hold your hand back? *tears* i dont know........... *tears* i only know that, missing one whom u can barely see and love so much, the feeling is as if i'm being stabbed in the heart by the besties!

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -74-

One night . . .

Yesterday was the first day of class in a brand new semester, not too bored, but still bored! Half way of the last class, i left early for servicing and repair for my SLK. Reached to the place at 4pm, only get to leave at 6.30pm, having dinner at 8pm! The dinner was ok, the ambience..., isn't as before but it's still fun and enjoyable. After dinner everyone left, after fetching two of my friends back, i didn't wanna go back home, so i went to the mamak alone. One of the friend came to keep my company for 45mins, then left, and i was alone again. I wasn't feeling well during at the mamak, till i got back home, i was having terrible headache and *swing*, so i took a short bath and slept after that. Sad...sad...lonely...sick...heartache...missing someone...sIgh!~ I miss u....but i know....

-[aLbY]-

"Chen Rak Te"

Lately i learnt this from my friend, "chen rak te". It's ok if y'll don't understand this word :D to those who knows this word, ya, thanks for reading this post. Its not necessary to spend your time reading my blog, but this is where i start, where i'll end too. Anyhow, people u may be wondering what's this post all about? Nothing much really, its jz about the music u're listening right now...sit, relax and enjoy! Whatever feeling that gives y'll while listening to this music, go ahead and think about it. To me, there's jz sadness, sadness, sadness and sadness, guessed i'll jz call it "depression". Sad of what? Sad of something, something that someone would understand how would i feel for this musical song...

New semester, class starting shortly, my eyes are tired, and still sick, insomnia again. Anyhow, its 5am now. I'm missing someone, someone i miss hugging in my arms. I couldn't express that anymore, what i would say here is "chen rak te". Goodnight readers...

-[aLbY]- @ -72-

I wanna be with you!

I try but I cant seem to get myself
To think of anything
But you
Your breath on my face
Your warm gentle kiss I taste the truth
I taste the truth

We know what I came here for
So I won`t ask for more

I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one whose in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There`s nothing more to say
There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you (yeah)

So I`ll hold you tonite
Like I would if you were mine
to hold forever more
And I`ll saver each touch that I wanted
So much to feel before (to feel before)
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this

I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one whose in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There`s nothing more to say
There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way
(I wanna be) I wanna be with you

Oh baby
I can`t fight this feeling anymore
It drives me crazy when I try to
So call my name
Take my hand
Make my wish
Baby, your command?

Yeahhh
I wanna be with you
There`s nothing more to say
There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way
(I wanna be)I wanna be with you (I wanna be with you)
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you (Yeahhh)
(I wanna be with you)I wanna be
I wanna be with you
(I wanna be)
(i wanna be)
(I wanna be with you) Yeahh
(I wanna be with you)
I wanna be, I wanna be baby
I wanna be
(I wanna be with you)
I wanna be with you yeah
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you

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There's nothing that i want, but only wanna be with u! Suddenly felt like hearing this song, so i dedicated this to somebody whom i wanna be with. No matter whom u think i am, what u think ia m, or whomever it is, i'll still be the one who loves u most! I jz cant tell how much i miss and love u, but all i want is to be with u baby...dare to say it or not, i've to clarify that i've never let go of u or fooled u before, I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU!

Sorry guys, i've not much to write for tonight, tired, sore-throat and not feeling well! Goodnight everybody...

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -67-

M i s s i n G y o u . . . .

I can only tell that i miss you...



Click here for lyrics

Enjoy the song..

-[aLbY]-

23-04-2008 - My love will get you home (Con't)

Memoirs..

Time flies and its been two months, who knows that im still having insomnia everynight, yet i'm still waiting for you. I know there were many things happened lately, really many unexpected incident happened. I dont know why, i really dont know why! My life has been miserable coz of being misunderstand, but what i can do is to clarify, but the clarity isn't working much. It isn't not only not working, but i felt many other unrelated things coming in too. *heartbreak* Eventually i have to face others that im such kind of person, its so suffocating. I tried avoiding, i tried hiding, i tried forcing myself to stay away from everyone coz i'm afraid, i'm afraid what would happen the next few minutes, hours or days! Some may be thinking that im pretending or seeking for sympathy, some may be taking what i said seriously, but the truth is only within me, myself and I, and the God! Its 23-04-2008, another 23rd alone..., previously, every 23rd, i'll have the sweetest dinner, sweetest day, sweetest ice-cream, sweetest words with the sweetest person. It makes me recalled of so much, really very very much of what we've done and been thru together, but in the end, things turned out like this today, unfortunately, unexpectedly!

Recently, i've just finished watching "Heart of Greed", its a chinese series, some may know what series some may not, but its alright, it isnt important to know or not also but there's something i would like to share about. In this series, there are scenes which are very touching, i can say the scenes can be applied to what i faced before and now. Love is an easy come, easy go thing, but both really loving each other and been thru so much is not easy at all. We'd faced many ups and downs together within the period we've been together; happy, unhappy, disappointment, fear, death, celebrations, anniversaries, surprised etc...no matter what happened, we'll also be there for each other to overcome it together or share it together. I miss the sound, i miss the sound of laughter, i miss the feeling, i miss the feeling of being cared and loved by the one i love, i miss u, i miss the whole u in my life. I remembered there were times we hugged each other while tearsing. That time, we will hug each other tightly, tearsing saying we love each other very much, we're sorry to each other and the conversation continues...i wanted to hug u, not only plain hugging u but hugging u to sleep too. I remember which was the best time, when u need to go for car service and i was still sleeping, u gave me a peck on my forehead and pamper me on my head before u left! That was the sweetest thing i'd in my life! I felt so much in love with u, not at that time, but so much love from u!

I can tell, u're the greatest person i've met, u're the one and only which i really love so much and have given me the love i want, the "warm" feeling in my life. U'd enlighten me so much, although there were arguements at times, but sometimes, arguements cant be avoided as some arguements are just meant to happen at the wrong time in some relationships. Some may strenghten the relationship, some may weaken the relationship, but i guess i've been positive enough to take all the arguements to strenghten our relationship. Nonetheless, we've been thru many arguements and things together, even no matter what u are today, i'm still here waiting for u. I may be waiting for nothing, but as long as if i'd really tried my best, time will tell am i doing the right thing for the right person or not. I believe in myself, i believe in what i've been thru with the one i love, and most importantly i believe in u who said "i'm the only one u love but no one else", hence, this is why i've been writing for the past 60days. I've gotta say, love is a very strong power that could make one crazy for it! Some dont believe in love, or maybe true love, but i need u to assure one thing, we will not get to be together this long if we dont really love each other. Each and everywhere i've been to or passing thru, it only reminds me of u along the pathway. In the series, there's this couple, where they really love to be with each other and loving each other very much, but there had many arguements, and in the end, they broke up on and off. At the end, the gal really insisted to break up with the guy. The guy love her very much, and for sure the gal too but she doesnt want to get back together, she has been looking for her besties for a talk and being sad at most of the time. Day by day it passes, week by week, month by month, years by year...eventually, they bumped onto each other for business, but sad to say there were once, the guy met in an accident, the gal had decided to forgive, therefore, she'd sent him a mail. After the guy met in the car accident, without thinking twice, he forced himself to walked to the nearest telephone booth and called the gal, telling her the point he had in mind for the case the gal is in charge of as both of them is a lawyer. The moment he finished his point and said to the gal that he'll call her back when he's back home as he's driving, but when the guy hangup the call, the guy perished...after sometime, the gal received a call from the police station, knowing that the guy had perished, she was terribly upset and cried out loud, refuse to accept the truth but kept crying...

Its sad, its really sad that the guy couldnt read that she'd forgive him and wanted to get back together, but from here, we knew that the both of them really loving each other very much after years had passed. I may be thinking too far away, but its an example of what we've "gone thru" before and also the present. I do not want to have guilt in life! We'd been thru so much together, although it isn't as much as others thought, but also not as little as other thought, but it's sufficient for me to proof that i really love u! I miss those days, i miss the time when u hold my hands, i miss the time when u kissed me on my forehead before sleep, i miss the time when u kissed my forehead and left then came back after that! No one would understand how would i feel, and why should i wait for u...maybe even urself dont know why, but as a summary, your "love" told me to do so coz i'm sure no one would understand u more than i do...

This song is dedicated to u, it's also a theme song from the series, "My love will get you home". Alright, i'm tired, still sick, not feeling well i mean, its time for me to pen-off. Goodnight everyone...goodnight to u my love! *kisses on forehead*

Here's another song, i know u liked this song too...goodnight! Starry starry night for me...

p/s: "Love you, love you, and i'll always be loving you..."

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -60-

23/04/2008 - My love will get you home

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.
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p/s: "If only u remember of this song, its been 2months, i still love u and miss u as usual..."

Love,
-[aLbY]-

I will be . . .

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

Bridge:
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Verse 2:
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, coz you're here with me

Bridge:
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Coz I will never let you go

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Ending bridge:
Coz without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah...

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, did you see,
You're all I need

Chorus:
And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay (more)

Yours truely,
-[aLbY]-

I don't want you to go, my love . . .

Here I am
Alone and I don't understand
Exactly how it all began
The dream just walked away
I'm holding on
When all but the passion's gone

And from the start
Maybe I was tryin' too hard
It's crazy 'cause it's breakin' my heart
Things can fall apart but I know
That I don't want you to go
And heroes die
When they ignore the cause inside
But they learned from what's left behind
And fight for something else
And so it goes
That we have both learned how to grow

And from the start
Maybe we were tryin' too hard
It's crazy 'cause it's breakin' our hearts
Things can fall apart, but I know
That I don't want you to go

(Oh) it's just too much
Takin' on the whole world all by myself
There's not enough
Unless I start trustin' somebody else
Somebody else and love again

And from the start
Maybe we were tryin' too hard
It's crazy 'cause it's breakin' our hearts
Things can fall apart, but I know
That I don't want you to go, no

Maybe we were tryin' too hard
It's crazy 'cause it's breakin' our hearts
Things can fall apart, but I know
That I don't want you to go

Oooh no, I don't want you to go
Say that you won't go

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What do you see in this picture? A normal cloudy scenic? Indeed, but this is what i'm feeling, not trying to be dramatic or what but only being expressive of my feeling. People around, friends around, family and including my beloved too, i guess no one understands how do i feel every day and night. It's every day and night. Its just like what's portrait in this picture, cloudy, dull, dark, lost, don't see the limelight, no direction, lifeless, restless, sad....et cetera. I don't understand why am in such a pathetic situation. I'd never thought i would became such depress and heartbreaking. Indeed, everyone will be wondering why do i felt so? Alright, let me make things clear, i'd never been accused to be a terrible person before, its not a complain nor anything, but i'm only expressing why do i felt so. I've never been treating people bad before, the worst thing i've done was only ignoring my brother, the rest, i dont see it unless to my only enemy. I'd never treated any other people bad before, never, definitely not to my beloved too. Why would u think unnecessarily? Why would u go so far? Its alright even u walked further, eventhough if i'm slow, i can still catch u up because u've left footprints and i'm always behind u no matter what happened, never had left u lonely before too. I've never treated u bad, i've never before, can someone tell how bad would i be till my love doesn't want to stop walking...u know me well, i don't want u to go, i don't want u to go....can u not leave me baby? :'( i really don't want u to go...

It's 4++am, i'm not back home yet, still outside, my connection was down again when it was fine for the last 24hours but after the rain and thunderstorm, it went off again. I was out for group studies since 10.30pm, everyone left by 2.30am, yet i'm still outside, revising.....as well as writing, cause i dont feel like going back home. I've been having sleepless night more than a month, worries kept bothering me, efforts made to get things back with my love, proving my love what others said are wrong, what u thought are wrong too cause i do not want to suffer being accused i'm never a sincere person or not serious towards my love kind of person. I can proof for the last few hundred days, i've never been fake or insincere to u before. Whatever incident including the goods and bads, i'd never forgotten before! I've never had reluctant u before too, why do we have to suffer of the "untrue story/fact". I remembered those days, whenever any rumour was spread, u told me not to bother coz most of these people outside are destroyer and fake! Bitches and bastards like bitching of others! U said its things btw us, u love me, u wont bother any shits from these people! FRom then, i don't bother whatever bullshits spreaded coz i'm never easily being influenced when u said that to me. I'd never taken u for granted before, if love is about taking granted of each other, i wouldn't be like this till today, i wouldn't bother, i wouldn't care, i wouldn't be depress too! Whats love? Whats you to me? Whats everything we've been thru to us? They're what we believe to be true coz we're both equally serious and proven to be important to each other! I do not believe that my personality and character which u know cant prove that i'm what u said to be the only person u love and wont let go, if i dont let go.. :'( another night, i'm tearsing for your absense in my life...i've said and promised u before bed, u're my one and only one, i'll never gonna let u go no matter what my love...

p/s: "TRust me, my sincerity for u, my love for u and myself for u, are always true and real! I will never fool or play with your love for me coz I AM NEVER gonna let your past to repeat and hurt u...I'll have my words for u baby!"

Love,
-[aLbY]-

真心话

早晨醒来身上沾了颜料
而画笔还握得很紧很牢
阳光中你仍静静悄悄
在画板上看着我微笑
几乎每天梦到散着步和你聊
有一种幸福和美好
我感觉得到却捕捉不到
有时候让情绪很糟
感动明明塞满胸口却说不明白
我爱得多么澎湃
只愿你能看得出来
喜欢你想爱你想说真心话
我只有深情但请你收下
我只有痴狂却不懂得方法
把我心里想的怀里有的清楚让你看吧
喜欢你想爱你想说真心话
路也许还长但爱已出发
我也许太傻却一点也不假
会永远体贴永远守约你肯让我爱你吗
想看着你闹陪着你笑让我爱你吧

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How true can a person be, also depend on how much one understand and love another. If we do not understand and love the person, the relationship won't begin. A loveship begin when 2 person loves each other. What about me? Ya, i love u, i love u with all my heart, and this is true that i couldn't deny at all. Would a person who lie and betrayed, will still wants to wait for their other half this long? No, cause they are meant to hurt one in the end, i dont. I dont play with loveships, i dont betray my love ones, and i'll never take anyone for granted too. Am i such person? Am i the person who betray? Am i the person who take friends or lovers for granted? Am i that kind of person? I reckon most people who knows me well enough, would know the right answer for the question. I dont betray, i dont take friends/lovers for granted. I could confirm, i've never taken any advantage on u before, never, and i definitely wont betray u too coz u're the one and only i love most right up till today...

This is all my true words, thats what stated on my title tonight. U walk away with sadness and disappointment due to the untrue stories, u're hurt deep inside, but i'll never let u go coz i've never done so. If one really take love for granted, he/she wouldn't wait to get back with their lover as what i've been doing. I've never let u go before, i've never give up before, i've never betrayed u before, i've never take u for granted before and i'll never forget to remember u too! U shine in my life, i wouldn't let the light of my life to be away from me coz i'm your current, i supplies electricity to your light to shine in my life. It has always been 2way, u've never and will never be taken for granted by the person name Alby coz he loves u with the heart. A heart, do not take another heart for granted. I can ensure my love for u is never a lie but its all true. I've never forgotten my words to u before, i truely love u...

"Believe it or not, i still miss u..."
"Believe it or not, i still love u..."

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -52-

EXAM WEEK.....AND IM ALL ALONE.....

My internet was down since noon, then, i called TM, they told me my port is having problem, will send someone over to check and repair within 2working days (hopefully they'll reach by monday noon!). AFter dinner with my sister and brother, i went to Kopitiam Cheras for internet and revision alone coz they're operating 24hours now! Ya alone, from 11pm till now 3.30am, raining now, im sick, flu, alil fever and not feeling well. Gotta face exam at 11am in awhile, wish me luck people! Sigh, another one on wednesday! And ya, my parents left last morning (sunday morning) for a week and my sister left (sunday night) for 2weeks. I'm gonna be ALL ALONE throughout my exam and.....ya my semester break too! Sigh...people said its stupid, but i never thought of it before although still i misses and love u! Hopefully i could pass my exam this semester for now! *praying hard*
Goodnight everyone and to u too...
Love u always...

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -51-

This is what "I love you" means . . .

Love isn't all smiles and laughs
for the moment; but crying and fighting
for what you believe is right and will last
is what love' most beautiful thing
do the right thing..
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My heart belongs to you
So what could I do
To make you feel I'm down with
You see me hangin around
But you don't know how
you make me feel for
you, and

Each and every day, I
try to make some sense
of this
What you mean to me, I know
it could be serious
Each and every nite, I dream
about just holding you
Loving you like this, what is
a girl supposed to do

I love you
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you
I need you
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

First time I saw your face
My heart just erased
All the guys I knew before
You walked into my life
I was the type to never
want for nothing

Each and every day, I
try to make some sense
of this
What you mean to me, I know
it could be serious
Each and every nite, I dream
about just holding you
Loving you like this, what is
a girl supposed to do

I love you
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you
I need you
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

I love you, I want you, I
need you in my life
Can't you see what you mean to me
Baby come hold me tight
I miss you, wanna kiss you
Everytime I see your face
Baby I'll be waiting for you
Each and everyday

I love you
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you
I need you
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

You're the only one for me
And I know it's meant to be
What can I do to make you see
My love will carry on
So listen to my heart and know
You'll find out where my love will go
The future lies between us boy
Oh babe I love you so

I love you
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you
I need you
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

I love you
I want you
You're the one that I live for
And I can't take it any more
I love you
I need you
What can I do to make you see
You're the only one for me

Love,
-[aLbY]-

爱的就是你

Was out for some discussion and group studies earlier till late midnight, came back and did some revision summo as exam is just next week and no one will be around! Its 5.20am in the morning now, my eyes are so tired! Going off to bed now...goodnight everyone, and goodnight to u too! Here's a song before i'm off to bed...



王力宏
失去才会懂得珍惜
但我珍惜你
伤越痛就是爱越深
我不相信
你和我同时停止呼吸
每一次我们靠近
你让我忘了困惑
忘了所有烦心
我把你紧紧拥入怀里
捧你在我手心
谁叫我真的爱的就是你
在爱的纯净世界
你就是我唯一
永远永远不要怀疑
我把你当作我的空气
如此形影不离
我大声说我爱的就是你
在爱的幸福国度
你就是我唯一
我唯一爱的就是你
我真的爱的就是你
oh~~~~~oh~~~~~
就是你~~~~~yeah~~~~~~
唯一爱的就是你
爱的就是你

Love,
-[aLbY]-

Something only love can do!

When you're lost and the light is fading
The wind blows cold and
you can't find your way back home
Remember that the darkest hour is
just before the dawn
Sometimes a leap of faith is all it takes

Cause only love can see the path to set you free
Just close your eyes, look inside
and let your heart believe
There's been a force so strong
beside you all alone
You'll know it when your dream comes true
There's something only love can do

In your quest for a new horizon
Set your course find a star to light your way
Although the task may seen
sometimes to be more than you can bear
One thing you need to know you are not alone

If you believe in miracles
then you can be the one
To shine you light and show the world
There's nothing love can't overcome

There's something only love can do
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It's my first time and I've wrote this for u...

From your eyes, I've seen everything,
From my eyes, u've missed something,
What we had is loving,
What we had is caring,
What we had is understanding,
But miscommunication always lead to misunderstanding,
U're loving, U're also caring,
But I'm also not too bad coz i'm also loving and caring..

All we have is committing,
Committing in what we believe,
Committing to what u've been committed to,
Committing in what i've been committing..

U know me most,
U shouldn't have thought of those,
Cause i know u most,
U're only being manipulated by those,
The pain is killing us,
When we're apart cause of those,
Cause u love me most,
I've never mad of those,
Cause u love me most,
I've never blame u for those,
Cause i know u most, and love u most,
That is why this is what i mean 'love' to us...

With love,
-[aLbY]-

Only Love . . .

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

Love,
-[aLbY]-

YOU

You
A fading memory of you
A loneliness that calls on you
When twilight comes too soon
To mourn, to haunt, our reverie

You,
Won't you tell me what to do
What to say and how to prove
That I long to be so close to you
That is all I ask of you
I can't help it but i'm so
In love with you
Don't tell me that's too hard on you
Cause no one else will do

You,
You can make me see it through
I am nothing without you
Baby hold me close to you
That is all I ask of you
You walk away & i'll be running back to you
Running back to you
You're my one & only one you--

You can make me see it through
I am nothing without you
Please hold me close to you
That is all I ask of you
You walk away & i'll be running back to you
Running back to you
You're my one & only one you

U see me wrong, u see it wrong, u feel it wrong coz i'm never what u thought i'd treated u as what u said. I love u truely till the bottom of my heart, this is what i've been doing for u! U've had me all! I wont let u go coz of the untrue fact..

Love,
-[aLbY]-

Sunshine . . .

*** I still remember u said u liked her song very much! I'd never forgotten before. *** lyrics

I watched another sunrise today, but this morning i dont really see the sun due to the heavy mist. The weather was a little cloudy. But i still managed to watch the sky turned bright at the end. Huh? What? Another day? Ya,...i miss u so much! Been thinking of u, and kept asking myself why too, no one to keep me company, so i decided to wait for the sunrise. Until today, i still care, i still cared alot about u, i miss u and i still love u as much as i used to! I still remember i learnt this from u, "each and everytime when i woke up, i'll greet myself good morning!" to make urself more refreshing! Instead of greeting good morning to myself, i greeted "good morning to myself and i love u!" The spirit that i still have, was because u mean alot to me. I can be called stupid by anybody, coz of doing stupid act, but btw me and u and its for u, it aren't stupid at all coz whatever u've said to me, taught me, done for me, i remembered ALL and it means alot to me too! That's why i love u so much till today no matter what happen and wont leave u but will wait for u...

I found out myself although im still being stubborn & strong to get things back, it's all because i love u truely with my heart and dont want to be separated with u coz of the misunderstandings happening outside. I had never betrayed u, i mean it, i NEVER BETRAYED anybody before especially the one i love most, U only! I truely love u with my heart baby...i'll wait for u! Goodnight everyone!

With love,
-[aLbY]- @ -43-

To love you more . . .

Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

Yours Love,
-[aLbY]-

Won't let you fall . . .

[Verse:]
I'll never let you go
So, never let me go
I will be your journey
And you will be my road
Down the stormy path
Love will never come to pass
It will be an anchor
Although the winds may blow

[Pre-Chorus:]
And through the depths of high and low
Wherever you will go, I'll follow
To the end, back again
You know

[Chorus:]
Won't let you fall
Fall out of love
'Cause together we'll be holding on
'Cause all we have is us
Won't let you go
Go away again
Because life don't mean nothing at all
If I don't have your love

[Verse:]
I will dry your tears
Take away your fears
Let me be your shelter
Your heart is safe in here
So beautiful and pure
There's nothing I would not endure
Oh, love as got me blinded
I see it all so clear

[Pre-Chorus (1x)]
[Chorus (1x)]

[Bridge:]
I'm down for you for whatever
Anything you going through
What's mine is yours
Every little thing
I got you
Even when winds will change
Come smashing down and crashing on you

[Chorus]

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This song is dedicated just for you...i guess, the very inner meaning of this song, besides the song itself, u should know that i've always been saying this to u even till today too. From the 1st sentence down till the end of the song, i guess, i've said all this to u before and promised u that i'll never gonna let u go and wont let u fall......i'm not gonna let u fall, coz i only love u still till the bottom of my heart! "'Cause together we'll be holding on, 'Cause all we have is us.." I still remember u said this to me, only me but no one else, and i said that to u too coz all we have is us ONLY! Only the both of us, that what we wanted, and what we have had for each other all this while. This 2 sentence is so true that it couldnt keep me from stop tearsing missing u so much, i've faith in u! I'm saying about the truth, no lies beneath, but only sincerity and the loyalty that i always have in myself for U which u CAN NEVER DENY the truth, that i truely and always love u baby...i'll wait for u...

With love,
-[aLbY]-

01-04-2008

It's another April Fool, dunno whether was your joke last year had become true or not, but this is what i truely want u to know now that this is what I want to say to u...



And it's the only thing in my heart for u which is still golden and true till today, I love you very much & I'd never let go of u before. I'll wait...and I'll wait for u...others may said its a fool of doing it, but its all worth if u really love one with the heart. I've faith in us, I'll wait for u to forgive and to accept me back! Most importantly I'd never betrayed u before...



Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -38-