talk to me you speak with me don’t sink before you rise baby don’t fade away you hesitate you seem to wait for all the time we had feels like a world away so who’s to say we’ll be okay we will make it through the night don’t wanna wake up in this state I just want us both to smile cause we’re the same and I know that we’ll never change look, I bought your favourite ice cream I don’t wanna see it melt away if you walk out now I don’t know if we going to be the same baby just talk with me cause I want you to stay here with me I want you to stay here with me
p/s: "Sorry if this is not a clear version of the song, i'll try to search for it again, but for this temporary moment listen to this unclear version first. This is a nice song, it expresses what is in my heart...."
Hahaha finally i've the time to post up my favourite perfume! :D KENNETH COLE!!!!! Ta dang dang dang dang............guess how much is this whole set cost? ONLY RM300! My last 21st present from my sister! hahahah i've been craving for this perfume since 1yrs back! Its so difficult to get it, i've seen it at most place and they dont have it! Luckily i ordered this 1-2months back at Sg Wang, Parkson! :D SMELLS so good and refreshing!!! yummy....hahaha the whole set is so nice and the the box is so elegant some more! WOW!!!! good good good....finally! heheheh
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) How it could be now or neither been (or neither been) All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Chorus I never had a dream come true Till that day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where love takes me to A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time Amd tomorrow can never be 'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind There's no use looking back or wondering How it should be now or neither been (or neither been) Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Chorus
You'll always be the dream that fills my head (Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby) You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget) There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) Because love is a strange and funny thing No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye No no no no
I haven't slept at all in days It's been so long since we've talked And I have been here many times I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take And I just got to let it go And who knows I might feel better If I don't try and I don't hope
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, No more aching No more fighting, No more trying
Maybe there's nothing more to say And in a funny way I'm calm Because the power is not mine I'm just gonna let it fly
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
Love me.. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________
Finally my stress period is over, and going to be free back for the next few months before the next semester examination comes. Yea yea, i know i havent been updating my birthday post & pictures yet, still getting the pictures alright! This is a nice song, YES i know its old ok! C'mon, its jz me, i know i'm an old freak who loves old songs and old things. Anyway, this is Alby!~ my parents said that i'm a sentimental person (*ahem*), well, i guess i'm just what everyone says, "Alby is an emo fella." Ya, it's jz because am a person who's sentimental and stick to no changes, that's why i'm an emo fella when i encounter indifference in anything. Sometimes i really felt that i only want to live in my own world. Nothing can be like what u expected unless u achieve it by your own effort. I will only put in 101% of effort in achieving something which is important to me in my life. I dont know whether do i consider myself a naive or a close-minded person. I'm not a very tradition person, but at least i'm truthful to everybody except people i dislike. I've undergo a 21yrs of life, i met different people, really different people in terms of character and type of human being too. I learned something, but i only learn to adapt to it! It's either i take it or leave it. Sometimes somehow i hoped what i've would remain and not changed....but on some circumstances, Alby, you dont have a choice! I know i may not be a good son, a good boyfriend nor a good friend, but what i'm good at is i'm Alby itself. To people who knows Alby (really well), will know he has at least ONE good criteria in everyone's mind.
I finally had turned 21yrs old. I did gain and lost some things. What are they i needn't say it out as it isn't important to anyone but i've only been wishing for one thing all this while, it's alright, as i said, my things aren't so important to anyone again. Lets say this is only a random post where i havent been writing for long? I've no good results in life at the moment, i gain NOTHING and lost EVERYTHING. This is what i meant by i gain something and lost something. I wanted to make my blog private i guess, feeling that i only wanted to leave in my own world. Sad isn't it? HAHA...
Actually I felt i've aimless life now. Everyone has their dreams, ambitions or at least an aim in life, but i dont, in my 21st birthday, i made 2wishes this year. Both wishes are exclusively made for people whom is important in my life...not even for myself! Maybe it's jz like what some people says, fate in life. My happiness, was once in my own hands, but now, i realise my hands are jz retard and malfuncion. I make people in my surroundings unhappy instead of happiness. Sometimes i really felt i'm a troublemaker to everyone. "Alby, Alby...u need to be strong, then proof to everybody u're not as you said yourself, a useless fella! Proof them u're at least someone to them in their list!" Rant but keeping myself courage, it sounded kinda stupid isn't it? HAHA but only myself could help myself...thanks to whomever who visits and read my blog. I appreciated all your precious time reading such blog, ranting of myself!
Hey people, have u ever listen to the songs i posted on the right side of my blog? Yea, some emo songs again!! Anyway, they're masterpiece songs which reminded me so much of the greatest memories i had before. Give urself sometime to listen to the songs. They means alot to me...
Its close to 4am, i couldn't sleep really! I was super tired, but couldn't rest at all. My air-cond is leaking, so no air-cond for the night, its a public holiday, but to me its jz a normal monday, im on a week holiday before starting my new semester, but i dont feel like going anywhere at all, im not studying under-pressure as well, but still cant sleep!
I'm really missing something in life now, my soul i guess...why cant i be perfect? Why cant i jz make people in my surrounding happy with me? Sigh...i should jz stop here! Enough of ranting in such a sad place! Thanks for spending your precious time reading on such a blog...
I can’t believe I’m standing here Been waiting for so many years and Today I found the Queen to reign my heart You changed my live so patiently And turned it into something good and real I feel just like I felt in all my dreams There are questions hard to answer Can’t you see…
Chorus: Baby, tell me how can I tell you That I love you more than life Show me how can I show you That I’m blinded by your light When you touch me I can touch you To find out the dream is true I love to be loved by you
You're looking kind of scared right now You're waiting for the wedding vows But I don’t know if my tongue’s able to talk Your beauty is just blinding me Like sunbeams on a summer stream and I gotta close my eyes to protect me Can you take my hand and lead me From here please yeah...yeah...
Chorus: Baby, tell me how can I tell you That I love you more than life Show me how can I show you That I’m blinded by your light When you touch me I can touch you To find out the dream is true I love to be loved, I need to be loved I love to be loved by you
I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever And I know they gonna say that we’ll give up because of heavy weather But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong…
Chorus: Baby, tell me how can I tell you That I love you more than life Show me how can I show you That I’m blinded by your light When you touch me I can touch you To find out the dream is true I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved I love to be loved by you
Yes I love to be loved by you
p/s: Still stress with exam till this coming friday!!!~ Enjoy the song people...
Sorry people, i really have not much time to post pictures of my birthday and other occasions! No time for blogging at the moment as i'll be having ONE WEEK exam from 25/8 till 29/8! So bear with it, i'll be right back...STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!! Please help me with the exam answer sheet!!!!!! *sobsob* TIME FASTER PASS..........i want HOLIDAY.........................
I hate hypocrites and people who boycott untrue stories especially about me. You're great, u've got everything from me! What u left is pieces of shits to me! Will u get to read my blog, i dont know, will u know who am i talking about, u may not know too, but its alright, no one will know, i can do nothing about you and you've won everything from me! You've money, you've skills, you've contacts, you've got brain to turn and twist ones mind, you've got "my" precious to trust you're ONE FINE PERSON! Happy isnt it? I guess that's not enough yet for you, you havent seen me having NOTHING and EMPTY yet. You insane crazy freak! You'll deserve what you should one day! You're the 2nd person i hate most on Earth...congrates!~ When i said i hate you, i hate you deep in to my nerves!
Hey i'm back, its been a week, i was super busy since after my birthday week! 4assignments due in 2weeks time, mostly last minute done work, some half way done before my birthday! Wopz, for your info, my birthday is on the 27/7 hehehe well, i'd throw a small house party together with a few good buds of mine and it went thru successfully! Sorry ya, i REALLY dont have ANY pics AT THE MOMENT yet! LoLz, am gonna get it VERY SOON aight! Guess i gotta say when it reaches sharp at 12am on the 27/7/2008, i've officially turned 21y/o! I'm an adult now! Everything is the new beginning i should say it, everything is gonna RESTART and MAKE it better from now onwards....
21y/o, it's my VERY first birthday party of my 21years of life, the most gift i ever had during my birthday! HAHAHAH so happy, but whats the funniest thing was instead of a birthday cake, i was actually holding a bottle of MY OWN CHIVAS sharp at 12am! *sweat* funny isnt it? hahaha that bloody Ed planned earlier! Ish, i wanted so much a cake for my birthday since i havent been eating pastry for long but it didnt turned up during my birthday but a bottle of CHIVAS! Shit man, 10secs + 2secs extra from the count of 10 for the countdown to my birthday! SHIT! It was still fine if there's stopper but THERE ISN'T ANY OK!!! NONE!!!! WTF!!!! Bloody Ed fooled me nicely this time, i drank more than a QUARTER within 12secs! But i was darn happy anyway that time! hahaha everything turned out well! After the 12secs, i'd red wine, red wine + coke, sprite etc...OMFG, super tipsy! LoLz, many things happened then thereafter, not even noticing in btw the 2hours too! LMAO! (**Sorry gonna keep it secret but for THOSE who knows what happened, SHHHHHHHH**) Eventually the party ends at 4++am, everyone left, and i slept witht he presents! hahahah one of the friend was at the living room, DRUNK + ASLEEP! Another year older...really guys, wait for the update of my birthday pictures, thou i didnt get to take MUCH AS MOSTLY THINK IT WAS THEIR BIRTHDAY THERE, but the atmosphere + the theme, OH MY....im just so satisfy with everything me and my buds planned! :) thank u all so much! Love y'll so much...!!!!!!
Btw, i've finally handed in 3 of my assignments, left 1 more to go! Wish me best of luck ya!!! :) another thing, i've been to Euphoria by M.O.S TWICE last week, i didnt know i was in the guest list there cause i registered for Euphoria?! *sweat* okok, i guess thats all for tonight...goodnight people!~ nitezZzz...
Blog Blog Blog....sorry for the delay of my own 21st birthday party post! I'm superb busy now, assignment due from 28/7/08 (my birthday is on the 27/7/08 and party is on 26/7/08) till 8/8/08!!! OM*G!!!!!! Hated it! I've briefing for the coming TechEd 2008 job on mid August, 2weeks before my exam! MY GOODNESS.....i'll post it ASAP after my assignments are done this week aight! Stay tune on http://alby27.blogspot.com! Oh yea, ermm....it jz came across my mind, its after so long and over my 21st birthday, should i close my blog or not? Leave me a comment everybody! Thanks to those who celebrated my 21st birthday and those who attended, helped as well as was with me on that night! :D special thanks to all my buddies who'd helped me so much for cleaning the place and decorating it too! Love u guys! So...i gotta pen-off now, assignment, but i'm going off to sleep now! At kopitiam! hahah sad right? phone line BREAKDOWN again! Sigh....f*cking TM, u're gonna get it tomorrow! Nitez.... love u people loads...
On one of the most meaningful yet unforgettable day, this is when our story begin, "U & ME". There's no need to say it out, only "U & ME" know what the story is...i love you baby...& i miss you so badly!~
I've a dedication for you baby... Listen...with the lyrics, its all i meant by "I Love You" and i wanted to have a new start with you, just as how we used to love each other so badly...
p/s: Just "U & ME"...Happy 2nd Year Anniversary to you! Baby, I'll always love you..
When love comes to it's limits... The person will tell that person that you love him or her... If I'll be the one saying it to you.... If I say I love You very much right up till today.... What will be your answer... Will my feelings be the same as yours?
Do u still remember this movie; The Lake House? Never know that time flies, this is our very first romance movie watched in 2006. Its been 2years today, still remember the story line? Still remember our line? Heh, we've said it before, "not gonna leave each other" before. Maybe i sounded naive to everyone, but btw u and me, u know what's going on, u can feel it, i can feel it too. What's more than my sincerity and loyalty towards u today? 6months, officially the 6th month since that day...do u know that i still misses u so badly? Do u know that i still love u? "Persuasion", the book in The Lake House, it's about waiting...2person met, almost fall in love but the timing isn't right, but after a few years later, they met and they have another chance. Its been 6months, i've been trying all ways to us back together. I do not mind anything or anyone, but because i know this is ONLY what we both know that we still love each other, hence, i'm still keeping this up without giving up before. 6months, its been 150days i've waited for u to forgive and accept me back. I understand your feeling of fear being hurt again, and your disappointment. After this 6months long, i've corrected my mistakes, i've told myself that i wouldn't repeat the mistake anymore. Im doing this because of you, because i know you love me lots, thats why im doing anything, everything to get us back.
I'm dedicating this song for u baby, the original song track of The Lake House...
I love you baby, i really love you! I've never taken u for granted nor fooled u before! Im definitely unlike others, im only requesting for the last chance from you baby, would u let me take good care of u and love u back like how i used to? I've lost u for 6months, i dont want to lose u any longer anymore. Im saying this for the sake that i love u too much deeply and not gonna let u go. I know u still love me too! Im appreciating whatever chances and opportunity i have before its too late when i've lost all of u, even if it's a little bit of feelings left, im still willing to gain everything back cause i know u couldn't forget me just like that. I'll keep my words for u, i'll love u even more, and gonna take very good care of u like how i used to baby. Its for the one and only that i love, which is you....
p/s: "If i were given another chance, i hoped that we could watch this movie together again..., can we?"
Giving up, why should I we've come too far to forget beautiful just got lost somewhere along the way so much was missing when you went away
Let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance don't think too deep all those promises we couldn't seem to keep I don't care where we go let's start from here
Standing here face to face a finger on your lips don't say a word don't make a sound silence surrounds us now even when you were gone I felt you everywhere
Let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance don't think too deep all those promises we couldn't seem to keep I don't care where we go let's start from here let's start from here
I've never been the one to open up but you've always been the voive within the only one for my cold heart
Let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance don't think too deep and all those promises let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance not think too deep and all those promises we couldn't seem to keep I don't care where we go
Let's start from here...
Baby, i'm always the same old Alby even right up till today. I want u to know, i've never changed before, i promise i'll never gonna lie and betray u anymore! I would want to request, to take good care and love u back baby...i'll keep to my words, and u'll never will make the wrong decision too baby! I really love u till the bottom of my heart...
I'm missing u badly, loving u more than anything everyday baby...please forgive me and allow us to get back together!!~ I love u, and i want to love u as how Alby used to... *tears*
Baby, do u still remember this portrait? It was taken during one of our outing with my friends! I miss that moment so much! I miss u so much! Tonight i'm posting "I just can't stop loving you" for u in conjunction of another week would be someday we know what day it is. I love u, i love u till the bottom of my heart! No one understands how i feel, but...only u do, thou u dont care, but i know u still do! I need u, i'm so in need of your T.L.C at this stressful time! I needed u to be by my side, can u please? I wanted to have the best 1st best day of my life with u on "our day". I misses the days we were together, i misses holding ur hands while driving, i misses u sitting next to me, i misses hugging and *kisses* before i dropped u back, i misses the WHOLE of u baby! *tears* I just can't stop loving u baby, u know i can't, and i know u can't too. Allow me to be back by your side please...i wouldn't hurt u anymore! I keep my words for u...
Here's a video of Michael Jackson in "I just can't stop loving you" song, dedicated for his beloved wife... I'll now dedicate this to u my love, u're always the one and only that i love...
I Just Want To Lay Next To You For Awhile You Look So Beautiful Tonight Your Eyes Are So Lovely Your Mouth Is So Sweet A Lot Of People Misunderstand Me That's Because They Don't Know Me At All I Just Want To Touch You And Hold You I Need You God I Need You I Love You So Much
[Michael] Each Time The Wind Blows I Hear Your Voice So I Call Your Name . . . Whispers At Morning Our Love Is Dawning Heaven's Glad You Came . . .
You Know How I Feel This Thing Can't Go Wrong I'm So Proud To Say I Love You Your Love's Got Me High I Long To Get By This Time Is Forever Love Is The Answer
[Siedah] I Hear Your Voice Now You Are My Choice Now The Love You Bring Heaven's In My Heart At Your Call I Hear Harps, And Angels Sing
You Know How I Feel This Thing Can't Go Wrong I Can't Live My Life Without You
[Michael] I Just Can't Hold On
[Siedah] I Feel We Belong
[Michael] My Life Ain't Worth Living If I Can't Be With You
[Both] I Just Can't Stop Loving You I Just Can't Stop Loving You And If I Stop . . . Then Tell Me Just What Will I Do
[Siedah] 'Cause I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Michael] At Night When The Stars Shine I Pray In You I'll Find A Love So True . . .
[Siedah] When Morning Awakes Me Will You Come And Take Me I'll Wait For You
[Michael] You Know How I Feel I Won't Stop Until I Hear Your Voice Saying "I Do"
[Siedah] "I Do" This Thing Can't Go Wrong
[Michael] This Feeling's So Strong
[Siedah] Well, My Life Ain't Worth Living
[Both] If I Can't Be With You I Just Can't Stop Loving You I Just Can't Stop Loving You And If I Stop . . . Then Tell Me, Just What Will I Do
[Michael] I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Siedah] We Can Change All The World Tomorrow
[Michael] We Can Sing Songs Of Yesterday
[Siedah] I Can Say, Hey . . .Farewell To Sorrow
[Michael] This Is My Life And I,
[Both] Want To See You For Always I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Siedah] No, Baby
[Michael] Oh!
[Both] I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Siedah] If I Can't Stop!
[Both] And If I Stop . . .
[Siedah] No
[Michael] Oh! Oh! Oh . . .Oh . . .
[Siedah] What Will I Do? Uh . . .Ooh . . . (Then Tell Me, Just What Will I Do)
I feel like dying, please! :'( i'm so stressed and derpess! I need T.L.C! :'( i'm sick, stress, pressure, tonnes of work to do, i'm feeling i've not much time left for everything! I'm such a.....pathetic sicko! END EVERYONE...i need.........you so much! :(
Although it's been for sometime, yea, i admitted i did pretended as if nothing anymore but the limit had reached, i can't pretend anymore, it's hurting very much! I admitted i'm a liar, i'm a great liar, i stopped talking to u, stopped talking to u, stopped pestering u, it doesnt mean i'm giving up onto u although u insisted, but the truth is that i still love u so much. Yes, i'm stupid, i'm dumb, but there's nothing i can do with it as it's where we develop all by ourselves. If u really mean nothing to me, i would have live happily as if nothing had happened before jz like how a car passes by u by the roadside. I rather drive on and off passing by u, each and everytime, everyday and night, cause i want to see u, i love to see u and whats most importantly, i love u deeply with all my heart. "Alby, try to let it go..", i did, but it failed coz i know no matter what, only u will come back to me in the picture in my mind, no one else even if there're many better ones outside. What's this all about? Stupidity? Sticky? Useless? Restless? Dumb? Or isit really what everyone has been saying, 'true love', which everyone claims it NEVER EXIST. Its true that after so long, i may be the only one who's still waiting for nothing, doing things whereby everyone consider its useless, but to me, whatever it takes for me to get u back, is a bit to bit effort to get closer to u back, as before...or maybe not, i'm never a decision maker in this case.
I miss u, i misses u so much, but everyone ask me over and over again, "Alby, is that worth?", without thinking twice i answered, "YES!" i said it as if it's really true which i'm still believing in "love" existing. Although it has been for sometime we're apart, but, i've never thought of leaving u before...it hurts the most, when u knew i lied, that i was fine, in fact, i wasn't....your concern is always what i prioritized! Does it sounded more likely i'm bullshitting? Ok, i never had the intention to, afterall, u know me best, if i really did it intentionally, u would've being cheated for long...and hurt deeply more than this, but the truth i didnt. Knowing it is useless to explain over and over again, this is what i'm writing to express my feelings, not to u, coz u felt i'm annoying, u felt i'm fooling u, but eventually, no one could help me to make u understand my intention loving u so much, waiting for u to love me back where u'd been afraid of me now...
David, my besties, he'd departed last 2days to overseas for his further studies for 2yrs from now onwards, indeed, i misses him very much, he is my besties which i'll never forget! Knowing him for more than 10yrs since primary, seeing the both of us changes from a huge size body to what we are today, seeing us growing with partners...seeing the changes in us each and every year, yet what is not changed is our besties friendship which never ends. I'm grateful and thankful to have a friend like him as he accompany me most the time when i really needed a shoulder, not fussy of any decision amde (although there are but we could still accomodate at times), not calculative nor revengeful, but simplicity the bestest buddy i ever had in my life. A day before he left, we went out for a drink, we talked alot, then he said to buy me a birthday present, i've got a shoe i wanted the next day which is the same day he's leaving, i wore that to the airport to show him. He said that it suits me and it looks good on me! He's often being straight forward to me, i nevermind any comment he made to me before. His friends, gf, family and relatives were there along at the airport, i was helping to take photographs with his and his bro's DSLR camera. That's all i can do for him. Before he left, Zoe, the gf, actually cried out loud for his departing, i was feeling touched, eyes turned red, but i was standing a side from them. I feel for her, but i told myself not to tears coz i do not want him to know that i'll miss his absence in my future days for 2yrs.
As time goes by, i started realizing people in my surrouding are leaving me one bye one, as if my skin was pilling off, bit by bit. My friends, my relatives and the "special someone i live the happiest and i love most"...i'm feeling restless, i needed the "someone" by my side now, i'm very depress and stress. I need "u" by my side, i need "ur" concern, i need "ur" presence in my life, i need "ur" love...there's no one i wanted anymore. I started realizing, i'm spoiling myself, my health, my studies as well as my everything! I dont know why, my account is almost depleted, the resources i have is limited, myself is somewhere i dont know where it'd been to...i'm losing something very precious, Alby! He's lost, so lost till things started changing!~ Love isn't everything, but the love i got, gives me everything i want...only u know what i mean if u remember i'd asked, "please don't leave me...baby!"
Yesterday i went pass somewhere kL, i remembered there was once i was working at a restaurant for L'Occitane annual dinner, u dropped me there and pick me back after work...many minor things i remembered, maybe u dont, or forgotten, or maybe u did remember every single thing which u're trying hard to forget, forget and let go me as hard as u're trying to achieve what u want! *heartbreaks* Whatever, where ever, whenever, however and whichever, u've been recalled without forgotten every single moment we were together before...from "naive" us, to another level of growing up till today...physically, the biggest changes is u, i'm always the same, never changed, still as bored and useless as before. Everyone today calling me uncle, bald head, old man etc...who would want to be with someone who'd became worst than before, than ever!~ I only see blurred visions, with only black and white color in the picture. I'm seeing things with no more colors without u anymore...i've no strenghts but only full with weaknesses! I cant bear this, i cant bear the loneliness i'm having which is killing me soon...
ME: "Don't abandon me, please...." *tears* (Q: Do u actually know how much i misses u, right up till today after so long?)
I dont know how to confront anyone about this. Pretended nothing, till the night comes, tears the one which accompany me till i'm tired then fell asleep holding my mobile phone! I'm such a pathetic old looking bastard! I disappoint the one i love most, i starting disappointing my family as well as my friends as i'm losing myself..day by day...empty soul walking somewhere in the street!
Assignments, presentations, examination, work, money, personal, family, friends....i'm too much stress and pressured really! I need "u"... :(
p/s: "To whomever who're encountering problem with your partner, think twice before making a decision to end the relationship, it isn't what u all thought to "begin" and "end" simplicity, but there's always a reason why u both got together and be together this long...appreciate them before u lose them.."
[Vittorio] Tutte le cose che non sai io te le insegnerò Le stelle che tu conterai te le regalerò Saprò inventare favole che ti racconterò Così che I sogni volino più a nord
[Nicole] So many things I've never known I will learn from you I'll find reason in your words that are tried and true
[Vittorio] E proverò a sorprenderti con un sorriso in più Così che possa perderti anche tu
[Vittorio & Nicole] You are my miracle You are pure and soft just like the air I breathe You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart There's a secret that you hold, that you hold Deep within that so discretely hides your soul
[Nicole] The strength I simply never found, I will find with you What I believe our future holds, I will see it through
[Vittorio] Con te vivrò ogni attimo che mi regalerai Come se fosse l'ultimo per noi
[Vittorio & Nicole] You are my miracle Acqua chiara e fresca che fa vivere You, heart of my heart There's a secret that you hold, that you hold And it's hidden so discretely
[Vittorio] Vertigy my guide To love that lasts forever
[Vittorio & Nicole] You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart There's a secret that you hold, that you hold Deep within that so discretely
Finally, after such long time, i gotta get closest to u. No one wouldn't know how i feel, i miss u so much, so darn much! Its been such a long time since few months back and i finally gotta get closest to u for once. My heartaches really much, very very much when i saw u lying on the bed like that. Tears tearsing non-stop watching u in suffocation. Hold ur hand tightly, hugging u with tears while pampering u on ur face, it was my greatest time of all this few months time! *tears* nevertheless, i helped to clean ur body and limbs, watching u tearsing without a word, it really hurts myself too. All i did was holding ur hand tightly, sitting by ur side, keeping u company through the night till morning. All i knew was that i misses u so much till i could tears non-stop while hugging u through the night before the sunrises. It still proves that i still love u very much....but, have u really forgotten the touch between us? I'm only having worries and stress over so much....and it seems nothing that i can do. I'm so lost! Is it really that u've forgotten of the touch between the both of us, including the night i was there for u??? :'(
Who am i? Where am i standing? What am i? I'm so lost, it's so hurting in my heart as if being stabbed into the heart! Its been for weeks, i've not been sleeping well, not having sufficient rest, and been tearsing missing someone badly...can't do anything at all, it's so suffocating. I've been waiting, waiting for "someone" to accept me back as who i am used to, but things got worsten for no reason. I dont know what can i do. Its so pain in the heart, i love "someone" so much but "someone" is scare to get back coz afraid to be hurt again. I never mean it, u knew me best, u knew i'd always never meant to do this, why arent u forgiven to me as i've been doing so much to get us back? :'( i felt so suffocated without u! I miss u everyday and night, where ever i am, u're still in my mind! I'm only getting weaker day by day due to the insufficient rest, sick for many times and recovered then sick back. I didnt care too, but still waiting, while writing my feelings on the blog. Somehow, i can only tell, no matter how did u responded to me towards whatever i've been doing, i'm still so much in love with u. Maybe EVERYONE can call me a stupid freak, MAYBE u'll also think that i'm another stupid freak, or whomever it is said that to me, i reckon, in the end, only myself who will know whether isit worth or stupid or not. Afterall, so much of things happened, or whatever which we'd been thru (though not much, but its sufficient for me to love so much), and whatever commitment we made together, thats why i'm truely loving u with my heart till the vain.
Sick...sick....sick....prolly not only others would said that, but u may thought so too, but if i dont love u truely, i wont be doing this right up till today, being called a stupidity waiting for someone for nothing. Everyone said so, but i'd never gave up before, but as much as know how u feel right up till today even we'd never meet or contacted for sometime, i know u still love me. Maybe i'm wrong, tell me if i am....but whatever we did and been thru together, no matter how much time we'd been separated, i'll still love u very very very much...and i'll prove u, that i truely love u very much too...only u will know coz u know me best, if only u'd forgotten about me..
Always bear in mind, no matter what happened to u in the end, u're still who u're to me and the one i love is u and the inner u, not what u looked like or what others said...bEE always loves u!~
[Spoken:] Baby, I know you're hurting Right now you feel like you could never Love again Now all I ask is for a chance To prove that I love you
From the first day That I saw your smiling face Honey, I knew that we would Be together forever Ooh when I asked you out You said no but I found out Darling that you'd been hurt You felt like you'd never love again I deserve a try honey just once Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong You walked in, you were so quick to judge But honey he' s nothing like me
[Chorus:] I'll never break your heart I'll never make you cry I'd rather die than live without you I'll give you all of me Honey, that's no lie [2x]
As time goes by You will get to know me A little more better Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid) To let your feelings show (feelings show) And I understand Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because) I deserve a try (try) honey Just once (once) Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked) You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge) But honey he's nothing like me Darling why can't you see
[Chorus (2x)]
[Bridge:] No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry) I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear) No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
[Chorus (3x)]
p/s: I'm sorry baby, i'm really sorry....I love u and I really love u honestly...I promise, I'll never break your heart anymore...
I remember this is another version of "Chu Shou Tai Zhong", the meaning is direct saying that "Love Exist" which means "Cun Ai". The inner depth of this song means alot to me, and also the one i loved most too! U were the one who introduced me to this song! It means really much to not only myself but the both of us. I love u, and i miss u so much too! I do not know what can i do to get us back together, but i can only be continuously being in my own world, in my blog, writing and dedicating my feelings by words.... "Our love" really existed as it isn't as what u've always never been believing in! I love u truely with all my open heart and never had let u go before, as thou u requested before.....afterall, i'm sorry, but i love u too much deeply baby... i know i may be no one to anyone and everyone could feel "disgusted" with my words here, but afterall, this is how much i love u and no one will ever understand why isit so too except urself...
There was a day, i went to the cuppacakes, and ordered some cuppacakes, saw this box of cuppacakes, i remembered i've bought this for u when i found out about cuppacakes during one of our monthly celebration. Anyhow, i didnt get to buy this that time, but i'm dedicating this for u! There's a card on this box of cuppacakes theme is "I love you" by me, showing that i bought the cuppacakes that time is what i really wanna cheer u up and also meant that i love u as in this box of cuppacakes!
Sober...sober...depress...depress....super depress! Eyes swollen, pretended as if i was drunk thats why my eyes are red and swollen in front of my parents, in fact it was tears that makes my eyes swollen! I'm missing something, really something that is very precious to me but....its really missing! I'm really lost! I really do love u lots! I'm sorry...really! I've a dedication for u, hoped u listen to the song...that's what i wanna tell u! :'(
I remember we'd a very beautiful and enjoying tuesday before. Full with love and tender on that day, we planned to have dinner together then go for ice-cream at Swensen, EARTHQUAKE! Yeah its 50% every tuesday!~ so we decided to go for a sweet-tuesday ice-cream. Having the favourite together on such a meaningful day with your love ones, thats whats most beautiful and delicious. It's another tuesday today, i dont know what u've been doing, what had happened on u too lately, but all i know, tuesday is the EARTHQUAKE day. I didnt make it to any of the Swensen outlet for ice-cream, but i'm happy to watch Baskin Robin & Haagen Daaz. I just want to have my tuesday Earthquake with the one i only love back.... It was raining terribly since evening, i was stucked in Midvalley, cant go out for Swensen, i thought having it myself....alone thou, but didnt make it too in the end. Passing another lonely tuesday night, it's really driving me crazy missing "u". I do not know what to do, but only knowing that i'm stressed with many things lately. Insomnia....insomnia....insomnia....is back haunting me over and over again!~
"星", this song, it reminds me so much of u, nevertheless, i dont know what went wrong out of a sudden. But u should know the truth beneath that i'm still right here waiting for u, we may be friends right now, but u know i'm still so much in love with u and wants to love u back only. If only this blog is still in existing and it happen that u read this one day, this is what 'http://alby27.blogspot.com @ All About Me, Myself & I....' is all about u... It doesnt matter for me to wait, as long as when the day comes, and u've understand my sincerity and fidelity towards u, i promised, 'the past' will never gonna happen again anymore...
If my love for u is fake, if my sincerity is fake, if my fidelity is ever fake to u and what if only whatever is written in this blog are fake also, u can let everything go with peace and forget about the bastard, named Alby who owns the blog and hate him forever...but when the day comes that u ever trust what i've expressed and waited for, once for all for the last time, let me love u till the world ends...i will not hurt or disappoint u anymore, i'll never hurt u anymore and i'll never let others harm u too...this is my love for u!!
When u say u dont love me, i'd always believe that it's not true coz i know u love me more than anything else. Its the 100th day, everyone may have thought i've gone to somewhere, missing or perhaps extinct. I really wanted to, but i couldn't, coz i know u're still the one and only that i love most, the one and only that i want to be with and the one and only that i need baby. No matter what it's i'll still love u as much as it is. I admitted it's all my fault to have disappointed u and break ur heart, i dont mean it, and never mean to by purpose before. Afterall i'm not only seeking for forgiveness but also allowing me to love u back as before. I'm also an ordinary person, as ordinary as u use to think still! What i want is u, but nothing. U may be fear of getting hurt again, but what i've been expressing and waited for u all this while, i promised that i'll never gonna repeat the same old mistakes anymore. As time passes by, hour by hour, day by day, weeks by weeks, it has now reached to the 100th day and i'm still the Alby who loves u as much as how i used to, maybe u dont but...ya, i cant really tell anymore but only misses u very very much!!~
p/s: "I do not wanna lose someone who means everything to me, and if u were doubting who i meant, yes, that person is definitely going to be u, it isn't a lie but a promise. It's all true..."
I'm feeling very paranoid lately, very paranoid. I do not know what is myself and where am i standing on Earth. I felt i'm left out at a corner yet everyone, i mean EVERYONE is having their "life" now. Maybe we should call it simple life instead. I'm a complicated person, a very very very complicated person, thats what people saying this days. I do not even know that myself is as complicated as it was thought. No wonder i've been lonely all this while, paranoid in the night, tearsing asking "why, why and why...?" I really dont know why am i feeling so paranoid lately. Tears when i'm alone, tears during the midnight and before sleep. EAch day i'm feeling even tired and exhausted. Beginning to feel i'm in an empty space alone. I tried, and tried and have been trying to get something back but.....i dont know but, i'm lost, i'm confuse, i'm somewhere hanging in the middle in the air, couldn't find my "simple life". Simple life is what everyone wanted, i'm still seeking for it but what's most important, I am not complicated! Its been sometime including my friends and family including someone which i still love and cared, should have known me well, should've known what and who i am, am i really such a complicated or who gives trouble to others kind of people? :'( i need someone, i need "someone" to be by my side to keep me courage and energy. Afterall, u know me best, u know me well, i'm sorry for what happened, i'm awake from the fairytale, i'll not repeat the old silly mistakes anymore, if only i could have u back in my arms...
Goodnight everyone...
p/s: "I'm missing something, something very valuable to me, but eventually "it" thought "it" isn't valuable to me anymore...i miss u, for real, if u dont believe me"
I'm feeling terribly lonely, sad, exhausted and lost now... My bro is not around, sister is not around too, only my parents... I'm all alone... :( I need "someone's" help...
I dont know what can I do when I miss you so much.. :'( Goodnight everyone...
I see you beside me It's only a dream, A vision of what used to be The laughter, the sorrow Pictures in time Fading to memories.
How could I ever let you go Is it too late to let you know
I tried to run from your side But each place I hide It only reminds me of you When I turn out all the light Even the night It only reminds me of you... you...
I needed my freedom That's what I thought But I was a fool to believe My heart cried while you cried Rivers of tears but I was too blind to see
Everything we've been though before Now it means so much more
I tried to run from your side But each place I hide It only reminds me of you When it turn out all the light Even the night It only reminds me of you...
Only you... So come back to me I'm down on my knees Can't you see...
How could I ever let you go Is it too late to let you know
I tried to run from your side But each place I hide It only reminds me of you When it turn out all the light Even the night it only reminds me of you... you
Its been 3months, there's nothing much to reveal or whatsoever, some people used this term as "watever" heheh where ever i go, it'll only reminds me of you. I wondered, i really have been wondering, would you think of me where ever we'd been together before, or whenever it is. Honestly, i really do, but the worst thing is that i couldn't do anything about it! :( laying on the bed everyday and night, thinking whether will i have anymore chance to do what i used to hug u to sleep, or had pillow talked with u before sleep. Hugging seems to be a very normal act to anyone, but hugging someone u love so much, is something special, something very special which no one could describe but u'll eventually get 'addict' to it. Some may think its nonsense that i'm writing now, probably its useless, or maybe stupid, but i've got to admit that, this is what 'you' mean to me. I may mean nothing to anyone, but i couldn't deny to say out the truth that indeed, u've always been in my heart. No doubt although i've hurt u before, but all this time, including this 3months post, its' all truely from my heart. Although i couldn't wish you face-by-face nor sms, its the 1yrs10mths anniversary, but i'll only wish you here, happy 20th month anniversary my love...i've been missing you so much, and will always love you...
The closer I get to you The more you make me see By giving me all you got Your love has captured me
Over and over again I tried to tell myself that we Could never be more than friends And all the while inside I knew it was real The way you make me feel
Lying here next to you Time just seems to fly Needing you more and more Let's give love a try
Oh Sweeter and sweeter love grows And Heaven's there for those Who fool the tricks of time With the hearts of love, they find true love In a special way
The closer I get to you The more you make me see By giving me all you got Your love has captured me
Over and over again I tried to tell myself that we Could never be more than friends And all the while inside I knew it was real The way you make me feel
The closer I get to you The feeling comes over me Me too Pulling closer, sweet as the gravity
It has been quite sometime since i last ate butter cake, i miss butter cake so much! I miss the chocolate butter cake u used to baked for me to eat!!~ I miss u lots...
I jz need u to be with me, i'm feeling things are getting worst in the surrounding this days. I realized "shadow" is whats left, somehow some thing is moving further away from me. There's nothing that i can do to hold someone's heart, i felt useless of myself. Is there a point missing and wondering what the person i love doing everyday and night? Can someone assist me, what to do? What can i do to get things back? :'(
I realise i'm not good enough, in terms of everything especially in talent as well as the whole of myself. I'm really not as good as so many in the surrounding. I seems to be a total failure. Lately i found out something mysterious, the mysterious is so much of talent! I'm really a failure! Thats why i'm here alone, tonight, updating the blog while i'm falling sick soon with my thick eye bags, i'm never good enough for anyone...
I realise i've lost in this "game" where everyone take this as a game, but to me it's never a game! I dont know how should i express my feelings, but it's jz as if i lost myself...again even if i love one so much. I remember a phrase, 'once a loser, forever a loser." I've lost in this game, lost everything now, i'm a loser, and everyone see how i lose it! Even no matter how strong i am towards anything, especially in my relationship, i'll still lose it! I'm lost and alone...i'm lonely, and i'm distraught walking alone too. I dont know what's loving and missing someone so badly, i dont understand what's me, myself and i, i definitely won't know who i am anymore too. Perhaps, i should be MIA to the third world alone although i'd never give up on u before. But i know i deserve to be all alone since u've ignored me, even when u've always been in my heart... *tears..*
Lost, i'm lost tonight! Lost of love, lost of care, lost of hugs, lost of touch, lost of someone i always love! *S.O.S* I just want to say how much i really love you in my heart...whatever you've lost, i lost too, whatever i wanna gain is the trust towards my love and sincerity for u coz i wanna proof whats the three words mean and how much u mean to me too!
I chose to walk with you from the beginning, i'd never regretted to be with you before. Right up till today, i'm still holding on for you cause there's nothing more i could express besides saying "i love you"..., it may not mean anything to you anymore, but there's nothing mean more than you compared to anything. Would you let me hold your hand back? *tears* i dont know........... *tears* i only know that, missing one whom u can barely see and love so much, the feeling is as if i'm being stabbed in the heart by the besties!
Yesterday was the first day of class in a brand new semester, not too bored, but still bored! Half way of the last class, i left early for servicing and repair for my SLK. Reached to the place at 4pm, only get to leave at 6.30pm, having dinner at 8pm! The dinner was ok, the ambience..., isn't as before but it's still fun and enjoyable. After dinner everyone left, after fetching two of my friends back, i didn't wanna go back home, so i went to the mamak alone. One of the friend came to keep my company for 45mins, then left, and i was alone again. I wasn't feeling well during at the mamak, till i got back home, i was having terrible headache and *swing*, so i took a short bath and slept after that. Sad...sad...lonely...sick...heartache...missing someone...sIgh!~ I miss u....but i know....
Lately i learnt this from my friend, "chen rak te". It's ok if y'll don't understand this word :D to those who knows this word, ya, thanks for reading this post. Its not necessary to spend your time reading my blog, but this is where i start, where i'll end too. Anyhow, people u may be wondering what's this post all about? Nothing much really, its jz about the music u're listening right now...sit, relax and enjoy! Whatever feeling that gives y'll while listening to this music, go ahead and think about it. To me, there's jz sadness, sadness, sadness and sadness, guessed i'll jz call it "depression". Sad of what? Sad of something, something that someone would understand how would i feel for this musical song...
New semester, class starting shortly, my eyes are tired, and still sick, insomnia again. Anyhow, its 5am now. I'm missing someone, someone i miss hugging in my arms. I couldn't express that anymore, what i would say here is "chen rak te". Goodnight readers...
I try but I cant seem to get myself To think of anything But you Your breath on my face Your warm gentle kiss I taste the truth I taste the truth
We know what I came here for So I won`t ask for more
I wanna be with you If only for a night To be the one whose in your arms Who holds you tight I wanna be with you There`s nothing more to say There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way I wanna be with you (yeah)
So I`ll hold you tonite Like I would if you were mine to hold forever more And I`ll saver each touch that I wanted So much to feel before (to feel before) How beautiful it is Just to be like this
I wanna be with you If only for a night To be the one whose in your arms Who holds you tight I wanna be with you There`s nothing more to say There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way (I wanna be) I wanna be with you
Oh baby I can`t fight this feeling anymore It drives me crazy when I try to So call my name Take my hand Make my wish Baby, your command?
Yeahhh I wanna be with you There`s nothing more to say There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way (I wanna be)I wanna be with you (I wanna be with you) I wanna be with you Wanna be with you (Yeahhh) (I wanna be with you)I wanna be I wanna be with you (I wanna be) (i wanna be) (I wanna be with you) Yeahh (I wanna be with you) I wanna be, I wanna be baby I wanna be (I wanna be with you) I wanna be with you yeah I wanna be with you I wanna be with you
There's nothing that i want, but only wanna be with u! Suddenly felt like hearing this song, so i dedicated this to somebody whom i wanna be with. No matter whom u think i am, what u think ia m, or whomever it is, i'll still be the one who loves u most! I jz cant tell how much i miss and love u, but all i want is to be with u baby...dare to say it or not, i've to clarify that i've never let go of u or fooled u before, I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU!
Sorry guys, i've not much to write for tonight, tired, sore-throat and not feeling well! Goodnight everybody...
nothing more that i can say! life is just so meaningful with all of my friends! nevertheless, i'll appreciate my life & my family & friends in order to keep myself surviving for a longer time happily then....
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