Suffocating.

It's so suffocating! :'( the feeling is hurting into my nerves so badly, my chest ache terribly, my bones are pain, the heart went missing. Tears flow all night long staring at it! They said i'm not good enough for you, you said you never bother what they said what they do but.... :'( what if i won't be around anymore, the pain won't be this suffocating...you don't let me think of you, you don't let me hold you too because you said you need freedom to fly off for a moment, but will you fly back to tell the owner lets fly together because the world is so beautiful yet you wanted to enjoy it together? Will you...??

-[aLbY]-

The Heineken Depresses.

-[aLbY]-

What can I do?

Lately i've kept so much things to myself, knowing there're alot to talk about but no one would wanna listen to it. What can i do? Sigh....class is about to start soon, 26/2, but that's only orientation! Actual class should be the following week! So many things changed in 2009, from good to all bad.. *tears* What a sad Alby.....

-[aLbY]-

Mr. Nobody

They all call me Mr. Nobody...

-[aLbY]-

Happy Valentine's Day . . .

Ni Bu Zai - Wang Lee Hom

Happy Valentine's Day...

-[aLbY]-

This 2 song . . .

I've been awake since it was 8am, my bro was even preparing to work that time, i pretended as though i'm not awake, then when he left, i couldn't sleep at all but plain resting my eyes! I can't don't think about it, and i can't take it again! :'(




Thinking Of You

"Thinking Of You" by Katy Perry



"Love Story" by Taylor Swift

-[aLbY]-

RIHANNA CONCERT POSTPONED!

This is so fuckup now! Rihanna concert is POSTPONED! CHECK THIS OUT I really hate it so much, it happened at the wrong time and I'm feeling NOTHING! EVERYTHING means ZERO to me. I mean NOTHING to everyone! :'(



-[aLbY]-

Empty souls . . .

Inside me, has a lot of things to say it out but i don't think it's necessary to spill it out here. Blog won't help in relieving things i want to relief at times. I felt so depress since CNY till today! The feeling has been so dead which i felt so empty inside myself. I HATE HOW IT FEELS and I HATE MYSELF TOO!

-[aLbY]-

Ups and downs...

I've wanted to blog few days back but i'm just not motivated to do so, right now i am. First of all, i would like to wish everyone a graceful Happy Chinese New Year and best of luck in the year of Ox in 2009! Success in everything!

Next is the reason why i'm updating this post. CONGRATULATION to my beloved sister and the future husband! The bf have proposed to my sister before the CNY, no time to blog about this. I'm happy for her as she's really getting married very soon as i always used it as a joke asking her to get marry fast because of her pestering! Anyhow, Congrates again...

When there's ups, there'll surely be downs for me. Thou i've had a lot of conflict with my sister all this while and felt her annoying, but if she's away, that's where i'm going to miss someone in the house, i wont be hearing her voice when i'm back from college, back from gym, or any outing, i wont be hearing her laughter at home, noises at home or even sharing some of my problems with her anymore. And now she's really getting married, she'll be moving out soon. Sigh, everyone is missing by end of 2009, my sister is getting married, most my friends are leaving for overseas and almost everyone is leaving....me very soon! :( I dont know how and what to do. T.L.C is what i need! I'm sad, i'm depress...i'm distraught!!! I'm LOST too...

I dont know how to handle whatever on hand, making trouble, creating more problems, giving difficulties to others etc...i felt so troublesome, i felt so....lost!!! The things i wanted isn't remaining also! Sigh....Valentine's coming.....what would it be this year? :( ....

-[aLbY]-

Weird

Something is just missing these days, I started to feel....weird! Maybe I'm too free to think too much due to CNY and after exam, maybe I'm stress-free or maybe I'm incomplete? I've counted the days for the exam to end, I've gone thru the worst time, and yet I'm still feeling incomplete...this isn't an emo post, but it's a weird feeling that I'm feeling something is missing or something is just not right at the track. Think about it......try to be optimistic about it! Probably things isn't that bad in actual...Happy CNY everybody!

-[aLbY]-

Sometimes . . . .

Sometimes I.......

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Last day . . . .

OMG.....seriously, i really can't wait for tomorrow to come! After 12.30pm tomorrow i'll be finished my Level 2 Degree and get ready for CNY MOOD!!!!! I really can't wait for tomorrow now....i'm so stress with tomorrow's last paper! It's gonna be so darn difficult for sure as i've just screwed my WMM today! F*CK U WMM!!! *Please pass this paper will do*

-[aLbY]-

Dedication . . .

Someone had dedicated this song to me when i was feeling stress! :)



Anyway, it's a very random post, having exam now, will only post up more things after my exam this coming friday@23/1 aight! Wish me luck! 2nd paper later!! Jason Chen is someone random who likes singing on YouTube! Hahahah quite a good singer thou, some friends found him on YouTube. He's only 20, American born Taiwanese. He's not bad in singing! Listen to other songs in his profile! :D niteZzz....






-[aLbY]-

I'm feeling it again . . . .

It's been for years, and for the past whole week, i've been depressing in the midnight OF myself...and i'm so sick of it! :'( everyone is the same, also human being, i do lose my emotion at times and i'm really really depress with what im confronting now, hair loss! Wish me best of luck people...

-[aLbY]-

Please forgive me . . . .

Heard this on the radio the other day, haven't heard for long. Such a meaningful song...



It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch

We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do

One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

-[aLbY]-

Missing the moment . . .

I'm eagerly missing the moments I used to have badly! :(
-[aLbY]-

One more . . . .

I left out something! After celebrating New Year, me and my friends walked to collect my car, GUESS WHAT? MY SLK BATTERY DIED AGAIN! Argh....what the FUCK!? First 3.5hours, my car broke down after entering to a brand new year! What a NEW YEAR! Sigh, kept everyone waited at the mamak! Thanks to Darren and Carter for saving the car battery, sorry for keeping you guys waited long & also to Colin who FIRST time to sat on my car! HAHAHA sorry ya...

My first time, driving along KL without air-cond with my SLK in the midnight! Thank God the air was slightly FRESHER than anytime that time! HAHAHA...

-[aLbY]-

A brand new year!!!~

Happy New Year to everyone and wishing of all y'll a brand new year with a better year ahead! :D wealthy, healthy, what "-thy" except mati can already! Hahahah :D

My assignment period is on again, tomorrow is the last day, i need to pass it to my groupmates all by tomorrow, then saturday i'll be departing to LANGKAWI for holiday!! Yay....will only be back on the 7/1, so i'll see you people by then, will only update when i've the time because exam is around the corner too, 19/1 till 23/1! SCARY......

-[aLbY]-

T.W.I.L.I.G.H.T

Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down



This is dedicated for you...

New Year is coming, I'm best hoping for a better year ahead and also looking forward to a brand new year in 2009! Best wishes to everybody and a Happy New Year!

-[aLbY]-

Random post . . . . (as promised)

Here's a family dinner at 7atenine with my family. Food seems not bad! Price is still reasonable, not too expensive or too cheap thou! Environmental wise, not too bad! Good service! Hahaha, it's a nice place for chilling, as well as for candle light dinner! :D try it!



Well...well...well...i guess i'm kinda failure! My own birthday pics i still haven't get all the compilations yet! GOsh...yet i'm posting other's birthday pictures! MORE COMING SOON OK!!! MORE COMING SOON!!! Anyway, coming back to the topic, here's a compilation of all the pictures taken during Carter's 22nd birthday celebration @ NZX, Ara Damansara with a few of us! Yea, it's a pre-birthday celebration, but at least we did enjoyed throughout the night! Was first having dinner at FULLHOUSE (also at NZX, Ara Damansara), then we went to the Disneyland, the local one (also in NZX, Ara Damansara), took many pictures there! There're 2 more group pictures, very beautiful ones, cost us RM20/piece, but it can be used with the entrance voucher we bought for each of us! There were 5 of us, so we used RM40, left out we used it to exchange with a cute Stitch mug for the birthday boy! Then, we seems nowhere to go, i suggested to go Mont Kiara for Starbucks! We were LOST in Hartamas, then we ended up to the right place and sat there till close to 2.30am and there goes the night pass thru! Happy birthday again Carter!

***( For more pictures, you may also visit to THIS LINK from Evelyn's camera! Too bad, sad to say, Carter's other masterpiece pictures are all gone due to the memory card got corrupted! *SOB* its ok, we've all these are more than enough for the memories too! *hugs* ) ***

Next, I can't be blogging too much after this as i've tonnes of assignments to be done by this coming friday (2/01/09)! Then i'll be leaving for Langkawi trip from 3/01/09 till 7/01/09 with my bunch of buddies! It's also a farewell for those who're leaving to further studies next year...wishing all of u whose leaving, best of luck in everything & success in life!

After the trip, i'll have at least 10days for revision before my last semester of my Level 2 Degree to end! EXAM! *scary* MAN, i'm super stress now! ASSIGNMENTS! HOLIDAY! EXAM! ARgh...full of worries! Sigh...wish me luck people! PLEASE.....

-[aLbY]-

Coming soon . . . .

There'll be a few big post coming up soon before 2008 ends! No worries people! Please be patient, very very patient, waiting for the updates before 31 December 2008 ends! :D Merry Belated Xmas & a Happy New Year ahead!!!~

-[aLbY]-

I don't know why . . .

I don't know how does the feeling exist, but just tears. It kept dripping non-stop from my softy eyes...

-[aLbY]-

I'm Sorry . . .

I've finally found my favourite Korean artist music video on youtube, Tim! Well, he is a really good song composer and singer! As i said before, i've his album before, ORIGINAL ALBUM imported back by a friend 7 years back but it's LOST now! Sigh, sad...i've no idea where did it went to! Couldn't find it back! I so wanted to get the album back! As well as the others collection too! It can barely be found in the local shops here!

Anyway, Tim produces great songs! "I'm Sorry" has a very touching music video and meaning (it's with English subtitle now). Please to enjoy the song!



Behind the story of this song, there's something i would want to express here, I'm sorry! I know "sorry" isn't anything important anymore, but it represents each and everything i've done wrong in the past which i'm sorry to you, i won't repeat my mistakes anymore. I know there're many things which has no turn back including time, but as far as i know, if i still have the opportunity now to apologize and to be sorry, i'll proof you that i'm not the "bastard" anymore! To be sorry and forgiven are what i've been seeking from you. I don't want to feel regret in whatever things i've and things i've done for you. Back to few years back, i like seeing the happiness in you naturally expressed to me, i misses it so much and i misses the first time on the phone. I really hoped that time could be revert and can be stopped at the happiest time! I miss the happiest time of us and the whole you...Forgive, trust and love me back like how you used to...






-[aLbY]-

2 random song

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

When your heart's heavy

I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up

Because you want to be heard

If silence keeps you

I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

Don't give up

It's just the hurt that you hide

When you're lost inside

I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up

Because you want to burn bright

If darkness blinds you

I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

You are loved

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

Don't give up

Every one needs to be heard

You are loved

Someone like you . . .

Il tempo passa senza che
Lo passo mai insieme ate
Ma ti pensavo sempre
Nei sogni tu con me
Per me il mondo finira
Se non ci fossi tu
Ovunque vai
Voglio che sai

If you need a friend or a lover
Or a place that you can hide
I will always be there
Even though my hands are tied
I know deep down inside
If you'd consider what we shared
Maybe you'll see
You're all that I need

E'una vita che cercando a te
E non importa che io senta per te
Soltanto una notte ancor
Chiamami amor
All my life
I've been searching
For someone like you

There's never been a better time
There's never been a better place
For you and I together here
Alone and face to face
Oh I'd do anything
If you'd just let me in your life
Whatever it takes
I won't make the same mistake again

E'una vita che cercando a te
E non importa che io senta per te
Soltanto una notte ancor
Chiamami amor
All my life
I've been searching
For someone like you

Could it be (could it be)
The brightest star (The brightest star)
So close yet still far away (Let's get it on slowly)
Don't you know I've fallen for you
Baby I'm calling for you
Right here right now

E'una vita che cercando a te
E non importa che io senta per te
Soltanto una notte ancor
Chiamami amor
All my life
I've been searching
For someone like you

p/s: "Someone like you, is what i've been searching for..." I like the lyrics! Its meaningful!

You are the love of my life . . .

M: You are the love of my life, I knew it right from the start 

The moment I looked at you, you found a place in my heart 

F: You are the love of my life, you give me reason to live 

You taught me how to be strong. With you is where I belong 

B: No one's ever touched me, quite the way you've touched me 

People search a lifetime to find what we have. 

F: You are the love of my life, one thing that's good in this life 

B: I'll spend the rest of my days just loving you 

M: You are the love of my life, the heart and soul of my life. 

B: Once I was lost and alone, with you, at last, I am home 

[instrumental line] 

B: You give me so much of you and leave me room to be free. 

B: No one's ever touched me, quite the way you've touched me 

People search a lifetime to find what we have. 

F: You are the love of my life, one thing that's good in this life 

M: And in a world full of change, one thing I'm sure of 

M: You are the love of my life, 

one thing that makes sense in this life 

B: I'll spend the rest of my days just loving you 

M: You are the love of my life and I thank God I'm alive 

B: To spend my lifetime with you, You are the love of my life

-[aLbY]-

Outing with mom & bro . . . .

There's no class today, the one and only class from 4pm - 5.30pm has been cancelled because the lecturer wasn't around. So when i woke up, prepared and bath, then went to Midvalley with my mom and bro for lunch and to get some things. We eventually went to the new restaurant in Gardens, Canton-i Restaurant. Food not bad, price like Dragon-i. Here's the food we ate EXCEPT for my mom's wonton noodle cause she was too hungry so i didnt manage to take it! Hehehe

Apart from the food, there's also a few picture of my bro, mom and MYSELF! Haven't been blogging such things for long!





After this i'm gonna get busy with my assignments from now on...busy busy busy......






-[aLbY]-

13/11/2008 Accident

Sorry ya i know i haven't really been updating the blog but something funny and stupid happened in the college! Take a look at this stupid accident in APIIT! It's the 2nd case in a week. Plus, it blocks the path way for the car to pass! Stupid isn't it? Really gotta salute these people...

-[aLbY]-

Everytime I close my eyes . . .

Babyface Lyrics
Everytime I Close My Eyes Lyrics

-[aLbY]-

You make it real . . . .

James Morrison Lyrics
You Make Me Real Lyrics

-[aLbY]-

Sick . . .

I'm so sick of the internet@phone line whenever it rain!!! I'm outside Oldtown outside my house now, can only grab as many information as i could then back to do my write out! SIgh.....i'm so wanna finish my assignments immediately! All my group assignment aren't started yet! FOUR GROUP ASSGMT vs ONE INDIVIDUAL ASSGMT! ARghh....

-[aLbY]-

Back . . . . for a moment!

Sorry guys for the lacking of update on my blog! NO TIME la! hehehe have been busy with my studies, work and many other things! Gosh...my desktop is OFFICIALLY having breakdown! Gosh!!! Anyway, sorry for the slow update ya! Within this few months time, among the happening parties i've attended was Isaac-Edmund-Michelle-Shan Shan-Nawihs-Ernest-Abby-Karen's birthday party, Quattro launching and many more other happening events! Hahah gosh, upcoming is gonna be till end of the year which are Hugo-Joshua-Carter-Kelvin's birthday. WOW!!!! Many other events coming up soon summo! Gosh! Pics????????? I know y'll surely curious waiting for the pics, let me have the time 1st! :P HAHAHAHAHAH

Well, next week i'm gonna be darn darn busy! FYP proposal clinic with the representatives to check on the progress of our work and work for 3days! Aihz...wopz, tonight attending another friend's sis pre-wedding night! HAHAHAH another party......

-[aLbY]-

STRESS

I've been super stress of my final year project (FYP) proposal lately! No time to update my blog AT ALL! All the bday parties and parties pics! Gosh....sorry readers! Let me get this f*cking proposal done and sent by this friday, I'LL UPDATE ASAP aight! Please be PATIENT....my blog is still not dead yet! It'll be lively back soon, but dont know whether would it be interesting or not! So here's jz a lil update on WHY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING MY BLOG ok! PATIENCE ya....

-[aLbY]-

One Sweet Day!

Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say.
Now it's too late to hold you. '
Cause you've flown away, so far away.

Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile.
Feelin' and knowing you hear me.
It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Darling, I never showed you.
Assumed you'd always be there.
I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven.
Like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll
always look to a brighter day.

Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,
You'll always listen, as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say

-[aLbY]-

I finally found someone . . .

Its been 2weeks i havent been updating anything on my blog but only helping to promote the dance competition which is going to be held in my college, APIIT. Well, 2nights ago, i was at home after gym and dinner, was sitting at the living room watching tv on my own. Watched "Devil Wears Prada". Yea, everybody knows what is the story all about, me too, but i eventually learnt something, "I choose to be what I am and what I want". No one forced me to, but myself to be who i am willingly. Eventually, i would wanna say i made my decision to be like this, no matter what the consequences is or what the result is, i'll bear it all by myself. Afterall, i make my own decision and there should be no regrets too...goodluck Alby! Appreciate what you have right now...whatever you have right now!

Well, i know i've been procrastinating many post since months back, sorry abt that, my desktop is having prob, previously my laptop too but its fine back now after the repair, and i've no motivation to post them up! Sorry for the DELAY! Will update it in summary form later...

-[aLbY]-

ATTENTION: 1st Inter-College Danze2Nista

ATTENTION TO ALL THE YOUNGSTERS, the month of October is the month where each and every one of you will enjoy the very first Inter-College Danze2Nista Online N Reality Dance Tournament organized by APIIT UCTI! What are you guys & gals waiting for? Details are as below:-


When: 1st November 2008 @ 6pm
Where: APIIT UCTI
Why: Coz it’s TOO HOT to MISS!!!




Featuring:
Celebrity DJs
2 Dance Floors to Party on
Usher’s dance battle
Hitz FM
Euphoria
MyC! Magazine
Many more…

*** FOC for LADIES before 7pm! ***

Ticket is RM15 and are limited. So, for those that are intesrested may RSVP by contacting the following people.

Edmund Quah - 0169789048
Elly Lim - 0129707263
Ji Hin - 0173641638
Darshini - 0164562411
Ji Hsia - 0146493413

For more, please click HERE

BAD LUCK!!!

This is just so pathetic and sad! Was suppose to update and upload pictures of the past events but......there's a bad news here, i had a farewell@pre-bday party for a good friend at Chilis, Midvalley, after that everyone went back to bath and changed for second round, club! We arrived around 11++pm, was figuring out how to enter, i was using my phone all time! Then Ed and I managed to enter first, then we brought the rest in, ONLY 5minutes into the club! I walked back out, my phone went MISSING! :( arGH!!! fuck it!!!! I lost my precious and now i need to spend for another new phone again! Just got my figure back in my savings but there goes again for another new phone! I'm so desperately wanted my parents to sponsor me this time! For the past few years i've been paying the phone all by myself! Sigh...my contacts...pictures...important notes...omg!!! Why am i such bad luck nowadays!! So many bad things happened all at once!! Both my desktop and laptop are having system error! So unstable, simply restart non-stop or display card problem! SIGhh.....please save me from all this trouble! Im in such bad luck nowadays!! :(
now i gotta consider what phone to buy! how much money am i coming out, whether is there gonna be sponsor or not, and....gOsh...!!~ no mood to update the rest yet people, maybe after awhile when im over this "lost phone" incident!

-[aLbY]-

Patient . . .

A little more patience ok? I'm really SO gonna update it already! hehehe from my birthday onwards ok! Dont worry people! WAIT!

-[aLbY]-

Talk to me . . .

talk to me
you speak with me
don’t sink before you rise baby
don’t fade away
you hesitate
you seem to wait
for all the time we had
feels like a world away
so who’s to say
we’ll be okay
we will make it through the night
don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
cause we’re the same
and I know that we’ll never change
look, I bought your favourite ice cream
I don’t wanna see it melt away
if you walk out now
I don’t know if we going to be the same
baby just talk with me
cause I want you to stay here with me
I want you to stay here with me

p/s: "Sorry if this is not a clear version of the song, i'll try to search for it again, but for this temporary moment listen to this unclear version first. This is a nice song, it expresses what is in my heart...."

-[aLbY]-

Finally my Kenneth Cole!!!!!!!

Hahaha finally i've the time to post up my favourite perfume! :D KENNETH COLE!!!!!
Ta dang dang dang dang............guess how much is this whole set cost? ONLY RM300! My last 21st present from my sister! hahahah i've been craving for this perfume since 1yrs back! Its so difficult to get it, i've seen it at most place and they dont have it! Luckily i ordered this 1-2months back at Sg Wang, Parkson! :D SMELLS so good and refreshing!!! yummy....hahaha the whole set is so nice and the the box is so elegant some more! WOW!!!! good good good....finally! heheheh




Thanks sis for the present!!!! :D

-[aLbY]-

Never had a dream come true . . .

Ooh...

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus
I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

-[aLbY]-

What can I do?

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

Love me..
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Finally my stress period is over, and going to be free back for the next few months before the next semester examination comes. Yea yea, i know i havent been updating my birthday post & pictures yet, still getting the pictures alright! This is a nice song, YES i know its old ok! C'mon, its jz me, i know i'm an old freak who loves old songs and old things. Anyway, this is Alby!~ my parents said that i'm a sentimental person (*ahem*), well, i guess i'm just what everyone says, "Alby is an emo fella." Ya, it's jz because am a person who's sentimental and stick to no changes, that's why i'm an emo fella when i encounter indifference in anything. Sometimes i really felt that i only want to live in my own world. Nothing can be like what u expected unless u achieve it by your own effort. I will only put in 101% of effort in achieving something which is important to me in my life. I dont know whether do i consider myself a naive or a close-minded person. I'm not a very tradition person, but at least i'm truthful to everybody except people i dislike. I've undergo a 21yrs of life, i met different people, really different people in terms of character and type of human being too. I learned something, but i only learn to adapt to it! It's either i take it or leave it. Sometimes somehow i hoped what i've would remain and not changed....but on some circumstances, Alby, you dont have a choice! I know i may not be a good son, a good boyfriend nor a good friend, but what i'm good at is i'm Alby itself. To people who knows Alby (really well), will know he has at least ONE good criteria in everyone's mind.

I finally had turned 21yrs old. I did gain and lost some things. What are they i needn't say it out as it isn't important to anyone but i've only been wishing for one thing all this while, it's alright, as i said, my things aren't so important to anyone again. Lets say this is only a random post where i havent been writing for long? I've no good results in life at the moment, i gain NOTHING and lost EVERYTHING. This is what i meant by i gain something and lost something. I wanted to make my blog private i guess, feeling that i only wanted to leave in my own world. Sad isn't it? HAHA...

Actually I felt i've aimless life now. Everyone has their dreams, ambitions or at least an aim in life, but i dont, in my 21st birthday, i made 2wishes this year. Both wishes are exclusively made for people whom is important in my life...not even for myself! Maybe it's jz like what some people says, fate in life. My happiness, was once in my own hands, but now, i realise my hands are jz retard and malfuncion. I make people in my surroundings unhappy instead of happiness. Sometimes i really felt i'm a troublemaker to everyone. "Alby, Alby...u need to be strong, then proof to everybody u're not as you said yourself, a useless fella! Proof them u're at least someone to them in their list!" Rant but keeping myself courage, it sounded kinda stupid isn't it? HAHA but only myself could help myself...thanks to whomever who visits and read my blog. I appreciated all your precious time reading such blog, ranting of myself!

Hey people, have u ever listen to the songs i posted on the right side of my blog? Yea, some emo songs again!! Anyway, they're masterpiece songs which reminded me so much of the greatest memories i had before. Give urself sometime to listen to the songs. They means alot to me...

Its close to 4am, i couldn't sleep really! I was super tired, but couldn't rest at all. My air-cond is leaking, so no air-cond for the night, its a public holiday, but to me its jz a normal monday, im on a week holiday before starting my new semester, but i dont feel like going anywhere at all, im not studying under-pressure as well, but still cant sleep!

I'm really missing something in life now, my soul i guess...why cant i be perfect? Why cant i jz make people in my surrounding happy with me? Sigh...i should jz stop here! Enough of ranting in such a sad place! Thanks for spending your precious time reading on such a blog...

-[aLbY]-

I'm officially 21years and 1month old!

I'm officially 21yrs and 1mth old now! Hahaha...stressing for exam now, till friday! Wish me luck people!

p/s: Enjoy the song...i love this song!!~

-[aLbY]-

Love to be loved by you . . .

I can’t believe I’m standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart
You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer
Can’t you see…

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I’m blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you

You're looking kind of scared right now
You're waiting for the wedding vows
But I don’t know if my tongue’s able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me
Like sunbeams on a summer stream and
I gotta close my eyes to protect me
Can you take my hand and lead me
From here please yeah...yeah...

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I’m blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever
And I know they gonna say that we’ll give up because of heavy weather
But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent
We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong…

Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I’m blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

Yes I love to be loved by you

p/s: Still stress with exam till this coming friday!!!~ Enjoy the song people...

-[aLbY]-

STRESS ... EXAM ... STRESS ... EXAM ...

Sorry people, i really have not much time to post pictures of my birthday and other occasions! No time for blogging at the moment as i'll be having ONE WEEK exam from 25/8 till 29/8! So bear with it, i'll be right back...STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!! Please help me with the exam answer sheet!!!!!! *sobsob* TIME FASTER PASS..........i want HOLIDAY.........................

-[aLbY]-

Random

Shayne Ward - You're not alone



Michael Jackson - Remember the time



Player - Baby come back

-[aLbY]-

You're #2 . . .

I hate hypocrites and people who boycott untrue stories especially about me. You're great, u've got everything from me! What u left is pieces of shits to me! Will u get to read my blog, i dont know, will u know who am i talking about, u may not know too, but its alright, no one will know, i can do nothing about you and you've won everything from me! You've money, you've skills, you've contacts, you've got brain to turn and twist ones mind, you've got "my" precious to trust you're ONE FINE PERSON! Happy isnt it? I guess that's not enough yet for you, you havent seen me having NOTHING and EMPTY yet. You insane crazy freak! You'll deserve what you should one day! You're the 2nd person i hate most on Earth...congrates!~ When i said i hate you, i hate you deep in to my nerves!

-[aLbY]-

A new beginning . . . .

Celine Dion - A new day has come Lyrics

Hey i'm back, its been a week, i was super busy since after my birthday week! 4assignments due in 2weeks time, mostly last minute done work, some half way done before my birthday! Wopz, for your info, my birthday is on the 27/7 hehehe well, i'd throw a small house party together with a few good buds of mine and it went thru successfully! Sorry ya, i REALLY dont have ANY pics AT THE MOMENT yet! LoLz, am gonna get it VERY SOON aight! Guess i gotta say when it reaches sharp at 12am on the 27/7/2008, i've officially turned 21y/o! I'm an adult now! Everything is the new beginning i should say it, everything is gonna RESTART and MAKE it better from now onwards....

21y/o, it's my VERY first birthday party of my 21years of life, the most gift i ever had during my birthday! HAHAHAH so happy, but whats the funniest thing was instead of a birthday cake, i was actually holding a bottle of MY OWN CHIVAS sharp at 12am! *sweat* funny isnt it? hahaha that bloody Ed planned earlier! Ish, i wanted so much a cake for my birthday since i havent been eating pastry for long but it didnt turned up during my birthday but a bottle of CHIVAS! Shit man, 10secs + 2secs extra from the count of 10 for the countdown to my birthday! SHIT! It was still fine if there's stopper but THERE ISN'T ANY OK!!! NONE!!!! WTF!!!! Bloody Ed fooled me nicely this time, i drank more than a QUARTER within 12secs! But i was darn happy anyway that time! hahaha everything turned out well! After the 12secs, i'd red wine, red wine + coke, sprite etc...OMFG, super tipsy! LoLz, many things happened then thereafter, not even noticing in btw the 2hours too! LMAO! (**Sorry gonna keep it secret but for THOSE who knows what happened, SHHHHHHHH**) Eventually the party ends at 4++am, everyone left, and i slept witht he presents! hahahah one of the friend was at the living room, DRUNK + ASLEEP! Another year older...really guys, wait for the update of my birthday pictures, thou i didnt get to take MUCH AS MOSTLY THINK IT WAS THEIR BIRTHDAY THERE, but the atmosphere + the theme, OH MY....im just so satisfy with everything me and my buds planned! :) thank u all so much! Love y'll so much...!!!!!!

Btw, i've finally handed in 3 of my assignments, left 1 more to go! Wish me best of luck ya!!! :) another thing, i've been to Euphoria by M.O.S TWICE last week, i didnt know i was in the guest list there cause i registered for Euphoria?! *sweat* okok, i guess thats all for tonight...goodnight people!~ nitezZzz...

-[aLbY]-

Sorry for the delay...

Blog Blog Blog....sorry for the delay of my own 21st birthday party post! I'm superb busy now, assignment due from 28/7/08 (my birthday is on the 27/7/08 and party is on 26/7/08) till 8/8/08!!! OM*G!!!!!! Hated it! I've briefing for the coming TechEd 2008 job on mid August, 2weeks before my exam! MY GOODNESS.....i'll post it ASAP after my assignments are done this week aight! Stay tune on http://alby27.blogspot.com! Oh yea, ermm....it jz came across my mind, its after so long and over my 21st birthday, should i close my blog or not? Leave me a comment everybody! Thanks to those who celebrated my 21st birthday and those who attended, helped as well as was with me on that night! :D special thanks to all my buddies who'd helped me so much for cleaning the place and decorating it too! Love u guys! So...i gotta pen-off now, assignment, but i'm going off to sleep now! At kopitiam! hahah sad right? phone line BREAKDOWN again! Sigh....f*cking TM, u're gonna get it tomorrow! Nitez.... love u people loads...

Love,
-[aLbY]-

You're my everything . . .

Few more days only.....
Only 1 line: You're my everything, you're only what i wish for and want to be with..

p/s: I only wanna love you baby..

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -154-

A Story of "U & ME" [23-07-2008]

On one of the most meaningful yet unforgettable day, this is when our story begin, "U & ME". There's no need to say it out, only "U & ME" know what the story is...i love you baby...& i miss you so badly!~



I've a dedication for you baby...
Listen...with the lyrics, its all i meant by "I Love You" and i wanted to have a new start with you, just as how we used to love each other so badly...

Mariah Carey Lyrics
Love Story Lyrics

p/s: Just "U & ME"...Happy 2nd Year Anniversary to you! Baby, I'll always love you..

-[aLbY]- @ -152-

The Lake House

-Day 150-

When love comes to it's limits...
The person will tell that person that you love him or her...
If I'll be the one saying it to you....
If I say I love You very much right up till today....
What will be your answer...
Will my feelings be the same as yours?

Do u still remember this movie; The Lake House? Never know that time flies, this is our very first romance movie watched in 2006. Its been 2years today, still remember the story line? Still remember our line? Heh, we've said it before, "not gonna leave each other" before. Maybe i sounded naive to everyone, but btw u and me, u know what's going on, u can feel it, i can feel it too. What's more than my sincerity and loyalty towards u today? 6months, officially the 6th month since that day...do u know that i still misses u so badly? Do u know that i still love u? "Persuasion", the book in The Lake House, it's about waiting...2person met, almost fall in love but the timing isn't right, but after a few years later, they met and they have another chance. Its been 6months, i've been trying all ways to us back together. I do not mind anything or anyone, but because i know this is ONLY what we both know that we still love each other, hence, i'm still keeping this up without giving up before. 6months, its been 150days i've waited for u to forgive and accept me back. I understand your feeling of fear being hurt again, and your disappointment. After this 6months long, i've corrected my mistakes, i've told myself that i wouldn't repeat the mistake anymore. Im doing this because of you, because i know you love me lots, thats why im doing anything, everything to get us back.




I'm dedicating this song for u baby, the original song track of The Lake House...


I love you baby, i really love you! I've never taken u for granted nor fooled u before! Im definitely unlike others, im only requesting for the last chance from you baby, would u let me take good care of u and love u back like how i used to? I've lost u for 6months, i dont want to lose u any longer anymore. Im saying this for the sake that i love u too much deeply and not gonna let u go. I know u still love me too! Im appreciating whatever chances and opportunity i have before its too late when i've lost all of u, even if it's a little bit of feelings left, im still willing to gain everything back cause i know u couldn't forget me just like that. I'll keep my words for u, i'll love u even more, and gonna take very good care of u like how i used to baby. Its for the one and only that i love, which is you....

p/s: "If i were given another chance, i hoped that we could watch this movie together again..., can we?"

-[aLbY]- @ -150-

Let's start from here . . .

Joanna Wang - Let's Start From Here

Giving up, why should I
we've come too far to forget
beautiful
just got lost somewhere along the way
so much was missing when you went away

Let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think too deep
all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
let's start from here

Standing here
face to face
a finger on your lips
don't say a word
don't make a sound
silence surrounds us now
even when you were gone I felt you everywhere

Let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think too deep
all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
let's start from here
let's start from here

I've never been the one to open up
but you've always been the voive within
the only one for my cold heart

Let's start from here
lose the past change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think too deep
and all those promises
let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
not think too deep
and all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go

Let's start from here...

Baby, i'm always the same old Alby even right up till today. I want u to know, i've never changed before, i promise i'll never gonna lie and betray u anymore! I would want to request, to take good care and love u back baby...i'll keep to my words, and u'll never will make the wrong decision too baby! I really love u till the bottom of my heart...

I'm missing u badly, loving u more than anything everyday baby...please forgive me and allow us to get back together!!~ I love u, and i want to love u as how Alby used to... *tears*

-[aLbY]- @ -148-

I just can't stop loving you!

Baby, do u still remember this portrait? It was taken during one of our outing with my friends! I miss that moment so much! I miss u so much! Tonight i'm posting "I just can't stop loving you" for u in conjunction of another week would be someday we know what day it is. I love u, i love u till the bottom of my heart! No one understands how i feel, but...only u do, thou u dont care, but i know u still do! I need u, i'm so in need of your T.L.C at this stressful time! I needed u to be by my side, can u please? I wanted to have the best 1st best day of my life with u on "our day". I misses the days we were together, i misses holding ur hands while driving, i misses u sitting next to me, i misses hugging and *kisses* before i dropped u back, i misses the WHOLE of u baby! *tears* I just can't stop loving u baby, u know i can't, and i know u can't too. Allow me to be back by your side please...i wouldn't hurt u anymore! I keep my words for u...

Here's a video of Michael Jackson in "I just can't stop loving you" song, dedicated for his beloved wife... I'll now dedicate this to u my love, u're always the one and only that i love...

I Just Want To Lay Next To You
For Awhile
You Look So Beautiful Tonight
Your Eyes Are So Lovely
Your Mouth Is So Sweet
A Lot Of People
Misunderstand Me
That's Because They Don't
Know Me At All
I Just Want To Touch You
And Hold You
I Need You
God I Need You
I Love You So Much

[Michael]
Each Time The Wind Blows
I Hear Your Voice So
I Call Your Name . . .
Whispers At Morning
Our Love Is Dawning
Heaven's Glad You Came . . .

You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I'm So Proud To Say
I Love You
Your Love's Got Me High
I Long To Get By
This Time Is Forever
Love Is The Answer

[Siedah]
I Hear Your Voice Now
You Are My Choice Now
The Love You Bring
Heaven's In My Heart
At Your Call
I Hear Harps,
And Angels Sing

You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I Can't Live My Life
Without You

[Michael]
I Just Can't Hold On

[Siedah]
I Feel We Belong

[Michael]
My Life Ain't Worth Living
If I Can't Be With You

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me Just What
Will I Do

[Siedah]
'Cause I Just Can't Stop
Loving You

[Michael]
At Night When The
Stars Shine
I Pray In You I'll Find
A Love So True . . .

[Siedah]
When Morning Awakes Me
Will You Come And Take Me
I'll Wait For You

[Michael]
You Know How I Feel
I Won't Stop Until
I Hear Your Voice Saying
"I Do"

[Siedah]
"I Do"
This Thing Can't Go Wrong

[Michael]
This Feeling's So Strong

[Siedah]
Well, My Life Ain't
Worth Living

[Both]
If I Can't Be With You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me, Just What
Will I Do

[Michael]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Siedah]
We Can Change All The World
Tomorrow

[Michael]
We Can Sing Songs Of
Yesterday

[Siedah]
I Can Say, Hey . . .Farewell
To Sorrow

[Michael]
This Is My Life And I,

[Both]
Want To See You For Always
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Siedah]
No, Baby

[Michael]
Oh!

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Siedah]
If I Can't Stop!

[Both]
And If I Stop . . .

[Siedah]
No

[Michael]
Oh! Oh! Oh . . .Oh . . .

[Siedah]
What Will I Do? Uh . . .Ooh . . .
(Then Tell Me, Just What
Will I Do)

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Michael]
Hee! Hee! Hee! Know I Do
Girl!

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Michael]
You Know I Do
And If I Stop . . .

[Both]
Then Tell Me, Just What
Will I Do

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

p/s: "I just can't stop loving you, baby...."






-[aLbY]- @ -146-

R.I.P

I feel like dying, please! :'( i'm so stressed and derpess! I need T.L.C! :'( i'm sick, stress, pressure, tonnes of work to do, i'm feeling i've not much time left for everything! I'm such a.....pathetic sicko! END EVERYONE...i need.........you so much! :(

-[aLbY]- @ -137-