How do i live . . .

How do I get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind life would that be

And I, I need you in my arms need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
Without you there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, baby I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby, you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now

CHORUS
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I, how do I, Oh how do I live

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby 'cause you know
That you're everything good in my life
And tell me now
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Heavy eyes with heavy eye bags! Had terrible insomnia lately, couldn't sleep well at all! Each rest could only last for a few hours. Each time when i was awake, i wont be able to continue sleeping, only my eyes are shut, but my mind is still functioning. Its still working and its still working very hard...i'm feeling such restless, useless, meaningless without you! Jz exactly as what it is sang in this song, its really very meaningful and baby, i'd really no idea how do i get through the rest of the nights without you... :'( i miss you so badly...

-[aLbY]- @ -17-

Truly, Madly, Deeply . . . .

Ya, i had insomnia again, when i opened my eyes, i thought i had really slept, but in fact, i didnt make it at all! I can only tell i miss u so much! I miss u really very much and i love u truly, madly, deeply too! Gotta go for a class soon then will be back home...

The waiting -[aLbY]-

I miss you . . .

Its the election day, everywhere is busy and road blocks everywhere, but i was at home only. I miss you...i think of you, and i can only say that i miss you so much, so badly! I love you baby, i love you and i'll cherish you as much as i could, will not gonna hurt you anymore! I kept to my words! I'll wait for you baby...i'll not regret of waiting for you coz you worth everything for me no matter what...

With Love,
-[aLbY]-

One more chance . . .

"The words I love you are not for anyone to say from their mouth to their beloved one. It's a feeling that you can whisper to each other from heart-to-heart without saying it aloud."

I believe when one said "i love you" it isn't for unnecessary but truely love that person then only it'll be told that. U remember when was the last time u said that to me? Yup, that night, the night where we were very happily together. And i still believe that u said that to me was from all by your heart, but not 'entertaining' or 'normal speech' coz i believe in you that u really did it for me. I love you truely, this is really from my heart all the time...never had doubt of saying it before, but each time i said it, u'll jz be stayed in my heart that i really love u and dowan to lose so easily...and i still believe u still love me too coz what i have is the faith in u that u wouldnt let go of me when i never had let go of u before!
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I lie half awake
Late at night
I reach out to touch you
Feel you by my side
And I reach
And I reach
But I never get to feel you
Will I ever get to feel you again?
Again

Just one more time
One more moment
To take you in my arms
One more chance
One more kiss
Before I wake to find you gone
One more time
Before I have to face another day
And my heart breaks
Again

It's only a dream
But it's all so real
Don't want it to end
But I know it will
So I pray
And I pray
Every night I'm on my knees
Begging for the chance to see you again
Again

Just one more time
One more moment
To take you in my arms
One more chance
One more kiss
Before I wake to find you gone
One more time
Before I have to face another day
And my heart breaks
Again

Oh one more time
Before I have to face
Another day,
And my heart breaks again
Again
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"The joy of loving always heals the hurt of loving." by D.E. Smith

As long as u love me, remembers every single event/thing between me and u, i'm surely going to proof to u that i'm able to succeed in what i promised and swear to u that i'll never gonna hurt u anymore. I'm able to love u so deeply yet kept waiting for u was because i could assure that the joy of love from me could heal the hurt i made to u! In the past i manage to wait for u yet u could forgive me & also managed to make us love each other even more, today, right here, i'll still wait for u and i'll assure that we'll love each other even more with the promises and swear i've made upon seeking for forgiveness from u that i wouldn't hurt u anymore. And i really mean it this time as i'll never ever gonna repeat any mistakes in the past that gonna hurt u anymore baby...trust me for this time and give me one more chance to be back with u...i love u and misses u badly in every single seconds and minutes!

Loves truely,
-[aLbY]-

۰۪۪۫۫L۪۫۰۪۪۪۫۫۫O۪۫۰۪۫V۪۫۰۪۫E۪۫ ۰۪۫Y۪۫۰۪۫O۪۫۰۪۫U۰

I Love You...

It reminds me of us so much in love together with each other, my tears tears, your love had made me blind till i love you so much and i dont want to lose you again. I'm very sorry, it'll never gonna happen anymore baby...

All this while, you are the first thing/person i think of when i wake up, the only thing/person i think of when i'm awake, and the last thing/person i think of before i go to bed, that means you are really somebody special who means alot and had brighten up so much in my life...I saw this heart shape muffin and bought it back few days ago, now it has represents my love to you. I'd came across this quote, "nothing is impossible, when it comes to love" because love is one of the greatest and strongest energy on Earth. This is how i understand how important you are to me in no matter what happens all this time. That's why i love you so much and misses you so badly everyday and night until today...no one would understand this feeling of mine for u coz no one would ever feel how i feel EXCEPT u. Without u...no one will understand how sad i am, but ONLY u do too, the truth, i'll wait, i wont let go u no matter what because u're what i could give up on anything and to make me happiest person...most importantly, u're the one I LOVE ONLY! I'm so so sorry baby...

Something for you here...

831 means 'I Love You'
- 8 letters
- 3 words
- 1 meaning

p/s: "I know that you are not perfect and nor can I claim to be either, but please believe me for this time, when I say that I want to be by your side, to hold your hand, to treasure you in the morning and in the noon-tide, to be next to you, to be held close to your heart now and then, to comfort you, dry your tears and calm your most frightening fears, to fight your battles and show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over..."

Thats what i meant for you from my heart my love. I only want to be with you...

With love,
-[aLbY]-

Unconditional Love . . .

Unconditional Love

[Better to read the Chinese version below if you know Chinese. Thanks to No Name Angel for translating this entry into Chinese]

This morning, I had an online friend who was just came out from the hospital. He was there for mental depression. From the msn chat I had with him, he was having depression from his relationships. Deep disappointments from too much expectations in a relationship. Now he's doing fine and he's back to office for work. But he's still on anti depressant drugs to help him to recover.

In a loving relationship, how deep can we love each other? Do we love each till we forgot to love our ownself? Sometimes, I think alot about this question. In a relationship, both people need to love each other and need put effort into the relationship and also love ownself. For me, I love the relationship more than loving my ownself. I spend more time in the relationship more than for myself. I spend more money in the relationship more than for myself. Some people say I'm stupid because I should love myself more.

There are some people who found their compatible partner but scared to fall in love. They love their partner so much that they afraid to start a relationship. The reason being that the relationship may not end up well and hurt each other. Hurt other people and hurt ownself. To them, it's better to love from a distance. In a friendship. Having the love, as a friend, and not falling too deep. Love is just ironic. Love is suppose to be beautiful feeling. And yet, there can be so much pain in love. How can we love a person without having so much pain?

How do we love a person? I don't know for sure and I'm still learning. There are some people who wants to know everything the lover has done. Want to know all their lover's friends. Their lover's phone calls, SMS, daily activities, track where their lover is and whatsoever. They want to change their lover's lifestyle. When they do 'this and that' to their lover, they also expect their lover to do the same 'this and that' for them too. They will be thinking if their lover will love as much as they love their lover. Whether their lover will miss as much as they miss them. Whether their lover will sacrifice as much as they sacrifice for them.

To me, I prefer to have unconditional love. I will love my lover as much as I can. I will do as much as I can for my lover. But I will try not to expect the same thing in return. I will just do my best for my part. If I have too much expectations, there will be a lot of pressure in the relationship and it won't be enjoyable anymore. Just try to go naturally and things will change accordingly. if things are just nice, just let it be.

Things I write here can be so ideal. But sometimes I can be emotional and think a lot about relationship. Maybe I think too much. Love is just ironic. We cannot hold too tight. And cannot don't care at all. Maybe it's like flying a kite. Sometimes we need to pull back a bit, and sometimes we let the kite to fly with the wind. Pull too hard, the string will break. Let go too much, the kite will fly away with the wind. Love is like the string, that connects the lover and ownself.

A balance. I'm still learning very hard to achieve the balance. Do you feel the same way as I do too ?

Happy Chinese Valentine Day. Happy Chap Goh Mei.

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无条件的爱



无条件的爱

今天早上，我的一个网友才刚出院。四天前他被送入医院，因为他需要接受心理辅导和药物治疗。他，患上了忧郁症。他出院后我和他在msn闲聊了一会儿，才知道原来他是因为感情出了问题，才患上忧郁症的。感情世界里的困扰，就像是一个无底洞，一旦处理不当，就会掉入那个无底深潭里，很难很难，才能够走出来。他，又何尝不是呢？他，就是因为对他的另一半期待太高了，结果就如俗语的那一句话一样：期望越高，失望就越大。幸好的是，他现在已经没有什么大碍，可以如常一样上班工作。只是他还需要定时服食镇定药来帮助他完全复原。

在我身边发生这样的事情，真令我有感而发。在一段感情里，究竟我们能够爱对方多深呢？我们是否总是深爱着对方到了忘我的境界？甚至，忘了该怎么去爱自己。很多时候，我总是为了这些很俗套的问题，而想到了很多很多。一段感情里，双方都应该爱着对方，感情永远都是一个双人参与的游戏。同时，双方又得为了这段感情而付出努力，而付出的同时，又得懂得如何爱惜自己。感情啊感情，真是多么矛盾的游戏。而我自己，总是爱他比爱自己来的多。赚回来的血汗钱，总是那么的舍得花在我们的感情生活里。有些人总觉得我很傻很蠢，因为人总该爱自己比任何人都来得多。事实真得如此吗？

寻寻觅觅，觅觅寻寻，有些人终于找到了合适他们的另一半，却犹豫着不敢去爱对方，不敢去开始那一段可以是多么华丽的感情。原因？竟然是多么的可悲，只因为他害怕感情到最后会变质，结果不只伤害了自己，害伤害了对方。果然有够可悲。把对爱对方的感觉，放在一个遥远的距离，甚至把这种感觉洒在友情的平台上，让大家站在友情这个平台上，不必付出，不必担心失去，不必担心伤害，那么永远永远的，大家都可以永远在一起。爱，就是如此的矛盾，它既可以像彩虹般旬兰美丽，也可以像服食砒霜般让人痛不欲生。究竟我们可以如何爱一个人却感觉不到通的感觉呢？

究竟我们该如何去爱一个人呢？又该如何好好地去经营一段感情呢？我不知道，也在学习着。有一些人，希望可以完全的掌握他爱人的全部，对方的日常活动，对方所有的朋友，对方的电话记录，对方手机的短讯，更想要知道对方每份每秒的一举一动。对方一切的一切，都在他的掌心里。甚至，要改变对方的生活方式。当他把这套经营感情的方式套在对方的身上，也期待对方能用如此的方式对待自己。他们的多疑，总让他们想得太多。究竟对方是否像我爱他那样的爱着我？究竟对方是否向我想念他一样的想念我？究竟对方会否像我一样付出所有来对待这段感情？这样的问题，总是时常环绕在他们的脑海里，不停的打转。。。

而我呢？我希望拥有无条件的爱。我会尽我的全力去爱对方，我会尽我的努力去为他做所有事情，只要他幸福就好。可是，我却尝试不去期待那么多的回报，只要求自己能做好我的本分。期待越高，失望就越高，这句话，并不是没有它的道理。当我们期待的越高，无形中压力就会悄悄的滋生在两人感情当中，压力总让人透不过气，忘了该怎么去享受一段真心付出的感情。缘起缘灭，让一切顺其自然，就是最好的方法。随着时间这个巨轮的转动，一切都会慢慢的改变。如果时间的前进，带来的是正面的改变，just let it be，一切都很好。

人的想法，总是那么的完美，就像我写的文字一样，流露着世界里最天衣无缝的韵味。可是，人毕竟是有感情的动物，我总是很容易被自己情绪打败，被困在一些很虚幻的问题之中。爱，总是那么的矛盾。我们既不可以握得太紧，也不可以洒脱的放开手。这就像是放风筝吧？！有的时候，我们须放手让风筝飘在蓝色的天空中，有必要时，也要把手中风筝的线收回。就是这样，收放自如。技巧不够熟练，，风筝就会断线，然后随风而飘，飘往那遥远的地方，只怕连说再见的机会也没有了。爱情就是风筝的线，把风筝和放风筝的人紧紧相连，却又是那么的脆弱。

平衡，一切都该如此。而我，还在努力的学习着如何在感情的世界里，达到平衡的境界。那么，在读着这篇心情文章的你，是否也一样呢？

祝你：元宵节快乐。

Credits to pikey
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I saw this post on one of my very long lost friend, pikey, do not know whether he still remembers me or not, but its so true about what he said in the post. Although i wasn't in an "unconditional relationship" but, expecting alil is surely foresee in all relationships. I dont dare to say i didnt expect anything, but im willing to do anything for you jz because i love you more than myself. Rather do anything for you than for myself, spend whatever on you than myself, and even give you whatever you wanted from me as long as you're with me, let me loving you and share the ups and downs together, that would be what i wanted. I know you'd done the same to me too, but no matter what, i jz wanted u to know i'll still be there for you no matter what, fulfill your expectations from me (if im given sometime), will not repeat the mistakes ANYMORE and wait for you to let me be back by your side as i love you truely deep in my heart...



-[aLbY]-

Miss you like crazy!

I've insomnia again, i miss you so much baby...hoping u having a good rest now!

**kisses**

Always love you...

-[aLbY]-

I never wanna say goodbye to u . . .

I wanna know
Whoever told you I was letting go
Of the only joy that I have ever known
Girl they were lying
Just look around
And all the people that we used to know
Have just given up, they wanna let it go
But we're still trying

So you should know this love we share
Was never made to die
I'm glad we're on this one-way
street, just you and I
Just you and I

I'm never gonna say goodbye
'Cause I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I'd swear it all over again, and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
'Cause I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I'd swear it all over again

All over again

Some people say
That everything has got it's place and time
Even the day must give way to the night
But I'm not buying
Cause in your eyes
I see a love that burns eternally
And if you see how beautiful you are to me
You'll know I'm not lying

Sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye
But even if we tried
There are some things in this life won't be denied
Won't be denied

Repeat chorus

The more I see of you
Is the more I know I love you
And more that I'm sure
I want you for ever and ever more
And the more that you love me
The more that I know
Oh that I'm never gonna let you go
Gotta let you know that I

I'm never gonna say good bye
(I'm never gonna say goodbye)
Cause I never wanna see you cry
(I never wanna see you cry)
I swore to you my love would remain
And I'd swear it all over again, and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
(Never gonna treat you bad)
Cause I never wanna see you sad
(I'm never gonna see you sad)
I swore to share your joy and your pain (oh no)
And I'd swear it all over again
All over again, all over again
And I'd swear it all over again
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Went to college again, one class ended then another few hours of break, then continue class again till 5pm. No where to go, dont plan to go anywhere also, not really feeling well as well, so i went back home to try to take some rest, ate something, but not much, so i went back to my room to try doing something...end up, i wanted to sweat, so i went to the gym for a while...do think, do think, do think, do and think of u all over again. This song is so about us all this while and i love u really much as how i used to, i never wanna say goodbye to u, cause i never wanna see u cry, i swore to u my love would remain and i'd swear it all over again, i'm never gonna treat u bad, cause i never wanna see u sad, i swore to share your joy and pain, and i'd swear it over and all over again i'm never gonna treat u bad baby...i miss u so much! No matter what happens, i'll wait and will wait for you...

Love,
-[aLbY]-

Ai wo bie zhou . . . .

Yup, its been another day, couldn't sleep at all, woke up on and off, switching my monitor on and off again. Cant sleep at all, when i really rested, then i was awake again! Sigh...anyhow, i went to college at 12.30pm, there was lab session till 3.30pm. Then went for a walk and a short gym, cant do anything much there, i only know i was restless and strengthless at the gym. So i left and went back home for dinner...i was stucked in the jam for close to 40mins! Been thinking alot, and i wasn't looking fine, been worrying alot, no one would know, no one would understand, no one would feel how it feels also....

Anyway, this song reminds me of something, hehe, nevermind, i jz hoped that you ai wo bie zhou coz i still loves you no matter what! I've been worried about you and also misses you so badly...u knew it!!! Its jz like a shooting star, and shooting star means alot to everyone, especially when you get to see it in your life, you'll make the best wish and would enjoy that moment coz it dont last long and it'll only appear once in awhile. Jz like how we met and got together, its never easy, there're lots of others outside, but why not them? Heh, only God knows...but i only wanted u to know that u mean ALOT to me in my life and i love you truely with my heart, i'll be waiting for you no matter what...

The one who's waiting.. @ -[aLbY]-

Burn for you . . .

Was at college from 9am till 5.30pm today, it's so darn freaking bored and wasting time. Attended 1hrs30mins class then break for 5hours, then only continue another 1hrs30mins class. Spent the time not doing anything much in the college, out for lunch then back to college. I was stoning at times in the class again, walking in and out of the class for nothing. While on the way back home, i was very upset and emotional again after listening to a song. So reminds me of all the time being with u, and i miss u really really badly too...



I got myself into some trouble tonight
Guess I'm just feeling blue
It's been so long since I've seen your face
This distance between me and you
That voice you showed me is not the one I know
I must be strung out on what I do
Don't hang up again
There's nothing else I know how to do

But I burn for you
What am I gonna do
I burn for you

I guess it feels like you're always alone
And I feel that way too
It's so hard to explain to you
Please understand what I do

I burn for you
What am I gonna do
I burn for you
Burn for you

Took my trouble to a bar tonight
For another point of view
But there's nothing new
I'm missing you

I burn for you
What am I gonna do
I burn for you
Burn for you
oh I burn for you
What am I gonna do
I burn for you
Burn for you
What am I gonna do
I burn for you
Burn for you
Burn for you...

p/s: I've regretted for what happened, i'm feeling terribly sorry about it as i really dont mean to... :( i'll wait for you no matter how long it takes for u to forgive me, coz i truely love you as much as before..."

-[aLbY]-

Insomnia . . .

It's 8.30am now, i'm still not asleep. I've insomnia, i couldn't sleep. I miss you very much and i'm worried. Fear to lose you till i couldnt sleep at all! I miss you badly, i love you badly too baby...

-[aLbY]-

I'll make love to you . . .

Close your eyes, make a wish
And blow out the candlelight
For tonight is just your night
We're gona celebrate, all thru the night
Pour the wine, light the fire
Girl your wish is my command
I submit to your demands
I'll do anything, girl you need only ask

I'll make love to you
Like you want me to
And I'll hold you tight
Baby all through the night
I'll make love to you
When you want me to
And I will not let go
'Till you tell me to

Girl relax, let's go slow
I ain't got nowhere to go
I'm just gonna concentrate on you
Girl are you ready, it's
gonna be a long night
Throw your clothes on the floor
I'm gonna take my clothes off too
I made plans to be with you
Girl whatever you ask me,
you know, I'll do

Baby tonight is your night
And I will do you right
Just make a wish on your night
Anything that you ask
I will give you the love of your life

I'll make love to you
Like you want me to
And I'll hold you tight
Baby all through the night
I'll make love to you
When you want me to
And I will not let go
'Till you tell me to

p/s: "I'll be waiting for you no matter what, i'll make love to you, for whatever you asked for, i'll change and i'm sorry to you my love...i swear i'll be good to you! There'll be now lies within anymore..."

-[aLbY]-

It's been another day . . .

Woke up at 8.10am today, reached college at 9.10am. Late for 25minutes, it's all right, i realise i'd forgotten where did the lecturer stopped also! Shit, i didnt print out the latest slide, all right fine, i was stoning in the class the whole 40minutes. After that, went for a short breakfast at the rooftop of the college, then, continue class at 10.30am, but only entered at 10.45am, dont really know what was she talking about. I was stoning again, but this time i guess its better, i slept in the class. I couldn't concentrate at all, ever since class started. I dont understand a single thing that she lectured, i consulted the lecturer personally, but i didnt get much info as i guess i've left-out alot in the previous classes *sigh* its ok, i left college after class ended. Went back home to rest, yup, i did rest but only my eyes. My mind wasn't shut at all! Worries, confusion, fear, guilt, regret, unhappy....it makes me felt so uncomfortable throughout the whole noon i was "napping". Sigh...i'm feeling so useless and restless now! Evening i went to the gym to try to release some stress, but...at the end i didnt make it too. Went dinner then went back home after that. Its been another restless day...i miss you, and i miss you very much! God knows whats happening exactly, but i'll still be waiting for you no matter what happened coz i'll not reluctant you in no matter what and leave you alone, that's because i love you truely and wants to get back with you only...



-[aLbY]-

I ♥ you . . .

I'm sorry to you...
I'm terribly feeling guilty since that night till today!
I really promise u i wont repeat it anymore, not anymore at all...
I've regretted it now, i dont want to lose you again...
Please forgive me for the last time...
I love you very truely, i'll change for sure!!!~

-[aLbY]-

Confession of pain . . .

Day 4:



Baby, i'll give you all the time you need to recover together, i'll not stay near you to hurt you anymore i promise. Please give me another chance only...i love you truely with all my heart and effort! I do not mind being with you as you worth as much as how much i love you my dear...

-[aLbY]- @ Day 4

Confession of pain . . .

Day 3:

Its such a bored day in the college. I was so tired the whole day, wherever i sat, my head will be landed on the table. Sleep....rest....nap....i'm feeling so restless now. Looking at the sunset, looking at the sunrise. Looking at the cloud turning dark and bright everyday. I'm still waiting for you baby...I still remember a story...

"If u rare a bird, do not always confine it in the cage, let it be free sometimes, we're human being, do not always kept controlling too much else one day when you open the cage after confining the bird in the cage for long, it'll just flew off and won't be back anymore cause the bird is been set free and never want to be in the cage anymore. It's the same towards human being, if we really love them, let them do what they feel like doing, and don't overly control them, else one day when you give them the freedom to do what they want, it'll be too late cause they'll only go far away and will not come back anymore. The bird will still comes back to the owner if the owner is flexible to the bird as well as to your love ones..."

I remember i was once told about this story, i always have remember whatever you told me. I'd given you the freedom you wanted, and let you do what you wanted as long as whatever you do, your heart always has me and you'll still come back to me. I remember we sat and talked about this very calmly those days...i hugged you and told you that i'll give you the freedom you wanted but promise me you must always bear in mind that i'll always be in your heart and don't go away! You hugged me and told me you won't...and we tears. I can see and feel how much we love each other. I learnt to be an open person, will not get jealous easily or too controlling over you. Although you're away from me now, i'll still be here waiting for you cause i love you truely and will wait for you...

A story about a bird and the owner, its you who told me...the owner and the bird got such intimated to each other because they've got the karma and believe they're so much in love with each other. Therefore, they'll not be separated that easily...

I believe you're full with disappointment now, i'd rather be the one to be disappointed now as i'll really change now cause i love you truely and do not want to lose you in anyway and made you becoming a "not you" too! You're always my baby and i love to love and pamper you from time to time too...

I'll never forget this, we pamper each other by nose-to-nose and we smiled at each other, hugging saying we love each other very much! I'll never ever forget this way of pampering...

p/s: "Trust me, everyday and night i miss you, thinking of you not only today or yesterday, but everyday ever since we were together...i understand you more than everyone does, i'll not repeat my mistakes anymore really! Please forgive me baby..."



You light up another cigarette
And i pour the wine
It's four o'clock in the morning
And it's starting to get light
Now i'm right where i want to be
Losing track of time
But i wish that it was still last night
You look like you're in another world
But i can read your mind
How can you be so far away
Lying by my side
When i go away i'll miss you
And i will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

When i go away i'll miss you
And i will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

-[aLbY]- @ Day 3

Confession of Pain . . .

Day 2:

Woke up late for class today, it doesn't matter luckily it was only tutorial. First thing when i woke up, things were stuck up in my head. "I miss you", i'll wait for you to come back to be with me. Today one whole day, i'd very stone emotion. I was emotionless towards everything. Feeling very tired the whole day, from head to toe everywhere is tired and restless. Have been rotting in the college throughout the whole 5hours break today. Second class at 12.10pm, lecturer came in announced that tutorial on monday and wednesday will be slot to tuesday for 3hrs! Sigh...what i was thinking was missing you, kept looking at my phone! It's no longer as usual anymore, *beeps* '1 New Message' opened, and it was you! People outside will never understand why i misses you so much and so much in love with you, but only you know why and you should know why too! Its 2.43am now and it's raining outside...it hasnt't been raining at this hour for long edi, hope you had a good rest for tonight for tomorrow!

Yours love,
-[aLbY]-

Somehow, another song dedication...

Didn't We Almost Have It All Lyrics

p/s: "No matter what you are now, i still love you as much as i use to do..."

-[aLbY]- @ Day 2

Because I Have You . . . .

-[aLbY]-

Valentine's Day

Everyone knows that Valentine's Day is always the sweetest day for everyone who's attached with their love ones. Well, indeed that everyday can be a Valentine's Day as long as your love ones is with you happily every other days, but bear in mind, Valentine's Day is only once a year and it's a day of appreciation towards your love ones. Hoping that everyone could have a lovely Valentine's this year. I'm glad enough to enjoy myself on the 13th and the 14th of February 08! Thanks alot ya...

In fact, i would like to dedicate this song....



p/s: "Happy Valentine's Day ..."

-[aLbY]-

ALLY MCBEAL & JOSH GROBAN - I ONLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU

I don't know what is that makes me love you so
I only know I never wanna let you go
'Cause you started something, can't you see?
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

It happens to be true
I only want to be with you

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do
I wanna spend each moment of the day with you
Look what has happened with just one kiss
I never knew that I could be in love like this

It's crazy but it's true
I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we're together, honey, I don't care
'Cause you started something, can't you see
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

No matter what you do
I only want to be with you
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you

-[aLbY]-