It's been another day . . .

Woke up at 8.10am today, reached college at 9.10am. Late for 25minutes, it's all right, i realise i'd forgotten where did the lecturer stopped also! Shit, i didnt print out the latest slide, all right fine, i was stoning in the class the whole 40minutes. After that, went for a short breakfast at the rooftop of the college, then, continue class at 10.30am, but only entered at 10.45am, dont really know what was she talking about. I was stoning again, but this time i guess its better, i slept in the class. I couldn't concentrate at all, ever since class started. I dont understand a single thing that she lectured, i consulted the lecturer personally, but i didnt get much info as i guess i've left-out alot in the previous classes *sigh* its ok, i left college after class ended. Went back home to rest, yup, i did rest but only my eyes. My mind wasn't shut at all! Worries, confusion, fear, guilt, regret, unhappy....it makes me felt so uncomfortable throughout the whole noon i was "napping". Sigh...i'm feeling so useless and restless now! Evening i went to the gym to try to release some stress, but...at the end i didnt make it too. Went dinner then went back home after that. Its been another restless day...i miss you, and i miss you very much! God knows whats happening exactly, but i'll still be waiting for you no matter what happened coz i'll not reluctant you in no matter what and leave you alone, that's because i love you truely and wants to get back with you only...



-[aLbY]-

I ♥ you . . .

I'm sorry to you...
I'm terribly feeling guilty since that night till today!
I really promise u i wont repeat it anymore, not anymore at all...
I've regretted it now, i dont want to lose you again...
Please forgive me for the last time...
I love you very truely, i'll change for sure!!!~

-[aLbY]-

Confession of pain . . .

Day 4:



Baby, i'll give you all the time you need to recover together, i'll not stay near you to hurt you anymore i promise. Please give me another chance only...i love you truely with all my heart and effort! I do not mind being with you as you worth as much as how much i love you my dear...

-[aLbY]- @ Day 4

Confession of pain . . .

Day 3:

Its such a bored day in the college. I was so tired the whole day, wherever i sat, my head will be landed on the table. Sleep....rest....nap....i'm feeling so restless now. Looking at the sunset, looking at the sunrise. Looking at the cloud turning dark and bright everyday. I'm still waiting for you baby...I still remember a story...

"If u rare a bird, do not always confine it in the cage, let it be free sometimes, we're human being, do not always kept controlling too much else one day when you open the cage after confining the bird in the cage for long, it'll just flew off and won't be back anymore cause the bird is been set free and never want to be in the cage anymore. It's the same towards human being, if we really love them, let them do what they feel like doing, and don't overly control them, else one day when you give them the freedom to do what they want, it'll be too late cause they'll only go far away and will not come back anymore. The bird will still comes back to the owner if the owner is flexible to the bird as well as to your love ones..."

I remember i was once told about this story, i always have remember whatever you told me. I'd given you the freedom you wanted, and let you do what you wanted as long as whatever you do, your heart always has me and you'll still come back to me. I remember we sat and talked about this very calmly those days...i hugged you and told you that i'll give you the freedom you wanted but promise me you must always bear in mind that i'll always be in your heart and don't go away! You hugged me and told me you won't...and we tears. I can see and feel how much we love each other. I learnt to be an open person, will not get jealous easily or too controlling over you. Although you're away from me now, i'll still be here waiting for you cause i love you truely and will wait for you...

A story about a bird and the owner, its you who told me...the owner and the bird got such intimated to each other because they've got the karma and believe they're so much in love with each other. Therefore, they'll not be separated that easily...

I believe you're full with disappointment now, i'd rather be the one to be disappointed now as i'll really change now cause i love you truely and do not want to lose you in anyway and made you becoming a "not you" too! You're always my baby and i love to love and pamper you from time to time too...

I'll never forget this, we pamper each other by nose-to-nose and we smiled at each other, hugging saying we love each other very much! I'll never ever forget this way of pampering...

p/s: "Trust me, everyday and night i miss you, thinking of you not only today or yesterday, but everyday ever since we were together...i understand you more than everyone does, i'll not repeat my mistakes anymore really! Please forgive me baby..."



You light up another cigarette
And i pour the wine
It's four o'clock in the morning
And it's starting to get light
Now i'm right where i want to be
Losing track of time
But i wish that it was still last night
You look like you're in another world
But i can read your mind
How can you be so far away
Lying by my side
When i go away i'll miss you
And i will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

When i go away i'll miss you
And i will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

-[aLbY]- @ Day 3

Confession of Pain . . .

Day 2:

Woke up late for class today, it doesn't matter luckily it was only tutorial. First thing when i woke up, things were stuck up in my head. "I miss you", i'll wait for you to come back to be with me. Today one whole day, i'd very stone emotion. I was emotionless towards everything. Feeling very tired the whole day, from head to toe everywhere is tired and restless. Have been rotting in the college throughout the whole 5hours break today. Second class at 12.10pm, lecturer came in announced that tutorial on monday and wednesday will be slot to tuesday for 3hrs! Sigh...what i was thinking was missing you, kept looking at my phone! It's no longer as usual anymore, *beeps* '1 New Message' opened, and it was you! People outside will never understand why i misses you so much and so much in love with you, but only you know why and you should know why too! Its 2.43am now and it's raining outside...it hasnt't been raining at this hour for long edi, hope you had a good rest for tonight for tomorrow!

Yours love,
-[aLbY]-

Somehow, another song dedication...

Didn't We Almost Have It All Lyrics

p/s: "No matter what you are now, i still love you as much as i use to do..."

-[aLbY]- @ Day 2

Because I Have You . . . .

-[aLbY]-

Valentine's Day

Everyone knows that Valentine's Day is always the sweetest day for everyone who's attached with their love ones. Well, indeed that everyday can be a Valentine's Day as long as your love ones is with you happily every other days, but bear in mind, Valentine's Day is only once a year and it's a day of appreciation towards your love ones. Hoping that everyone could have a lovely Valentine's this year. I'm glad enough to enjoy myself on the 13th and the 14th of February 08! Thanks alot ya...

In fact, i would like to dedicate this song....



p/s: "Happy Valentine's Day ..."

-[aLbY]-

ALLY MCBEAL & JOSH GROBAN - I ONLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU

I don't know what is that makes me love you so
I only know I never wanna let you go
'Cause you started something, can't you see?
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

It happens to be true
I only want to be with you

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do
I wanna spend each moment of the day with you
Look what has happened with just one kiss
I never knew that I could be in love like this

It's crazy but it's true
I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we're together, honey, I don't care
'Cause you started something, can't you see
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

No matter what you do
I only want to be with you
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you

-[aLbY]-

School FINALLY starts . . .

All right, here's a little update on the previous post, i've a few pictures of the treatment taken! Here are the pictures...





Another update, my class is starting on the 31/1 which is LATER @ 9.30am! Apparently not really STUDYING but ONLY ORIENTATION! BORED!!! SICK!!! WASTING TIME!!! But...still i'm abit anxious of getting back to the college haha 2 more things, i'm packing my bag and im trying what to wear for tomorrow? LoLz, my friends said i'm like a kid who's going to school for the first time! HAHA anyway, we finalize to wear BLACK TOMORROW! :P yey....!!!~~

-[aLbY]-

Insomnia . . .

Sigh, out of a sudden i'd insomnia and i couldn't sleep at all! I started laying on my bed at 2am and its 4am now! 2hours on the bed yet i'm still awake! By right i'm suppose to rest earlier! Yeah yeah, some wondering why all of a sudden i should rest earlier isn't it? I haven't blog about my problem yet. I was depressed of the problem i have previously, yup, hairloss! Not that severe, but my hair started dropping since 2005, right after i started my college. 2005 August -> 2006 -> 2007 -> 2008 January? OMG, it has been for quite sometime thou! Sigh, i'm only at my 20s and i'm having such problem!

A week ago, to be exact, on the 18th of January, i finally went to this a haircare centre with my sister, 101 Hair Care Centre @ MidValley. Well, went thru a free scalp test to check what's the condition of my hair and the causes of dropping. My follicles are unhealthy, norm hair grow 3-4hairs in each follicle but i've only 1-2, some 3 ONLY! OMG, it sounds like its so serious?!!! Yea, i was kinda unhappy with it cause it seems like it's getting more severe than before! I've been using Regained (hair tonic) recommended by my family doctor since the last December in 2006! I've used it for a year, only effective for the first few months but when it's close to a year it don't seems helping anymore! Previously i decided to use the product cause it was recommended by the doctor, added with the research i made on the internet, it was told that results will be seen after a year! And yea...what's so effective of it? Eventually i heard one of my friend who'd the same problem told me that it isn't really effective too! Sigh, wasted my parent's money!

Continue with the hair test, i've some dandruff in my scalp which is actually dried and i just found out that my hair type is the 'dry type'! What the hell...anyway, i was recommended by their consultant, Aries (wei she's quite hot thou!), she told me that they're offering me a 30sessions of treatment + 20sessions of scalp revita + 10sessions of hair treatment (this is for free, i can take this sessions as my maintenance after the whole treatment is done), altogether the program would take me 7-8months which would cost approximately RM8,000.00! YUP, its RM8,000.00! I was shocked with the price! So my sister and i decided to discuss this with my parents before we decide to take the program or not BUT before that, i was told that since i'd the free test, i can purchase a session of hair treatment including the scalp revita for RM88 (normal price RM230 if not mistaken), so my sister signed that for me + a shampoo & a box of tonix (there're 14bottles which could last for 2weeks). The reason we bought the shampoo and the tonic is due to the the treatment i took, so i need to test whether is their product effective or not else i'll be washing my hair back with the ordinary shampoo i used before this.

Back home, i discussed with my mom and we some sort of argue cause if i were to take the program, my dad will have to invest RM8,000.00 onto my hair which has NO GUARANTEE that it'll fully recover permanently! I was depress over this cause NO ONE would understand how i feel for the hairloss i'm experiencing at the age of 20s! I'm still a college student, i don't wanna lose my hair now and continue being teased/insulted by people around! At most times people misunderstood that i'm at my mid or late 20s OR worst to worst early 30s! Gosh, c'mon i'm only 21 THIS YEAR! I wanna have a normal hairgrowth so that i wouldn't look that mature cause of the hair style! I wanna have my hairdo, hair waxed, hair dyed like any other students or anybody outside there too! Sigh...

Yeah, it's the 8th day i'm using the tonic and the shampoo today, psychologically it may sounds like i'm only making up story about the treatment i'd and the product i'm using is VERY effective but at this moment, i'm not experiencing THAT MUCH of hair drop after bath anymore. Gonna go for another test soon to check whether is my hair slightly healthier than before or not first! I'm not much of thinking about it now, but i need to change the time i'm going off to bed for a short period to monitor the progress of my hairgrowth!

After spoken to my dad the next day, he'd advised me not to sign up anything yet, but to try the chinese doctor (or known as singse) to check what exactly is going on with my health and hair. The factors the hair care centre told me was probably due to the lifestyle i'm having or probably the genetically inheriting the balding disease from my family. So, i went to consult the singse with my mom and i was told my blood pressure isn't flowing smoothly, compared to the normal 20y/o child, mine is slightly higher and my pulse is weak. The same thing, i was told to rest early and take their medicine, YUCKS, the medicine is really sucky! As dark as black color! Taken 3x already in a week, gonna look for the singse again soon to check the progress of the medicine. Gosh...why do i sounded like i'm SO SICK?!?!!?!!!

ARgh, please, get it recover ASAP! CNY is coming, how am i suppose to rest early during CNY???

My class is commencing soon, 31/1/08, FINALLY i'm going back to college! 5months of holiday seems like i've been jobless for 5months! Luckily i got to work on and off during the first 2months of the holiday, but still wasted the next few months! Hmmm...enjoying now till the class starts BUT only for 1 day! Cause friday is the Federal Territory Day, a public holiday, then weekend, 4/1 maybe the CNY holiday starts till dont know when only i'm gonna officially starting my Level 2 of my course! I really can't wait to go back to study now! HAHAHA

Anyway, to friends who're unhappy, please don't be too upset about it, think positively, things may not be as terrible as it is thought, but try your best to do the best for yourself! We as your friend as well as your family will always support those who're unhappy of what they're experiencing! And...friends who're happy with what they're now, do your best to enhance the happiness as CNY is coming so enjoy to the max with your friends and family ya!

All right, i guess it's time to go back to sleep, its 4.35am! Hopefully i could get to sleep well not till my brother is waking up for school in the next 30minutes and lights will be ALL ON in my room! Goodnight...

p/s: "2 song for you people..."





-[aLbY]-

Nice song . . .

Wow, another masterpiece! Ever since i heard the "Waiting for you" by Anson Hu, i never expected he would have another new collection also as nice as "Waiting for you"! Salute you my idol! Hahah :D enjoy this song friends...will keep it update back soon ya!

-[aLbY]-

A little flash back of 2oo7 and 2oo8 . . . . (Part 3)

All right it's Part 3 now, and here are a few pictures of my HK trip during the last Nov o7, i'll post more pictures when i got this few post done ok! ;) PATIENT!!!


The hotel we live in...

HK MRT...

Lan Kwai Fong HK, the clubs area...

Fong Club!!!~

La Bodega Club!!!~

The BRANDED street! Giorgio Armani & Emporio Armani!!!

The Peak Tram to the PEAK of HK!! :D

The Peak of HK

MY POLICE SUN GLASSES....:( too bad its only for DISPLAY PURPOSES ONLY! sigh...

The yummy beef noodle @ Sha Tin















Kekeke okok i know its abit too much! Lets go for another event in 2oo7...

The week i work for Biomedia @ Sunway for 7days!

sHhh that's Edmund! HAHAHA

See we're really TOO BUSY to camwhore while working thou...

And...OMG, they're actually watching some series/movie during work, furthermore, THAT'S Ed's LAPTOP!!! HAHAHAH see how tiring are we... :P

Lookout Point!!!!

The menu..

Yup...yup....yup....this is Carter's birthdaY!

Suddenly had nothing to do so i jz compile a few pics in one, lazy to upload so many in one! HAHAH pictures were taken @ Izzi KL & Lookout Point with Carter, Evelyn, Lucy, Kelvin, Cheryl and last but not least ALBY!!! HAHAHA :P

I guess thats all for the year 2oo7 for me! :) Some happening things went thru, new year ahead, hoping there'll be MORE happening things going on and a better smoother life too..

-[aLbY]-

A little flash back of 2oo7 and 2oo8 . . . . (Part 2)

Hahah here's the second part! ERmm....lets continue with some more interesting things happened last year, Abby's birthday @ Izzi KL!!!~ HAHA




Then, lets proceed to Pey Ling's birthday also HAHA @ Free & Easy Cafe@Cheras...












Then my SISTER's birthday!!



HMmm...my dad's company dinner!!!~






Uh-huh, my trip to HK is next! But u'll only see a few pictures ONLY in Part 3! HAHAHA sorry for the delay ya...!!~ :P

** [ to be continue ] **

-[aLbY]-