Insomnia . . .

Sigh, out of a sudden i'd insomnia and i couldn't sleep at all! I started laying on my bed at 2am and its 4am now! 2hours on the bed yet i'm still awake! By right i'm suppose to rest earlier! Yeah yeah, some wondering why all of a sudden i should rest earlier isn't it? I haven't blog about my problem yet. I was depressed of the problem i have previously, yup, hairloss! Not that severe, but my hair started dropping since 2005, right after i started my college. 2005 August -> 2006 -> 2007 -> 2008 January? OMG, it has been for quite sometime thou! Sigh, i'm only at my 20s and i'm having such problem!

A week ago, to be exact, on the 18th of January, i finally went to this a haircare centre with my sister, 101 Hair Care Centre @ MidValley. Well, went thru a free scalp test to check what's the condition of my hair and the causes of dropping. My follicles are unhealthy, norm hair grow 3-4hairs in each follicle but i've only 1-2, some 3 ONLY! OMG, it sounds like its so serious?!!! Yea, i was kinda unhappy with it cause it seems like it's getting more severe than before! I've been using Regained (hair tonic) recommended by my family doctor since the last December in 2006! I've used it for a year, only effective for the first few months but when it's close to a year it don't seems helping anymore! Previously i decided to use the product cause it was recommended by the doctor, added with the research i made on the internet, it was told that results will be seen after a year! And yea...what's so effective of it? Eventually i heard one of my friend who'd the same problem told me that it isn't really effective too! Sigh, wasted my parent's money!

Continue with the hair test, i've some dandruff in my scalp which is actually dried and i just found out that my hair type is the 'dry type'! What the hell...anyway, i was recommended by their consultant, Aries (wei she's quite hot thou!), she told me that they're offering me a 30sessions of treatment + 20sessions of scalp revita + 10sessions of hair treatment (this is for free, i can take this sessions as my maintenance after the whole treatment is done), altogether the program would take me 7-8months which would cost approximately RM8,000.00! YUP, its RM8,000.00! I was shocked with the price! So my sister and i decided to discuss this with my parents before we decide to take the program or not BUT before that, i was told that since i'd the free test, i can purchase a session of hair treatment including the scalp revita for RM88 (normal price RM230 if not mistaken), so my sister signed that for me + a shampoo & a box of tonix (there're 14bottles which could last for 2weeks). The reason we bought the shampoo and the tonic is due to the the treatment i took, so i need to test whether is their product effective or not else i'll be washing my hair back with the ordinary shampoo i used before this.

Back home, i discussed with my mom and we some sort of argue cause if i were to take the program, my dad will have to invest RM8,000.00 onto my hair which has NO GUARANTEE that it'll fully recover permanently! I was depress over this cause NO ONE would understand how i feel for the hairloss i'm experiencing at the age of 20s! I'm still a college student, i don't wanna lose my hair now and continue being teased/insulted by people around! At most times people misunderstood that i'm at my mid or late 20s OR worst to worst early 30s! Gosh, c'mon i'm only 21 THIS YEAR! I wanna have a normal hairgrowth so that i wouldn't look that mature cause of the hair style! I wanna have my hairdo, hair waxed, hair dyed like any other students or anybody outside there too! Sigh...

Yeah, it's the 8th day i'm using the tonic and the shampoo today, psychologically it may sounds like i'm only making up story about the treatment i'd and the product i'm using is VERY effective but at this moment, i'm not experiencing THAT MUCH of hair drop after bath anymore. Gonna go for another test soon to check whether is my hair slightly healthier than before or not first! I'm not much of thinking about it now, but i need to change the time i'm going off to bed for a short period to monitor the progress of my hairgrowth!

After spoken to my dad the next day, he'd advised me not to sign up anything yet, but to try the chinese doctor (or known as singse) to check what exactly is going on with my health and hair. The factors the hair care centre told me was probably due to the lifestyle i'm having or probably the genetically inheriting the balding disease from my family. So, i went to consult the singse with my mom and i was told my blood pressure isn't flowing smoothly, compared to the normal 20y/o child, mine is slightly higher and my pulse is weak. The same thing, i was told to rest early and take their medicine, YUCKS, the medicine is really sucky! As dark as black color! Taken 3x already in a week, gonna look for the singse again soon to check the progress of the medicine. Gosh...why do i sounded like i'm SO SICK?!?!!?!!!

ARgh, please, get it recover ASAP! CNY is coming, how am i suppose to rest early during CNY???

My class is commencing soon, 31/1/08, FINALLY i'm going back to college! 5months of holiday seems like i've been jobless for 5months! Luckily i got to work on and off during the first 2months of the holiday, but still wasted the next few months! Hmmm...enjoying now till the class starts BUT only for 1 day! Cause friday is the Federal Territory Day, a public holiday, then weekend, 4/1 maybe the CNY holiday starts till dont know when only i'm gonna officially starting my Level 2 of my course! I really can't wait to go back to study now! HAHAHA

Anyway, to friends who're unhappy, please don't be too upset about it, think positively, things may not be as terrible as it is thought, but try your best to do the best for yourself! We as your friend as well as your family will always support those who're unhappy of what they're experiencing! And...friends who're happy with what they're now, do your best to enhance the happiness as CNY is coming so enjoy to the max with your friends and family ya!

All right, i guess it's time to go back to sleep, its 4.35am! Hopefully i could get to sleep well not till my brother is waking up for school in the next 30minutes and lights will be ALL ON in my room! Goodnight...

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