It's been another day . . .

Woke up at 8.10am today, reached college at 9.10am. Late for 25minutes, it's all right, i realise i'd forgotten where did the lecturer stopped also! Shit, i didnt print out the latest slide, all right fine, i was stoning in the class the whole 40minutes. After that, went for a short breakfast at the rooftop of the college, then, continue class at 10.30am, but only entered at 10.45am, dont really know what was she talking about. I was stoning again, but this time i guess its better, i slept in the class. I couldn't concentrate at all, ever since class started. I dont understand a single thing that she lectured, i consulted the lecturer personally, but i didnt get much info as i guess i've left-out alot in the previous classes *sigh* its ok, i left college after class ended. Went back home to rest, yup, i did rest but only my eyes. My mind wasn't shut at all! Worries, confusion, fear, guilt, regret, unhappy....it makes me felt so uncomfortable throughout the whole noon i was "napping". Sigh...i'm feeling so useless and restless now! Evening i went to the gym to try to release some stress, but...at the end i didnt make it too. Went dinner then went back home after that. Its been another restless day...i miss you, and i miss you very much! God knows whats happening exactly, but i'll still be waiting for you no matter what happened coz i'll not reluctant you in no matter what and leave you alone, that's because i love you truely and wants to get back with you only...



-[aLbY]-

I ♥ you . . .

I'm sorry to you...
I'm terribly feeling guilty since that night till today!
I really promise u i wont repeat it anymore, not anymore at all...
I've regretted it now, i dont want to lose you again...
Please forgive me for the last time...
I love you very truely, i'll change for sure!!!~

-[aLbY]-

Confession of pain . . .

Day 4:



Baby, i'll give you all the time you need to recover together, i'll not stay near you to hurt you anymore i promise. Please give me another chance only...i love you truely with all my heart and effort! I do not mind being with you as you worth as much as how much i love you my dear...

-[aLbY]- @ Day 4

Confession of pain . . .

Day 3:

Its such a bored day in the college. I was so tired the whole day, wherever i sat, my head will be landed on the table. Sleep....rest....nap....i'm feeling so restless now. Looking at the sunset, looking at the sunrise. Looking at the cloud turning dark and bright everyday. I'm still waiting for you baby...I still remember a story...

"If u rare a bird, do not always confine it in the cage, let it be free sometimes, we're human being, do not always kept controlling too much else one day when you open the cage after confining the bird in the cage for long, it'll just flew off and won't be back anymore cause the bird is been set free and never want to be in the cage anymore. It's the same towards human being, if we really love them, let them do what they feel like doing, and don't overly control them, else one day when you give them the freedom to do what they want, it'll be too late cause they'll only go far away and will not come back anymore. The bird will still comes back to the owner if the owner is flexible to the bird as well as to your love ones..."

I remember i was once told about this story, i always have remember whatever you told me. I'd given you the freedom you wanted, and let you do what you wanted as long as whatever you do, your heart always has me and you'll still come back to me. I remember we sat and talked about this very calmly those days...i hugged you and told you that i'll give you the freedom you wanted but promise me you must always bear in mind that i'll always be in your heart and don't go away! You hugged me and told me you won't...and we tears. I can see and feel how much we love each other. I learnt to be an open person, will not get jealous easily or too controlling over you. Although you're away from me now, i'll still be here waiting for you cause i love you truely and will wait for you...

A story about a bird and the owner, its you who told me...the owner and the bird got such intimated to each other because they've got the karma and believe they're so much in love with each other. Therefore, they'll not be separated that easily...

I believe you're full with disappointment now, i'd rather be the one to be disappointed now as i'll really change now cause i love you truely and do not want to lose you in anyway and made you becoming a "not you" too! You're always my baby and i love to love and pamper you from time to time too...

I'll never forget this, we pamper each other by nose-to-nose and we smiled at each other, hugging saying we love each other very much! I'll never ever forget this way of pampering...

p/s: "Trust me, everyday and night i miss you, thinking of you not only today or yesterday, but everyday ever since we were together...i understand you more than everyone does, i'll not repeat my mistakes anymore really! Please forgive me baby..."



You light up another cigarette
And i pour the wine
It's four o'clock in the morning
And it's starting to get light
Now i'm right where i want to be
Losing track of time
But i wish that it was still last night
You look like you're in another world
But i can read your mind
How can you be so far away
Lying by my side
When i go away i'll miss you
And i will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

When i go away i'll miss you
And i will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cos i'll be saving all my love for you
And i will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And i'll be home, i'll be home soon

-[aLbY]- @ Day 3

Confession of Pain . . .

Day 2:

Woke up late for class today, it doesn't matter luckily it was only tutorial. First thing when i woke up, things were stuck up in my head. "I miss you", i'll wait for you to come back to be with me. Today one whole day, i'd very stone emotion. I was emotionless towards everything. Feeling very tired the whole day, from head to toe everywhere is tired and restless. Have been rotting in the college throughout the whole 5hours break today. Second class at 12.10pm, lecturer came in announced that tutorial on monday and wednesday will be slot to tuesday for 3hrs! Sigh...what i was thinking was missing you, kept looking at my phone! It's no longer as usual anymore, *beeps* '1 New Message' opened, and it was you! People outside will never understand why i misses you so much and so much in love with you, but only you know why and you should know why too! Its 2.43am now and it's raining outside...it hasnt't been raining at this hour for long edi, hope you had a good rest for tonight for tomorrow!

Yours love,
-[aLbY]-

Somehow, another song dedication...

Didn't We Almost Have It All Lyrics

p/s: "No matter what you are now, i still love you as much as i use to do..."

-[aLbY]- @ Day 2

Because I Have You . . . .

-[aLbY]-

Valentine's Day

Everyone knows that Valentine's Day is always the sweetest day for everyone who's attached with their love ones. Well, indeed that everyday can be a Valentine's Day as long as your love ones is with you happily every other days, but bear in mind, Valentine's Day is only once a year and it's a day of appreciation towards your love ones. Hoping that everyone could have a lovely Valentine's this year. I'm glad enough to enjoy myself on the 13th and the 14th of February 08! Thanks alot ya...

In fact, i would like to dedicate this song....



p/s: "Happy Valentine's Day ..."

-[aLbY]-

ALLY MCBEAL & JOSH GROBAN - I ONLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU

I don't know what is that makes me love you so
I only know I never wanna let you go
'Cause you started something, can't you see?
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

It happens to be true
I only want to be with you

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do
I wanna spend each moment of the day with you
Look what has happened with just one kiss
I never knew that I could be in love like this

It's crazy but it's true
I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we're together, honey, I don't care
'Cause you started something, can't you see
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

No matter what you do
I only want to be with you
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you

-[aLbY]-