Back to myself . . .

Many things happened these days, haven't really been sleeping well at all! Everyday almost between 5am - 7am! What the hell is wrong? Why am I being so "olden" me? Few years back I was a very stingy person, and after some incident, I've changed my perception and isn't like that anymore, and after something happened, I'm becoming "myself" back, as in being stingy! Sigh, I hated this feeling, I hated this so much! It's been haunting me all day and night long! I wanted to be alone, I wanted to be out of this place and let myself to do something which is not a waste of time! Unlike now, I haven't got a permanent full-time job for the past 5months! It's coming to the month of May, soon to be the 6th month soon, being JOBLESS after graduated! I'm so sick of my life, I knew I've not been doing anything much than loitering, wasting time, travelling here there, spending money and whatever crap I've done! But I seriously hope to get a proper job even though I does some part-time SOMETIMES, but that isn't gonna help me for my living for the future! I need a stable full-time job, I've diverted my field from IT majors in Web Media to Advertising, doing Accounts Servicing! I wanted to do something which has to deal with living objects/human being than dead objects! Sigh...it's so sickening and I'm feeling so dead these days! Didn't get a satisfactory result for my degree, jobless, family issue, everything! Argh...I wants to get out of this place for a moment ALONE seriously! I need to make a trip for myself to keep my mind away from everything and everybody! :(

-[aLbY]-