Sorry for the delay...

Blog Blog Blog....sorry for the delay of my own 21st birthday party post! I'm superb busy now, assignment due from 28/7/08 (my birthday is on the 27/7/08 and party is on 26/7/08) till 8/8/08!!! OM*G!!!!!! Hated it! I've briefing for the coming TechEd 2008 job on mid August, 2weeks before my exam! MY GOODNESS.....i'll post it ASAP after my assignments are done this week aight! Stay tune on http://alby27.blogspot.com! Oh yea, ermm....it jz came across my mind, its after so long and over my 21st birthday, should i close my blog or not? Leave me a comment everybody! Thanks to those who celebrated my 21st birthday and those who attended, helped as well as was with me on that night! :D special thanks to all my buddies who'd helped me so much for cleaning the place and decorating it too! Love u guys! So...i gotta pen-off now, assignment, but i'm going off to sleep now! At kopitiam! hahah sad right? phone line BREAKDOWN again! Sigh....f*cking TM, u're gonna get it tomorrow! Nitez.... love u people loads...

Love,
-[aLbY]-

You're my everything . . .

Few more days only.....
Only 1 line: You're my everything, you're only what i wish for and want to be with..

p/s: I only wanna love you baby..

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -154-

A Story of "U & ME" [23-07-2008]

On one of the most meaningful yet unforgettable day, this is when our story begin, "U & ME". There's no need to say it out, only "U & ME" know what the story is...i love you baby...& i miss you so badly!~



I've a dedication for you baby...
Listen...with the lyrics, its all i meant by "I Love You" and i wanted to have a new start with you, just as how we used to love each other so badly...

Mariah Carey Lyrics
Love Story Lyrics

p/s: Just "U & ME"...Happy 2nd Year Anniversary to you! Baby, I'll always love you..

-[aLbY]- @ -152-

The Lake House

-Day 150-

When love comes to it's limits...
The person will tell that person that you love him or her...
If I'll be the one saying it to you....
If I say I love You very much right up till today....
What will be your answer...
Will my feelings be the same as yours?

Do u still remember this movie; The Lake House? Never know that time flies, this is our very first romance movie watched in 2006. Its been 2years today, still remember the story line? Still remember our line? Heh, we've said it before, "not gonna leave each other" before. Maybe i sounded naive to everyone, but btw u and me, u know what's going on, u can feel it, i can feel it too. What's more than my sincerity and loyalty towards u today? 6months, officially the 6th month since that day...do u know that i still misses u so badly? Do u know that i still love u? "Persuasion", the book in The Lake House, it's about waiting...2person met, almost fall in love but the timing isn't right, but after a few years later, they met and they have another chance. Its been 6months, i've been trying all ways to us back together. I do not mind anything or anyone, but because i know this is ONLY what we both know that we still love each other, hence, i'm still keeping this up without giving up before. 6months, its been 150days i've waited for u to forgive and accept me back. I understand your feeling of fear being hurt again, and your disappointment. After this 6months long, i've corrected my mistakes, i've told myself that i wouldn't repeat the mistake anymore. Im doing this because of you, because i know you love me lots, thats why im doing anything, everything to get us back.




I'm dedicating this song for u baby, the original song track of The Lake House...


I love you baby, i really love you! I've never taken u for granted nor fooled u before! Im definitely unlike others, im only requesting for the last chance from you baby, would u let me take good care of u and love u back like how i used to? I've lost u for 6months, i dont want to lose u any longer anymore. Im saying this for the sake that i love u too much deeply and not gonna let u go. I know u still love me too! Im appreciating whatever chances and opportunity i have before its too late when i've lost all of u, even if it's a little bit of feelings left, im still willing to gain everything back cause i know u couldn't forget me just like that. I'll keep my words for u, i'll love u even more, and gonna take very good care of u like how i used to baby. Its for the one and only that i love, which is you....

p/s: "If i were given another chance, i hoped that we could watch this movie together again..., can we?"

-[aLbY]- @ -150-

Let's start from here . . .

Joanna Wang - Let's Start From Here

Giving up, why should I
we've come too far to forget
beautiful
just got lost somewhere along the way
so much was missing when you went away

Let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think too deep
all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
let's start from here

Standing here
face to face
a finger on your lips
don't say a word
don't make a sound
silence surrounds us now
even when you were gone I felt you everywhere

Let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think too deep
all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
let's start from here
let's start from here

I've never been the one to open up
but you've always been the voive within
the only one for my cold heart

Let's start from here
lose the past change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
don't think too deep
and all those promises
let's start from here
lose the past
change our minds
we don't need a finish line
let's take this chance
not think too deep
and all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go

Let's start from here...

Baby, i'm always the same old Alby even right up till today. I want u to know, i've never changed before, i promise i'll never gonna lie and betray u anymore! I would want to request, to take good care and love u back baby...i'll keep to my words, and u'll never will make the wrong decision too baby! I really love u till the bottom of my heart...

I'm missing u badly, loving u more than anything everyday baby...please forgive me and allow us to get back together!!~ I love u, and i want to love u as how Alby used to... *tears*

-[aLbY]- @ -148-

I just can't stop loving you!

Baby, do u still remember this portrait? It was taken during one of our outing with my friends! I miss that moment so much! I miss u so much! Tonight i'm posting "I just can't stop loving you" for u in conjunction of another week would be someday we know what day it is. I love u, i love u till the bottom of my heart! No one understands how i feel, but...only u do, thou u dont care, but i know u still do! I need u, i'm so in need of your T.L.C at this stressful time! I needed u to be by my side, can u please? I wanted to have the best 1st best day of my life with u on "our day". I misses the days we were together, i misses holding ur hands while driving, i misses u sitting next to me, i misses hugging and *kisses* before i dropped u back, i misses the WHOLE of u baby! *tears* I just can't stop loving u baby, u know i can't, and i know u can't too. Allow me to be back by your side please...i wouldn't hurt u anymore! I keep my words for u...

Here's a video of Michael Jackson in "I just can't stop loving you" song, dedicated for his beloved wife... I'll now dedicate this to u my love, u're always the one and only that i love...

I Just Want To Lay Next To You
For Awhile
You Look So Beautiful Tonight
Your Eyes Are So Lovely
Your Mouth Is So Sweet
A Lot Of People
Misunderstand Me
That's Because They Don't
Know Me At All
I Just Want To Touch You
And Hold You
I Need You
God I Need You
I Love You So Much

[Michael]
Each Time The Wind Blows
I Hear Your Voice So
I Call Your Name . . .
Whispers At Morning
Our Love Is Dawning
Heaven's Glad You Came . . .

You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I'm So Proud To Say
I Love You
Your Love's Got Me High
I Long To Get By
This Time Is Forever
Love Is The Answer

[Siedah]
I Hear Your Voice Now
You Are My Choice Now
The Love You Bring
Heaven's In My Heart
At Your Call
I Hear Harps,
And Angels Sing

You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I Can't Live My Life
Without You

[Michael]
I Just Can't Hold On

[Siedah]
I Feel We Belong

[Michael]
My Life Ain't Worth Living
If I Can't Be With You

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me Just What
Will I Do

[Siedah]
'Cause I Just Can't Stop
Loving You

[Michael]
At Night When The
Stars Shine
I Pray In You I'll Find
A Love So True . . .

[Siedah]
When Morning Awakes Me
Will You Come And Take Me
I'll Wait For You

[Michael]
You Know How I Feel
I Won't Stop Until
I Hear Your Voice Saying
"I Do"

[Siedah]
"I Do"
This Thing Can't Go Wrong

[Michael]
This Feeling's So Strong

[Siedah]
Well, My Life Ain't
Worth Living

[Both]
If I Can't Be With You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me, Just What
Will I Do

[Michael]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Siedah]
We Can Change All The World
Tomorrow

[Michael]
We Can Sing Songs Of
Yesterday

[Siedah]
I Can Say, Hey . . .Farewell
To Sorrow

[Michael]
This Is My Life And I,

[Both]
Want To See You For Always
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Siedah]
No, Baby

[Michael]
Oh!

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Siedah]
If I Can't Stop!

[Both]
And If I Stop . . .

[Siedah]
No

[Michael]
Oh! Oh! Oh . . .Oh . . .

[Siedah]
What Will I Do? Uh . . .Ooh . . .
(Then Tell Me, Just What
Will I Do)

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Michael]
Hee! Hee! Hee! Know I Do
Girl!

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

[Michael]
You Know I Do
And If I Stop . . .

[Both]
Then Tell Me, Just What
Will I Do

[Both]
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

p/s: "I just can't stop loving you, baby...."






-[aLbY]- @ -146-

R.I.P

I feel like dying, please! :'( i'm so stressed and derpess! I need T.L.C! :'( i'm sick, stress, pressure, tonnes of work to do, i'm feeling i've not much time left for everything! I'm such a.....pathetic sicko! END EVERYONE...i need.........you so much! :(

-[aLbY]- @ -137-

I'm a liar . . . but . . .

My love, I love you...

Although it's been for sometime, yea, i admitted i did pretended as if nothing anymore but the limit had reached, i can't pretend anymore, it's hurting very much! I admitted i'm a liar, i'm a great liar, i stopped talking to u, stopped talking to u, stopped pestering u, it doesnt mean i'm giving up onto u although u insisted, but the truth is that i still love u so much. Yes, i'm stupid, i'm dumb, but there's nothing i can do with it as it's where we develop all by ourselves. If u really mean nothing to me, i would have live happily as if nothing had happened before jz like how a car passes by u by the roadside. I rather drive on and off passing by u, each and everytime, everyday and night, cause i want to see u, i love to see u and whats most importantly, i love u deeply with all my heart. "Alby, try to let it go..", i did, but it failed coz i know no matter what, only u will come back to me in the picture in my mind, no one else even if there're many better ones outside. What's this all about? Stupidity? Sticky? Useless? Restless? Dumb? Or isit really what everyone has been saying, 'true love', which everyone claims it NEVER EXIST. Its true that after so long, i may be the only one who's still waiting for nothing, doing things whereby everyone consider its useless, but to me, whatever it takes for me to get u back, is a bit to bit effort to get closer to u back, as before...or maybe not, i'm never a decision maker in this case.

I miss u, i misses u so much, but everyone ask me over and over again, "Alby, is that worth?", without thinking twice i answered, "YES!" i said it as if it's really true which i'm still believing in "love" existing. Although it has been for sometime we're apart, but, i've never thought of leaving u before...it hurts the most, when u knew i lied, that i was fine, in fact, i wasn't....your concern is always what i prioritized! Does it sounded more likely i'm bullshitting? Ok, i never had the intention to, afterall, u know me best, if i really did it intentionally, u would've being cheated for long...and hurt deeply more than this, but the truth i didnt. Knowing it is useless to explain over and over again, this is what i'm writing to express my feelings, not to u, coz u felt i'm annoying, u felt i'm fooling u, but eventually, no one could help me to make u understand my intention loving u so much, waiting for u to love me back where u'd been afraid of me now...

David, my besties, he'd departed last 2days to overseas for his further studies for 2yrs from now onwards, indeed, i misses him very much, he is my besties which i'll never forget! Knowing him for more than 10yrs since primary, seeing the both of us changes from a huge size body to what we are today, seeing us growing with partners...seeing the changes in us each and every year, yet what is not changed is our besties friendship which never ends. I'm grateful and thankful to have a friend like him as he accompany me most the time when i really needed a shoulder, not fussy of any decision amde (although there are but we could still accomodate at times), not calculative nor revengeful, but simplicity the bestest buddy i ever had in my life. A day before he left, we went out for a drink, we talked alot, then he said to buy me a birthday present, i've got a shoe i wanted the next day which is the same day he's leaving, i wore that to the airport to show him. He said that it suits me and it looks good on me! He's often being straight forward to me, i nevermind any comment he made to me before. His friends, gf, family and relatives were there along at the airport, i was helping to take photographs with his and his bro's DSLR camera. That's all i can do for him. Before he left, Zoe, the gf, actually cried out loud for his departing, i was feeling touched, eyes turned red, but i was standing a side from them. I feel for her, but i told myself not to tears coz i do not want him to know that i'll miss his absence in my future days for 2yrs.

As time goes by, i started realizing people in my surrouding are leaving me one bye one, as if my skin was pilling off, bit by bit. My friends, my relatives and the "special someone i live the happiest and i love most"...i'm feeling restless, i needed the "someone" by my side now, i'm very depress and stress. I need "u" by my side, i need "ur" concern, i need "ur" presence in my life, i need "ur" love...there's no one i wanted anymore. I started realizing, i'm spoiling myself, my health, my studies as well as my everything! I dont know why, my account is almost depleted, the resources i have is limited, myself is somewhere i dont know where it'd been to...i'm losing something very precious, Alby! He's lost, so lost till things started changing!~ Love isn't everything, but the love i got, gives me everything i want...only u know what i mean if u remember i'd asked, "please don't leave me...baby!"

Yesterday i went pass somewhere kL, i remembered there was once i was working at a restaurant for L'Occitane annual dinner, u dropped me there and pick me back after work...many minor things i remembered, maybe u dont, or forgotten, or maybe u did remember every single thing which u're trying hard to forget, forget and let go me as hard as u're trying to achieve what u want! *heartbreaks* Whatever, where ever, whenever, however and whichever, u've been recalled without forgotten every single moment we were together before...from "naive" us, to another level of growing up till today...physically, the biggest changes is u, i'm always the same, never changed, still as bored and useless as before. Everyone today calling me uncle, bald head, old man etc...who would want to be with someone who'd became worst than before, than ever!~ I only see blurred visions, with only black and white color in the picture. I'm seeing things with no more colors without u anymore...i've no strenghts but only full with weaknesses! I cant bear this, i cant bear the loneliness i'm having which is killing me soon...

ME: "Don't abandon me, please...." *tears* (Q: Do u actually know how much i misses u, right up till today after so long?)

I dont know how to confront anyone about this. Pretended nothing, till the night comes, tears the one which accompany me till i'm tired then fell asleep holding my mobile phone! I'm such a pathetic old looking bastard! I disappoint the one i love most, i starting disappointing my family as well as my friends as i'm losing myself..day by day...empty soul walking somewhere in the street!

Assignments, presentations, examination, work, money, personal, family, friends....i'm too much stress and pressured really! I need "u"... :(

p/s: "To whomever who're encountering problem with your partner, think twice before making a decision to end the relationship, it isn't what u all thought to "begin" and "end" simplicity, but there's always a reason why u both got together and be together this long...appreciate them before u lose them.."

"I miss you, you and you so much..."

Lewis Donna Lyrics

Q: Can I just have one last chance from you...please?

Love,
-[aLbY]- @ -133-