.depression.

depression kills me. depression haunt me back in the night. depression makes me tears. depression hurts badly. why i'm forever not the one? i couldn't sleep at all at 5am. i'd been sleeping only 2-3hrs for the past few days. having class in the morning till evening and now, i'm back to my territory. having terrible heartache. tears non-stop flowing. why? how? what shall i do? why is it that i've been loving one loyally yet i still got nothing in return but a whole load of hurtful statements?! i can't take it. it aches deep into my nerves. assignment due later. 2 more next week. final year project midpoint by 12/6 yet i've done nothing. why is it i've spent so much time in developing everything for years, you can never understand the real me that i really been loving you truthfully?! :'( it's been 3months. i've always wanted to do something but i've got boundary from you. what the hell on earth i can do for you? why i'll never have any good return for loving one faithfully?! i'm lost. i'm unhappy. i'm upset. but i reckon depress should be the word to describe. been to the clubs to get drunk and not to think much. it's all because of you! it's all because of you that i love so much and became a vampire, fail in doing my studies etc. i need love. i need comfort. i need care. i need you but.... :'( stop the cruelty. stop the cruel intention. stop the hurtful words. what i want is just you back. you that i knew. you that i love. you that i hold in my arms for 3yrs. you that i've been smooching on your forehead for 3yrs! :'(

somebody please save me out of the depression. i seriously can't handle it anymore. i'm getting weaker and weaker. i'm losing everything in grip. i'm lose you! i'm losing to someone whose fresh. i'm losing myself for loving you so much deeply, i wants to R.I.P! :'( the promises i made, have never been broken before. until today, you're still whom i love every now and then, every second and minutes been thinking of you. why am i still being accused the worst person ever. i need a peace life with you. i want a peace life with you. why is it so hard to please some people in life? i'm collapsing. i'm losing control. i'm losing everything...