Sad and sick of myself . . .

I really wanted to post up more things, but time don't allow, I've been wasted a lot of time NOT doing anything this year, I'm totally screwed up! Guess what's worst? My FYP due has been extended to 2weeks later, which is on the 28th Oct 09, and what's worst? I don't seem to have touched anything much of it! I'm so fucking worried of it, it suck up all my credits to pass the entire course I've been acquiring all these 4years, I'm DOOMED and FUCKED! Apart from that, I've another 4assignments to be handed in as well, before and after the FYP due, then to my final exam which is like the latest due of my assignment is 30th Oct 09 if not mistaken? My exam falls on the 2nd Nov 09? WTF? I've only a few days to study everything I learned throughout the semester! Fucking screwed up my life! I'm a total saddist yet a fucked up kid today! I'm so spoilt, I started....argh, fuck it seriously! Everyone, stay away from me as some have already done so, please go away everyone! I don't want to spoilt myself and then you all as well! :( I'm so sick of myself....when I'm suppose to be FULLY STRESSED UP before graduating and then to be a happy graduate BUT it turned out to be a disaster today! I'm so fucked in my life today! God, please help me, please save me out from this saddist sickening of my own world, PLEASE! I don't want to spoilt my life anymore, I don't want it anymore, it's tiring, it's very very tiring! :'( Although everyone has been seeing me partying around, slacking and doing a lot of wasting-time-matter, no one will ever understand the inner of myself because physically I'm portrait as a spoilt and fucking don't bother of anything at all! I can't help myself anymore to go on my life if this really reached till the next 2weeks, I'm really worry....I hope that my 'hair problem' wouldn't get worst than current as I'm really hoping it could recover the final 20% of possibility of my current situation! :'( please God, I need you....

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