It's maternal grandpappy's birthday and . . . . . .

Well it's my maternal grandpappy's birthday today and he had already left all of us for a year and 2days. I didnt know time passes so fast as many things had happened, good, bad or moderate? All like a dream. Afterall, i misses him very much. He was the one i use to say 'hello' to whenever i visited my aunt's restaurant or my grandpappy's house but now i have to start with my grandma or anyone whom i see first. It was really sad and shock when i first heard my grandpappy had passed away in the morning in between 4-5am, after his birthday dinner with all of the other family member at my aunt's restaurant. I remembered he gave each and everyone of us a red-packet and that was so different of him as he dont do it for the past years. We'd dinner at around 6++pm and finishes at 8++pm. My sis and i asked to leave the place after dinner as we've our own plan going on after the dinner. I remembered the last time i speak to my grandpappy was around 8++pm and after that, i went back home and went online till 2++am and go to bed at that time. My bro was at my grandpappy's place till 1++am, he was persuaded by my grandpappy to stay overnight at his place as he was happy that day. Till the end, my bro didnt overnight and came back home. In between 7-8++am(few hours later), my sis came to my room and squat down with her eyes tearsing. I heard the crying voice and woke up immediately as my sister wouldnt cry for no reason. I asked her why and she told me that grandpappy had passed away this early morning around 4++am. I was shock to hear that and there was a pause there. Then, my bro woke up and reacted strangely and then went back to sleep. By then, i gave my sister a warm hug and persuaded her from crying. She told me to take some rest first and we shall attend the funeral in the noon as that was mum's request. And so she went out of my room, and i went back to sleep, before closing my eyes, i couldnt imagine how could this happen so instant? After a few seconds, i cried and my bro too with his blanket covering himself. In the noon, Cason came to fetch us to my grandpappy's place. The decor was quick arranged by the Nirvana and i remember it was a rainy day. Before stepping into the house, my eyes begun tearsing due to the sound of the prayer by the Taoist. One day after he left, it was actually his exact birthday. I was shocked when my mum told me about it as i really thought the dinner we had that night was his exact date of birth. As what i know, i was told by my mum that they've been to the temple and prayed for my grandpappy as he was ill in the beginning of the year. He losses his voice for 6-9 months even on the dinner night he still couldnt speak out loudly but very softly and gently. So, my mum, aunt and grandma was told that if my grandpappy could by pass his birthday, he'll be all right and nothing will happen to him instead will be back to normal. But didnt expect he actually celebrated his birthday early and just went off in less than 10hrs after meeting him the last time :( on his birthday (12/7/04), all my grandpappy's grandchildren had bought(my sis and i) a cake and a bouquet of flowers for grandpappy. The emotion of the funeral was really solemn and i'm really really sad about it.

I know i was kinda cool today in the class at the college but please understand my situation my friends. Besides that, i was kinda fedup and pist of with my buddies in the class. I dont really get it why do people treated me this way? Borrowed my utensils and throw it back to me, wtf does that mean? Is that disliking me? WTF i did? I've always been very nice and friendly to the others and why am i getting this indeed? I'm being myself as i treated everyone equally but why must i always got things like this in return? WTF is wrong with treating others good? I do realises that i treated my friends too good at times till i'm being used back. This isnt my first time, i know whenever i treated anyone good, that particular would tried to take advantage of me. I've experience plenty of this kinda situation and i dont expect any at the college life now! I've my own problem to solve nowadays yet i didnt do well in the math test. Could anyone who read this blog would just accomodate my mood and situation of being so down? Fuck those who tried to take advantages on me, although im kind and nice at times it dont mean YOU could just fool me around like no one's business! That's if for the day..