What the hell is going on with the human being?

Nowadays I wondered why do most human being dont understand simple english! WTF is with the "fat" story on me again? Edmund! THE ONE AND ONLY who still dont catch WTF is going on with the problem. He's aint FUCKING serious with what i've told them and yet he continues saying it! We were eating at the canteen and i was asked what do i want to eat for lunch and i said NOTHING. Some were curious asking, "Why do you need to do so? You look all right to me." YES! But i'm aint satisfied with what i am, i need to improve myself in order to achieve something which i've always wanted to achieve. So, i'd milk and biscuit after all for lunch and yet EDMUND QUAH was IRRITATING ME!~ Simple english, "DO NOT REPEAT WHAT HE JUST SAID OR ELSE HE'S GOING TO GET IT" and yet he really repeated it and i just walked off from the group and went to the lab to do my stuff. I realises nowadays, i've been avoiding from my friends in the college whenever i faced problem. During PDM today, Nicholas said we SHOULDNT walk away with our problems instead of looking for solution to solve it. But at times, if i dont walk away, the problem will very most probably got worsten and i'm sure at that time, NO ONE will mix with me anymore because i wont be the one that everyone likes now if i ever release any tension of mine to the others. Ellie & zK were once a very good friend of mine which eventually we shared our problems(although not solving any yet), but i realises nowadays, the HOT topic and ISSUE which i'm facing is the "being insulted/teased" by Nicholas or any other classmates of mine. I've been wondering why is it whenever i face problem, and the problem im facing would be a hot topic of anyone else. I've always wondered why people in Malaysia has to ACT AS IF THEY ARE NOT CONSERVATIVE but in fact THEY ARE CONSERVATIVE! I always felt that i'm not a conservative person at all. It also same goes to my friends who eventually told me that they're open-minded and anti-discrimination but whenever a class of lecture started discussing about the matter which to do with "Conservative" or "Anti-discrimination" problem, they will just TURN-TO-ANOTHER-PERSON. Instead of supporting the opinion they told me, they actually supported the answer which the majority has been supporting. As an example, the "I'm an open-minded person" issue has always been supported by most people but whenever it comes to a discussion of the majority does not suppport certain topic like homesexualities. So, what is this "open-minded" issue all about? You're open-minded? Argh!~ Who give a FUCK at it? Anyone would've just look down at those kind of people. Sigh!~ Life is getting worse day by day, it makes me felt that life is going to be pointless soon. Why must all my friends treating me the way like not themselves? Telling me in a serious way that they are this and that, then turn to another sucker which is totally not THEM ANYMORE!~ Please, tell me which is the friends that i could trust him/her 100%?!?

-[aLbY]-