What a disastrous night . . . .

I've gotta say it isn't my day at all! Everything didn't turned out well! Night thought of going out for a drink while borrowing my sister's laptop to do some assignment as well. When everything was confirmed in the night, my sister had drove my car out, then my parents drove my sister's car out and left my dad's car only. So i drove his car out and what happened was I ALMOST DIED IN AN ACCIDENT! What a night...what a disastrous and bad night! Was driving all the way down the hill near Bukit Jalil, there was a traffic light and i was the 4th car after the Saga! So at the traffic light, there shouldn't be any U-turn at all and guess what? This bastard went to make a dangerous illegal U-turn! All of a sudden he breaked and made a turn and stopped HALF WAY! C'mon use your bloody brain ok, it was green light and most of the cars were speeding down the hill! And you were so great there making an illegal U-turn and stopped half way?!

The car behind the Saga was those 4WD Pajero and he didn't really notice till the Saga stopped then he avoid all of a sudden and break slowly, cars behind his all slowed down the speed including my car! So behind the Pajero that car was shocked and slowed down too, then the car in front of my car which is the Gen2 BREAK SO SUDDEN and he ALMOST STOPPED HIS CAR TOO! I was shocked and break my car, almost break all but not all yet, the car at the back was far away speeding down, it was a Wira and it almost BANG ME TERRIBLY FROM THE BACK! Thank God that Wira avoided my car fast then i was looking at the back mirror and then looked back to the front and was shocked and STEPPED ON THE BREAK WITH ALL I COULD till the car SKID!! Luckily my dad's car jz sent for service and the break was repaired as well, the ABS worked well! I thought i almost crashed on the Gen2 AGAIN! It reminded me of the bloody accident i'd last year, crashing 3-4 of my friend's cars and if it happened again tonight it'll be 6cars all along! MY Gosh!!!~ This was fine, then as i by pass the bloody car, every car honk his car and i was cursing there as well till i didn't notice there was a rock by the side and jz went over it! I could feel that my driver's front tyre isn't well anymore! I was about to fetch my friends that time, so the first passenger wasn't that far away, so i went to his place and stopped by there to check my tyre, IT WAS FLATTEN! OMG! I was so shock and afraid to be screwed up terribly by my dad!

In the end, i called him and told him about it, he was fedup and never really screwed me up but asked me to change the tyre by myself. So i did it with Wee Haw! It took us 45mins to change a tyre! GOsh...luckily everything was at the booth! Couldn't really take the tyre out that moment, i called Edmund to come over to lend a hand! Then everything went fine, around 11.30pm only i fetched Isaac then went for a drink meeting up with Abby till 1++am!

Sigh...what an unlucky day and night! My life is really hopeless and shitty now! I don't know how worst would it become after this...I'm feeling the loneliness in me, i'm feeling depress, i'm feeling lost...and i'm feeling restless of my life now. God, please save me! I need you so much to save everything back...and i only wanted u back... :'(

-[aLbY]-

L O S T . . .

Recently, i begin to felt lost! There's something which belong to me seems moving further and further away from me. I'm feeling lost, i'm really feeling very lost! I'm losing something which have been very precious to me, something very meaningful and something which means alot to me in my life. I can't do anything to help, i can't even say a single thing to help but can just wait for you. I can't stop thinking of those days, i can't stop telling myself how much i love you and i don't wanna lose you too. It's difficult now, it's different now, everything seems unstable and confusion seems still going on too. I don't know what shall i do to get you back but all i know is i've never give up before and i'm still waiting for you...i remember the song "reunited", you told me that it's one of the song you liked because the lyrics is meaningful! I've been hoping for the song title to appear now, i'm still waiting and i've never give up before too! Loving you is what i've most precious in my life, but hurting you isn't what i wanted too. Sorry seems to be the hardest thing to be accepted but i've always been sincerely seeking for apologies from you and i really hoped "reunited" does mean something to us now. I'll improve to be a better person and wouldn't hurt you in anyway anymore as long as love still does exist in our heart. For you, for our love, i chose to be with you and love you even more! Don't go, don't leave, don't dump me because i'll change and appreciate you. Don't ignore, don't runaway, don't be afraid of me anymore...i've known my mistakes and i've been suffocating without your love, without your presents in my life. It's dull, it's dark, it's really really lonely without you now. I want, i want you back baby, please forgive me and let me fill you back with colors...



I was a fool to ever leave your side
Me minus you is such a lonely ride
That breakup we had
Has made me lonesome and sad
I realize I love you
'Cause I want you back
Hey, hey

I spent the evening with the radio
Regret the moment that I let you go
Our quarrel was such
A way of learning so much
I know now that I love you
'Cause I need your touch
Hey, hey

(Chorus:)
Reunited, and it feels so good
Reunited, 'cause we understood
There's one perfect fit
And, sugar, this one is it
We both are so excited
'Cause we're reunited
Hey, hey

I sat here, staring at the same old wall
Came back to life just when I got your call
I wished I could climb
Right through the telephone line
And give you what you want
So you would still be mine
Hey, hey

I can't go cheatin', honey; I can't play
I found it very hard to stay away
As we reminisce
On precious moments like this
I'm glad we're back together
'Cause I missed your kiss
Hey, hey

(Repeat chorus)

Lover, lover, this is sudden love
And you're exactly what I'm dreamin' of
All through the day
And all through the night
I'll give you all the love I have
With all my might
Hey, hey

(Repeat chorus)

-[aLbY]-

Life is not easy...

Well, this blog was created for myself to say or spill all i wanted daily no matter it's happy or unhappy. It all started in year 2004 onwards, i was an active blogger, keeping my blog update with pictures and long granny story of what i've been doing in my daily life! Indeed, it was pretty known blog that has most pictures in it among my friends! There and then, as i grew, i begin to be more secretive, keeping things in myself but not expressing much in the blog anymore. Mystery i would say it, some posts are really a mystery to the readers. I can't express it out anymore because i guess i could solve them by myself without expressing out. Some are really personnel, therefore, it's not revealed!

I'm 20 this year, finally i've joined the family of 20s! I grew and changed alot compared to the olden days. Good or bad, everything is reality now. Ups and downs appears quite often in our daily life but lately, the amount is really enormous. I have been in dilemma, and having a hard time, or known as distraught or depression more likely. This is life, i know, it isn't easy, but i won't give up things unnecessarily too! No matter what it is, i do not really give up things that easily! I can say nothing really easy in life besides you putting effort in achieving the goal! I'm having a hard time now which i'll still not give up! Although it seems easing off from my path but i'm holding it back tightly with confidence(trying to gain!)! I believe with what i've said, it could open up the "mystery box" and think positively, it'll surely bring the colors back! Trust me, this is the key word! Trust is vital!

All i can do is not giving up but continue approaching till miracle happen. Although it rarely happen, but i'll give it a try no matter what. It has nothing to do with immaturity but its a motivation to increase the confidence to stand up back! I'm sure and very sure that things would work well if it's applied with what i've said. I really mean it. We gotta practice and learn together to enhance or reach to another stage.

p/s: "Let me hold u tight, i'm not as it's thought really! I ♥ you!!~"

-[aLbY]-

Another nice song . . . .

Di wajah curiga
Dan nada resah
Dirasa berbeza
Terima segala

Jika terlafaz kata
Saat kita bersua
Dalam berbicara

Mendung berlabuh
Dan terbuka di hati sayu
Bertabur dan berlalu

Oh.. debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintaku
Yang luka semula

Tiada kuduga
Akhirnya cinta
Didalam senyuman
Dikau hancurkan
Impian yang terlerai
Nyata satu persenda
merantai di jiwa

Debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintamu
Yang luka semula

Kini kau tinggalkan
Diriku ini
Terbawa pergilah
Debu-debunga
Cinta

Di hati sayu
Berdebu dan berlalu
Debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintaku
Yang luka

Terbuku dihati sayu
Bertemu dan berlalu

Oh...Debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintamu
Yang luka semula
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Here's another beautiful song! It makes me recall alot of things, alot of the past...i really miss it very much! How good if i could go back to the past and stop the time from continuing...'reflection' should be the word! Not to say im a dreamer or being childish to think of the past, but human does think of the past! Knowing that it was a happy moment that time, for sure one will reflect of their past no matter it's happy or unhappy. That's all for tonight..thanks for the song Ian bro!~

-[aLbY]-

Feeling........uneasy, unhappy, uncomfy...

There's no way much more having such feelings when you've lost the key for a lock! It's so heartbreaking of losing the key because the lock will never be opened unless you broke it! To me breaking the lock means the same as breaking my heart! It's one of my gift for my 20th birthday! Now i've lost the key to open the gift, i'm feeling down, very down now...there's an alternative way to open the lock, the owner of the lock has the key, but how am i suppose to tell the owner that i've lost the key when the owner gave me the key with the lock that moment? I'm really sorry...i'm feeling useless for myself, i'm feeling unhappy, i'm feeling weak and heartbreaking!! Nothing can cure, nothing can really cure...i'm feeling restless! Please...i need you! I need the key or else...guilty and regret will be engraved in my heart forever!

Dedicated for the key of the lock...



-[aLbY]-

LMAO . . . .

LMAO #1


Gosh, NOT AGAIN???? When i came back home, i was shocked to see my chair is brokedown AGAIN at the kitchen! Again.....by my lovely bro! Hahahah may U REST IN PEACE my lovely chair! :P thought i could get a new chair, but my parents said they're gonna repair it AGAIN! Sigh....here's another picture of the "corpse".



LMAO #2


C'mon people, trust me! This is only a very soft dropping on the ground and it broke into two! Yes, it's DEFINITELY NOT NOKIA phone hahaha it's a Sony Ericson W850i!!! My best buddy dropped it on the ground in his room and it broke into 2 pieces now! What a fragile phone!!! :P here's another good one...hahahha



This time i could critic Sony Ericson with this proof! :P that's all for the day! Keep visiting my blog ya...!!!~ :)

-[aLbY]-

Old story . . .

Before i went out this evening, my dad suddenly told me that my car's passenger sit lock was broken! Come to think about it, the last time my car was broken it was at SS2! That's when i didnt even realise that the car was broke in not till i fetched Carter back home! And now only someone realized that my car was really broken in! The lock's pussy was broken! SHIT!!! Never even realise that the passenger sit lock was broken also! For so long....!!!??? Sigh...gotta get it repair ASAP! People outside, better not to put ANY belongings on any of your vehicle's sitting else you'll end up something like my case!

-[aLbY]-

A sudden change . . .

Tuesday night, it was the night where the sudden change begin. It was very torturing, very torturing i suppose. Human does mistakes, everyone does mistakes and i make mistakes too but this time, i made one of the biggest mistake at the wrong time. Everything changed the moment the mistake was done. It hurts so much when i've been happy all the time even a few minutes before the mistake was made and everything changed...very sudden! Depression begin haunting me, i'm weak, i'm strengthless, i'm afraid...!!! I never mean to create the problem by intention. I never even thought it would be that severe too. It's suffocating! I really hope i could turn the time back and not becoming like this. I'm feeling so lonely in the dark, i begin to afraid of the dark now...seeing something that reminds me of what happened that night really kills me. Tears flowing non-stop every night....i can't bear with the pain. It's too hurting, i don't hope it to happen & don't want it to be like this too, i'm sorry...i'm really sorry...