Never know...

I'm very tired, I'm very unhappy, I'm very lonely...so what if I misses someone who doesnt know. You'll never know... ='( I'm exhausted, I'm very very exhausted yet I've been pretending go front of everyone that Alby is GOOD! NO I'M NOT! I'm getting weaker and weaker day by day...and I've to bring out a mask out to show everybody I'm in good situation! I need my 'pillow'! I need it to hug to sleep peacefully like I was a baby! ='( I cant bear it anymore, it's very suffocating... What can I do to ease the pain in the heart & mind???