I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere
Have I found you Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth Big pill looming
Now I'm a fat house cat Nursing my sore blunt tongue Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks Pissing on magazine photos Those fishing lures thrown in the cold And clean blood of Christ mountain stream
Have I found you Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth Big pill stuck going down
This is dedicated for you...
New Year is coming, I'm best hoping for a better year ahead and also looking forward to a brand new year in 2009! Best wishes to everybody and a Happy New Year!
Here's a family dinner at 7atenine with my family. Food seems not bad! Price is still reasonable, not too expensive or too cheap thou! Environmental wise, not too bad! Good service! Hahaha, it's a nice place for chilling, as well as for candle light dinner! :D try it!
Well...well...well...i guess i'm kinda failure! My own birthday pics i still haven't get all the compilations yet! GOsh...yet i'm posting other's birthday pictures! MORE COMING SOON OK!!! MORE COMING SOON!!! Anyway, coming back to the topic, here's a compilation of all the pictures taken during Carter's 22nd birthday celebration @ NZX, Ara Damansara with a few of us! Yea, it's a pre-birthday celebration, but at least we did enjoyed throughout the night! Was first having dinner at FULLHOUSE (also at NZX, Ara Damansara), then we went to the Disneyland, the local one (also in NZX, Ara Damansara), took many pictures there! There're 2 more group pictures, very beautiful ones, cost us RM20/piece, but it can be used with the entrance voucher we bought for each of us! There were 5 of us, so we used RM40, left out we used it to exchange with a cute Stitch mug for the birthday boy! Then, we seems nowhere to go, i suggested to go Mont Kiara for Starbucks! We were LOST in Hartamas, then we ended up to the right place and sat there till close to 2.30am and there goes the night pass thru! Happy birthday again Carter!
***( For more pictures, you may also visit to THIS LINK from Evelyn's camera! Too bad, sad to say, Carter's other masterpiece pictures are all gone due to the memory card got corrupted! *SOB* its ok, we've all these are more than enough for the memories too! *hugs* ) ***
Next, I can't be blogging too much after this as i've tonnes of assignments to be done by this coming friday (2/01/09)! Then i'll be leaving for Langkawi trip from 3/01/09 till 7/01/09 with my bunch of buddies! It's also a farewell for those who're leaving to further studies next year...wishing all of u whose leaving, best of luck in everything & success in life!
After the trip, i'll have at least 10days for revision before my last semester of my Level 2 Degree to end! EXAM! *scary* MAN, i'm super stress now! ASSIGNMENTS! HOLIDAY! EXAM! ARgh...full of worries! Sigh...wish me luck people! PLEASE.....
There'll be a few big post coming up soon before 2008 ends! No worries people! Please be patient, very very patient, waiting for the updates before 31 December 2008 ends! :D Merry Belated Xmas & a Happy New Year ahead!!!~
I've finally found my favourite Korean artist music video on youtube, Tim! Well, he is a really good song composer and singer! As i said before, i've his album before, ORIGINAL ALBUM imported back by a friend 7 years back but it's LOST now! Sigh, sad...i've no idea where did it went to! Couldn't find it back! I so wanted to get the album back! As well as the others collection too! It can barely be found in the local shops here!
Anyway, Tim produces great songs! "I'm Sorry" has a very touching music video and meaning (it's with English subtitle now). Please to enjoy the song!
Behind the story of this song, there's something i would want to express here, I'm sorry! I know "sorry" isn't anything important anymore, but it represents each and everything i've done wrong in the past which i'm sorry to you, i won't repeat my mistakes anymore. I know there're many things which has no turn back including time, but as far as i know, if i still have the opportunity now to apologize and to be sorry, i'll proof you that i'm not the "bastard" anymore! To be sorry and forgiven are what i've been seeking from you. I don't want to feel regret in whatever things i've and things i've done for you. Back to few years back, i like seeing the happiness in you naturally expressed to me, i misses it so much and i misses the first time on the phone. I really hoped that time could be revert and can be stopped at the happiest time! I miss the happiest time of us and the whole you...Forgive, trust and love me back like how you used to...
Il tempo passa senza che Lo passo mai insieme ate Ma ti pensavo sempre Nei sogni tu con me Per me il mondo finira Se non ci fossi tu Ovunque vai Voglio che sai
If you need a friend or a lover Or a place that you can hide I will always be there Even though my hands are tied I know deep down inside If you'd consider what we shared Maybe you'll see You're all that I need
E'una vita che cercando a te E non importa che io senta per te Soltanto una notte ancor Chiamami amor All my life I've been searching For someone like you
There's never been a better time There's never been a better place For you and I together here Alone and face to face Oh I'd do anything If you'd just let me in your life Whatever it takes I won't make the same mistake again
E'una vita che cercando a te E non importa che io senta per te Soltanto una notte ancor Chiamami amor All my life I've been searching For someone like you
Could it be (could it be) The brightest star (The brightest star) So close yet still far away (Let's get it on slowly) Don't you know I've fallen for you Baby I'm calling for you Right here right now
E'una vita che cercando a te E non importa che io senta per te Soltanto una notte ancor Chiamami amor All my life I've been searching For someone like you
p/s: "Someone like you, is what i've been searching for..." I like the lyrics! Its meaningful!
There's no class today, the one and only class from 4pm - 5.30pm has been cancelled because the lecturer wasn't around. So when i woke up, prepared and bath, then went to Midvalley with my mom and bro for lunch and to get some things. We eventually went to the new restaurant in Gardens, Canton-i Restaurant. Food not bad, price like Dragon-i. Here's the food we ate EXCEPT for my mom's wonton noodle cause she was too hungry so i didnt manage to take it! Hehehe
Apart from the food, there's also a few picture of my bro, mom and MYSELF! Haven't been blogging such things for long!
After this i'm gonna get busy with my assignments from now on...busy busy busy......
Sorry ya i know i haven't really been updating the blog but something funny and stupid happened in the college! Take a look at this stupid accident in APIIT! It's the 2nd case in a week. Plus, it blocks the path way for the car to pass! Stupid isn't it? Really gotta salute these people...
I'm so sick of the internet@phone line whenever it rain!!! I'm outside Oldtown outside my house now, can only grab as many information as i could then back to do my write out! SIgh.....i'm so wanna finish my assignments immediately! All my group assignment aren't started yet! FOUR GROUP ASSGMT vs ONE INDIVIDUAL ASSGMT! ARghh....
Sorry guys for the lacking of update on my blog! NO TIME la! hehehe have been busy with my studies, work and many other things! Gosh...my desktop is OFFICIALLY having breakdown! Gosh!!! Anyway, sorry for the slow update ya! Within this few months time, among the happening parties i've attended was Isaac-Edmund-Michelle-Shan Shan-Nawihs-Ernest-Abby-Karen's birthday party, Quattro launching and many more other happening events! Hahah gosh, upcoming is gonna be till end of the year which are Hugo-Joshua-Carter-Kelvin's birthday. WOW!!!! Many other events coming up soon summo! Gosh! Pics????????? I know y'll surely curious waiting for the pics, let me have the time 1st! :P HAHAHAHAHAH
Well, next week i'm gonna be darn darn busy! FYP proposal clinic with the representatives to check on the progress of our work and work for 3days! Aihz...wopz, tonight attending another friend's sis pre-wedding night! HAHAHAH another party......
I've been super stress of my final year project (FYP) proposal lately! No time to update my blog AT ALL! All the bday parties and parties pics! Gosh....sorry readers! Let me get this f*cking proposal done and sent by this friday, I'LL UPDATE ASAP aight! Please be PATIENT....my blog is still not dead yet! It'll be lively back soon, but dont know whether would it be interesting or not! So here's jz a lil update on WHY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING MY BLOG ok! PATIENCE ya....
Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say. Now it's too late to hold you. ' Cause you've flown away, so far away.
Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile. Feelin' and knowing you hear me. It keeps me alive. Alive!
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
Picture a little scene from Heaven.
Darling, I never showed you. Assumed you'd always be there. I took your presence for granted. But I always cared And I miss the love we shared.
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven. Like so many friends we've lost along the way. And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
Picture a little scene from Heaven.
Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll always look to a brighter day.
Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep, You'll always listen, as I pray!
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
Its been 2weeks i havent been updating anything on my blog but only helping to promote the dance competition which is going to be held in my college, APIIT. Well, 2nights ago, i was at home after gym and dinner, was sitting at the living room watching tv on my own. Watched "Devil Wears Prada". Yea, everybody knows what is the story all about, me too, but i eventually learnt something, "I choose to be what I am and what I want". No one forced me to, but myself to be who i am willingly. Eventually, i would wanna say i made my decision to be like this, no matter what the consequences is or what the result is, i'll bear it all by myself. Afterall, i make my own decision and there should be no regrets too...goodluck Alby! Appreciate what you have right now...whatever you have right now!
Well, i know i've been procrastinating many post since months back, sorry abt that, my desktop is having prob, previously my laptop too but its fine back now after the repair, and i've no motivation to post them up! Sorry for the DELAY! Will update it in summary form later...
ATTENTION TO ALL THE YOUNGSTERS, the month of October is the month where each and every one of you will enjoy the very first Inter-College Danze2Nista Online N Reality Dance Tournament organized by APIIT UCTI! What are you guys & gals waiting for? Details are as below:-
When: 1st November 2008 @ 6pm Where: APIIT UCTI Why: Coz it’s TOO HOT to MISS!!!
Featuring: Celebrity DJs 2 Dance Floors to Party on Usher’s dance battle Hitz FM Euphoria MyC! Magazine Many more…
*** FOC for LADIES before 7pm! ***
Ticket is RM15 and are limited. So, for those that are intesrested may RSVP by contacting the following people.
Edmund Quah - 0169789048 Elly Lim - 0129707263 Ji Hin - 0173641638 Darshini - 0164562411 Ji Hsia - 0146493413
This is just so pathetic and sad! Was suppose to update and upload pictures of the past events but......there's a bad news here, i had a farewell@pre-bday party for a good friend at Chilis, Midvalley, after that everyone went back to bath and changed for second round, club! We arrived around 11++pm, was figuring out how to enter, i was using my phone all time! Then Ed and I managed to enter first, then we brought the rest in, ONLY 5minutes into the club! I walked back out, my phone went MISSING! :( arGH!!! fuck it!!!! I lost my precious and now i need to spend for another new phone again! Just got my figure back in my savings but there goes again for another new phone! I'm so desperately wanted my parents to sponsor me this time! For the past few years i've been paying the phone all by myself! Sigh...my contacts...pictures...important notes...omg!!! Why am i such bad luck nowadays!! So many bad things happened all at once!! Both my desktop and laptop are having system error! So unstable, simply restart non-stop or display card problem! SIGhh.....please save me from all this trouble! Im in such bad luck nowadays!! :( now i gotta consider what phone to buy! how much money am i coming out, whether is there gonna be sponsor or not, and....gOsh...!!~ no mood to update the rest yet people, maybe after awhile when im over this "lost phone" incident!
talk to me you speak with me don’t sink before you rise baby don’t fade away you hesitate you seem to wait for all the time we had feels like a world away so who’s to say we’ll be okay we will make it through the night don’t wanna wake up in this state I just want us both to smile cause we’re the same and I know that we’ll never change look, I bought your favourite ice cream I don’t wanna see it melt away if you walk out now I don’t know if we going to be the same baby just talk with me cause I want you to stay here with me I want you to stay here with me
p/s: "Sorry if this is not a clear version of the song, i'll try to search for it again, but for this temporary moment listen to this unclear version first. This is a nice song, it expresses what is in my heart...."
Hahaha finally i've the time to post up my favourite perfume! :D KENNETH COLE!!!!! Ta dang dang dang dang............guess how much is this whole set cost? ONLY RM300! My last 21st present from my sister! hahahah i've been craving for this perfume since 1yrs back! Its so difficult to get it, i've seen it at most place and they dont have it! Luckily i ordered this 1-2months back at Sg Wang, Parkson! :D SMELLS so good and refreshing!!! yummy....hahaha the whole set is so nice and the the box is so elegant some more! WOW!!!! good good good....finally! heheheh
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) How it could be now or neither been (or neither been) All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Chorus I never had a dream come true Till that day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where love takes me to A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time Amd tomorrow can never be 'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind There's no use looking back or wondering How it should be now or neither been (or neither been) Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Chorus
You'll always be the dream that fills my head (Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby) You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget) There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) Because love is a strange and funny thing No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye No no no no
I haven't slept at all in days It's been so long since we've talked And I have been here many times I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take And I just got to let it go And who knows I might feel better If I don't try and I don't hope
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, No more aching No more fighting, No more trying
Maybe there's nothing more to say And in a funny way I'm calm Because the power is not mine I'm just gonna let it fly
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
Love me.. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________
Finally my stress period is over, and going to be free back for the next few months before the next semester examination comes. Yea yea, i know i havent been updating my birthday post & pictures yet, still getting the pictures alright! This is a nice song, YES i know its old ok! C'mon, its jz me, i know i'm an old freak who loves old songs and old things. Anyway, this is Alby!~ my parents said that i'm a sentimental person (*ahem*), well, i guess i'm just what everyone says, "Alby is an emo fella." Ya, it's jz because am a person who's sentimental and stick to no changes, that's why i'm an emo fella when i encounter indifference in anything. Sometimes i really felt that i only want to live in my own world. Nothing can be like what u expected unless u achieve it by your own effort. I will only put in 101% of effort in achieving something which is important to me in my life. I dont know whether do i consider myself a naive or a close-minded person. I'm not a very tradition person, but at least i'm truthful to everybody except people i dislike. I've undergo a 21yrs of life, i met different people, really different people in terms of character and type of human being too. I learned something, but i only learn to adapt to it! It's either i take it or leave it. Sometimes somehow i hoped what i've would remain and not changed....but on some circumstances, Alby, you dont have a choice! I know i may not be a good son, a good boyfriend nor a good friend, but what i'm good at is i'm Alby itself. To people who knows Alby (really well), will know he has at least ONE good criteria in everyone's mind.
I finally had turned 21yrs old. I did gain and lost some things. What are they i needn't say it out as it isn't important to anyone but i've only been wishing for one thing all this while, it's alright, as i said, my things aren't so important to anyone again. Lets say this is only a random post where i havent been writing for long? I've no good results in life at the moment, i gain NOTHING and lost EVERYTHING. This is what i meant by i gain something and lost something. I wanted to make my blog private i guess, feeling that i only wanted to leave in my own world. Sad isn't it? HAHA...
Actually I felt i've aimless life now. Everyone has their dreams, ambitions or at least an aim in life, but i dont, in my 21st birthday, i made 2wishes this year. Both wishes are exclusively made for people whom is important in my life...not even for myself! Maybe it's jz like what some people says, fate in life. My happiness, was once in my own hands, but now, i realise my hands are jz retard and malfuncion. I make people in my surroundings unhappy instead of happiness. Sometimes i really felt i'm a troublemaker to everyone. "Alby, Alby...u need to be strong, then proof to everybody u're not as you said yourself, a useless fella! Proof them u're at least someone to them in their list!" Rant but keeping myself courage, it sounded kinda stupid isn't it? HAHA but only myself could help myself...thanks to whomever who visits and read my blog. I appreciated all your precious time reading such blog, ranting of myself!
Hey people, have u ever listen to the songs i posted on the right side of my blog? Yea, some emo songs again!! Anyway, they're masterpiece songs which reminded me so much of the greatest memories i had before. Give urself sometime to listen to the songs. They means alot to me...
Its close to 4am, i couldn't sleep really! I was super tired, but couldn't rest at all. My air-cond is leaking, so no air-cond for the night, its a public holiday, but to me its jz a normal monday, im on a week holiday before starting my new semester, but i dont feel like going anywhere at all, im not studying under-pressure as well, but still cant sleep!
I'm really missing something in life now, my soul i guess...why cant i be perfect? Why cant i jz make people in my surrounding happy with me? Sigh...i should jz stop here! Enough of ranting in such a sad place! Thanks for spending your precious time reading on such a blog...
I can’t believe I’m standing here Been waiting for so many years and Today I found the Queen to reign my heart You changed my live so patiently And turned it into something good and real I feel just like I felt in all my dreams There are questions hard to answer Can’t you see…
Chorus: Baby, tell me how can I tell you That I love you more than life Show me how can I show you That I’m blinded by your light When you touch me I can touch you To find out the dream is true I love to be loved by you
You're looking kind of scared right now You're waiting for the wedding vows But I don’t know if my tongue’s able to talk Your beauty is just blinding me Like sunbeams on a summer stream and I gotta close my eyes to protect me Can you take my hand and lead me From here please yeah...yeah...
Chorus: Baby, tell me how can I tell you That I love you more than life Show me how can I show you That I’m blinded by your light When you touch me I can touch you To find out the dream is true I love to be loved, I need to be loved I love to be loved by you
I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever And I know they gonna say that we’ll give up because of heavy weather But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong…
Chorus: Baby, tell me how can I tell you That I love you more than life Show me how can I show you That I’m blinded by your light When you touch me I can touch you To find out the dream is true I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved I love to be loved by you
Yes I love to be loved by you
p/s: Still stress with exam till this coming friday!!!~ Enjoy the song people...
Sorry people, i really have not much time to post pictures of my birthday and other occasions! No time for blogging at the moment as i'll be having ONE WEEK exam from 25/8 till 29/8! So bear with it, i'll be right back...STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!! Please help me with the exam answer sheet!!!!!! *sobsob* TIME FASTER PASS..........i want HOLIDAY.........................
I hate hypocrites and people who boycott untrue stories especially about me. You're great, u've got everything from me! What u left is pieces of shits to me! Will u get to read my blog, i dont know, will u know who am i talking about, u may not know too, but its alright, no one will know, i can do nothing about you and you've won everything from me! You've money, you've skills, you've contacts, you've got brain to turn and twist ones mind, you've got "my" precious to trust you're ONE FINE PERSON! Happy isnt it? I guess that's not enough yet for you, you havent seen me having NOTHING and EMPTY yet. You insane crazy freak! You'll deserve what you should one day! You're the 2nd person i hate most on Earth...congrates!~ When i said i hate you, i hate you deep in to my nerves!
Hey i'm back, its been a week, i was super busy since after my birthday week! 4assignments due in 2weeks time, mostly last minute done work, some half way done before my birthday! Wopz, for your info, my birthday is on the 27/7 hehehe well, i'd throw a small house party together with a few good buds of mine and it went thru successfully! Sorry ya, i REALLY dont have ANY pics AT THE MOMENT yet! LoLz, am gonna get it VERY SOON aight! Guess i gotta say when it reaches sharp at 12am on the 27/7/2008, i've officially turned 21y/o! I'm an adult now! Everything is the new beginning i should say it, everything is gonna RESTART and MAKE it better from now onwards....
21y/o, it's my VERY first birthday party of my 21years of life, the most gift i ever had during my birthday! HAHAHAH so happy, but whats the funniest thing was instead of a birthday cake, i was actually holding a bottle of MY OWN CHIVAS sharp at 12am! *sweat* funny isnt it? hahaha that bloody Ed planned earlier! Ish, i wanted so much a cake for my birthday since i havent been eating pastry for long but it didnt turned up during my birthday but a bottle of CHIVAS! Shit man, 10secs + 2secs extra from the count of 10 for the countdown to my birthday! SHIT! It was still fine if there's stopper but THERE ISN'T ANY OK!!! NONE!!!! WTF!!!! Bloody Ed fooled me nicely this time, i drank more than a QUARTER within 12secs! But i was darn happy anyway that time! hahaha everything turned out well! After the 12secs, i'd red wine, red wine + coke, sprite etc...OMFG, super tipsy! LoLz, many things happened then thereafter, not even noticing in btw the 2hours too! LMAO! (**Sorry gonna keep it secret but for THOSE who knows what happened, SHHHHHHHH**) Eventually the party ends at 4++am, everyone left, and i slept witht he presents! hahahah one of the friend was at the living room, DRUNK + ASLEEP! Another year older...really guys, wait for the update of my birthday pictures, thou i didnt get to take MUCH AS MOSTLY THINK IT WAS THEIR BIRTHDAY THERE, but the atmosphere + the theme, OH MY....im just so satisfy with everything me and my buds planned! :) thank u all so much! Love y'll so much...!!!!!!
Btw, i've finally handed in 3 of my assignments, left 1 more to go! Wish me best of luck ya!!! :) another thing, i've been to Euphoria by M.O.S TWICE last week, i didnt know i was in the guest list there cause i registered for Euphoria?! *sweat* okok, i guess thats all for tonight...goodnight people!~ nitezZzz...
Blog Blog Blog....sorry for the delay of my own 21st birthday party post! I'm superb busy now, assignment due from 28/7/08 (my birthday is on the 27/7/08 and party is on 26/7/08) till 8/8/08!!! OM*G!!!!!! Hated it! I've briefing for the coming TechEd 2008 job on mid August, 2weeks before my exam! MY GOODNESS.....i'll post it ASAP after my assignments are done this week aight! Stay tune on http://alby27.blogspot.com! Oh yea, ermm....it jz came across my mind, its after so long and over my 21st birthday, should i close my blog or not? Leave me a comment everybody! Thanks to those who celebrated my 21st birthday and those who attended, helped as well as was with me on that night! :D special thanks to all my buddies who'd helped me so much for cleaning the place and decorating it too! Love u guys! So...i gotta pen-off now, assignment, but i'm going off to sleep now! At kopitiam! hahah sad right? phone line BREAKDOWN again! Sigh....f*cking TM, u're gonna get it tomorrow! Nitez.... love u people loads...
On one of the most meaningful yet unforgettable day, this is when our story begin, "U & ME". There's no need to say it out, only "U & ME" know what the story is...i love you baby...& i miss you so badly!~
I've a dedication for you baby... Listen...with the lyrics, its all i meant by "I Love You" and i wanted to have a new start with you, just as how we used to love each other so badly...
When love comes to it's limits... The person will tell that person that you love him or her... If I'll be the one saying it to you.... If I say I love You very much right up till today.... What will be your answer... Will my feelings be the same as yours?
Do u still remember this movie; The Lake House? Never know that time flies, this is our very first romance movie watched in 2006. Its been 2years today, still remember the story line? Still remember our line? Heh, we've said it before, "not gonna leave each other" before. Maybe i sounded naive to everyone, but btw u and me, u know what's going on, u can feel it, i can feel it too. What's more than my sincerity and loyalty towards u today? 6months, officially the 6th month since that day...do u know that i still misses u so badly? Do u know that i still love u? "Persuasion", the book in The Lake House, it's about waiting...2person met, almost fall in love but the timing isn't right, but after a few years later, they met and they have another chance. Its been 6months, i've been trying all ways to us back together. I do not mind anything or anyone, but because i know this is ONLY what we both know that we still love each other, hence, i'm still keeping this up without giving up before. 6months, its been 150days i've waited for u to forgive and accept me back. I understand your feeling of fear being hurt again, and your disappointment. After this 6months long, i've corrected my mistakes, i've told myself that i wouldn't repeat the mistake anymore. Im doing this because of you, because i know you love me lots, thats why im doing anything, everything to get us back.
I'm dedicating this song for u baby, the original song track of The Lake House...
I love you baby, i really love you! I've never taken u for granted nor fooled u before! Im definitely unlike others, im only requesting for the last chance from you baby, would u let me take good care of u and love u back like how i used to? I've lost u for 6months, i dont want to lose u any longer anymore. Im saying this for the sake that i love u too much deeply and not gonna let u go. I know u still love me too! Im appreciating whatever chances and opportunity i have before its too late when i've lost all of u, even if it's a little bit of feelings left, im still willing to gain everything back cause i know u couldn't forget me just like that. I'll keep my words for u, i'll love u even more, and gonna take very good care of u like how i used to baby. Its for the one and only that i love, which is you....
p/s: "If i were given another chance, i hoped that we could watch this movie together again..., can we?"
Giving up, why should I we've come too far to forget beautiful just got lost somewhere along the way so much was missing when you went away
Let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance don't think too deep all those promises we couldn't seem to keep I don't care where we go let's start from here
Standing here face to face a finger on your lips don't say a word don't make a sound silence surrounds us now even when you were gone I felt you everywhere
Let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance don't think too deep all those promises we couldn't seem to keep I don't care where we go let's start from here let's start from here
I've never been the one to open up but you've always been the voive within the only one for my cold heart
Let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance don't think too deep and all those promises let's start from here lose the past change our minds we don't need a finish line let's take this chance not think too deep and all those promises we couldn't seem to keep I don't care where we go
Let's start from here...
Baby, i'm always the same old Alby even right up till today. I want u to know, i've never changed before, i promise i'll never gonna lie and betray u anymore! I would want to request, to take good care and love u back baby...i'll keep to my words, and u'll never will make the wrong decision too baby! I really love u till the bottom of my heart...
I'm missing u badly, loving u more than anything everyday baby...please forgive me and allow us to get back together!!~ I love u, and i want to love u as how Alby used to... *tears*
Baby, do u still remember this portrait? It was taken during one of our outing with my friends! I miss that moment so much! I miss u so much! Tonight i'm posting "I just can't stop loving you" for u in conjunction of another week would be someday we know what day it is. I love u, i love u till the bottom of my heart! No one understands how i feel, but...only u do, thou u dont care, but i know u still do! I need u, i'm so in need of your T.L.C at this stressful time! I needed u to be by my side, can u please? I wanted to have the best 1st best day of my life with u on "our day". I misses the days we were together, i misses holding ur hands while driving, i misses u sitting next to me, i misses hugging and *kisses* before i dropped u back, i misses the WHOLE of u baby! *tears* I just can't stop loving u baby, u know i can't, and i know u can't too. Allow me to be back by your side please...i wouldn't hurt u anymore! I keep my words for u...
Here's a video of Michael Jackson in "I just can't stop loving you" song, dedicated for his beloved wife... I'll now dedicate this to u my love, u're always the one and only that i love...
I Just Want To Lay Next To You For Awhile You Look So Beautiful Tonight Your Eyes Are So Lovely Your Mouth Is So Sweet A Lot Of People Misunderstand Me That's Because They Don't Know Me At All I Just Want To Touch You And Hold You I Need You God I Need You I Love You So Much
[Michael] Each Time The Wind Blows I Hear Your Voice So I Call Your Name . . . Whispers At Morning Our Love Is Dawning Heaven's Glad You Came . . .
You Know How I Feel This Thing Can't Go Wrong I'm So Proud To Say I Love You Your Love's Got Me High I Long To Get By This Time Is Forever Love Is The Answer
[Siedah] I Hear Your Voice Now You Are My Choice Now The Love You Bring Heaven's In My Heart At Your Call I Hear Harps, And Angels Sing
You Know How I Feel This Thing Can't Go Wrong I Can't Live My Life Without You
[Michael] I Just Can't Hold On
[Siedah] I Feel We Belong
[Michael] My Life Ain't Worth Living If I Can't Be With You
[Both] I Just Can't Stop Loving You I Just Can't Stop Loving You And If I Stop . . . Then Tell Me Just What Will I Do
[Siedah] 'Cause I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Michael] At Night When The Stars Shine I Pray In You I'll Find A Love So True . . .
[Siedah] When Morning Awakes Me Will You Come And Take Me I'll Wait For You
[Michael] You Know How I Feel I Won't Stop Until I Hear Your Voice Saying "I Do"
[Siedah] "I Do" This Thing Can't Go Wrong
[Michael] This Feeling's So Strong
[Siedah] Well, My Life Ain't Worth Living
[Both] If I Can't Be With You I Just Can't Stop Loving You I Just Can't Stop Loving You And If I Stop . . . Then Tell Me, Just What Will I Do
[Michael] I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Siedah] We Can Change All The World Tomorrow
[Michael] We Can Sing Songs Of Yesterday
[Siedah] I Can Say, Hey . . .Farewell To Sorrow
[Michael] This Is My Life And I,
[Both] Want To See You For Always I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Siedah] No, Baby
[Michael] Oh!
[Both] I Just Can't Stop Loving You
[Siedah] If I Can't Stop!
[Both] And If I Stop . . .
[Siedah] No
[Michael] Oh! Oh! Oh . . .Oh . . .
[Siedah] What Will I Do? Uh . . .Ooh . . . (Then Tell Me, Just What Will I Do)
I feel like dying, please! :'( i'm so stressed and derpess! I need T.L.C! :'( i'm sick, stress, pressure, tonnes of work to do, i'm feeling i've not much time left for everything! I'm such a.....pathetic sicko! END EVERYONE...i need.........you so much! :(
Although it's been for sometime, yea, i admitted i did pretended as if nothing anymore but the limit had reached, i can't pretend anymore, it's hurting very much! I admitted i'm a liar, i'm a great liar, i stopped talking to u, stopped talking to u, stopped pestering u, it doesnt mean i'm giving up onto u although u insisted, but the truth is that i still love u so much. Yes, i'm stupid, i'm dumb, but there's nothing i can do with it as it's where we develop all by ourselves. If u really mean nothing to me, i would have live happily as if nothing had happened before jz like how a car passes by u by the roadside. I rather drive on and off passing by u, each and everytime, everyday and night, cause i want to see u, i love to see u and whats most importantly, i love u deeply with all my heart. "Alby, try to let it go..", i did, but it failed coz i know no matter what, only u will come back to me in the picture in my mind, no one else even if there're many better ones outside. What's this all about? Stupidity? Sticky? Useless? Restless? Dumb? Or isit really what everyone has been saying, 'true love', which everyone claims it NEVER EXIST. Its true that after so long, i may be the only one who's still waiting for nothing, doing things whereby everyone consider its useless, but to me, whatever it takes for me to get u back, is a bit to bit effort to get closer to u back, as before...or maybe not, i'm never a decision maker in this case.
I miss u, i misses u so much, but everyone ask me over and over again, "Alby, is that worth?", without thinking twice i answered, "YES!" i said it as if it's really true which i'm still believing in "love" existing. Although it has been for sometime we're apart, but, i've never thought of leaving u before...it hurts the most, when u knew i lied, that i was fine, in fact, i wasn't....your concern is always what i prioritized! Does it sounded more likely i'm bullshitting? Ok, i never had the intention to, afterall, u know me best, if i really did it intentionally, u would've being cheated for long...and hurt deeply more than this, but the truth i didnt. Knowing it is useless to explain over and over again, this is what i'm writing to express my feelings, not to u, coz u felt i'm annoying, u felt i'm fooling u, but eventually, no one could help me to make u understand my intention loving u so much, waiting for u to love me back where u'd been afraid of me now...
David, my besties, he'd departed last 2days to overseas for his further studies for 2yrs from now onwards, indeed, i misses him very much, he is my besties which i'll never forget! Knowing him for more than 10yrs since primary, seeing the both of us changes from a huge size body to what we are today, seeing us growing with partners...seeing the changes in us each and every year, yet what is not changed is our besties friendship which never ends. I'm grateful and thankful to have a friend like him as he accompany me most the time when i really needed a shoulder, not fussy of any decision amde (although there are but we could still accomodate at times), not calculative nor revengeful, but simplicity the bestest buddy i ever had in my life. A day before he left, we went out for a drink, we talked alot, then he said to buy me a birthday present, i've got a shoe i wanted the next day which is the same day he's leaving, i wore that to the airport to show him. He said that it suits me and it looks good on me! He's often being straight forward to me, i nevermind any comment he made to me before. His friends, gf, family and relatives were there along at the airport, i was helping to take photographs with his and his bro's DSLR camera. That's all i can do for him. Before he left, Zoe, the gf, actually cried out loud for his departing, i was feeling touched, eyes turned red, but i was standing a side from them. I feel for her, but i told myself not to tears coz i do not want him to know that i'll miss his absence in my future days for 2yrs.
As time goes by, i started realizing people in my surrouding are leaving me one bye one, as if my skin was pilling off, bit by bit. My friends, my relatives and the "special someone i live the happiest and i love most"...i'm feeling restless, i needed the "someone" by my side now, i'm very depress and stress. I need "u" by my side, i need "ur" concern, i need "ur" presence in my life, i need "ur" love...there's no one i wanted anymore. I started realizing, i'm spoiling myself, my health, my studies as well as my everything! I dont know why, my account is almost depleted, the resources i have is limited, myself is somewhere i dont know where it'd been to...i'm losing something very precious, Alby! He's lost, so lost till things started changing!~ Love isn't everything, but the love i got, gives me everything i want...only u know what i mean if u remember i'd asked, "please don't leave me...baby!"
Yesterday i went pass somewhere kL, i remembered there was once i was working at a restaurant for L'Occitane annual dinner, u dropped me there and pick me back after work...many minor things i remembered, maybe u dont, or forgotten, or maybe u did remember every single thing which u're trying hard to forget, forget and let go me as hard as u're trying to achieve what u want! *heartbreaks* Whatever, where ever, whenever, however and whichever, u've been recalled without forgotten every single moment we were together before...from "naive" us, to another level of growing up till today...physically, the biggest changes is u, i'm always the same, never changed, still as bored and useless as before. Everyone today calling me uncle, bald head, old man etc...who would want to be with someone who'd became worst than before, than ever!~ I only see blurred visions, with only black and white color in the picture. I'm seeing things with no more colors without u anymore...i've no strenghts but only full with weaknesses! I cant bear this, i cant bear the loneliness i'm having which is killing me soon...
ME: "Don't abandon me, please...." *tears* (Q: Do u actually know how much i misses u, right up till today after so long?)
I dont know how to confront anyone about this. Pretended nothing, till the night comes, tears the one which accompany me till i'm tired then fell asleep holding my mobile phone! I'm such a pathetic old looking bastard! I disappoint the one i love most, i starting disappointing my family as well as my friends as i'm losing myself..day by day...empty soul walking somewhere in the street!
Assignments, presentations, examination, work, money, personal, family, friends....i'm too much stress and pressured really! I need "u"... :(
p/s: "To whomever who're encountering problem with your partner, think twice before making a decision to end the relationship, it isn't what u all thought to "begin" and "end" simplicity, but there's always a reason why u both got together and be together this long...appreciate them before u lose them.."
[Vittorio] Tutte le cose che non sai io te le insegnerò Le stelle che tu conterai te le regalerò Saprò inventare favole che ti racconterò Così che I sogni volino più a nord
[Nicole] So many things I've never known I will learn from you I'll find reason in your words that are tried and true
[Vittorio] E proverò a sorprenderti con un sorriso in più Così che possa perderti anche tu
[Vittorio & Nicole] You are my miracle You are pure and soft just like the air I breathe You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart There's a secret that you hold, that you hold Deep within that so discretely hides your soul
[Nicole] The strength I simply never found, I will find with you What I believe our future holds, I will see it through
[Vittorio] Con te vivrò ogni attimo che mi regalerai Come se fosse l'ultimo per noi
[Vittorio & Nicole] You are my miracle Acqua chiara e fresca che fa vivere You, heart of my heart There's a secret that you hold, that you hold And it's hidden so discretely
[Vittorio] Vertigy my guide To love that lasts forever
[Vittorio & Nicole] You, heart of my heart, heart of my heart There's a secret that you hold, that you hold Deep within that so discretely
Finally, after such long time, i gotta get closest to u. No one wouldn't know how i feel, i miss u so much, so darn much! Its been such a long time since few months back and i finally gotta get closest to u for once. My heartaches really much, very very much when i saw u lying on the bed like that. Tears tearsing non-stop watching u in suffocation. Hold ur hand tightly, hugging u with tears while pampering u on ur face, it was my greatest time of all this few months time! *tears* nevertheless, i helped to clean ur body and limbs, watching u tearsing without a word, it really hurts myself too. All i did was holding ur hand tightly, sitting by ur side, keeping u company through the night till morning. All i knew was that i misses u so much till i could tears non-stop while hugging u through the night before the sunrises. It still proves that i still love u very much....but, have u really forgotten the touch between us? I'm only having worries and stress over so much....and it seems nothing that i can do. I'm so lost! Is it really that u've forgotten of the touch between the both of us, including the night i was there for u??? :'(
Who am i? Where am i standing? What am i? I'm so lost, it's so hurting in my heart as if being stabbed into the heart! Its been for weeks, i've not been sleeping well, not having sufficient rest, and been tearsing missing someone badly...can't do anything at all, it's so suffocating. I've been waiting, waiting for "someone" to accept me back as who i am used to, but things got worsten for no reason. I dont know what can i do. Its so pain in the heart, i love "someone" so much but "someone" is scare to get back coz afraid to be hurt again. I never mean it, u knew me best, u knew i'd always never meant to do this, why arent u forgiven to me as i've been doing so much to get us back? :'( i felt so suffocated without u! I miss u everyday and night, where ever i am, u're still in my mind! I'm only getting weaker day by day due to the insufficient rest, sick for many times and recovered then sick back. I didnt care too, but still waiting, while writing my feelings on the blog. Somehow, i can only tell, no matter how did u responded to me towards whatever i've been doing, i'm still so much in love with u. Maybe EVERYONE can call me a stupid freak, MAYBE u'll also think that i'm another stupid freak, or whomever it is said that to me, i reckon, in the end, only myself who will know whether isit worth or stupid or not. Afterall, so much of things happened, or whatever which we'd been thru (though not much, but its sufficient for me to love so much), and whatever commitment we made together, thats why i'm truely loving u with my heart till the vain.
Sick...sick....sick....prolly not only others would said that, but u may thought so too, but if i dont love u truely, i wont be doing this right up till today, being called a stupidity waiting for someone for nothing. Everyone said so, but i'd never gave up before, but as much as know how u feel right up till today even we'd never meet or contacted for sometime, i know u still love me. Maybe i'm wrong, tell me if i am....but whatever we did and been thru together, no matter how much time we'd been separated, i'll still love u very very very much...and i'll prove u, that i truely love u very much too...only u will know coz u know me best, if only u'd forgotten about me..
Always bear in mind, no matter what happened to u in the end, u're still who u're to me and the one i love is u and the inner u, not what u looked like or what others said...bEE always loves u!~
[Spoken:] Baby, I know you're hurting Right now you feel like you could never Love again Now all I ask is for a chance To prove that I love you
From the first day That I saw your smiling face Honey, I knew that we would Be together forever Ooh when I asked you out You said no but I found out Darling that you'd been hurt You felt like you'd never love again I deserve a try honey just once Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong You walked in, you were so quick to judge But honey he' s nothing like me
[Chorus:] I'll never break your heart I'll never make you cry I'd rather die than live without you I'll give you all of me Honey, that's no lie [2x]
As time goes by You will get to know me A little more better Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid) To let your feelings show (feelings show) And I understand Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because) I deserve a try (try) honey Just once (once) Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked) You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge) But honey he's nothing like me Darling why can't you see
[Chorus (2x)]
[Bridge:] No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry) I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear) No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
[Chorus (3x)]
p/s: I'm sorry baby, i'm really sorry....I love u and I really love u honestly...I promise, I'll never break your heart anymore...
nothing more that i can say! life is just so meaningful with all of my friends! nevertheless, i'll appreciate my life & my family & friends in order to keep myself surviving for a longer time happily then....
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