If we wanted things to be well within us, we gotta work things out "together". I don't walk alone, you've been walking it with me, but don't make it like now, leaving it unsolve. i'll wait in time, for you to let go the past because i love you very much, i will be a better man, for you baby...i'd accepted whom you are to work things out all these years, i only requesting if you really love me too, work it out with me and accept me for who i am. Just for you to know, all this while, i really love you and accepted who you are, and most importantly, i wanna make things work between you and me, not anyone else baby...
I can't breathe, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't sit, I can't stop thinking, and I can't do anything at all to hold you back. I'm so suffocating. I'm so depressed, everyday and night. Why i can never hold you, i can never make you hold me back no matter what i've been doing for you? :'( i misses you every day and night and been thinking of you 24/7! WHY??? :'( am i really as what you had in mind, a not worth to be loved person and don't deserved such people like me? I'm a such an asshole.. :'( i love you so much, i seriously love you so much yet had given everything for you, why can't i still hold you back? I just wanted you to love me back, i've got nothing extra to request from you, yet i've been doing my part, though it isn't perfect, but why did you hate me so much, why don't you love me anymore, why can't i just have you and your love only? :'( i'm only an ordinary person like anyone else, i just wanted to have an ordinary life with you... why should i be compare? Do u know i've put in everything into you,....and if you leave, you shall take my breathe away too cause i don't wanna live with such pain, i don't wanna live without you baby.. :'( why even the one who loves me still don't think i'm true at all?
Today i went out for lunch with a few friends, after that we went for movie, 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons.' Indeed, i would recommend to watch this movie, it's greatly produced with very good graphics! Very good storyline yet a very touching loving movie. Everybody wanted to have a relationship as though like how Benjamin and Daisy had in the movie, including myself. There were many scenes that reflected to myself! Tears dripping again...
To me, Benjamin is an unfortunate born child. He was born with a life the other way round, from old to young, he was born with a very ugly face which will scare most people away, thank God sent him a saviour, Queenie@Mama, the mother when his real parents left him. Queenie loves Benjamin very much as if her own born child. Benjamin have been living in the Old Folk Homes together with Queenie for 17years, then he left to see the world. Benjamin had a very unlucky life, a normal human being will grew up with happiness from young to old, die when they're really old but he's different, he watches everybody whom he loves, whom he knows dies one by one...both Benjamin and Daisy are so much in love with each other! They had their greatest moment together! They almost had everything, but sad to say Benjamin has an extraordinary life, so he chose to leave, as time passes, years goes on, he became from old to young, to even younger and died as the youngest when he'd became a baby! Benjamin dies with a diary left for Daisy...which he'd stated every single moment of his life since he was born till the day he last remember things in his life for Daisy and the daughter. Throughout the whole movie, it was between the daughter and ill mother, Daisy who'd already admitted in the hospital, close to her last moment, but she wanted the daughter whose name is named on behalf Daisy's mother, Caroline. Daisy asked Caroline to read out loud what was stated in the diary before she's leaving...by the end of the story, Caroline only realized her real dad was Benjamin Buttons. Sigh...
Well, that was a brief summary of Benjamin Button's life. I will relate it to myself for now. My life isn't the same as Benjamin's of course, i have a way much better and fortunate life than he does. What i'm implying here is that Daisy says to Benjamin, "...nothing is worth more than having you in my life...". I believe that true love does really exist, i do not mean the ending of Benjamin and Daisy, but what i meant was their times when they were together, no matter how much they've been through, they both still love each other and got back to each other. We're so much more fortunate than the both of them, they do not have a choice because Benjamin has an extraordinary life, we don't, we're way much better! I love you as much as how much Benjamin loves Daisy, i do not wanna lose you for nothing in the end. I do mean what i said to you that "nothing is worth more than having you in my life", which means you mean "everything" to my life. At this point of time, everyone including you may be thinking that Alby is bullshitting, but how much can i bullshit that what i've done in last year, i did waited for you in the end because i mean my words, "i'll never gonna let you go, because i love you with everything baby." I mean it. I want to watch the sunrise and sunset with you like how Benjamin and Daisy did, i'm ain't in a fairytale or dream, but what i meant is what we can do in real. I knew there were loads of the bad past that kept haunting you from trusting me or getting "real" to me, imagine what and how have you been treating throughout the times since after my birthday. You love me, you misses me, you cared for me, and you were still the you i knew, not till more misunderstanding and problem between us which we couldn't justify and sort it together, things just got worst again only.
Imagine the time you said you love, imagine the time you said you misses me, imagine the moments we were together on the "big day". I've always been appreciating you ever since the last time i made my mistake, i wouldn't expect you too much to totally forget about it, but at least try to let it go slowly and keep the finger cross to yourself, Alby can still be counted on and loved. If i'm not worth you loving, why would you give me 'that'? I know u have been thinking that i don't appreciate you in the previous, and i may do the same thing to you again, baby, you hold my breath, i gave you everything, i knew my mistakes, i changed from bad to good, yet to gain everything we've lost in the last time. I do not wanna have regrets, i even don't hope you would have hatred in me. Look in your surrounding now baby, i'm everywhere in your space because we develop everything together right up till today, that's why i'm still here writing this for you. I wanna settle things down with you, we need to solve the problems we had, nothing can't be solved if you have the heart to solve. Every time i uses "we", "us", "together" was because i love you and we're together. We always have a goal and wish to become true, it's to get all the unhappy away and replace everything back like those days, all the happiness back! I don't need anything except you. I claimed that. What others said about us, i don't give a f*ck, yet they were just jealous and envy they couldn't be like us. There're loads of things we haven't done it together yet, i do not wanna waste any much more time as those days, but to show and proof you that i've really been appreciating each and every single thing you've done for/to me. If i didn't love you truely, this wouldn't happen, it will never happen, or i'll never suffocate missing you so badly baby. I knew you're tired and sick of many things, i will give you time to cool down, i won't leave you, and i know it may be sounded a little too demanding. In fact, i would just want you to "get" the real me that i'm really treating you with the heart. Relax yourself and your mind for the meantime i hoped you could try letting go of the past, i know its very difficult, for the things we've developed together, i've nothing to request, but plain you let go of the past and really forgive me, i know the truth that you still love me, thou its lesser or even lesser, i don't mind as long as we managed to justify and clear the problems we've been having, everything would be better for a better tomorrow....
Baby, listen, i didn't lie, i didn't pretend or fake, nor hide anything behind you. I've been treating you sincerely and even more true that anything else today. I know there are many whose discouraging you to forget about me now, but you know me best, if i didn't mean anything/anyone to you, you wouldn't love me, and i wouldn't love you this badly too. I will wait for you, i mean my words to you, i wouldn't abandon you at all! I just want to proof, i love you more than anything else, and it worth more than anything too baby... I miss you!!
I'm going back to busy life again shortly, 1st day of level 3, first semester @ 10am! Wish me luck...
I can't let it go, it's been a whole day i was alone at home, depressing all by myself tearsing. Eyes are swollen, yet super tired. You asked me to let it go, but i don't want, you insisting to force me to let you go, i admitted i can't, and i mean i can't let you go AT ALL! I know there were things happened in the past which made another felt afraid to trust and be with this person back, but seeing i've been trying to do something back for you all this while to it back, why? Why isn't it enough? And you didn't want to talk through it along together. Let you go, it seems of cutting my throat to stop breathing. It sounded dramatic, but to justify and clarify what's true from the bottom of my heart, indeed, i love you for everything! I've given everything including myself, and you'd became part of my life! Ya everyone will be thinking that am i bullshitting or lying here, well, people who knows me well enough could proof who "this person" i couldn't let go are to me. Baby, i can't let you go... :'(
I know there are many things that you couldn't forget or forgive, including the so much of love that we used to had is even lost today, how long have we been together? I'll change if its not working, i even willing to do anything and everything for you for the sake of getting things worked back! :'( love takes time to develop, how did we developed everything in those days takes time too, and i've been readied to give you a lifetime to develop whatever we've lost in the previous! I love you truely, and i'm really learning to treat you better in time! Everything that i'm learning is to proof you i really love you, it isn't just the feeling, i'm gonna make you understand that i'm not just expressing for the sake of saying, but i'm also gonna work things out by my capability. I've made my words to you that i'm gonna get what we've lost back, our happiness, then settle down together! I won't give up, i never give up, and this is what i've left most worthy now! I know i can't help to do anything now, and i know you're feeling that i'm so annoying to you and your life, you wanted peaceful without me! :'( indeed, it's painful yet suffocating to me, i've done it in 2008 before, i'm willing to do it another time for THE ONE i love, that i always been loving you WITHOUT abandoning or won't don't appreciate you like last time! I'm not a stupid freak who don't have feelings, yet i've a very weak and soft-heart which i've learnt from my past mistakes, i'll never gonna repeat what i did in the past to u! Even if it takes a long time for u to forgive me, i'll always be waiting for you! I know it's a very stupid thing or probably useless thing to do, for love, for what i've been doing for you, for everything that we've been through all this time, for my sincerity and my heart that had never stopped loving you yet in this deep, i'll wait for you to forgive me! Love you my dearest......
I admitted the pain is an infinite pain which cant be described, having this hard time, i really wished it not to happen again in 2009 as i prayed and wished hard for a better year for "us", but.... I'm a super-depress-freak again..but for 'you', u know i nevermind as long as you forgive me and really get me that i may not know how to express my concern at times, in fact, i cared a lot about you deep in myself. I didn't lie and i dare not to lie anymore too, it had became a nightmare to me before, and i've learnt alot from there, i will never let that happen too! :'( i knew that u still love me......, but i couldn't do anything to get near you as you're feeling irritated on me! Maybe i shall really let you relax your mind by not bothering u, or maybe...i don't know! I really miss you so much, i miss your hugs so much! :'( goodnight people...
Its been another month since the last 23rd past, i recalled i just finished my exam that time and CNY was 2days after that! Tonight i'm at home, depressing by myself, don't wanna go anywhere else. WHY? WHY? Why can't i have you by my side tonight?! WHY NOT! I'm so depress yet tears dripping writing this post, i miss you!! I'm so much suffocating by myself now because of missing you!! :'( WHERE ARE YOU?! DO YOU KNOW I NEED YOU!! :'( I'M ALONE AGAIN and its been many weekends I've been alone too! Why does it has to be like last year again!!!!!! I HATE LAST YEAR! I DON'T WANT IT TO BE LIKE LAST YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS SO SUFFOCATING!~ How can i make you love me back like how i do baby??!! :'( do you know how much i love you and misses you????
Do you know I've had teary-eyes wherever i go? Do you know that the tears are throughout all from the heart and it's so painful when it tears? :'( You dedicated this song to me, but where are you? Where are you baby? :'( You're not here, but you are somewhere!? Take your deep breath there, and think over and over again, am i still in your heart? Will you wanna give me THAT back in hand? :'( you'll have me suffocate if you flew off without coming back baby....
It's so suffocating! :'( the feeling is hurting into my nerves so badly, my chest ache terribly, my bones are pain, the heart went missing. Tears flow all night long staring at it! They said i'm not good enough for you, you said you never bother what they said what they do but.... :'( what if i won't be around anymore, the pain won't be this suffocating...you don't let me think of you, you don't let me hold you too because you said you need freedom to fly off for a moment, but will you fly back to tell the owner lets fly together because the world is so beautiful yet you wanted to enjoy it together? Will you...??
Lately i've kept so much things to myself, knowing there're alot to talk about but no one would wanna listen to it. What can i do? Sigh....class is about to start soon, 26/2, but that's only orientation! Actual class should be the following week! So many things changed in 2009, from good to all bad.. *tears* What a sad Alby.....
I've been awake since it was 8am, my bro was even preparing to work that time, i pretended as though i'm not awake, then when he left, i couldn't sleep at all but plain resting my eyes! I can't don't think about it, and i can't take it again! :'(
This is so fuckup now! Rihanna concert is POSTPONED! CHECK THIS OUT I really hate it so much, it happened at the wrong time and I'm feeling NOTHING! EVERYTHING means ZERO to me. I mean NOTHING to everyone! :'(
Inside me, has a lot of things to say it out but i don't think it's necessary to spill it out here. Blog won't help in relieving things i want to relief at times. I felt so depress since CNY till today! The feeling has been so dead which i felt so empty inside myself. I HATE HOW IT FEELS and I HATE MYSELF TOO!
I've wanted to blog few days back but i'm just not motivated to do so, right now i am. First of all, i would like to wish everyone a graceful Happy Chinese New Year and best of luck in the year of Ox in 2009! Success in everything!
Next is the reason why i'm updating this post. CONGRATULATION to my beloved sister and the future husband! The bf have proposed to my sister before the CNY, no time to blog about this. I'm happy for her as she's really getting married very soon as i always used it as a joke asking her to get marry fast because of her pestering! Anyhow, Congrates again...
When there's ups, there'll surely be downs for me. Thou i've had a lot of conflict with my sister all this while and felt her annoying, but if she's away, that's where i'm going to miss someone in the house, i wont be hearing her voice when i'm back from college, back from gym, or any outing, i wont be hearing her laughter at home, noises at home or even sharing some of my problems with her anymore. And now she's really getting married, she'll be moving out soon. Sigh, everyone is missing by end of 2009, my sister is getting married, most my friends are leaving for overseas and almost everyone is leaving....me very soon! :( I dont know how and what to do. T.L.C is what i need! I'm sad, i'm depress...i'm distraught!!! I'm LOST too...
I dont know how to handle whatever on hand, making trouble, creating more problems, giving difficulties to others etc...i felt so troublesome, i felt so....lost!!! The things i wanted isn't remaining also! Sigh....Valentine's coming.....what would it be this year? :( ....
Something is just missing these days, I started to feel....weird! Maybe I'm too free to think too much due to CNY and after exam, maybe I'm stress-free or maybe I'm incomplete? I've counted the days for the exam to end, I've gone thru the worst time, and yet I'm still feeling incomplete...this isn't an emo post, but it's a weird feeling that I'm feeling something is missing or something is just not right at the track. Think about it......try to be optimistic about it! Probably things isn't that bad in actual...Happy CNY everybody!
OMG.....seriously, i really can't wait for tomorrow to come! After 12.30pm tomorrow i'll be finished my Level 2 Degree and get ready for CNY MOOD!!!!! I really can't wait for tomorrow now....i'm so stress with tomorrow's last paper! It's gonna be so darn difficult for sure as i've just screwed my WMM today! F*CK U WMM!!! *Please pass this paper will do*
Someone had dedicated this song to me when i was feeling stress! :)
Anyway, it's a very random post, having exam now, will only post up more things after my exam this coming friday@23/1 aight! Wish me luck! 2nd paper later!! Jason Chen is someone random who likes singing on YouTube! Hahahah quite a good singer thou, some friends found him on YouTube. He's only 20, American born Taiwanese. He's not bad in singing! Listen to other songs in his profile! :D niteZzz....
It's been for years, and for the past whole week, i've been depressing in the midnight OF myself...and i'm so sick of it! :'( everyone is the same, also human being, i do lose my emotion at times and i'm really really depress with what im confronting now, hair loss! Wish me best of luck people...
Heard this on the radio the other day, haven't heard for long. Such a meaningful song...
It still feels like our first night together Feels like the first kiss and It's gettin' better baby No one can better this I'm still hold on and you're still the one The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer You still turn the fire on
So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't You're the only one I'd ever want I only wanna make it good So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you Don't deny me
This pain I'm going through Please forgive me If I need ya like I do Please believe me Every word I say is true Please forgive me I can't stop loving you Still feels like our best times are together Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin I remember everything I remember all your moves I remember you I remember the nights ya know I still do
One thing I'm sure of Is the way we make love And the one thing I depend on Is for us to stay strong With every word and every breath I'm prayin' That's why I'm sayin'...
I left out something! After celebrating New Year, me and my friends walked to collect my car, GUESS WHAT? MY SLK BATTERY DIED AGAIN! Argh....what the FUCK!? First 3.5hours, my car broke down after entering to a brand new year! What a NEW YEAR! Sigh, kept everyone waited at the mamak! Thanks to Darren and Carter for saving the car battery, sorry for keeping you guys waited long & also to Colin who FIRST time to sat on my car! HAHAHA sorry ya...
My first time, driving along KL without air-cond with my SLK in the midnight! Thank God the air was slightly FRESHER than anytime that time! HAHAHA...
Happy New Year to everyone and wishing of all y'll a brand new year with a better year ahead! :D wealthy, healthy, what "-thy" except mati can already! Hahahah :D
My assignment period is on again, tomorrow is the last day, i need to pass it to my groupmates all by tomorrow, then saturday i'll be departing to LANGKAWI for holiday!! Yay....will only be back on the 7/1, so i'll see you people by then, will only update when i've the time because exam is around the corner too, 19/1 till 23/1! SCARY......
I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere
Have I found you Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth Big pill looming
Now I'm a fat house cat Nursing my sore blunt tongue Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks Pissing on magazine photos Those fishing lures thrown in the cold And clean blood of Christ mountain stream
Have I found you Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth Big pill stuck going down
This is dedicated for you...
New Year is coming, I'm best hoping for a better year ahead and also looking forward to a brand new year in 2009! Best wishes to everybody and a Happy New Year!
Here's a family dinner at 7atenine with my family. Food seems not bad! Price is still reasonable, not too expensive or too cheap thou! Environmental wise, not too bad! Good service! Hahaha, it's a nice place for chilling, as well as for candle light dinner! :D try it!
Well...well...well...i guess i'm kinda failure! My own birthday pics i still haven't get all the compilations yet! GOsh...yet i'm posting other's birthday pictures! MORE COMING SOON OK!!! MORE COMING SOON!!! Anyway, coming back to the topic, here's a compilation of all the pictures taken during Carter's 22nd birthday celebration @ NZX, Ara Damansara with a few of us! Yea, it's a pre-birthday celebration, but at least we did enjoyed throughout the night! Was first having dinner at FULLHOUSE (also at NZX, Ara Damansara), then we went to the Disneyland, the local one (also in NZX, Ara Damansara), took many pictures there! There're 2 more group pictures, very beautiful ones, cost us RM20/piece, but it can be used with the entrance voucher we bought for each of us! There were 5 of us, so we used RM40, left out we used it to exchange with a cute Stitch mug for the birthday boy! Then, we seems nowhere to go, i suggested to go Mont Kiara for Starbucks! We were LOST in Hartamas, then we ended up to the right place and sat there till close to 2.30am and there goes the night pass thru! Happy birthday again Carter!
***( For more pictures, you may also visit to THIS LINK from Evelyn's camera! Too bad, sad to say, Carter's other masterpiece pictures are all gone due to the memory card got corrupted! *SOB* its ok, we've all these are more than enough for the memories too! *hugs* ) ***
Next, I can't be blogging too much after this as i've tonnes of assignments to be done by this coming friday (2/01/09)! Then i'll be leaving for Langkawi trip from 3/01/09 till 7/01/09 with my bunch of buddies! It's also a farewell for those who're leaving to further studies next year...wishing all of u whose leaving, best of luck in everything & success in life!
After the trip, i'll have at least 10days for revision before my last semester of my Level 2 Degree to end! EXAM! *scary* MAN, i'm super stress now! ASSIGNMENTS! HOLIDAY! EXAM! ARgh...full of worries! Sigh...wish me luck people! PLEASE.....
There'll be a few big post coming up soon before 2008 ends! No worries people! Please be patient, very very patient, waiting for the updates before 31 December 2008 ends! :D Merry Belated Xmas & a Happy New Year ahead!!!~
I've finally found my favourite Korean artist music video on youtube, Tim! Well, he is a really good song composer and singer! As i said before, i've his album before, ORIGINAL ALBUM imported back by a friend 7 years back but it's LOST now! Sigh, sad...i've no idea where did it went to! Couldn't find it back! I so wanted to get the album back! As well as the others collection too! It can barely be found in the local shops here!
Anyway, Tim produces great songs! "I'm Sorry" has a very touching music video and meaning (it's with English subtitle now). Please to enjoy the song!
Behind the story of this song, there's something i would want to express here, I'm sorry! I know "sorry" isn't anything important anymore, but it represents each and everything i've done wrong in the past which i'm sorry to you, i won't repeat my mistakes anymore. I know there're many things which has no turn back including time, but as far as i know, if i still have the opportunity now to apologize and to be sorry, i'll proof you that i'm not the "bastard" anymore! To be sorry and forgiven are what i've been seeking from you. I don't want to feel regret in whatever things i've and things i've done for you. Back to few years back, i like seeing the happiness in you naturally expressed to me, i misses it so much and i misses the first time on the phone. I really hoped that time could be revert and can be stopped at the happiest time! I miss the happiest time of us and the whole you...Forgive, trust and love me back like how you used to...
Il tempo passa senza che Lo passo mai insieme ate Ma ti pensavo sempre Nei sogni tu con me Per me il mondo finira Se non ci fossi tu Ovunque vai Voglio che sai
If you need a friend or a lover Or a place that you can hide I will always be there Even though my hands are tied I know deep down inside If you'd consider what we shared Maybe you'll see You're all that I need
E'una vita che cercando a te E non importa che io senta per te Soltanto una notte ancor Chiamami amor All my life I've been searching For someone like you
There's never been a better time There's never been a better place For you and I together here Alone and face to face Oh I'd do anything If you'd just let me in your life Whatever it takes I won't make the same mistake again
E'una vita che cercando a te E non importa che io senta per te Soltanto una notte ancor Chiamami amor All my life I've been searching For someone like you
Could it be (could it be) The brightest star (The brightest star) So close yet still far away (Let's get it on slowly) Don't you know I've fallen for you Baby I'm calling for you Right here right now
E'una vita che cercando a te E non importa che io senta per te Soltanto una notte ancor Chiamami amor All my life I've been searching For someone like you
p/s: "Someone like you, is what i've been searching for..." I like the lyrics! Its meaningful!
There's no class today, the one and only class from 4pm - 5.30pm has been cancelled because the lecturer wasn't around. So when i woke up, prepared and bath, then went to Midvalley with my mom and bro for lunch and to get some things. We eventually went to the new restaurant in Gardens, Canton-i Restaurant. Food not bad, price like Dragon-i. Here's the food we ate EXCEPT for my mom's wonton noodle cause she was too hungry so i didnt manage to take it! Hehehe
Apart from the food, there's also a few picture of my bro, mom and MYSELF! Haven't been blogging such things for long!
After this i'm gonna get busy with my assignments from now on...busy busy busy......
Sorry ya i know i haven't really been updating the blog but something funny and stupid happened in the college! Take a look at this stupid accident in APIIT! It's the 2nd case in a week. Plus, it blocks the path way for the car to pass! Stupid isn't it? Really gotta salute these people...
I'm so sick of the internet@phone line whenever it rain!!! I'm outside Oldtown outside my house now, can only grab as many information as i could then back to do my write out! SIgh.....i'm so wanna finish my assignments immediately! All my group assignment aren't started yet! FOUR GROUP ASSGMT vs ONE INDIVIDUAL ASSGMT! ARghh....
Sorry guys for the lacking of update on my blog! NO TIME la! hehehe have been busy with my studies, work and many other things! Gosh...my desktop is OFFICIALLY having breakdown! Gosh!!! Anyway, sorry for the slow update ya! Within this few months time, among the happening parties i've attended was Isaac-Edmund-Michelle-Shan Shan-Nawihs-Ernest-Abby-Karen's birthday party, Quattro launching and many more other happening events! Hahah gosh, upcoming is gonna be till end of the year which are Hugo-Joshua-Carter-Kelvin's birthday. WOW!!!! Many other events coming up soon summo! Gosh! Pics????????? I know y'll surely curious waiting for the pics, let me have the time 1st! :P HAHAHAHAHAH
Well, next week i'm gonna be darn darn busy! FYP proposal clinic with the representatives to check on the progress of our work and work for 3days! Aihz...wopz, tonight attending another friend's sis pre-wedding night! HAHAHAH another party......
I've been super stress of my final year project (FYP) proposal lately! No time to update my blog AT ALL! All the bday parties and parties pics! Gosh....sorry readers! Let me get this f*cking proposal done and sent by this friday, I'LL UPDATE ASAP aight! Please be PATIENT....my blog is still not dead yet! It'll be lively back soon, but dont know whether would it be interesting or not! So here's jz a lil update on WHY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING MY BLOG ok! PATIENCE ya....
Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say. Now it's too late to hold you. ' Cause you've flown away, so far away.
Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile. Feelin' and knowing you hear me. It keeps me alive. Alive!
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
Picture a little scene from Heaven.
Darling, I never showed you. Assumed you'd always be there. I took your presence for granted. But I always cared And I miss the love we shared.
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven. Like so many friends we've lost along the way. And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
Picture a little scene from Heaven.
Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll always look to a brighter day.
Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep, You'll always listen, as I pray!
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven, Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together. One sweet day.
Its been 2weeks i havent been updating anything on my blog but only helping to promote the dance competition which is going to be held in my college, APIIT. Well, 2nights ago, i was at home after gym and dinner, was sitting at the living room watching tv on my own. Watched "Devil Wears Prada". Yea, everybody knows what is the story all about, me too, but i eventually learnt something, "I choose to be what I am and what I want". No one forced me to, but myself to be who i am willingly. Eventually, i would wanna say i made my decision to be like this, no matter what the consequences is or what the result is, i'll bear it all by myself. Afterall, i make my own decision and there should be no regrets too...goodluck Alby! Appreciate what you have right now...whatever you have right now!
Well, i know i've been procrastinating many post since months back, sorry abt that, my desktop is having prob, previously my laptop too but its fine back now after the repair, and i've no motivation to post them up! Sorry for the DELAY! Will update it in summary form later...
ATTENTION TO ALL THE YOUNGSTERS, the month of October is the month where each and every one of you will enjoy the very first Inter-College Danze2Nista Online N Reality Dance Tournament organized by APIIT UCTI! What are you guys & gals waiting for? Details are as below:-
When: 1st November 2008 @ 6pm Where: APIIT UCTI Why: Coz it’s TOO HOT to MISS!!!
Featuring: Celebrity DJs 2 Dance Floors to Party on Usher’s dance battle Hitz FM Euphoria MyC! Magazine Many more…
*** FOC for LADIES before 7pm! ***
Ticket is RM15 and are limited. So, for those that are intesrested may RSVP by contacting the following people.
Edmund Quah - 0169789048 Elly Lim - 0129707263 Ji Hin - 0173641638 Darshini - 0164562411 Ji Hsia - 0146493413
This is just so pathetic and sad! Was suppose to update and upload pictures of the past events but......there's a bad news here, i had a farewell@pre-bday party for a good friend at Chilis, Midvalley, after that everyone went back to bath and changed for second round, club! We arrived around 11++pm, was figuring out how to enter, i was using my phone all time! Then Ed and I managed to enter first, then we brought the rest in, ONLY 5minutes into the club! I walked back out, my phone went MISSING! :( arGH!!! fuck it!!!! I lost my precious and now i need to spend for another new phone again! Just got my figure back in my savings but there goes again for another new phone! I'm so desperately wanted my parents to sponsor me this time! For the past few years i've been paying the phone all by myself! Sigh...my contacts...pictures...important notes...omg!!! Why am i such bad luck nowadays!! So many bad things happened all at once!! Both my desktop and laptop are having system error! So unstable, simply restart non-stop or display card problem! SIGhh.....please save me from all this trouble! Im in such bad luck nowadays!! :( now i gotta consider what phone to buy! how much money am i coming out, whether is there gonna be sponsor or not, and....gOsh...!!~ no mood to update the rest yet people, maybe after awhile when im over this "lost phone" incident!
talk to me you speak with me don’t sink before you rise baby don’t fade away you hesitate you seem to wait for all the time we had feels like a world away so who’s to say we’ll be okay we will make it through the night don’t wanna wake up in this state I just want us both to smile cause we’re the same and I know that we’ll never change look, I bought your favourite ice cream I don’t wanna see it melt away if you walk out now I don’t know if we going to be the same baby just talk with me cause I want you to stay here with me I want you to stay here with me
p/s: "Sorry if this is not a clear version of the song, i'll try to search for it again, but for this temporary moment listen to this unclear version first. This is a nice song, it expresses what is in my heart...."
Hahaha finally i've the time to post up my favourite perfume! :D KENNETH COLE!!!!! Ta dang dang dang dang............guess how much is this whole set cost? ONLY RM300! My last 21st present from my sister! hahahah i've been craving for this perfume since 1yrs back! Its so difficult to get it, i've seen it at most place and they dont have it! Luckily i ordered this 1-2months back at Sg Wang, Parkson! :D SMELLS so good and refreshing!!! yummy....hahaha the whole set is so nice and the the box is so elegant some more! WOW!!!! good good good....finally! heheheh
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) How it could be now or neither been (or neither been) All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Chorus I never had a dream come true Till that day that I found you Even though I pretend that I've moved on You'll always be my baby I never found the words to say You're the one I think about each day And I know no matter where love takes me to A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time Amd tomorrow can never be 'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind There's no use looking back or wondering How it should be now or neither been (or neither been) Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
Chorus
You'll always be the dream that fills my head (Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby) You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget) There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering) Because love is a strange and funny thing No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye No no no no
I haven't slept at all in days It's been so long since we've talked And I have been here many times I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take And I just got to let it go And who knows I might feel better If I don't try and I don't hope
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, No more aching No more fighting, No more trying
Maybe there's nothing more to say And in a funny way I'm calm Because the power is not mine I'm just gonna let it fly
What can I do to make you love me What can I do to make you care What can I say to make you feel this What can I do to get you there
Love me.. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________
Finally my stress period is over, and going to be free back for the next few months before the next semester examination comes. Yea yea, i know i havent been updating my birthday post & pictures yet, still getting the pictures alright! This is a nice song, YES i know its old ok! C'mon, its jz me, i know i'm an old freak who loves old songs and old things. Anyway, this is Alby!~ my parents said that i'm a sentimental person (*ahem*), well, i guess i'm just what everyone says, "Alby is an emo fella." Ya, it's jz because am a person who's sentimental and stick to no changes, that's why i'm an emo fella when i encounter indifference in anything. Sometimes i really felt that i only want to live in my own world. Nothing can be like what u expected unless u achieve it by your own effort. I will only put in 101% of effort in achieving something which is important to me in my life. I dont know whether do i consider myself a naive or a close-minded person. I'm not a very tradition person, but at least i'm truthful to everybody except people i dislike. I've undergo a 21yrs of life, i met different people, really different people in terms of character and type of human being too. I learned something, but i only learn to adapt to it! It's either i take it or leave it. Sometimes somehow i hoped what i've would remain and not changed....but on some circumstances, Alby, you dont have a choice! I know i may not be a good son, a good boyfriend nor a good friend, but what i'm good at is i'm Alby itself. To people who knows Alby (really well), will know he has at least ONE good criteria in everyone's mind.
I finally had turned 21yrs old. I did gain and lost some things. What are they i needn't say it out as it isn't important to anyone but i've only been wishing for one thing all this while, it's alright, as i said, my things aren't so important to anyone again. Lets say this is only a random post where i havent been writing for long? I've no good results in life at the moment, i gain NOTHING and lost EVERYTHING. This is what i meant by i gain something and lost something. I wanted to make my blog private i guess, feeling that i only wanted to leave in my own world. Sad isn't it? HAHA...
Actually I felt i've aimless life now. Everyone has their dreams, ambitions or at least an aim in life, but i dont, in my 21st birthday, i made 2wishes this year. Both wishes are exclusively made for people whom is important in my life...not even for myself! Maybe it's jz like what some people says, fate in life. My happiness, was once in my own hands, but now, i realise my hands are jz retard and malfuncion. I make people in my surroundings unhappy instead of happiness. Sometimes i really felt i'm a troublemaker to everyone. "Alby, Alby...u need to be strong, then proof to everybody u're not as you said yourself, a useless fella! Proof them u're at least someone to them in their list!" Rant but keeping myself courage, it sounded kinda stupid isn't it? HAHA but only myself could help myself...thanks to whomever who visits and read my blog. I appreciated all your precious time reading such blog, ranting of myself!
Hey people, have u ever listen to the songs i posted on the right side of my blog? Yea, some emo songs again!! Anyway, they're masterpiece songs which reminded me so much of the greatest memories i had before. Give urself sometime to listen to the songs. They means alot to me...
Its close to 4am, i couldn't sleep really! I was super tired, but couldn't rest at all. My air-cond is leaking, so no air-cond for the night, its a public holiday, but to me its jz a normal monday, im on a week holiday before starting my new semester, but i dont feel like going anywhere at all, im not studying under-pressure as well, but still cant sleep!
I'm really missing something in life now, my soul i guess...why cant i be perfect? Why cant i jz make people in my surrounding happy with me? Sigh...i should jz stop here! Enough of ranting in such a sad place! Thanks for spending your precious time reading on such a blog...
nothing more that i can say! life is just so meaningful with all of my friends! nevertheless, i'll appreciate my life & my family & friends in order to keep myself surviving for a longer time happily then....
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