yeah E X A M over aled . . . . . . .

waHhh today im late for school lEHh...i reached to school around 7.35am ar...so terror!!~ first time reach to school so late lolz...kumaran was so funny in the bus, asked him to put his books on the shelf he dont want N hold it so tight with both his hands...i was tellin him tht whether he carry a stack of addmath, burn it N drink it also useless coz by the end he'll also get a red mark for his addmath ahahha...i reached to class around 7.40am N kumaran reached to his class in time around 7.45am hahaha...during recess time lolz, he came towards me calling me pelacur(his fav word) N said addmath is difficult lolz...after recess, ecOns paper gonna start aled...OMG!!~ damn panic aled...buthen luckily the paper was not as tough as i thought...it was really outta what i expect N ezier but the prob dono whether can score anot oni ahaha...60obj oni la k!? why cant i score? lolz...start to ego aled ahhaa...right school ended, walau cannot tahan MUST go toilet release some stress first ahaha...going to tuition by myself today as adrian said he wanna quit the acc class aled...aihzzZzz sien la if he quit...once he quit, i've gotta go there alone everyweek sigh...while crossing the bridge outside my school to the opposite side, i met jj! eHhh i tot he went off as it was 1.20pm++ aled...didnt expect he'll be sitting there ahhaahah...so i called him N wave 'BYEBYE' lolz...he SMILE at me man!!~ unbelievable!! the smiley he gave really like a lil forcing type la ahha...saw me oni, 1st thing 1st SMILE 1st lolz(as i alwiz complain he lan c don smile wan)...aihz wanted to ask him out yum cha keng kai wan...buthen forgotten aled as i was kinda happy bcz 2nd trial ended liao ahaha...then, i walk towards to the bus-stop N wait for cab...luckily i got the cab before i reached to the bus-stop ahhaha...when i reached old town, i called shelly N asked her where's she at tht time...than i pigi cari dia at the coffee shop la...makan lunch together...walau we chatted so much lEHh...so nice!!~ damn long didnt talk so much to gals aled...ahaha, i mean i was having exam before this, tht's why no time to entertain frens N talked much to them only...ahahha dont misunderstand N think aside bcz im studying the the boys school lolz...after lunch, i went tuition N argh, canly(my acc tuition teacher)said she still havent translate my korean lyrics!! jooo...so long aled la...ish²!!~

ok it's 4pm now, im leaving!!! another teacher of mine, came to fetch me back home as im gonna haf another tuition class with her at 5pm...we chatted again in the journey back home...than she belanja minum again ahaha...so nice every wed got ppl belanja minum wan...lolz, at 5pm, she came N fetch me to her class N i met a gal from Sri KL(used to be an assuntarian;Jeennie-if not mistaken), owh this gal is only f4 this yrs N she's SUPERB SEXY N smells good ahahha...so sweet, with her braises very funny wan la when she talk...cant speak properly wan, ffff like tht lolz...anyway, if anyone of u a teacher, PLEASE don teach her or u'll lost patient teaching her!! she dont get it!! ahaha...math u know?!?!?! math!!! it's so ez to understand math N yet she cant!! lolz...anyway it's okla...i thought her N she said she understands what i thought her lolz..happy enuf aled...

leng lui tokin to me . . . . . . .

ahahahha today woke up around 11.40am **[wow! alby wakes up before 12 ahaha]** anyway, i started to study around 1pm til 5++pm N went for a short while jog...OMG it was so cloudy at my place N also the whole part of sri sentosa, pj N the other half of puchong...anyway, i still manage to jog for 40mins before it started to rain again...i was online late tonight...so not many ppl online, i was kinda bored too...but luckily CARYN N TRACY were here to entertain me ahhaa...jj went to oink early summo...aihz, wanna keng kai with him oso no chance...school no time, online also no time...cham!!~ anyway, luckily the whole night got 2 gorgeous N sexy lenglui entertain me til midnight heehhe...cant sleep aled tonight lolz...didnt knw caryn was so nice to talk to lolz N ofcoz tracy also a very nice gal...willing to share all my probs together...thx alot =)

yeah its F R I D A Y aled . . . . . . . .

yeah it's commerce N moral today!!! im DEAD!!! ahahha....touch wood!!! touch wood!!! lolz..commerce paper haizZzz....nvr study for f4, only studied whats out for essay...objective die liao...cham!!!~~ essay also half done half not...sei ler..!!!~~ scared² aled....moral lagi worst lolz...right after the recess ended, i was half way reading N walking back to the class...nvr expect almost all the moral student had back to the class N sat the 'strategic' place...when i reached to the class, i was asked to sit in the middle(the 1st moral student's place)N my fren sat behind me...tht time the teacher who's suppose to come in was my bm teacher, buthen she took leave N my counsellor came in...she's also another camera eye teacher lolz...stared at ppl when ppl having exam...cant even move our head to the left or right also...in less than 5mins i sat at my chair, she asked me to stand N sit in front(2row;1st table)...zha dou...she told me tht she miscounted the islam student so i've to sacrifice N change my sittin to the front...sigh!! our 'plan' was all scrumbled up...lolz...i was once again happy with the question paper!!! i remembered i read them but....HAIZZZZZ i forgotten again...cham...those akta²s forgotten aled...only did what i know...dono can pass anot...!!! ppl pls la, who read this blog PLEASE PRAY FOR ME THT I CAN PASS this paper...coz if i dont pass N fail again, my teacher will paste my photo together with my result N a notice tht i FAIL her paper again...N by tht time i'll malu for my entire life...please ah k!! thx 1st for those who pray for me SINCERELY k!! for those who started to CURSE I FAIL, i'll curse the MOTHER,FATHER,MOTHER's FATHER & MOTHER, FATHER's FATHER & MOTHER, BROTHER, SISTER, UNCLE, AUNTIE all MATI KAOKAO!!! ahahha see u ppl dare to curse me anot...heheh...

after school, going back home again...wahHh so nice ler...this week is the only week throughout the whole yrs, im going back home 4days in a week ahhaa...in the evening went for a jog again...than went out to IOI, lolz...long time didnt go out aled...a lil JAKUN liao...lolz...sekali my parents said going mall oni i'll react like jakun N said isit? isit? i also wanna go...ahhaha my parents were shocked N tot i siao aled...study for exam till sot liao...aahahha

ahahahha NO TUITION!!!~~

haiyah today ar...cham la...history paper 1 after recess...before recess i took out my notes N study KONONNYA!!!~~ my fren all kacau me N i couldnt concentrate on in...daMN!!~ then, zha dou 2period before recess, i even took out my webcam N take photo with frenz in the class ahahha...i'll post it up here soon!!! so for those who use to visit my blog than u can see later =)

right after recess over...the paper is gonna start soon...so i sat down N wait for the paper...OMG!!~~ I READ THOSE question before in my noteS!!! but i couldnt remember it!!! ARGH!! this suck man...alwiz the same...whenever i got the test paper N read the question! i'll be freaking happy til i forgotten the answer N this made me did BADLY for the paper...sigh!!~ not tht i didnt study but just too happy to see those questions N forgotten the answers k...walau when i was sitting half way for the paper, the weather suddenly became so CLOUDY N seems like its gonna rain later la...mana tau right after my camera teacher(lolz she stares at everyone whenever the exam is on)said 'stop writing' it began to rain as heavily as possible til i cannot make it to attend the tuition at kl...ahhaa i was so happy at tht moment bcz i hardly miss tuition class on thursday...lolz went home by school bus right after school...phiew luckily i make it...i rushed to hand-up the class attendance book, than went to find my 'god mother' who kept my hp...than cannot tahan gotta lari back to the toilet...phiew...so 'song' after tht ahahha...than when i run outta the school, my bus was about to leave me...luckily i WAVE my hand gracefully hahaha than only he realized i was waving -_-'...while my bus gonna reach my place, the rain stops around 1.50pm...sigh dono wanna go tuition anot also...lolz buthen last min i also decided to STAY AT HOME ahha...

reached home, online!!! lolz...sei mou everyday also online...fortunately i only leave it on but hardly chat la...coz no1 to chat with also wan...all like dead fish oni offline wan...ahahha anyway luckily jj online N ENTERTAIN me a lil while la...alwiz study punya fello ish...than study til evening N went jogging around 5++pm N back around 6++pm...have my dinner around 7++pm N study again for the nex day's paper...commerce N moral!!~~~ aRGHH!!!~~

2nd trial haizZzzz . . . . . .

haizZzz 2nd trial started aled today...my first paper was bm paper 2, it was SO DIFFICULT!! DAMN!! what i studied last night ARE USELESS!! none of the literature component i studied last night came out...argh!!~ all f4!! UNEXPECTED!! sigh...after recess i had my second paper, english paper 2...it was ok at the beginning N when i reached to the passage OMG!!! tht freaking passage is damn difficult to understand!! what i understand about the passage all is about TV only! thts all...nthg much N the questions are pretty tough too...i don even understand the passage, how do u expect me to answer the questions which is difficult to understand too?? sigh...literature component are not much different too! unexpected questions were asked N i didnt really read for my english as i concentrated on my bm more the night before...sigh now everything screwed up N i got nthg!! DAMN...!!!~~ =( sad case....

after school, i was so happy bcz i've no tuition class in the noon today...ahaha long time never go back home so early on wednesday aled...than, took a short nap around 3++pm N woke up at 4.40pm...my second tuition is at 5pm N i left around tht time too..came back home at 7++pm N had my dinner...than continue studying for tmr's paper til 12am haizz....so damn TIRED ler...!!!!~~~

i dont mean to . . . . .

i was so guilty N feeling uncomfortable the whole day, today while in school, right after the math period, i was asked to send the globe back to the panitia's room...i was in a rush to the staffroom as i was late to send it back...so, while i was on the way at the corridor heading to the staffroom i met jj walking towards the corridor, probably heading back to his class..so, he waved to me N...i only look at him N nodded my head WITHOUT SMILING!(it's not me!) after sending it, i was thinking am i lan c when i saw jj this morning...i was so guilty tht i really doesnt mean to be so lan c at tht time...*sob* bro!~

right after school today, i walked with deepak heading to the lrt station...im going pasar seni for tuition N he's stopping by tmn jaya to go back home...reached tuition at 1.50pm, the weather isnt tht good at tht time as it's kinda cloudy...didnt expect it'll rain in less than 10mins...after putting my bag into the class, i went to the popular bookstore to get the 'Usher: Confession' album but failed to =( tht same staff i asked again for the 3rd time in within 2 weeks told me tht 'it is OUT OF STOCK AGAIN'!! OMG!!~ what the hell is this?! jus tell me tht they've not restock enough la...haizZzz!!~ than i decided to order it personally N gave them my information...then, i walked over to the magazine department N saw a mag N read one of the hot-topic inside, 'Are you depressed with stressed?'...my answer for that question is 'YES', it was last week N im much MUCH betta today =) what it written in there was really true N right! at first i wanted to buy the magazine N the reason is because tht topic is interesting, but before going to the counter i turned over the frontpage N OMG! this magazine cost $12 N nthg much interesting besides that...crap!~ wanted flip buthen the magazine too large to be hide ahaha...^_^

IT WAS RAINING HEAVILY OUTSIDE!!!~ MY NEW SHOE!! =( haiz hafta sacrifice once la...than, i also get into the class N the lesson is going to begin in 5mins time...within that 5mins, i'd collected $1/each from 5gals ahaha...chun man!~ there's a gal alwiz smiling at me when she passes by me...she's cute!! not bad looking!! N very polite!! ahah...buthen speak mandarin =( haizzZz ahahha she passes by me twice at in 2mins time N the 3rd time i decided to call her N ask for donation by purpose ahah...infact i wanted to knw her name N wanted to get her contact num too hahaha...^_^ than, very politely she answered me, 'i dont haf money wor' lolz so SWEETTTTttt!!! ahaha...than i said, 'okla today don haf, thurs i come to u again k??' N she said, 'ok, c u can find me anot?' ahhaha wowZ!! hide-N-seek game!! lolz during english period, i was asked to hand-up the notes from the back N i handed 5sets to her, SHE SMILES AT ME!! ahahha [^_-]...the class was so funny N full with jokes...

it's 5pm now...the class ended N i rushed home...right after i reached home, i on my pc N leave it on N online with 'away mode' again...as usual la!! coincidered saw jj online...so chatted a lil while N i left for jogging heheh...after came back N had my bathing done, i sat in front of the pc N check my mail...told jj tht his cd is so out of stock everywhere N at last i decided to order personnally...he told me not to waste my money buying it N he doesnt want it...than i told him it's for his bday gift...N we chatted a lil while N we're both away to study again...i started to study around 9++pm N was too tired N slept around 10++pm when i was lying down on my bed...around 11.10pm, my dad came to me N woke me up...asking me to sleep in a proper way N i said, 'dont need, i need to cont my study thx for waking me up' ahaha...UNBELIEVABLE!! alby thanking his dad for waking him up at tht time to continue his studies??? lolz...i was adviced to take a rest early N not to force myself to study so much...than i also said, 'its okla i've no time N slept for a lil while jus now will be alright la'...mana tau when i cont to revise my bm notes(around 15-20sets of paper summo), i was slept again ahah...this time only for 5mins...N i woke up again...study N study N study...mana tau around 11.45pm cannot tahan liao i forced myself to read everything N finished it as fast as possible...than sleep....!!!~~

my worries had became a stress??

first day back to school again, met all of my frens...saw jj(my pet bro) passes by the mcD corner, the place where i use to hangout early in the morning with frens...i was kinda nervous N shame on myself on what he had told me before this...it made me felt embarass of myself N don dare to speak to him, even when i passes him or he passes me, i would've hide myself somewhere else to avoid from being embarassed =( i knw it's kinda stupid tht why am i avoiding from all these things but i really cant accept it as ppl trying to be over straight forward towards me N it might probably hurt me til i can go nowhere...anyway, around 15mins before my recess, i went to the toilet N actually met him there...buthen as i said, i was so shy to meet him so i acted as if i was tying my shoe lace..N he came near me...fortunately he didnt see me or maybe acted did not saw me there =( N i went into the toilet room..

than, during the last period of school today, i spoke to one of my bestfriend about my probs again...he understands me N advices me too...i couldnt act as if nthg like what jj did to me as i normally take this matter a serious one...really!! so, after school i walked to the road divider N stood N continue chattin with my bestfriend...after a lil while, i've gotta excuse myself as my school bus has reached...so while im walking by the road side, i actually saw jj walking on the bridge buthen i didnt really care about it as...he doesnt want me to care so much for him N yes i DID it! but i felt, it's nonsense N very irresponsible for me to do so as im alwiz so caring towards my frens moreover i treated him as bro more than a petted bro(but he doesnt admit it =()...when i was in the bus, i was feeling tht why am i such a stupid bastard not even dare to say a 'hi' to him? or a 'bye' to him? why?? i've been asking myself this question...im really depressed with this prob..y am i treating him so good but he thought like im harming him or trying to get something from him(my thought)?? im jus tryin to haf him as my lil bro(1st from my school)N trying to be responsible as a big bro...jus cant believe tht im almost being ignored by him...

anyway when i reached home, i realized i didnt bring my hse key along...i was so scared tht no one will be at home N YES! NO ONE IS AT HOME! i was once again feeling depressed tht why bad things kept on happening nowadays?? i was a lil stomach ache at tht time...my neighbour is not at home N no one could help me besides i walk out to the petrol station which gonna take me 10mins to reach N i guess by tht time my pants would be full with *yux* ahaha....so i decided to stand N wait for a lil while N YES! my mum is BACK home! after waiting for 15mins, i quickly rushed in the toilet N BOMB!!!!!~ RELEASED my 'stress' lolz..naH tht's not a stress la...so i went for bathing N had my lunch...after tht around 2++pm, i left my pc on N online...no1 turn up...so, i was feeling uncomfortable if i don tell jj what's my prob N it'll nvr been solved if i don speak out...so i decided the best way(my fav.), i sent him a letter telling him how i felt N what i really hope for...i dont know how will he think but im telling this for sincere N with my honesty i can guarantee i want nothing from u! only a brothership N tht's more than enough...then, i thought to rest a lil while on my bed N all by sudden i slept til around 6++pm than i realized i left something in the letter...so i sent him another letter, this time is to thank him bcz since the day i knw him, i'd change back to my origin character N i begun to study for my exams as he use to tell me tht he's preparing for his exam N im not!! now im glad bcz im studying hard for my 2nd trial N spm(coming soon everybody!!)...jus hope u can think twice ya! nitezZz everybody, it's late! muaXxx N thx for reading today's blog...im betta after speaking them out here N i could be fully recovered if jj gives me an answer im hoping for all this while...

feeling bad at first N betta after a lil time of thinking . . . . . .

woke up at 12noon today...was feeling so much betta after some rest...i had enough rest! but, yest's prob still bear in my mind...she's still havent reply my call or msg...no update from her frens too...kinda worried at the 1st place...but after sometime of thinking i cant change the fact if 'he' wants it to be like that...so i took it as an experience of life N didnt think much about it N i felt released after that...nothing is in my mind N i can study peacefully!! so happy...around 5pm my family went out for dinner N i'll go after them later...around 7.30pm i drove there N had my dinner there...around 9++pm, all of us are going to pray for my great grandpa N so on...

back home around 11pm N im kinda tired now...gotta go sleep now...nthg much to talk about today...niteZzzz...

it's not my day today . . . . . . . . .

i'd the most rest today in all this while...i slept for 10hrs!!~ N woke up around 12noon...i actually wanted to start studying at 1++pm buthen saw jj online, so chatted with him til 2++pm N left the pc to wash my sis's car...back around 3++pm N cont chatted til 4++pm N it started to rain at 5pm...by tht time jj had left without replyin my msg N 'bye'...N i also off my pc N study f4 science til 8++pm...ate my dinner N watched 'princess diaries' til 10pm...before tht, around 9++pm my cousin miss called me N i called back...he was asking wat is happening in btw me N my gf...he said she was upset during school days N kept on crying...i was so shocked to hear that N i told him tht i actually msg her this noon, suggested we should break up bcz i dont think i love her as deep as before after an incident N dont wanna lie to her anymore...N he told me tht something happened to her dad couple days ago...i've nvr contacted her for 4-5days N i speak out at the wrong time today...im very worry as no1 gotto contact her...so i decided to go online N see who could share the prob with me N coincidered my pet bro was online N i told him what happened..we discussed the prob N still fails to solve it N he even helped me to call her but there's still no1 picking up the hse phone N also the cellphone...it really makes me guilty if anything happen to her...im so sorry my dear, i really dont mean to say it at the wrong time as i dont know what is happening to u this couple days...i called wei lim N he told me tht u were worried bout me as i told u on monday, i've stress N pressure...im really sorry to make u worried for me too...*now what i hope is tht nthg is happening in u N we'll still remain goodfrens* | everyone who read this PLEASE PRAY HARD FOR ME THAT SHE'LL BE ALRIGHT!! perhaps she dont pick up the phone maybe bcz she was not at home N maybe she left her cellphone at home or lose it somewhere...pls dont let me a shock when i receive any update from u...

it's the day . . . . . .

haizZzzz semangated man today! went to school so damn freaking BORED!!~ thought to haf fun or study...mana tau ended up, nvr touches the book at all...sigh!! the teachers in school didnt teach N we did not really study today...maybe we did touch a lil for accounts...but STILL BORED!!~ i played basketball today!! ahaha i've nvr play for 6months N all by sudden i played today!!! all my frens were shocked tht ALBY IS GOING FOR PJ!!! ahahha...heY!! thou im not a good player, but at least i scored 1point out of 20 k! ahahha...right after the school ended, i walked out to wait for my bus N left the school around 12.45pm...i slept in the bus...hMmm...so nice ahaha...when my first step into the house, i recalled N said 'SHIT'! i forgotten to bring back my t-shirt N shorts back!! aihz...this isnt the first time...nvm we'll see monday, isit still there or not...*hope its still there*

online around 1.30pm N leave it online til night...had a nap at 2.40pm N woke up at 5.40pm...my turn to online at 6pm N, chatted with jj(my petted bro)...we chatted for quite sometime N...he told me quite alot of things...i was feeling kinda embarass N disspointed actually but, don worry u're still my bro in my heart! =) i understands tht maybe u're not my type of person N i wont force u too...don worry la...im treating u jus bcz i treated u as a bro N very good fren [^_-]...

left the pc at 7.50pm for some sort of praying ceremony for my great grandpa at srjk chung wen along the old klg road...tht place is REALLY BORED!! i left tht place at 12am...haizZz...wasted my precious time...i rather stay at home to study...!!!

dono what's da topic for today . . . . . . . .

erMmm.....my mood is really much betta today!~ no stress but a lil pressure more =) anyway, i'll try to solve it ASAP or i'll suffer...so, aiyah today i forgotten to bring my apple to school ahahaha...kumaran was sayin, 'haiyoh this boy everyday apple apple apple!' lolz...during the commerce lesson today, i went out of the class(around 10am) as an excuse going to the toilet in fact im going to the field to check out what's happening there ahaha...first time man!! ahahah, than around 10.20am im walking back to the class with my a fren of mine...coincidence met my bro N he smile at me...so i also say hi to him N smile at him N walked off...actually i wanted to ask him whether is he free tomorrow but i forgotten that bcz i was actually bz talking to my fren...anyway, i thought i could tell him after school but i dont see him...so i decided to go down to kl for tuition...reached there around 2pm N argh i cant buy the Usher CD again!! the promoter said it's SOLD OUT again...sigh!!~ so, i turned back N went to a bazaar in front of the lrt station...i bought 62sweets for only rm4!! lolz...i broke my RECORD again!!~ lolz

it's 2.30pm now...i was thinking should i attend all classes(3 classes)today or not..lastly i made my decision to attend the bm N science class only ahhaha...i actually wanted to call my pet bro to ask him whether got time to haf lunch with me N chat tomorrow anot buthen i was afraid he will thought im nosy N annoyed...so i didnt call him...after the first lesson's break, a gal whom alwiz sits behind me with her fren came to me with another gal asking for my mobile number ahaha...i was shocked at tht time, i asked tht gal who wants it N she said her fren N refuse to tell me who's tht lol...than i semangat man! gave her my number only ahahha, after tht bala told me tht the gal who sat behind me admires me N have plenty of my photos in ur phone!!! OMG!! she take my photo without asking me!! lol soon gonna be wanted! at 3.50pm the class resume N i left the centre at 5pm...was too tired N slept in the bus ahaha...around 5.45pm i reached puchong N went for a hair cut...dei my hair look better than before already ahahha...tht was only when my hair with gel, i didnt knw after bathing, my hair look A LIL like mushroom leHhh...sigh but my physical look looks more confident N awake...ahaha happY! tht i don look dull N sad physically anymore... =)

reached home at 6.05pm, did a light exercise N bath around 6.20pm...than online at 6.30pm onwards.....

at 9.15pm i called jiajen but his mum told me tht he was bathing N call back after ½ and hrs...then i called back around 9.50pm N his dad picked-up the phone N told me that he's bz studying for his exam...since the father is trying to said tht he's bz with his work N couldnt talk on da phone, so i also said, 'oh, it's ok'...another sad case la...nvm!!~ i wont disturb him anymore as his exam is on tomorrow til the 1st of oct...goodluck bro!~ take care!

AHHHH! yes im feeling much betta today . . . . . . .

i was feeling pressure when i was in the school, probably mentally but luckily no1 knows about it...but my frens are all asking how am i N i decided to tell them what exactly happen in me now...so they understands it N tried to talk about with me...actually it doesnt work but thx alot...i felt betta after saying it out...MILLION THX buddy!!~ *friends4eva* so today right after school, i went to my ms. yap(one of my fav. teacher) to collect my hp, while collecting i asked her whether do i look tired or what so eva N she said no, but she realized the way i speak was like having probs in me...so she asked whether am i stress isit? so i answered 'yes'...N she gave me an advice...asking me to keep myself alone in the room N write out my prob or perhaps find someone to talk to...so i accepted her advice N left the school...i was thinking about my probs again N kian giap kept on asking me whether wanna go for tuition class at 2pm later...N at last we decided not to go for the class...so i suggested, since we're not going for tuition why not we've a sit anywhere N talk about my probs?? N we went to kfc N sat there for almost 2½hours...i've been talking all da while N he listens to my me...felt VERY MUCH betta after expressing them out...really gotta thank him...=) than left the place at around 3.45pm N went home by my math tutor...from the moment she saw me, she knew i've prob...so we chatted along the whole journey back home...N felt much betta too...=) thanks!!

still undergoing it . . . . . .

i acted nothing happen in the school today...in fact i was thinking of the solution for my prob...but i still cant manage to solve it...i was kinda moody the whole day...right after school, when i was passing by the office, saw jj walking towards me...he looked tired N...i've gotta say hi to him first...it's alright for me to say hi to him first but he jus look doesnt wanna say it =( .....

today evaraj;my best friend, followed me to the lrt station for tuition today by lrt...we chatted N he realized i've prob in me...so he asked me, 'what happened?' N fortunately i told him from the beginning til the end what exactly happen to me...he understands me N give me a few comment of himself towards my prob...

2.30pm, the bell in the centre rang...everyone is ready for the lesson to start...ahaha mr kumar came in, N saw the NS form, it was actually my form but evaraj was holding it N he thought it was his...so after giving up the papers, he asked who got the NS form? without seeking for further details, he asked evaraj to put up his hand as he was holding the form N thought he was one of us who is going for the NS...lolz...after english's lesson, during math lesson, it was kinda bored...thought of leaving the class but it started to rain heavily around 3++pm...sigh!! luckily by the time my class ended, the rain stops...

around 6pm i reached home...i'd a quick bath bcz im suppose to go for a jog...after jogging...i'd my bath again N was feeling uncomfortable in breathing N back aching...so i decided to consult the doc at the clinic...i told him what kinda prob im undergoing N the funniest thing is tht the doc is kinda confuse N haf no idea what sort of prob i haf N simply mumbled saying tht i've this N tht prob...than he check my weight!!! ahHh this is another happiest moment...i found out tht i lost another 3kg!! from 78kg now became 75kg!! i thought i would gain some weight as i felt my stomach is bloadted N as if under pregnancy(JK! JK!) ahaha...really didnt expect i would drop another 3kg as the last time i weigh myself was few weeks ago N it was 78kg...!!! =) doc was impressed tht i lost so much compared to before...the first record in his list was in 2002 N my weight at tht time was 90kg, i gain another 3kg(93kg) in early of 2003...so i decided to haf my own diet programme as i felt im OVER-LOADED N OVER-WEIGHT!!! lolz (^_^) so i weigh myself early in the month of may '03, N had my diet programme going on...after 3mth!! the result was i lost 8kg!! N remains 85kg til nov '03...than i start my '2nd phase' lolz from dec '03 til march '04, i lost 3kgs(82kg)...N continue my '3rd phase' on april '04 til august '04, i lost another 4kgs(78kg) N remain til the end of august '04...i was having the digestion prob, so i didnt weigh myself for certain period...so when i went to the clinic, the doc said im 75kg now!!! ahahha damn happy man...buthen he said it's kinda weird coz im losing weight so sudden N fast(as he said, in fact the duration takes 16mth)...he asked haf i ate any dieting pills N CERTAINLY i DID NOT!! its all by my effort N this is the result!! i said i went to the gym, jog almost daily N did 100-120x of sit-ups...he was shocked tht i did so many times a day for sit-up N advises me to reduce to around 50-60x a day....haizZZzzz.....sit-up also cannot do...cham!!!~

First time in my life . . . . . . .

first day back to school again...everything was going fine N i am prepare for today...thought gonna chat with my bro again but nvr expect tht there'll be an assembly today, so he couldnt make it to come to my class as everyone will be going to the hall...i actually saw him walking passing by my class but i didnt call him as i can see he's a lil bz moreover it's monday morning!! anyway, it's alright as i understand his condition...a determine guy who wont confess by losing only 6marks in his latest exam to one of his friend...it's something proud bro!! put a lil more effort u'll won him by 60marks(as u said)...

i was damn tired today, so went for a nap for 1hour...then woke up N online to check up who's online...coincidence jj online N i think he was kinda bz with his work again...chatted less than 5lines i stopped N went for jogging...wow, i jog 6rounds today!!! aahha...nvr jog for sometime...kinda lack of stamina already...luckily i still manage to jog for so many rounds =) around 6.55pm i stopped N walked back home...reached home at 7.05pm, bath N had my dinner...after a lil while, i'd digestion problem again...i was kind of fedup N upset of this problem bcz i still cant get rid of this...had consulted the doc before N was told nothing is going on...so went out for walk around 8.25pm...

i was walking alone, emotionally actually...i was having some sort of stress N pressure nowadays...really cant stand with this problem...everything just clash into my mind at a time N i couldnt solve all them by myself...so i went to the field N had a sit N relax...i DID relax,...N i cried for 10mins to release the so called 'stress N pressure' i had...i was EXTREMELY emotional...what i was thinking were about my studies, spm, friends, family, gf, myself, my bro(the one i jus petted not long ago)...was thinking why is everyone somehow ignoring me! ignoring my existence N so on...

i really dont understand what's going on with the world nowadays?? what i want from my family is FREEDOM, what i want from my friends are CONCERN N having fun together, what i want for my studies is to get a good result, what i was thinking bout my gf is something tht i should tell her but i dont know how should i express it, what i want from my pet bros are CONCERN N love instead of ignorance N treating me as if invincible...in tht short period, these are what comes into my mind N i decided to call my pet bro;jj to talk about my prob...i dont know whether is he bz, trying to entertain me or it's his personality...when i talk to him, he's as if 'layaning' me N i was damn sad at tht time...he had already ignored me in the evening N yet he can also 'entertain' me lidat when im having probs...what i want is jus a chat with him...but he sounds was forced to entertain me when i asked is he free to talk to...i don wanna haf a blind relationship with him...i petted him is not for the sick of the name 'pet bro/sis'...what i expect is out of what i expect now...jus hope things will be betta later...

maybe im really mentally disturbed this days...couldnt control myself from expressing what im expecting all da while...sorry to those i mentioned above...i just want ppl to understand me but not knowing me as Alby Thum only...

N i g h t m a r e . . . . . . . .

aih...sad day!! i'd a terrible nightmare!! i was shivering on the bed...dreaming of something...argh i've no idea why am i having this problem...yest i was thinking of something N was moody the whole day...even today after the nightmare, i was awake N i was thinking something again...for so long im awake, i was thinking of so many things....what had happen to me???!! =( really sad...

At last i got to talk to him . . . . . .

owh what time i woke up today? ermMm 8.10am? OMG! so damn early! haizZzz today got function to attend thts why gotta wake up so early...so was slumber there sittin on the bed, blur face walking to the bathroom...after brushing my teeth i realized it's 8.35am! OMG i took 25mins to brush my teeth! ahah...after tht went to bath 15mins N its 8.50am now! im suppose to leave my place at 9.20am..buthen b4 tht i wanna make myself clear whether the function im attending starting at 9.30am or 10.30am...when i called my fren he told me it was 9.30am! i said huh! wtF?! jeff told me they postponed it to 10.30am N yet he's tellin' me it's starting at 9.30aM! tht time it was already 9am! than he re-confirm with his gang again N told me if i reach around 10am also nvm...sigh

then i left my place around 9.20am lolz...rushing to my friend's rest to fetch him first...after tht rush to pj to fetch my bro...this fello's hse ar kinda weird...condo is there, but the roadway to his place hafta make a big turning...made me sesat in the mid of the terrace houses...lolz luckily i met an indian uncle walking with his dog N he told me how to get to Frasers East Towers...called him around 9.30am N his maid told me tht he was bathing! OMG! lolz...than he called me back around 9.50...he told me tht he's just changing N im about to reach his place...sigh N yet he can come out without his tie N his blazer on! lolz..this fello really slumber la...attend function dont wear formal instead normal! ahaha...anyway its alright ler...

than we reached to the hotel lisa d' inn...it was 10am! arGH, tht car park cost me rm3...so bloody exp.! lolz...*im stingy actually spent rm5 2days ago for carpark*...oh at last i reached to the hotel now! walking in the hotel...tht hotel is freaKING sMALL! once u stepped into the lobby! first thing first is the lounge! lolz...gotta turn to ur left N walk straight to the end then only u'll see the escalator! hahha....ok now we're at the top-floor(8th floor actually, but they named it 'P' as penthouse)...WOW! no1 is there besides the usherers N the members ahaha....anyway, i registered my name N paid rm16!!! owh...tht's so EXPEnSiVE!!~~ nvr ever in my life paying so much for the functions i attended coz normally got SI(Special Invitation)hahah...haizZzz...kena tipu aled...nvm!! nvm!! hey guess whaT?? i was shocked when i saw the list of name there written, 'Alan Yong' lolz...i was shocked N shouted accidentally, 'Alan is here???' ahhaa...actually i shock tht he came 1st lolz...than i also masuk the hall la...mana tau Alan Yong is sitting right in front of the entrance door lolz..he asked, 'why so scare of me' N i said, 'huh where got la who told u wan??' N u knw what he said? he said, 'no1 tells me tht, i heard tht myself ahahha' lolz...

ok now the event had started...kinda bored actually lolz...very lil ppl attended only leHh...around 15guest only if im not mistaken...the rest are the members sigh...1st performance! the kung fu twins! lolz...hitting with their 'stick'! hahah...dont think aside la...!! the 'stick' they use to practice during their lesson wan lolz...after the kungfu performance, than the tps are performing their dance! wow!!! hip-hop!! kononnya!! lolz...nola overall the dance was not bad buthen the way they dance so soft N no feel made everyone felt sleepy N bored...jiajen(the mafan bro i mean)was laughing at their performing! lolz...this fello laugh so loud! claps so loud! speak so SOFT pulak...aahhaha didnt knw he was so funny la, this boy was earlier black-listed b4 he join the interact club..he look so cool N walk with his lan c face around the school til everyone hated him pulakz...actually he was not nominated in the finance director post(interact club), but due to the 2 which is nominated, 1 of them had been elected in another post b4 my post...so left 1 guy N he's kinda hated by most ppl...nvr knw he was so teruk in fact i praises him summo lolz...so since everyone wanna haf another nominee, so majority of the bod community nominated jiajen N i DISAGREE with tht suggestion as he's hated by me(at 1st)..but the bod insist to nominate him so i've gotta keep myself silent N look who will t/over my post N YES JIAJEN won the election!! so, by that time i was so unsatisfied but what i can do is to calm myself N accept the FACT!! then he came to me N sat beside me without talking even a single word with his cool N LAN C face again...then i decided to break the ice 1st...so my 1st question towards him is, 'can u smile? pls dont look cool'(tellin him as an advice)..he said, 'ok'! so he did! after the meetin we sat together N start talking to each other...tht time i realized tht he was not tht bad actually...so when time passes...everything is going fine N things gettin betta N......he smile at me when he saw me! lolz...the way he smile, really as if i forced him to smile at me...ahha so during the install, we chatted N he's really a funny guy...kept on asking me is he looking handsome today??? ahahha should he wear specs or not when he's going on the stage...lolz after the install, we no longer contact til recently we started to talk to each other N i realized tht he's actually aint tht bad, maybe bcz i judge a book my its cover so, i've no idea whats inside the book...N now i know...at last i approaches him to be my pet bro N he agreed too...N things carry on til today...serisouly i approaches him to be my pet bro it means i'll treat him as if my real bro! i did, i care for him N so on...N tht's y he was wondering why am i treating him so good?? =)

anyway while fetching this lil bro home, i was thinking of something...but its undescricable...i've no idea what am i thinking, but probably i think it's bcz tht im not going for tuition withou tellin' my parents, tht's why i felt guilty lying to them...furthermore, i rarely lie to them instead tellin' the truth...haizZzzz was damn moody the whole day when i was at sunway...aHHh buthen after i met SARAH TAN N PAULA MALAI ALI i semangat back aled...lolz they're part of the judges for the 'Seventeen Magazine Star Search Event'...buthen after looking at them for sometime i felt bored lolz...OMG it's almost 5pm! gotta leave!~ so i left tht place at 5.05pm N reached home around 5.30pm N tht's it for today's blog...i think its long enough...ahahha haf ur time reading pplz...

another happy day . . . .

i drove to midvalley today...it is my second time driving there myself as last night was my practice =) so i drove my dear there today....N watched AVP! wow! it was quite an interesting show! alien killing predator N predator killing alien ahaha...after 2hrs watching it then me N my dear walk around N finally we've gotta go back at 5.30pm...so i fetch her back to her place =) then drove to my aunt's place to replace my younger cousin's place...so gotta work today haizZzz lolz...

after work, went out yum cha with frenz....i felt something, whenever i goes out with these fello i'll felt nice N ez-going....these frens i'll nvr forget them N they're the chunnest of all i think...really nice chatting with them N also enjoys spending our laugh time together...ahaahhaa me, my cousin N yit loong sat together at steven's corner til 3.45am N i finally reached home at 4.10am =)

MERDEKA EVE celebration!!!!

waHhh today im gonna drive everyone to the lrt station ahhaa...i left my car at the car park N go down to kl to celebrate the national day...we all reached there at around 7++/8pm N start walking around at time square than to sg wang N back to time square...lolz met a gal which is kind of funny named po yan i guess...she's so daMN QUIET sittin in my car...nvr talk but only smiles to those she've met b4 only...kesian me...she tak layan me at all even when i introduce myself to her but she didnt at all...='( first time...aihzZz around 10++pm we went down to sg wang to haf funzZzz with the rest of the ppl who's celebrating merdeka...it was so crowded N the place was as if celebrating the new yrs eve...but fortunately new yrs eve is even happening...once more i was sprayed by everybody there...dirty from the top of my head til the bottom of my shoe...ahaha buthen i enjoyed the funz...met machi, guang liang, nicholas teo(former atq winner) etc...we stayed there til around 1.30am N left tht place at 1.50am from the station back to sri petaling...when reached there i fetches my cousin N 2 of my new frens yum cha at steven corner...chatted til around 4++am N reached home at around 4.50am...slept at 5.15am aihzzZZz...lolz but at least i slept til 2.30pm ahahha....i've nvr sleep til so late aled...had my rest nicely there...lolz