Christmas is coming to town . . . .

Yea it's another Christmas for me this year, hoping it's gonna be another great Christmas. It's one of my favourite festival after Chinese New Year. I just love Christmas so much! And yea, what you're listening on my blog is also a Christmas song by Josh Groban, Believe. It's an originial song track from The Polar Express (2oo4), my favourite Christmas movie! HAHA it always reminds me of the year i finished my high school and national service! They're just so meaningful...anyhow here are some Christmas decor of the shopping malls!

Darren & ME @ Time Square

The Curve...

The Pavillion...

-[aLbY]-

Night @ Sunway Lagoon . . . .

Last friday i went to Sunway Lagoon with a group of friends for the Battle of the Bands competition. Gosh, thou there were lots of teenagers, but....it's really a bored one for me! The bands, goodness, i don't understand how does the judges judge some of the groups. They're really nuisance to me, so NOISY!!! I can barely hear or understand anything also! Hahah anyhow, there were a few CELEBRITY attended the event and judged for the competition too, MTV VJ Denise, Hannah Tan, popular blogger Kenny Sia and MYC! Jason Ko! Gosh...both chiq are hot! Denise and Hannah Tan, but Hannah Tan too skinny and her makeup was abit OVERLY MAKE-UP!! Unlike her anymore, so malay looking! Here are the pictures...

MTV VJ Denise
Hannah Tan & Alby
dUH......
Alby, Jun Yih & Carter
Last but not lease me and my sweetie...

Yes or No?

Lately i've heard of some rumours saying that my blog is bored, i wanted to know the truth that isit really true that my blog is really bored to be read? I dont know by myself as what i updated are things i thought it's interesting, maybe the story i wrote isn't that interesting but i guess it at least worth comments to it. I'm good at nothing, this is what i can do to express myself sometimes. I just hope that i would receive feedback of my topic today whether it is or it isn't bored to u guys only. Perhaps i could do something to it!

-[aLby]-

S.L.K . . .

Such an unlucky day!~ On the second day of work, i scratched my car in Sunway!~ :( no, i didn't scractched but when i was reversing my car from the car park, i didn't know my car parked so near the pole and **BANGGGGGG...** my lovely SLK!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sob sob*
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-[aLbY]-

Work & Delay . . .

Hey people, very sorry that I couldn't upload my HK trip photos yet! Wasn't around during the weekends! I'm sure you'll get to see my blog FULL with pictures later ok! I gotta delay the uploading cause I gotta rest now and wake up for work later in the morning! I'm kinda excited cause it's my first time working from Monday till Friday, 8.30am - 5.30pm for a month or more! It's gonna be my first SHORT-TERM FULL-TIME job! Gonna work as an office boy at Sunway Industrial Park! :D Wish me luck ya...

p/s: Suddenly i browse thru my OLD MP3, i found another song which i haven't heard for long!!! HAHAHA enjoy and STAY TUNED with my blog!!



oHh besides that, here are a few pictures taken before and during the prom at SEGI College Kota Damansara last saturday with my group of friends! :D take a peep at the pictures! HAHAH CAMWHORING IS BACK TO MY BLOG................


ME before the ball @ Jun Yih's place...


The environment of the ball in the multipurpose hall in SEGI College Kota Damansara


ME outside the multipurpose hall, isn't the college COOL! They've a clock tower and even a swimming pool where else you'll still see people swimming at 11pm! HAHA


ME & Jun Yih a.k.a Maggie Q a.k.a Baku(prostitude) Q


ME & Carter with Jun Yih as special guest behind us!


ME & Carter at the ballroom! Smart right????


Carter & ME (before) **spot the difference**


Carter & ME (after) **spot the difference**

HAHAHAHA it has been for quite sometime i haven't been uploading pictures as many as this in my blog! Now i can see my blog is back to ALIVE as before! HAHAH :D hey, make sure you people who visited PLEASE leave a comment ok!!!! :P

-[aLbY]-

I'm BAck . . . .

Hey everyone, i'm back! Well sorry that i didn't keep my blog update for weeks! Was not free to keep it update! Heheh anyway, i was away durng 17-21 of November, went for a family trip to Hong Kong! Hahah it was really a great and fun trip! ALthough there isn't enough time for shopping but the beautiful sceneric and people there will jz keep me satisfied! HAHAH anyway, cut off the rubbish! The trip was really a fun trip, it was the 1st family trip to overseas! Well, actually it was my dad's business trip, but we went earlier by a few days to enjoy before the meeting! We went to visit many places EXCEPT Disneyland Hong Kong! It isn't cheap + i realized it's not really necessary to go there as i reckon nothing special cause even the Ocean Park we've been to isn't that IMPRESSING! I thought what was shown on tv are the same as reality but it isn't really what i thought! haha i realized many things throughout the trip!

1) Hong Kong people are much more friendlier than Malaysians
2) Hong Kong people looks better than Malaysians
3) Hong Kong's expenditure is much more expensive than Malaysia
4) Hong Kong's public transport is much more convenient than Malaysia but more expensive than Malaysia
5) Hong Kong people are more fashionable than Malaysians
6) Hong Kong is cooler than Malaysia due to winter season
7) Hong Kong shopping for branded product is more reasonable than in Malaysia
8) Hong Kong airport is brighter and look better than KLIA & many more....

BUT.....i guess i still prefer to live in Malaysia! Heheh there're things that makes me love Malaysia more than Hong Kong! HAHAHAH oh ya, there's one thing which is still better than Malaysia which is the night view of Hong Kong! OMG.....its SO BEAUTIFUL!!~ i'll upload the pictures VERY SOON...!!~ heheh too many pictures to upload! :P "gimme more.......time to upload!" Hhahaha ok there's one of the best scenery picture i took during the trip, i'll jz upload one at the moment!~



-[aLbY]-

My #1 Podcast!

Note: The best ambient to listen to it is after evening or give yourself only a few minutes to relax on the bed while listening to my first podcast!

I found out that creating a podcast is really something new and interesting to me! Anyway, i got this idea from Abby This is my very first podcast, NO EDITING and it's a one-recording podcast! I hardly record my voice without preparing a note or a written speech but this is really my first one, nothing much or special but plain introducing a music to you guys! One of my favourite music type! Hope you guys enjoy it....thou it may bored you guys, but it's my first one, so, visit my blog more frequent for more update of myself! :D enjoy...



-[aLbY]-

Prepaid to Postpaid @ Happy Birthday PL . . . .

Finally i've made a decision to change my prepaid number to postpaid! Long ago i thought of changing it to postpaid before but that moment Maxis doesn't have any valuable package which i wanted but now they've Value Plan! HAHAH i'm so happy with it! Feeling a little awkward cause i used to call *122# to check my balance but i couldn't check anymore! Can't even see what promotion are there for prepaid anymore! LoLz, it has become a habit to me i guess when i was using prepaid! :D anyway, here's my NEW 3G POSTPAID CARD! Sorry ya, sim card in the phone, lazy to take it out! :P

Anyhow, i went for one of my ex-classmate's birthday party! Had dinner at Free & Easy with a bunch of collegemates! The food there not bad, price isn't too pricy, REASONABLE! Environment wise, really unique, they've many games there for the customer's to enjoy, music played but i guess customer can change it manually? HAHA sorry ya, my bunch of friends actually changed the CD on their own earlier! :P what's not that good is that the service ISN'T REALLY GOOD, probably due to their staff who's not chinese, SPEAK WELL ENGLISH to them please! Repeat your orders a few times so that they could get you the right order! Here are a few pictures taken by my phone:-












After the dinner, we went over to Gilly's for a drink till 12++am, all of us left and went back home! I wondered why isit that making me so tired today! Only a dinner and drink! HAHAHA between, i ate 2½slice of the cake! :P GOsh....!!!!!

-[aLbY]-

Happy Deepavali . . . .

2nights ago I went out for a drink after gym with my buddies@collegemates. After that i went for another session with another friend of mine at Steven's Corner and oh god! Guess what? The both of us actually saw this group of guys, ok there were 4 of them, there was one very HUGE guy sitting on a one of those chairs at the mamak. Whats worst was; read the conversation below:-

Fred: wei wei quickly look at the chair...
ME: OMG its gonna break wei... (aneh standing in front of us taking order next door) aneh aneh, itu orang punya kerusi sudah mau rosak, cepat tolong dia tukar!
Fred: (hitting me + laughing non-stop) OMG, why you so bad!
ME: (laughing together) where got bad? i'm jz helping him out before he was embarassed in front of others only leh (aneh laughing)
Fred & ME: (laugh non-stop the whole night)
After a moment...
Fred: (looking at this chair) wei my chair also breaking leh...
ME: (L.O.L) nolar your one the breaking part not as terrible as that guy's yet!
Fred: (change chair, the chair changed was jz next to him)
ME: (laughing) please lar put away the chair lar, put next to you still wanna embarass ourselves!

I was jz being nice asking the aneh to change the chair for the HUGE guy so that he wouldn't embarass in front of so many people IF the chair break only! Anyway, Happy Deepavali to the indians and those who celebrated the festive!

-[aLbY]-

I am a blogger too?

71%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?

San Diego Dating

Hahaha well, i didn't know i can still have above 50% as an addictive blogger thou! Anyway, i'll keep it up! HAHAHAHAH coming up next, some funny lame jokes happened recently! Wait and check out the new updates ya!!~

-[aLbY]-

Untitled . . . .

p/s: "I can't sleep again, i'm having a sleepless night again! (@_@)"

-[aLbY]-

Running out of sudden . . . .

I visited one of my friend's blog and read this, 'We can never turn back the time!' There're certain things that i've on hand which i'm treasuring now and there're things which i've lost in the past. Indeed, we can never turn back the time, therefore, appreciate what you have now before you regretted in the end. I'm learning to be a better man now so that i could sustain something which is still on hand. I realise there're always barriers to succeed something, but i believe if one don't give up but tried hard in no matter what will surely success in the end! That's why life is always full of challenges and obstacles. I've accepted the challenges and tried to defeat them with my capabilities and determination of not giving up easily! I believe my spirit would succeed one day!

Tears flowing everywhere from my eyes, i've no idea why but does becoming a better person would have to lose everything. Almost everything which i have on hand? I've been trying to improve my self-character to a better person but things running out of sudden as if wind blowed pass me within seconds. No one is perfect on Earth but at least i knew i'm not perfect, hence, i've been improving to become better so that i'm an all-rounder to everyone. I thought it was positive to become an all-rounder but as time pass, i realizes people are still leaving me one by one, moment by moment yet i'm still trying my best to be very good towards those who are still with me. I've been thru darkness, then, came out from the dark again! I told myself i'll never wanna get into the dark again! Fear came into me again...how am i suppose to remain something i want eventhough there're certain things are fading off? Determination is what i have in myself to proof i'm a better person for good today and tomorrow...



Below is only a random song which i found quite nice to share with:-



-[aLbY]-

2 become 1 . . . .

Candle light and soul forever,
A dream of you and me together,
Say you believe it, say you believe it,
Free your mind of doublt and danger,
Be for real don't be a stranger,
We can achieve it, we can achieve it,
Come a little bit closer baby, get it on, get it on,
Cause tonight, is the night when 2 become 1,

I need some love like I never needed love before,
(wanna make love to ya baby),
I had a little love, now I'm back for more,
(wanna make love to ya baby)
Set your spirit free, its the only way to be,


Silly games that you two were playing,
Empty words we both were saying,
Let's work it boy, let's work it out boy,
Once again that we endeavour,
Love will bring us back together,
Take it or leave it, take it or leave it


Are you as good as I remember baby,
Get it on, get it on,
Cause tonight, is the night when 2 become 1,

I need some love like I never needed love before,
(wanna make love to ya baby),
I had a little love, now I'm back for more,
(wanna make love to ya baby)
Set your spirit free, its the only way to be,


Be a little bit wiser baby, put it on, put it on,
Cause tonight, is the night when 2 become 1,

I need some love like I never needed love before,
(wanna make love to ya baby),
I had a little love, now I'm back for more,
(wanna make love to ya baby)
I need some love like I never needed love before,
(wanna make love to ya baby),
I had a little love, now I'm back for more,
(wanna make love to ya baby),

It's the only way to be.
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I bet you guys must be saying, "Oh gosh, i haven't watch/heard of this song for long! Its so long ago!" Yea indeed, really darn long ago! Come to think of it, its more than a decade ago! It has been so long ago! I was only 10 that moment? Hahah anyhow, its just another post of entertaining and reflecting of the past only. It's a nice song and i heard this song lately, so i decided to share it with you all only! 2 become 1 by Spice Girls...oHh yea, they're coming back this coming December! HAHAH...

-[aLbY]-

Waiting For You . . . .

I knew this song few years back but didn't know that the MV is so sad! Anyway...the meaning is meaningful, at least i used that to express before!

-[aLbY]-

Isaac the SUPERSTAR . . . .

OMG, i was having dinner with my mom on tuesday evening. My phone suddenly beep! I checked the sms, Abby sent me a message saying that Isaac admitted to the hospital due to appendix! I was shocked!!!~ My time was screwed up and no time to pay him a visit summo! Darn sorry bro...but he's fine now! Thank God...oh yea, btw there's an interview on youtube now! WAKAKAKKAKAKA check this out, regarding of his appendix! My buddy a SUPERSTAR now, he's on YOUTUBE!!! hahahahah



Enjoy....hahhahaha

-[aLbY]-

E n J o Y . . . .

Suddenly I felt like posting these songs up, I love these songs very much! Dont know why, but just like it so much. It reminds me of so much of things! Happy....unhappy....whatever it is, it reminds me of so so much! Thou this post may be bored or meaningless, but....this is what i want to be in my post for today!!~



Another song...hMmm, well, i just like the whole video! The series is nice too, the song isn't in the series but the sequence of the scenes and the song matches and i love it so much! :D



And this one also...HAHAHAH :P anyway, i guess no one had seen this video or heard of this song before. He's Tim, a korean singer a.k.a song composer a.k.a pianist. He's really good and talented, not bad looking korean too. I remember i first heard his name and the song when i was watching astro channel TVB8 with my sister, the korean program was introducing him. Gosh, then i was amazed with his talent and...tried to search for his album and all in the market but FAILED! Sigh, even online you wouldn't find him too! But there was one day i gotta download his entire album which took me almost close to a month to COMPLETE and i remembered that was close to my birthday too! One of my friend, asked me what do i want for my birthday. I was jokingly telling him that i wanted Tim's album as a gift! I finally found it on eBay or some sites and it cost between RM120-150 inclusive of tax and shipping fee. OMG, that's so FREAKING EXPENSIVE FOR A CD as a present! Anyhow, when i got the CD, my song file had completed and i've heard the album before the CD arrived but nevermind, i kept it as a collection to myself! :D but sad to say, i've lost the CD! I'm still searching for it in the house!!! Gosh....i hoped i found it back SOON!!! VERY SOON!!! I miss the CD so much...thank you so much Jack!!!!~ :P



Hey people, spend sometime to enjoy this post....it may take longer time than you guys reading my old blog but try enjoying it aight! HAHAHA :)

-[aLbY]-

Feeling weird . . . .

Things hasn't really been going well in the night, i'd a few nightmares lately, all aren't positive dreams. All related to myself and some related to my friends too. What are they? I'm feeling weird, i begin to be paranoid at it cause why am i dreaming unnecessary dream? Guess what's worst which is bothering me, all of my dreams have to do with death! Oh God...what the hell on Earth is happening to me!? ARgh...

-[aLbY]-

Announcement?

Lately, i realized most people in the surrounding has been blogging non-stop! Still keeping the update once in every 1-3days. WHAT? C'mon, what about me? Holy...though i realized there are still visitors or "fans" who's still visiting my blog on and off once in awhile or probably daily but..sorry pal, i know i haven't been an active blogger for sometime. Well, maybe i did keep my blog up-to-date but with not interesting post probably, maybe least pictures? :P I remember the beginning of my blogging moment, i was told by my friends, "walao Alby, ur blog have plenty of pics man! popular with pics post compared to my classmates' blog." hMmm....I pretty agree that too, but probably i'm no longer using the software i use to use to upload the pics or i'm TOO LAZY to keep my blog updated as there was one moment when my blog was FREEZED, i mean not updated, my hit counters was the same! AHAHAAH...no worries everyone or anyone, i'm on a holiday break now, a very long one, i'll try to keep it updated BUT continue visiting and leave your comment if you felt like so :) i know my blog's interface is kinda DULL, OK, give me sometime, i'm working out something now with it :D

-[aLbY]-

Self-realization . . . .

*AHEM* Ok, i know what happened since February 07. I've been eating NON-STOP without keeping on my diet, i know i've GROWN back! This is what i'm gonna do from today onwards. The list is below...

DOs:-
1) Do more cardio when i go to the gym
2) Swimming MORE to broaden my shoulder and get my stamina trained
3) Do more weights to gain my muscles back from fats
4) Do more abs exercise to have my abs beautified

DON'Ts:-
1) STRICTLY NO SUPPER ANYMORE
2) MAXIMUM bowl of rice is ONE ONLY
3) No more frequent visit to fastfood (KFC, McD, Pizza etc)
4) NO MORE DEEP FRIED FOOD
5) NO MORE OILY FOOD

p/s: I'll maintain my diet and exercise daily in order to get back to my shape!!! Give me by January 2008! I'll have a better result of MYSELF!! I'll FULLY UTILIZE THE GYM!!!! HAHAHA...."Gym, i'm cumming.........wopz, i mean coming! heheh sorry!~"

-[aLbY]-

The Apologise . . . .

Finally, i've found this song title and artist! Didn't expect it would by Timbaland thou. I first heard this during one of my dance class at the gym, didn't really like it much cause the dance was TOO SLOW, but the song was cool enough to make me to stay for an hour till the class ended! HAHAH the song gave me a very relaxing kinda feel! Try to feel like, waHhh.....ahaha aight, i'm not a nutcase person, i know i've a long break, but i'm not crazy yet! Between, here is the lyricS! Enjoy...


I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground


-[aLbY]-

Before and After

My dad had sent my sister's car to respray the whole car to this! What happened in less than a month....



DISASTER........!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ she met in an accident in kL when she was about to go for a dinner & dance!!! Was BANG by a travelling bus summo! That bus did not stopped to even have a peep on it!!

Another random song . . . .

Hahahah another random song that i like it so much!!~ :D with my han yin pin yin summo!!! Love Love LOVE this song!!~ hahaha enjoy!!~

-[aLbY]-

Everything you do . . . i really love and appreciate you ! !

I love the way you smile
When I look in your eyes
I love the way you laugh
When I try to be funny
And how a tear rolls down your face
When I say no one could
ever take your place.

And baby when you sleep
I watch you breathing
And baby when you dream
I dream with you
Cause everywhere you are is where
I wanna be
It's true everything you do
Makes me know how much I love you.

The way you touch my lips
Right after every kiss
And softly whisper
That I'm your everything
The way you pray
Our love won't die
Every night just before you
Close your eyes.

And baby when you sleep
I watch you breathing
Baby when you dream
I dream with you
Cause everywhere you are is where
I wanna be
It's true everything you do
Makes me know how much I love you.

And I believe some things are
meant to be
As sure as there is love
yours is meant for me.

Baby when you sleep
I watch you breathing
Baby when you dream
I dream with you
Cause everywhere you are is where
I wanna be
It's true everything you do
Makes me know how much
I love you.(2x)
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Everything you do, i did appreciate, everything was sang in the song is really what i've been doing to show how much i really love and appreciate you. I mean't what is sang in the song and really do it to you but never had want the history to repeat. I swear i didn't, hoping that you really feel it and forgive me now, please...

-[aLbY]-

02/10/2007

It's not a good day for me today. I went out after presentation to bring my petbro out for lunch and a round trip to Sunway Piramid. I'm suppose to go to the gym after fetching him back, but when i was about to get out of the parking, i found out i lost my parking ticket! Sigh...i searched everywhere for 20+mins!!~ STILL NOT FOUND! In the end, i paid RM20 for the ticket and dropped him to get back to the gym! Afraid of the ticket, so i decided to use touch&go! Argh...what a day! There were about RM10 inside but written with the balance with INSUFFICIENT CREDIT! What the....sigh! Fine i'll make sure the ticket is placed in my wallet this time! Then i went to the gym, then dinner with friends in Izzi@KL, 5pax for only RM125 (after member's discount)! Only RM25/pax! Quite reasonable also! We ate alot, drink alot too! FREE FLOW OF ICE LEMON TEA! AHAHAH after that, i collected my car and fetched a friend to Kuchai Lama. Dropped her then i went back home.......

-[aLbY]-

The way you look at me . . . .

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

If I could freeze the moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock make time stand still
Coz baby this is just the way I always wanna feel

Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
Nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

I don't know how or why
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is that it happens everytime

Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's
nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

The way you look at me
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The other day i heard this from the radio and its so nice! :) hope you guys enjoy the song! It reminds me of alot of things the moment i listen to the song again. It reminds me alot of the past, happy, unhappy moments...happy moments vs unhappy moments! Life is always full of obstacles and challenges. I've had many precious things, lost many precious things and then got back some again. Some things had changed, some things remain...some had gone worsten, some even better! Nevertheless, what i can do is jz to appreciate what i have now only. Although there's not much precious things left with me but that will do for me. I do not wanna be greedy anymore, i'm jz hoping that the natural flow would allow things to be better and get better from now on...

p/s: "What i want is the way you look at me...."

-[aLbY]-

Because of you . . . .

You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind
when you're not around
It's all (It's all)
It's all because of you
You're my sunshine, oh yeah

Baby I really know by now
Since we met that day
You showed me the way
I felt it then
you gave me love, I can't describe
How much I feel for you
I said baby I should have known by now
Should have been right there
whenever you gave me love
And if only you were here
I'd tell you, yes I'd tell you (oh yeah)

[ Chorus ]

Honestly could it be you and me
Like it was before neither less or more
'Cause when I close my eyes at night
I realize that no one else
[ Lyrics provided by www.mp3lyrics.org ]
could ever take your place
I still can feel and it's so unreal
When you're touching me, kisses endlessly
It's just a place in the sun
where our love's begun
I miss you, yes I miss you baby, oh yeah

[ Chorus ]

If I knew how to tell you what's on my mind
(Make you understand)
The I'd always be there right by your side

[ Chorus ]

You're my sunshine
You're my sunshine
Oh yeah
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There's no lies in beneath, what i've been trying to do is really just to get us back together. I'm slow and dumb, but hoping that you would forgive me for the misthought that i don't bother about you or being cold to you. I really never thought of it before, i know things are coping back and getting better, but i really wanna keep you company from now onwards!! I thought not to rush and pressure you, hence, i work things slowly :S i'm really sorry!!~ This song and the lyrics are meant for you, and its what i'm trying to tell you too! BEcause of you, i'm willing to do anything just for you...i'm really sorry, please forgive me and do not neglect me baby :(

p/s: "Another dedication for you....because of you, i'm willing to do anything jz for you, give me time, give us time! I don't wanna pressure and rush you afterall...i love you lots, i'd never thought of giving up or leaving you before too baby!! Let me keep you company.."

-[aLbY]- @ -43-

BIG APPLE...

Hahaha i was so happy last night! Someone sent me dINNEr! After gym, i receive this BIG APPLE DONUTS when i got back!! Its really delicious, it was my first time trying it! I always wanted to try it but never had a chance to buy but...now i finally tried it! :D thank YOU so much! Really appreciated that lots! Knowing that i'll have no dinner as my parents aren't around and i wont buy dinner there you got me some donuts! THANKS!!!!!!~~~ Here are some pictures of my BIG APPLE DONUTS!!





p/s: "Dedicated to someone, thanks alot for the donuts! Love it so much...and love you too!"

-[aLbY]- @ -41-

Oh, when you're in love with someone, yeah

Oh, you

See, the heart that you helped to mend
Was broken by a friend
Your kind, kind words
I'm sorry but they're hurting me
Love letters that I've never sent
Hidden from your eyes again
You never seem to notice
But to others it's so plain to see
Now it's time to tell the truth
I wish I could, baby, say that I love you

When you're in love with someone
Dreaming of a tender touch
Yeah, I love you so much
To be friends is not enough
When you're in love with someone
(When you're in love with someone)
I don't know what to do
Describe that someone
Is you
(I hope you don't, hope you don't change a thing)
(I hope you don't, hope you don't change a thing)

My emotions cover me
Like a ship lost at sea
I'm waiting for the one who will fill my destiny
In my mind you undress
I touch you with tenderness
I open up my eyes, I can't believe you're right in front of me
I can feel that you see my pain
Then you say with a smile
That you feel the same

When you're in love with someone
Dreaming of a tender touch
Yeah, I love you so much
To be friends is not enough
When you're in love with someone
(When you're in love with someone)
I don't know what to do
Describe that someone
Is you
(I hope you don't, hope you don't change a thing)
(I hope you don't, hope you don't change a thing)

Ooh

When you're in love with someone
Dreaming of a tender touch
Yeah, I love you so much
To be friends is not enough
When you're in love with someone
I don't know what to do
'Cause that someone is you

I hope it don't change a thing
_____________________________________________________________________________________

Enjoy this song with the lyrics! It's meant for you, when im in love with someone, yea i love you so much!

-[aLbY]- @ -40-

Sob3r . . . .

I was awake at 6.30am to fetch my parents and sis to the airport, they're going to HK! My dad has a biz trip and so my mom and sis tagged along. I reached home around 9.40am, only got to sleep at close to 11am. And i woke up in the noon. I was at home the whole day on friday, studying...well, not really, coz i was sober the whole day! Things seems not going smoothly. Went out to grab lunch for myself and bro in the noon. Then i tried to study for the coming exam next monday and tuesday till evening. I only receive the sms in the evening which they were sent in the noon! ARgh, darn the MAxis line! Some things seems going fine, but ever since the sms i replied in the evening saying that the line was terrible and i only received it around 6++, everything changed! Nevertheless, no one would ever know how important you are to me but only me and you. You maybe doubting it too, but honestly, i've never reluctant you or putting you into other priority but the main priority. Sounds fake? Or im not honest enough? I could swear, it's the truth! Everything is the truth, i never fooled you, i never fake to you, i never give up onto you before too! Not even till today, i never give up onto you because i still love you very much and wanna get back with you to heal your 'wound' back. I know i'd hurt you before, i'm gonna be responsible for this, i know you're heartache, but of all the times when you've heartache, i did get you back and i really do. And now also the same, i'm willing to get things back, i do not mind to walk 99steps to get you back as long as you make one step to accept me back and i'll do the rest for you! I cared and i love you very much...i wouldn't give up at all because i do not wanna regret to lose you. All this while, no matter what you said to me, and i still insist to get you back, why? Not because i wanna fool you, but because i wanna perish you with love back. The love that we use to have..yea, it sounds easy to speak up, but for you, for all the love i have, i'll make sure i will proof it to you and never hurt each other anymore! I miss you...i really miss you very much! I wanted to have the graceful moments back with you. I'll assure you'll never regret and never be afraid of me anymore because i'll keep to my words, we will not hurt each other anymore and i'll treasure and appreciate you even more! Please give me this chance back baby...trust me for the very last time! I'm serious to you and i've never fooled you before...



p/s: "Only you, i only wanted you back and let us have a new start. I love you for real and i dont want to lose you baby...i wanna have you holding me back! I'll hold you tight too.."

-[aLbY]- @ -38-

Exhausted . . .

Last week till yesterday was really one of my busiest week ever! Rushing for assignment, preparing for presentation, preparing for work and work and....yea, needless to say i didn't change too. I remember i only had 1.5hrs rest on friday morning, then i went to college to do my presentation. Yup, i didnt do well, i presented my part out of topic and i didnt do well i knew it! Although the lecturer gave me another chance to present again that time, she did said it was fine and good, but i know i didnt do well. I'm a failure...then i rushed for assignment till 5pm at the college, handed in on time. Went back, took a nap around 6 till 7.30pm, then went out dinner with my mom, sis and bro at the new Giant around my area. Had pizza and we walked around the place, my eyes are terribly swollen! I was shocked too. After that we went back home...and there goes my friday...

Sunday, i went over to Ed's place to rush for assignment...i wasn't fine at all that day!~ I didnt get to do anything at all...after all the rushing for the assignment we only gotta complete it by 3am. I only got back home around 3++ and had only 2.5hrs rest before i go for work! I'm so lack of rest...





Monday till thursday, this 4days kept me busy at most time and throughout the whole 4days, i only got approximately 16hrs rest. Work at least 13hrs a day, from morning till night! I'm so exhausted!!~ I'd fever on wednesday night, my body was heating and i was having cold too. Flu for 4days summo...took some medicine and slept till over-time the next day, luckily i wasn't blamed at all as i told the people in-charge i'd fever and over-slept. Then, the whole day i wasn't feeling well at all. I'd terrible diarrhoea in the morning till noon. I'm really feeling like collapsing...its so hard for me! I felt like a total failure now!! Exam is coming soon, what have i studied so far during work? Nothing much eventhough i've completed 4topics of a subject! I dont know will i pass for this last 2papers before i get into level 2 or not too. I cant.....and i cant let it go :'( my tears tears non-stop during the last day of work. Tried to made myself tired and i really did, eventually i almost fainted during the tear down of the event. I was overly tired...

I miss you...i miss you very much...until today, i still cant let go! Tomorrow morning i'll be sending my family to the airport, i'll be alone till next wednesday with my bro. I'm feeling so lonesome...so forlorn...so sober...i'm sorry for all the heartaches and heartbreaks. I love you too deeply, i jz cant let it go. I'm sorry for all...

-[aLbY]- @ -36-

aNother dAy in pArdaDisE . . . . ! ! ! ~

Most will definitely thought that yea yea i'm very happy enjoying myself in a paradise but sorry guys, i'm ain't happy at all. I heard this song all of a sudden on radio, and....yup, insomnia again! Its 7.11am now, i can't sleep and i can't sleep!!~ I'm still depressed, tears still flowing but naturally without reason...i miss you! I miss you badly! I'm gonna have a hardtime from today onwards, i dont know will i get thru it this time or not, hoping that i wouldn't REALLY collapse at this moment only! I love you too deeply, really very deeply, knowing that we've known the problems, why dont we settled them down by learning and improving things together. I'm suffocating without you baby, i needed you very badly! I felt loneliness in me everyday and night in every second! How would you forgive me baby, i couldn't let go at all, still not at all. I'm feeling even lost and restless day by day now...God, please tell me how should i get it back together! For how much i really love and cared for you, even i've hurt you, i'm willing to change and improve myself to a better person, one and only chance i've been seeking and never had given up before...baby please give me this chance to get things back!

p/s: "I wanna have another day with you in the paradise..."

-[aLbY]- @ -31-

Shattered with tears . . .

One assignment due today and i just completed it without sleeping for more than 24hours. Last night i went out for some group discussion at Kopitiam but ended up becoming very emotional! No replies of sms at all after the last message. I was so unhappy over it, i really tried to convince and will really improve myself to be better to you and to love you more without hurting you anymore but in the end, im being ignored and rejected. I really feel the pain terribly. I still love you very much, i'm really asking for a one last chance for us to get back and develop our loveships back. I needed you so badly, i haven't stopped thinking of you every single moment! I really mean to get back with you and get alive back together with the love we use to have. I'm really suffocating without you, why don't you set the last trust for me to get things back. I didn't stabbed or said anything negative about you before and there's nothing bad to talk about too, please trust me i never mean anything like asking you to leave me before..i've always love you as how you do!

After the discussion, i decided to go over to my friend's place with beers along. I was really unhappy and i was drunk that night. Around 6am i reached home, and continued rushing for my presentation at 1030, i didn't sleep at all, it was really a sleepless night for me. I can't sleep of thinking about you...after my presentation at 12pm, i continued rushing to complete my whole assignment to be handed in by 7pm, i handed in around 5pm and reached home about 5++pm. Tried to take a nap before dinner, but i realized i really didnt get to sleep again! When i closed my eyes, you came into the picture again, i really can't stop thinking of you over and over, i really mean to get back with you afterall this incidents happened, i've known my mistakes clearly and really correcting them to get back together with you. I've always been sincerely chasing you back jz because i dont wanna lose you! I know you're afraid to be hurt again, let me hold you back, and i promised i will never hurt you again!!~ Please let me hold you back and dont avoid or hated me due to some misunderstandings. I've never meant any of those you thought in your mind before, i really have a pure heart now to jz to get you back and we'll love each other as before...I'm really seeking for this only chance from you. Please dont leave me...i'm really suffering alot without you in my life...my tears flows non-stop because i misses you very much and dont wanna lose you anymore...

p/s: "I love you with all my hearts baby, please give me this one more chance to get things back at the right track with you...i need you very much, don't leave me!!~"

It has been playing non-stop in my mind and whenever i goes it plays back this song, it really means alot to me and the meaning of this song is what i meant for you all this while too...CNY was the most unforgettable memories i had! Melodi by Lin Yu Zhong ft Sheila Majid.



-[aLbY]-

sCarEd . . .

Ever experience the person that you loved most feel afraid of you before? I'm one of them who is selected randomly on Earth. I love this person very much, so much had happened and yet we still got back together. Now i've made the person who always love and cared for me left me and never wanna forgive and accept me back. I'm a disaster in relationship. I felt restless that it has been a month or more that i'm trying to get things back but failed too. I'm such a scary person to everyone now! I've been keeping myself aside for more than a month, once in awhile i'll go out to relax my mind to release some stress but it came back to me in the end and i don't want it to be ended jz like that. I felt like a bastard now, scare someone whom we both love each other very much till avoiding me by changing everything in the life jz to forget me! :'( I dont wanna stay here anymore, i'm not forgiven yet someone i loved so much is avoiding me far far away...I couldn't face the community, i couldn't face anyone too! I felt embarrassed to show up myself. I've a disease now, it's called the "heart disease". If only you believe that you still love me, i'll still put in efforts to gain everything back...that's my motive to have you back without having you being hurt anymore. Baby...i need you and thats all i have in mind and my heart. I'm so lost and i'm so afraid to lose you all...let us develop back baby...

-[aLbY]-

i nEeD yOu bAby....!!!~~

Insomnia...insomnia...insomnia!!~ It has been more than a month i couldn't sleep well, couldnt eat well, couldn't concentrate on anything at all! What i could do jz jz thinking and worrying over it! I often emotionally unstable and i've finally fall sick now. And no one even notice that i'm sick as i pretended nothing in front of everyone! No one would ever know that im suffocating and depressing on my own! I guess even the person who should feel it doesn't know that i'm in terrible depression too. I'm lost...i'm very lost! I dunno what to do now, last sunday i thought everything went back fine and i thought i could cope things back but from the conversation on monday, it wasn't that fine followed by tuesday, our conversation had updated something! I jz realized i was the only who actually thought we "got back" in fact we didn't, i was the one who misunderstood the whole incident, in the end, i cried in front of the monitor without anyone noticing me crying too! It was so pain, the pain i couldn't describe how it feels but the pain was as if i'm really being stabbed by a sharp object into my heart! I can't stop tearsing on my own....no one knows about it again. I can't...and i can't let go my hands off you at all!

It was stated clearly all this while "i can't let go my hands off u.." and i really can't and won't too. Why? I realise i love you too deeply! Even no matter what had happened in the past or present, you're always the one that i love most! No one would ever know how much is my love to you. I know i have hurt you and left scars in your heart, but i'm sure time could heal the pain and the scars, the scars won't be seen so obvious too especially when "love" is filled back with "no more hurt". You told me you misses those time too, and it takes time to get it back! Then you also told me we could get things back but not so soon...i really do not mind to wait, as i wouldn't wanna have anymore! I'd enough, and u're the only one i wanted! The one and only that i love so much and the one and only who is willingly to love and cared for me so much! And that person is you! Now i'm losing you...and you hated me so much! I don't know how to hold you back...but all i've been doing is jz to get you back even no matter what it is! I love you!! I really love you with all my heart! I don't mean to hurt you in the past, but i really never hurt you with love before! I wanna get things back by filling u back with all the love i could give to you because i don't want you to leave me! I don't want to lose you! I don't want to lose someone who's really precious to me. I wanted you back, i really wanted you back eagerly! Please don't leave me...i'd learnt my lesson and i'll improve to be a better person. I really couldn't let u go at all! I love you too deeply...

It tears not only physically, i could even feel it in my heart tearsing! The pain can't be described at all! I only hope you could let me see you..i really miss you very much! I can't stand soon...i'm really feeling like collapsing soon. I need you so much, i'm willing to change, i'm willing to improve to be a better person, i wouldn't want any others too but only you. tHe only chance that i've been asking all this while, i would change everything back with no repeating of historY! Speaking out seems easy, but allowing me to proof to you is what i wanted now. I really need you very much baby...don't go anymore further, i'm really lost and collapsing...

You said to give us time to get things back, please give us time to get back. Don't run any further, can we try to get it back at the right track!? I'm willing to make the 99steps out of 100 for you! Please don't leave me, i need you very much! I miss the moments very much really, i will get it back! I will get it back as soon as you give me this chance! I miss the moments of holding your hands, i miss hugging you in my arms, i miss your smile...and i really really miss you very much! I wanted us to get back together. Don't avoid from seeing me please, it's very suffocating! You said to me you wanted to asked me out before last weekend, it's really a beginning for us to get back! Don't feel guilty, never feel guilty too, it wasn't your fault, it was mine, i know it now, i will change and i need you so much that's why you shouldn't be avoiding from me. In fact, i've always be the one who has been trying to avoid from meeting you although i wanted to because i afraid you may turned around and walked off in another direction. I'm really afraid...you're the one and only who loves and cares for me, i need you back baby, and i'll do more than before filling you with more than jz love and care but more love and more care! I'm really sick God....please help me! Please tie up the knot and let us continue with laughter and more greater happiness! I promised to my words, i'll make it a reality! I only wanted you back afterall...i love you baby....

p/s: "Tears every night made me suffer for depression, tears ever night made me miss and love you even more...baby, please give me another chance!"

-[aLbY]-

Miscellaneous...

I realized something on Earth, some human being are really just being not honest enough especially among your friends. Maybe it's a good thing, or maybe it's a bad thing, but to me, when i found out something in the end knowing that my friend is actually hiding something behind the scene that's what i really dont like. Although we isn't that close, but i guess that friend of mine knew something had happened and so he didnt being direct to say out the truth jz like when u said u went for movie with friends, in fact those friends are actually friends that u know and it happen that the friend who told you that he went for movie with friends. I guess there's no need to hide anything at all, maybe to not to remind me of something, but i guess it isn't the best way when i found out the truth, i felt i was being sTABBED! Treating your friend good isn't really a good thing at times. I was told to treat others good and others would treat you good in return, but i guess after all this experiences i've gained, i don't think its necessary for me to be that good anymore. Thats why right now i'm pain in the ass ON MY OWN! No one would bother how would i feel, how depress am i, how suffocating am i or how lost am i! This is gonna be the biggest trauma i ever had in life, it'll probably change me to someone else but who knows...afterall, being so truthful isn't a really good thing too, i found out i tell people the truth, people may not tell me the truth, better words to say I WAS CHEATED BLINDLY! This is what happened to me when i've FRIENDS who treated me like this! This is jz so pain cause i'm not in a good condition for long and i'm still in the shit life where things around me are getting worsten day by day! C'mon, am i really a f*cking assh*le who doesn't deserve to have truthful friends or to be loved by someone whom i've always been loving so much and never had fool "u" beforE? Is this a sin of what i did during my past life and now i'm gonna have the suckiest life ever? Is this what i should deserve? I'm so depressed right now....i'm sick now, i couldn't get into a good rest at all! Even a nap also i couldn't make it! WTF is going on with my life? Can somebody jz hit me and let me die off with no worries? I'm in a terrible situation now...i really need something back to make me ALIVE! I'm really gonna collapse soon...sigh!

What a disastrous night . . . .

I've gotta say it isn't my day at all! Everything didn't turned out well! Night thought of going out for a drink while borrowing my sister's laptop to do some assignment as well. When everything was confirmed in the night, my sister had drove my car out, then my parents drove my sister's car out and left my dad's car only. So i drove his car out and what happened was I ALMOST DIED IN AN ACCIDENT! What a night...what a disastrous and bad night! Was driving all the way down the hill near Bukit Jalil, there was a traffic light and i was the 4th car after the Saga! So at the traffic light, there shouldn't be any U-turn at all and guess what? This bastard went to make a dangerous illegal U-turn! All of a sudden he breaked and made a turn and stopped HALF WAY! C'mon use your bloody brain ok, it was green light and most of the cars were speeding down the hill! And you were so great there making an illegal U-turn and stopped half way?!

The car behind the Saga was those 4WD Pajero and he didn't really notice till the Saga stopped then he avoid all of a sudden and break slowly, cars behind his all slowed down the speed including my car! So behind the Pajero that car was shocked and slowed down too, then the car in front of my car which is the Gen2 BREAK SO SUDDEN and he ALMOST STOPPED HIS CAR TOO! I was shocked and break my car, almost break all but not all yet, the car at the back was far away speeding down, it was a Wira and it almost BANG ME TERRIBLY FROM THE BACK! Thank God that Wira avoided my car fast then i was looking at the back mirror and then looked back to the front and was shocked and STEPPED ON THE BREAK WITH ALL I COULD till the car SKID!! Luckily my dad's car jz sent for service and the break was repaired as well, the ABS worked well! I thought i almost crashed on the Gen2 AGAIN! It reminded me of the bloody accident i'd last year, crashing 3-4 of my friend's cars and if it happened again tonight it'll be 6cars all along! MY Gosh!!!~ This was fine, then as i by pass the bloody car, every car honk his car and i was cursing there as well till i didn't notice there was a rock by the side and jz went over it! I could feel that my driver's front tyre isn't well anymore! I was about to fetch my friends that time, so the first passenger wasn't that far away, so i went to his place and stopped by there to check my tyre, IT WAS FLATTEN! OMG! I was so shock and afraid to be screwed up terribly by my dad!

In the end, i called him and told him about it, he was fedup and never really screwed me up but asked me to change the tyre by myself. So i did it with Wee Haw! It took us 45mins to change a tyre! GOsh...luckily everything was at the booth! Couldn't really take the tyre out that moment, i called Edmund to come over to lend a hand! Then everything went fine, around 11.30pm only i fetched Isaac then went for a drink meeting up with Abby till 1++am!

Sigh...what an unlucky day and night! My life is really hopeless and shitty now! I don't know how worst would it become after this...I'm feeling the loneliness in me, i'm feeling depress, i'm feeling lost...and i'm feeling restless of my life now. God, please save me! I need you so much to save everything back...and i only wanted u back... :'(

-[aLbY]-

L O S T . . .

Recently, i begin to felt lost! There's something which belong to me seems moving further and further away from me. I'm feeling lost, i'm really feeling very lost! I'm losing something which have been very precious to me, something very meaningful and something which means alot to me in my life. I can't do anything to help, i can't even say a single thing to help but can just wait for you. I can't stop thinking of those days, i can't stop telling myself how much i love you and i don't wanna lose you too. It's difficult now, it's different now, everything seems unstable and confusion seems still going on too. I don't know what shall i do to get you back but all i know is i've never give up before and i'm still waiting for you...i remember the song "reunited", you told me that it's one of the song you liked because the lyrics is meaningful! I've been hoping for the song title to appear now, i'm still waiting and i've never give up before too! Loving you is what i've most precious in my life, but hurting you isn't what i wanted too. Sorry seems to be the hardest thing to be accepted but i've always been sincerely seeking for apologies from you and i really hoped "reunited" does mean something to us now. I'll improve to be a better person and wouldn't hurt you in anyway anymore as long as love still does exist in our heart. For you, for our love, i chose to be with you and love you even more! Don't go, don't leave, don't dump me because i'll change and appreciate you. Don't ignore, don't runaway, don't be afraid of me anymore...i've known my mistakes and i've been suffocating without your love, without your presents in my life. It's dull, it's dark, it's really really lonely without you now. I want, i want you back baby, please forgive me and let me fill you back with colors...



I was a fool to ever leave your side
Me minus you is such a lonely ride
That breakup we had
Has made me lonesome and sad
I realize I love you
'Cause I want you back
Hey, hey

I spent the evening with the radio
Regret the moment that I let you go
Our quarrel was such
A way of learning so much
I know now that I love you
'Cause I need your touch
Hey, hey

(Chorus:)
Reunited, and it feels so good
Reunited, 'cause we understood
There's one perfect fit
And, sugar, this one is it
We both are so excited
'Cause we're reunited
Hey, hey

I sat here, staring at the same old wall
Came back to life just when I got your call
I wished I could climb
Right through the telephone line
And give you what you want
So you would still be mine
Hey, hey

I can't go cheatin', honey; I can't play
I found it very hard to stay away
As we reminisce
On precious moments like this
I'm glad we're back together
'Cause I missed your kiss
Hey, hey

(Repeat chorus)

Lover, lover, this is sudden love
And you're exactly what I'm dreamin' of
All through the day
And all through the night
I'll give you all the love I have
With all my might
Hey, hey

(Repeat chorus)

-[aLbY]-

Life is not easy...

Well, this blog was created for myself to say or spill all i wanted daily no matter it's happy or unhappy. It all started in year 2004 onwards, i was an active blogger, keeping my blog update with pictures and long granny story of what i've been doing in my daily life! Indeed, it was pretty known blog that has most pictures in it among my friends! There and then, as i grew, i begin to be more secretive, keeping things in myself but not expressing much in the blog anymore. Mystery i would say it, some posts are really a mystery to the readers. I can't express it out anymore because i guess i could solve them by myself without expressing out. Some are really personnel, therefore, it's not revealed!

I'm 20 this year, finally i've joined the family of 20s! I grew and changed alot compared to the olden days. Good or bad, everything is reality now. Ups and downs appears quite often in our daily life but lately, the amount is really enormous. I have been in dilemma, and having a hard time, or known as distraught or depression more likely. This is life, i know, it isn't easy, but i won't give up things unnecessarily too! No matter what it is, i do not really give up things that easily! I can say nothing really easy in life besides you putting effort in achieving the goal! I'm having a hard time now which i'll still not give up! Although it seems easing off from my path but i'm holding it back tightly with confidence(trying to gain!)! I believe with what i've said, it could open up the "mystery box" and think positively, it'll surely bring the colors back! Trust me, this is the key word! Trust is vital!

All i can do is not giving up but continue approaching till miracle happen. Although it rarely happen, but i'll give it a try no matter what. It has nothing to do with immaturity but its a motivation to increase the confidence to stand up back! I'm sure and very sure that things would work well if it's applied with what i've said. I really mean it. We gotta practice and learn together to enhance or reach to another stage.

p/s: "Let me hold u tight, i'm not as it's thought really! I ♥ you!!~"

-[aLbY]-

Another nice song . . . .

Di wajah curiga
Dan nada resah
Dirasa berbeza
Terima segala

Jika terlafaz kata
Saat kita bersua
Dalam berbicara

Mendung berlabuh
Dan terbuka di hati sayu
Bertabur dan berlalu

Oh.. debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintaku
Yang luka semula

Tiada kuduga
Akhirnya cinta
Didalam senyuman
Dikau hancurkan
Impian yang terlerai
Nyata satu persenda
merantai di jiwa

Debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintamu
Yang luka semula

Kini kau tinggalkan
Diriku ini
Terbawa pergilah
Debu-debunga
Cinta

Di hati sayu
Berdebu dan berlalu
Debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintaku
Yang luka

Terbuku dihati sayu
Bertemu dan berlalu

Oh...Debu-debu nan pilu
Pergilah bersama rinduku
Tinggalah cintamu
Yang luka semula
_____________________________________________________________________________________

Here's another beautiful song! It makes me recall alot of things, alot of the past...i really miss it very much! How good if i could go back to the past and stop the time from continuing...'reflection' should be the word! Not to say im a dreamer or being childish to think of the past, but human does think of the past! Knowing that it was a happy moment that time, for sure one will reflect of their past no matter it's happy or unhappy. That's all for tonight..thanks for the song Ian bro!~

-[aLbY]-

Feeling........uneasy, unhappy, uncomfy...

There's no way much more having such feelings when you've lost the key for a lock! It's so heartbreaking of losing the key because the lock will never be opened unless you broke it! To me breaking the lock means the same as breaking my heart! It's one of my gift for my 20th birthday! Now i've lost the key to open the gift, i'm feeling down, very down now...there's an alternative way to open the lock, the owner of the lock has the key, but how am i suppose to tell the owner that i've lost the key when the owner gave me the key with the lock that moment? I'm really sorry...i'm feeling useless for myself, i'm feeling unhappy, i'm feeling weak and heartbreaking!! Nothing can cure, nothing can really cure...i'm feeling restless! Please...i need you! I need the key or else...guilty and regret will be engraved in my heart forever!

Dedicated for the key of the lock...



-[aLbY]-

LMAO . . . .

LMAO #1


Gosh, NOT AGAIN???? When i came back home, i was shocked to see my chair is brokedown AGAIN at the kitchen! Again.....by my lovely bro! Hahahah may U REST IN PEACE my lovely chair! :P thought i could get a new chair, but my parents said they're gonna repair it AGAIN! Sigh....here's another picture of the "corpse".



LMAO #2


C'mon people, trust me! This is only a very soft dropping on the ground and it broke into two! Yes, it's DEFINITELY NOT NOKIA phone hahaha it's a Sony Ericson W850i!!! My best buddy dropped it on the ground in his room and it broke into 2 pieces now! What a fragile phone!!! :P here's another good one...hahahha



This time i could critic Sony Ericson with this proof! :P that's all for the day! Keep visiting my blog ya...!!!~ :)

-[aLbY]-

Old story . . .

Before i went out this evening, my dad suddenly told me that my car's passenger sit lock was broken! Come to think about it, the last time my car was broken it was at SS2! That's when i didnt even realise that the car was broke in not till i fetched Carter back home! And now only someone realized that my car was really broken in! The lock's pussy was broken! SHIT!!! Never even realise that the passenger sit lock was broken also! For so long....!!!??? Sigh...gotta get it repair ASAP! People outside, better not to put ANY belongings on any of your vehicle's sitting else you'll end up something like my case!

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A sudden change . . .

Tuesday night, it was the night where the sudden change begin. It was very torturing, very torturing i suppose. Human does mistakes, everyone does mistakes and i make mistakes too but this time, i made one of the biggest mistake at the wrong time. Everything changed the moment the mistake was done. It hurts so much when i've been happy all the time even a few minutes before the mistake was made and everything changed...very sudden! Depression begin haunting me, i'm weak, i'm strengthless, i'm afraid...!!! I never mean to create the problem by intention. I never even thought it would be that severe too. It's suffocating! I really hope i could turn the time back and not becoming like this. I'm feeling so lonely in the dark, i begin to afraid of the dark now...seeing something that reminds me of what happened that night really kills me. Tears flowing non-stop every night....i can't bear with the pain. It's too hurting, i don't hope it to happen & don't want it to be like this too, i'm sorry...i'm really sorry...

Disturbia . . . .

Yea the heading is "Disturbia". I can't say that I'm happy recently. Many things had happened, I'm disturbed by it. Worries, emotional and even physically upset too! Thats the definition of what disturbia means and I have it all right now! Worries have been haunting me when silence came into the scene, don't know whether is it right or wrong also! Emotional is even worst still, having any free time, worries came into the scene, emotional will appear and I dont know what to do to keep worries and emotional away! Anytime, anywhere emotional will just came into me right now. What about physical upset? I may seems happy laughing around recently, but in me, I've worries that makes me emotional! When I'm emotional, physically I would look tired and dull. It's obvious thru the pictures I taken this few months time. My sister just mentioned to me last night after looking at some photos taken lately, she realizes that my eyes are tired when I take photo. She said I dont look energetic in the photos anymore, she said I looked tired and the photo outcome isn't nice anymore. I reckon I really need more rest already. Else I will look like a very old folk and by that time, I afraid no one would like me anymore because from the physical look, I'm not likely to be seen as a 20year old semi-adult anymore...

My Valentine . . . . .

If there were no words, no way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears, no way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for all you give to me
You've opened my eyes, and shown me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart until the end of time
You're all I need my love my valentine

(La la la la la la la)

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
Cause all I need is you my valentine
Oh, you're all I need my love my valentine
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Specially dedicate this song to whomever who's reading this post...there's nothing much to write, but i just wanna allow whomever who visit my blog to listen to this sweet meaningful song only...enjoY!!~

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